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Today we are going to continue our discussion of the 13th century and courtly love, but we are going to go back in time a little bit to a person by the name of Guilhem in the 11th century, who was the seventh count of Poitiers and the ninth Duke of Aquitaine. He was the most powerful nobleman in Western Christendom and very influential in the development of this entire idea of courtly love which we are exploring.

He fought against the church doctrine that the fires of hell were stoked especially hot for adulterers. He apparently liked his ladies and he wrote love poems. He argued that love was an exultation, not an abasement of the soul. It was not a sordid sin but a divine mystery and the lady who offered that special gift was a goddess to be adored and worshiped.

He basically proclaimed that sexuality elevated the soul and what he was doing was bringing Tantric philosophy into the Western world. This is one of the first appearances of the sacredness of sexuality and it became a favorite theme of scholars, singers and poets.

Now remember this was during the time of the Crusades and the man of the house was gone. The ladies were lonely and they needed some way to spend their time so they wanted to hear love songs that were meaningful to them. And gradually a convention, or a script came into being, which was of a great lady who fell in love. She was loved by a romantic hero of the lower class and this romantic hero struggled to become worthy of her and win her love. In the end he did win her love. That story was repeated over and over and over in many variations through the centuries and it still is today.

It was a couple generations later, in the 12th century that the prerequisites of virtue and chastity were added to this mix. These songs and poems were acted out in the fashionable world of the nobility and they brought courtly love into existence.

It’s just like what happens today when Hollywood creates something and then the general population gets caught up in it and play make-believe acting it all out. That’s what was happening then. But it really caught on! Poets declared that elevating love to the immaculate plane of chastity cleansed their own souls of all carnality and left it free to soar, to lift them up high into the spirit realm.

This was different than the Arab world where a special place was created for women in the harem. But virtue and chastity became the European harem.

The basic story went like this. The heroine was a lady of high and noble birth who was married to a very powerful husband and somehow she was not satisfied. She was missing something in her life, and her lover, who was of a lower stature strove to become worthy of her and finally, at last succeeded in attracting her love. But it had to remain secret. It was a mystery that they both shared and set them apart from other people.

The interesting thing is the power that this theme had among the population because it is still popular today. But back then, the minstrels and the troubadours never sang of consummated love. They only sang of unconsummated love. The chaste love, the kiss, the embrace and modest contact with the nude lover was permitted, but not the final act of consummation.

These are such fascinating things that have metaphysical and Tantric implications. One thing is the love triangle. This is even such a powerful concept that the tarot card of the lovers has three people in it, not just one.

The man has to choose between the angel or the physical woman. There is something in this fantasy of courtly love that satisfied the needs of both the body and the spirit for generations. Even today the love triangle interferes with so many people’s experience of love.

Tantrism teaches about the power in the exchanges of sexual energies and not just about physical sex. An important part of it is talking about chastity, the embrace and the holding back. That’s how the energies develop and strengthen between two people, especially when it’s never allowed to be consummated.

Dion Fortune, the famed occultist, in England talked about the deliberate use of magic by building up those sexual tensions to an electrical point where they were almost unbearable and intolerable. Then they would use those magical energies in a conscious, deliberate way to work magic. This was not sex magic the way it’s commonly thought of. It was actually the tension that was created and not allowed to be consummated.

This tension of sexual energy that’s built up is actually what Tantric teachings are really all about. It is the sharing of these energies on the nonphysical planes, that actually develop the soul. They help to complete a person inside and they allow males and females to become more sexually balanced.

So this idea of courtly love went crazy within the nobility. This was the educated class. This was the higher class and they were tapping into this high form of tantrism even if it was not recognized as such.

But what was happening to the sexuality of the common folk? They were playing the same games, but they were a lot more undisciplined about it and sexuality ran rampant among the common folk. I mean they were just out there having random sex without knowing how powerful it was.

Sexuality was rampant among the entire population and the Church was having a very difficult time with it. It was happening in the monasteries and in the convents. It was happening to the nuns and to the priests and monks.

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We all know the feeling of working hard all day and not getting anything done. At least it seems that way. We don’t need to keep spinning our wheels through ineffective actions. Study the experts and champions to find out how they do it. This is the research part of any goal. Before you can do it your way you need to understand how other people have done it in other ways.

Nature in the evolutionary process explores all possible options. There are no good and evil choices in nature. Everything is explored and success is rewarded. Failure to thrive leads to stunted and abnormal living situations.

We can apply this to our own lives as well. Are we enjoying a rich and rewarding lifestyle that we are comfortable with? Or do we live in stunted and abnormal living situations that are slowly choking our spirit and will to live?

For thousands of years the “Collective Soul” of the human race has worked for the good of the entire human race. This meant holding some people back until the rest of us could catch up. Society and culture had the final word on how far a person could go in life.

With the Internet things have changed. The human race has gone global! For the first time ever you don’t need to have the support of local community to become successful. You can gather the support you need from the far corners of the earth and you can support others as well. We can’t even begin to comprehend just what this means.

There is a level playing field now and everyone has the same chance to make their mark in the world. Politics and social institutions still exist but as dinosaurs that are fast on their way to extinction. People will loose interest in them as they increasingly prove incapable of coping with today’s social problems.

Self-sufficiency and survivalism on an individual basis are going to replace wasteful government handouts. Family is going to take care of family. Local community is going to take care of local community. The solutions to humanities problems are going to appear at the grass roots level or not at all. Those waiting for government bailouts are going to be hurting. The policeman is never there when you need him, but he is there to fill out the paperwork after the fact.

Survivalism doesn’t mean being able to live off the land. It means being secure in your ability to feed and clothe your family and keep a roof over their heads in the winter. It means having a job that is not going away to China or Mexico. It means being able to find a different job if your current one does. Survivalism means physically doing whatever it takes to survive.

This is a time to put down roots so you can be strong and support others when they need you. Keeping yourself strong allows you to be there for others. This is not selfishness. It is staying alive!

Cautiously explore every opportunity that comes your way and test it for response. Putting effort out and not getting anything back is a waste of time and energy. Study the results you do get and refine the process to get even better results.

Long term goals might not bring in immediate money but they should bring in something. My long-term goals are to make a living as a writer. I’m not making much money now and I’m not trying to. My focus is on getting readers. If I was not getting readers I would not continue producing this material.

Success grows out of success not out of failure. Each small success leads to deeper understanding and insight into what changes need to be done next. Everyone has an area in life that is working for them. Expand that area to include others and see what happens. Make your physical actions count!

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During part of my life I worked as an in-home crisis counselor. I would visit families in crisis and try helping them sort the chaos out and find solutions the crisis. Anyone working in this area knows that to be effective it works best if you have gone through similar situations successfully.

This means you can offer insights and suggestions from personal experience and not theory from some book. Fortunately or unfortunately I have struggled through a lot of dysfunction in my life and learned a lot the hard way.

Listening to family members tell their own side of the story made no sense at all. Every family member could justify their own position and say why other family members were at fault.

Time after time the situation would boil down to family members taking unfair advantage and manipulating other family members. People resent being manipulated, especially when it is unfairly done. Educating the family on unfair manipulations and teaching them healthy alternatives was an important part of resolving crisis.

The other factor was when family members would say one thing and their physical actions said another. Sometimes things were so bad that I couldn’t tell who was lying and who was telling the truth. Everyone was very convincing.

That’s when I told people to shut up. I was not interested in hearing reasons why things went wrong. I was only interested in physical actions and physical results. Who did what to who? I didn’t need to know why. Child abuse or Parent abuse both happen. There are ways to get what you want without being abusive. There are ways to fight fairly and maintain self-respect and self-esteem. There are ways to create win-win situations. Abuse is abuse and needs to be confronted. It can never be justified.

In my own life I confronted the same weakness. I talk a good show and my actions are not always backing up what I say. In retrospect I will talk a lot about what I am going to do, perhaps more than I should until people think I’m a windbag. But I reach a point where I will actually do it.

Writing is a perfect example. Since high school I said I was a writer and wanted to write books. I got into arguments and debates with other friends that wanted to be writers too. When I experienced my first heartbreak I did write some teenage angst poetry but that was it. I wanted to be a writer but I was not writing anything.

The desire to write would come and go in spurts. At the age of thirty I took some writing courses and completed the assignments graduating from the courses with honors but still not writing on my own. At the age of forty I seriously tried writing my first two books, OAK:Foundations and OAK:Magister Templi.

I finished them as rough drafts and called it good enough. Several years later I realized my wife was right. They were not readable. I still was not writing other stuff. I remained a writer that would not write. Consider Stephen King. He began writing as a teenager and continued all through his life. Many people think you need to begin when you are young or it won’t work. They forget Edgar Rice Burroughs was forty when he began writing the Tarzan books.

I was getting old and still hadn’t produced much of anything. Was I lying to myself? In a way yes and in a way no. I thought I knew what writing was about but I really didn’t. In this respect I was lying to myself.

It was only when I turned forty eight and took three months off to write Anarchist Knight:Apprentice that I finally understood. Almost two years later I was holding the first copy in my hands. I never dreamed how much work it was to write a book and I never knew how rewarding it was.

There is a big difference between saying you are a writer and actually being a writer. For forty some years I was kidding myself about being a writer. It is only now that I understand the easy competence of writing something every day. Today for the first time I can say with honesty that I am a writer.

It was the same in families I was working with. Many family members were kidding themselves as well. They were saying one thing and not following through on their promises or agreements. It is better not to make a promise or agreement then to break it. It sounds so simple but these families simply needed to be reminded to keep their promises and agreements. They also needed to learn about being fair and allow win-win situations without trying to manipulate each other to get their own way.

Sometimes it helps to have someone tell us that we are not doing the things we say we are doing. This means confronting us and making us confront ourselves.

What are you doing to make your life better and richer? What are you doing to make your relationships with loved ones better? What are you doing that makes life meaningful and worthwhile? Are you taking the physical actions needed or are you lying to yourself?

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In other material I’ve covered the first four types of cellular life. These were each created from one of the four parts of sine wave energy. The first type of life was vegetable life, the second animal life, the third reptile life and the final type of cell formed the origins of insect life.

In living organisms these form the basis of the respiratory system(plant),circulatory system(animal),nervous system(reptile) and the digestive system(insect). These four types of life are symbolized as the four Archangels that stand before the throne of God. Each one of us has a soul that originated from one of these four Archetypes.

Ancient wisdom states we belong to one of these four groups and must find our own soul group. In the caste system these are the castes of Priest, Ruler, Warrior and Healer.

The Priest is absorbed in our connection with light and he or she channels that energy to the rest of the world. It is the Priest that attains cosmic consciousness and learns the will of God and Goddess. He will give needed council to the ruler as needed.

The Ruler is absorbed in the administrative tasks of the human collective. She organizes and directs needed activity and disciplines wrongful actions. She represents the hierarchy within the human race. This is especially true of a Matriarchal system.

The Warrior serves the Ruler and carries out her will in all things. His aggression and courage ensure that her will is supreme. He is the Rulers mate and his ferocity matched her own. His is the will to live and survive no matter what. He does what needs to be done.

The Healer is today’s scientist and doctor. She uses technology to heal the world and the human race. It is her task to heal the mess the other three create and form a united symbiotic system out of them all. She completes the circle of life even as the Ruler creates it.

In terms of the Holy Guardian Angel and the Shadow the Priest finds its Shadow in the Warrior and the Ruler finds her Shadow in the Healer and vice versa. The Warrior finds his shadow in the Priest and the Healer finds her Shadow in the Ruler.

In becoming complete each soul must become either Priest/Warrior or Ruler/Healer. They will find their soul mate in the others. The Priest/Warrior will find his soul mate in the Ruler/Healer and she will find him when the time is right.

The first step is to find what soul group you belong to and perfect that training and skill. Then connect with your Shadow aspect and develop that as well. This is the underlying basis of all occult and metaphysical literature.

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The King of Wands is related to other cards in the Tarot. He contains the essential elements of THE FOOL, THE HIEROPHANT, THE LOVERS, STRENGTH, THE WHEEL OF FORTUNE, and JUSTICE.

The King is also related to the ACE, TWO, and THREE of Wands. The King represents a real person, perhaps someone you know. The other cards are powers or tools he uses in special ways.

His Element is FIRE. He controls the power of light and electricity. Each of these things should be placed somewhere on his card to show his association with them. When he gets going and is in his element his personality is very intense and electric. Think of your favorite college professor or teacher.

The King of Wands has attained the highest levels of spiritual accomplishment and is one of the guiding forces of the “collective soul” of humanity. He is a spiritual teacher and has attained cosmic consciousness or oneness with the universe.

Illuminations cause him to trust the voice of his own conscience more than mental reasoning and he is a natural mystic.

His physical body is pulsing with life energy.

This is a person able to keep his head when others are losing theirs. His training allows him to escape old behavior patterns and develop new ways of doing things. He does this through an uncanny ability to see the big picture. This is a person that walks his own path.

He has a positive yet realistic conception of the world and resists the negative qualities of life. In love relationships he encounters barriers and frustrations with wild ups and downs because his emotional armor and defenses get in the way. He has trouble expressing his emotions and tries to retreat into his head.

The phrase “so heavenly bound that he is no earthly good” could describe him and his passion for the spiritual side of life. Wands is spiritual energy and he is the master of it. He might very well need help with the more mundane aspects of life and living.

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This continues my story of the development of the OAK magical system. I had crossed the great abyss and merged with the godhead in bliss and joy. I had returned to Source! But it seemed that Source was now gently pushing me away!

I tried to understand what was happening to me and the only material available was by Aleister Crowley and the Golden Dawn materials. As soon as I began to study them I had a vivid dream where I encountered Aleister Crowley and he led me to a book and said that I should read it. As soon as I grabbed onto the edges of the book to read it he began to laugh and said that if I ever let go of it I would die! I shouted “No!” and slammed the book shut. Instantly my lower astral bodies caught on fire and were destroyed. This was the spiritual death. In horror I climbed higher and higher, back across the abyss and sheltered in the godhead. All my other astral bodies were gone, completely destroyed and only my awareness remained in this one bubble of light that remained safely across the great abyss. I had no astral body. I was simply a ball of light that was aware.

Once I realized that I was safe I began the slow tedious task of rebuilding all my astral bodies from the top down. I began with the OAK energy ball meditation which opened energetic channels and assisted the healing process. My life was a mess (as happens when one crosses the great abyss) with my marriage destroyed and being forced into bankruptcy while at the same time leaving the Airforce and moving back to Minnesota.

I had studied the works of Mantak Chia and began working with the development of sexual energies. It didn’t take long to realize that working with sexual energy twice a day led to powerful results and I continued pushing that process for the next seven years as intensely as I could. I knew that working with sexual energy was driving a massive healing process that I needed and I wanted it to be over as quickly as possible.

Twenty years later I can say that I never imagined the process would take so long or be so energy intensive. But I began to be drawn into what I have called soulmate cycles with other women that would result in the creation and development or birth of new astral bodies for both of us. At the conclusion of the process we would be forcibly split apart because of life conditions and not being able to continue the development of the relationship. The spark of love and energetic attraction that had fired the relationship died.

As I went through these cycles propelled by my working with sexual energies my astral bodies were recreated one after another from the top down. This was a slow and difficult process.

I continued to study the works of Aleister Crowley and read all of them as well as all the Golden Dawn material that I could find. I tried to contact the OTO so that I could join them and got SOTO instead. SOTO would accept me but demanded I tithe 10% of my income to them. Since I wasn’t working anyway I agreed. They told me to send two passport photos of myself, a front shot of my face and a side shot. I had the photos taken and sent them, but I sent three photos. The photo machine took two side shots, one from the right and one from the left. I sent both.

Suddenly I woke up one night in the deepest pain as if my throat had been slashed by a razor. It took some time for the pain to go away and in horror I realized that my astral bodies (I had recreated four of them at the time) had been attacked. My astral head was severed from my astral body on my left side, but my right side remained intact. That’s when I realized that the only thing that had saved me was sending that third photo! I told them that I was quitting. They said I couldn’t quit because I had already been initiated! I did anyway and a massive energy explosion attacked me which I sent back by tapping into Source energy. I know that someone felt that return of energy!

I finally got hold of the real OTO and corresponded briefly with Bill Heidrick. I shared what was going on and these “scarlet woman” cycles or “soulmate” cycles that I seemed to be going through. He affirmed that I had crossed the great abyss and could only offer his condolences as I was now exploring the mysteries of sorrow and the grade of magister templi. Through him I was able to connect with a valid OTO group several states away and began corresponding with them.

Bill Heidrick had shared with me that once my system of magic was complete (the Dewey Larson reciprocal theory) it needed to be harmonized and integrated into the Kabbalah. I needed to do this through the use of antimonies or opposites. So I began a serious study of the Kabbalah. I laid out all 120 layers of the astral planes and began superimposing the Kabbalah on top of it. It was pretty simple to place the sephiroth, but some of the other paths were not that easy. Then I took every other known magical system that I could find and placed it upon my growing chart as well. This included the angels, the four elements, the Golden Dawn material, the stages of alchemy, the lunar cycle, the solar cycle and even the i ching. I also placed the stages of ego and spiritual development and then reversed them as well to represent male and female experiences. These were all laid out as the 120 layers of the astral planes. I then took the Enochian system of elemental watch towers and created four new elemental watch towers using the 120 sparks of awareness.

Then I took this whole mess and began creating a deck of tarot cards out of it! That original master chart has long since disappeared but my version of the tarot deck remains. You might call it a higher octave of the old kabbalah. The old kabbalah no longer works because it has been shorted out. You might say that it still works, but not in the same manner as it did before. So the OAK Tarot Of Love And Romance remains the most complex and integrated system of magic that I have ever created. I did artwork for the trumps but not for the lower cards.

I felt that you could not truly understand the significance of the OAK Tarot cards until I shared this!

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As I begin to post about the OAK Tarot Of Love And Romance I realize that I need to share some things so that people can understand what these cards really represent and how they were developed. That will require this post and the next one called “SOTO and the OTO”. So bear with me, this information is a little sensitive.

But first I would like to say that Organic Gnosticism has evolved out of the OAK magical system over the years and my understanding of things has simplified down to the point that I now believe the development of the soul and its powers is achieved simply through intense human and physical effort. The physical body generates energy and sends it out into the universe where it first connects with collective opposite sex energy and comes back to form a composite spark of awareness. Simply put you give and give until your energy starts coming back to you.

At some point this collective opposite sex energy is replaced by soul mate or divine counterpart energy which permanently seals and activates that individual spark of awareness and integrates it into your developing soul. This needs to be achieved for all 118 sparks of elemental awareness plus another spark of awareness for rotating magnetic field energies and another spark of awareness for the photon state itself. There is nothing to distinguish one spark of awareness from another and the process is entirely mechanical in nature.

To put my current understanding in one sentence, “All effort is cumulative!”

These 120 (118+2) sparks of awareness and energies also create Gaia’s new energy grid. In other words Gaia’s new energy grid consists of these same energies and these are the original blueprint that has always existed. So the old original blueprint is being restored in the new great cycle. This is a massive project that many light workers have been busy with.

Having said all that I can now return to my story of the development of the OAK magical system. The first part of my life was spent in a spiritual searching for mystical experiences and a merging of my soul with God. I joined the Rosicrucian Order AMORC at eighteen and remained a member for over twenty five years studying weekly monographs. While I lived in Phoenix I was able to attend lodge meetings and participate in initiations and demonstrations. At that time I had completed all 12 degrees and had restudied all of them at least three times, some as many as six times. I was thoroughly grounded in the material compared to other members that may have read them once. So that was twenty five years of mystical study, prayer and meditation. But I was doing much more than that during those twenty five years!

I devoured all the New Age material available at the time. I collected and read all the books of the Theosophical Society including the secret fourth book of the Secret Doctrine by Blavatsky. I became interested in astrology and studied that as well as any variant forms of Rosicrucianism that I could find. Other fantastic resources came out in the 80’s and I was heavily influenced by Jane Roberts and her Seth materials. I devoured her two volume “The Unknown Reality” as if it was candy. Dick Sutphen was exploring the outer edges of self empowerment and I spent hundreds of dollars on his materials. He in turn introduced me to NLP or Neuro Linguistic Programming. I still have over six books on my reference shelf that I will never give away. Channeling by Cosmic Awareness Communications further expanded my horizons and led me to the discovery of the Ra Material and through that to the Reciprocal field theory of Dewey Larson.

The Reciprocal field theory of Dewey Larson laid out the creation of the entire universe through the development of the photon, magnetic field energies and all 118 elements much as I have described them. It was his work that offered a physical space/time universe and a reciprocal non-physical or astral time/space universe that were connected together through the speed of light.

I instinctively knew that he was right and the illuminations and insights formed the bulk of the posts that you are now reading. These came from my first two books “Modern Survivalism” and “Magister Templi”.

The spiritual effort that I was putting out was immense and in 1990 my awareness plunged across the great abyss for the first time and my soul merged with the godhead in a feeling of bliss and rapture. This was the end of my spiritual journey because no matter how hard I tried to go further into the spiritual light and extinguish myself, I was always gently pushed back. With horror I found that my polarity had flipped and my insights and illuminations were returning back across the abyss and down into the mental levels. It’s not that I was being forced out of the spiritual levels, but that there was no more activity at those levels. The activity was working itself back down toward the earth.

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