Archive for May, 2021

Fear, Scary, Creepy, Evil, Ghost, Darkness, Gloomy

In my last post I talked about some personal experiences that I had while in the normal waking state that possibly included paranormal consciousness at the same time. In this post I will speak of some personal experiences while in a wide awake state while meditating or projecting my awareness as opposed to the dream state or lucid dreaming. These would be a range of experiences on the astral/etheric planes while meditating or projecting consciously.

The ultimate purpose of these posts is to show that this path has been known and taught by various traditions for thousands of years. There is nothing new here, but not very many have traveled this path. It is known but not well traveled. It begins with crossing the Great Abyss which happened to me back in 1991. I’ve already written quite a bit about this, but the main point is there are a couple types of awareness beyond that of logic and reason. The first is archetypal awareness or intuitive awareness or self-evident awareness. At this level you simply know things and become aware of things through personal illuminations. An even higher level of consciousness is that of Unity consciousness or Cosmic Awareness where the individual merges and blends with all that is. Where all becomes One and I call that the level of the photon or light itself.

The point is that once you have crossed the Great Abyss nothing can really hurt you or your soul. You always have that place of safety where awareness can go where it cannot be harmed in any way even if the lower levels are destroyed. So once I crossed the Great Abyss and had permanently activated three or four astral bodies I did lots of stupid stuff just because I could get away with it.

Through projection I would astrally explore the egregores of various magickal and spiritual traditions with impunity. I could get through the defenses by being above the Abyss. I explored the egregore of the Golden Dawn and discovered that it granted the Golden Armor of God as individuals progressed through it. As I astrally explored I too was granted that golden armor. The Arum Solis granted a different type of armor that had scales like those of a dragon. The egregore of Crowley’s OTO was two rectangular columns side by side, one black and one white. These two columns extended from the lowest levels to the highest levels. There was no mixing them, no gray. I explored every egregore that I could think of.

Something interesting happened in that once I had gone through an egregore it marked my astral self permanently. Going through a second or third time did nothing at all. But later, after I had permanently activated another astral body I could take that astral body through the egregore and pick up new material from the lower level. Nothing from the higher levels.

I would check out various individuals as well, and every now and then someone would sense my probe and I would have a full blown magickal attack on my hands. I told you that I did stupid stuff! Most of the time there was no reaction to my probe.

A lady that owned a resort said that it was haunted and wanted me to get rid of the ghosts for her. I said that I would check it out. In checking out the resort I sensed there were two different Native American spirits that haunted the place and didn’t want to leave. I decided to absorb them into my own body. That night I had one of the most vivid and powerful dreams of my life of a ghostly barren landscape of rock and trees without leaves. I was kind of crouched behind a bare bush and the spirit of an Indian went walking past me without seeing me. One hand was shading his eyes and he was searching, searching for something. Searching for home I suppose. It was an eerie, creepy feeling that gave fear at the tailbone. Almost immediately after that another Indian mounted on a white horse rode by and he didn’t see me either. I still remember that ghostly landscape and those two Indians. The lady later reported that the ghosts had returned but were not causing problems like they had been before.

Another story, I was doing crisis counseling work for families and there was a boy that was having a lot of trouble. I decided to investigate astrally and discovered that there was an entity attached to the boy. Once more stupidly I decided to get rid of the thing by absorbing it. That night I learned the true story and it was quite unpleasant. The best friend of this boy that I was trying to help had committed suicide in the home of the boy I was trying to help. He was the one who had found his friend hanging in the bathroom. Anyone that deals with ghosts soon learns that they often have to relive to death experience of the ghost and that is what happened to me. It was an accidental death. The boy had been “playing the game” where one masturbates while being choked to enhance the orgasm and he had blacked out too soon. His ghost or spirit had attached itself to his friend and turned malignant. Of course I couldn’t share that with the family, but the ghost was gone.

When my mother died we all knew in advance that she was going to die and there was a death watch so she wouldn’t die alone. I went home and that morning I suddenly felt that something was wrong. I sat down and meditated or projected to my mother. She was afraid and I held her hand to reassure her as I called in some light beings to help. These light beings came and she went peacefully with them, unafraid. I told my wife that my mother had died and that she was all right. I got in the car and was two miles down the road when my cell phone went off. My mother had just died at the very time that I had been with her! It still makes me feel good to know that I was there for her when she needed me.

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Spirit, Creepy, Halloween, Ghost, Spooky, Weird, Ghosts

It seems time to bring up this subject and it will take more than one post to do it justice. In this post I will only speak of personal experiences that I have had that do not involve lucid dreaming or things while I was asleep. I will share things that I personally experienced while in the waking state even if they might seem subjective. There will be no conclusion and no answers because I may never have answers to some of these experiences.

The first experience to share is related to Rosicrucianism and my connection to the Great White Brotherhood. During my early Rosicrucian studies with AMORC there were several self initiations to mark passage through the different degrees or stages of study. During one of these self initiations a master appeared in my living room and floated about three feet above the floor. He was dressed in a ceremonial robe and was sitting cross legged. He remained there for around a half hour not saying anything but being present. I walked completely around him and observed from every direction. It seemed that I was seeing him with my third eye and not my physical eyes. But it was very real and vivid and there was a lot of energy involved.

Later in another incident this same master introduced me to a group of people that were in the hierarchy. They were above the Great Abyss and part of the Great White Brotherhood. I could understand them but they couldn’t understand me. I still have this connection with these individuals and can tap into them at will. I am one of them. I have earned my place with them. I can sense this connection with these individuals at all times during normal waking hours.

Now for the darker side of things. I was at a house party with a girl friend and we were sitting in the living room during Thanksgiving weekend. There was a blazing fire in the fireplace and about twenty people. Two girls in front of us were drinking rum and using an Ouija board. I was not impressed because I thought it was a stupid thing to be doing. Suddenly the fire flared up as if someone had poured gasoline on it and my friend fell into convulsions shaking in her chair. She was terrified and when I asked her what was wrong she said it felt like she couldn’t breathe. Like she was underwater. Then she said it felt like there was someone inside her. I instantly knew that some type of spirit had taken possession of her and that I needed to help that spirit into the light.

I talked her through the process and helped her to remain calm until the spirit left and entered into the light. In the meantime others in the house were freaking out and watching us. Later we found out that five years earlier a twelve year old boy had fallen through the ice of a pond in the winter and they had not found the body until that spring. It was that boy’s spirit that had come into my friend’s body.

When my wife’s mother was on her death bed her siblings were doing a death watch at the bedside. We traveled two hundred miles to be there and were staying at the apartment of a friend when my wife suddenly went into a seizure and couldn’t move. I asked her what was wrong and she said that her mother was trying to take over her body. Then she said she needed to use the rest room and as I helped her down the hall she was limping like her mother and one side of her face was drooping like her mother’s did after her stroke. Not knowing what else to do I poured my own energy into my wife and tried to fill her with my energy driving out that of her mother. It worked although she still was not able to move on her own and I called an ambulance. The ambulance came and took her to the same hospital where her mother was dying on a different floor. In the meantime my wife had come back to her normal self and was very angry and kept saying that she was alright and there was nothing wrong with her. I advised her to just rest and be patient because she had been brought to the hospital. They could find nothing wrong with her.

In her anger, she took her cell phone and called her sister who was upstairs at the death bed and shouted for her sister to come down and get her out of there because I wouldn’t. As she was yelling at her sister her mother died right in front of her sister.

Things must run in her family because when her father died we were both in the hospital room at the same time. It was the only time I had ever been in a room when someone died. Suddenly I felt her father’s spirit trying to enter into my body and take it over! I was both frightened and angry and just held it at a distance. The spirit was frightened and that was why it wanted into my body. I called out for some angels or light beings to come and help him. These light beings came and took him away peacefully. But it gave me a fright. It was quite unpleasant.

On a totally unrelated note I remember walking along and someone said out loud: “He dares much!” and another voice hushed the first. I heard the voice as if someone was speaking right next to me but there was no one there.

Another sharing comes from one of my soul mate cycles. She had just left and was driving back to the cities where she lived two hundred miles away. She had been visiting my parents and was a friend of the family. I was laying on my bed when suddenly each chakra popped like a flash bulb and my awareness split with part of me still lying in bed and the other part pulled out of my body in an OOBE. But this was a strange OOBE. There was a two inch thick astral cord coming out of the top of my head and that cord was pulling me into the air and behind her car as it went down the road. It was pulling my astral body behind it like a giant balloon! There was no cord attached to my physical body! Then my astral body went into her and down into the earth and then returned through the earth to where my physical body lay in bed.

One final sharing involves the use of an electromagnet that I created to polarize my aura. I created this electromagnet from a large coil of the wire used in electrical house wiring. This wire was wrapped around two large iron bolts that were both around the size of a small basketball. It was set up with a rectifier and when plugged into the house electrical outlet created a strong pulsating direct current with a distinct 60 cycle hum. I placed one of the electromagnets at my feet in the south pole position and one at my head in the north pole position. I could only turn the magnets on for a minute at a time because they became too warm. After one of these treatments I lay down on my bed and suddenly had an OOBE in which my awareness again split with one part remaining in my body and the other turned like a compass needle orienting to the north. But first it wobbled back and forth before settling in its new position. I was laying in the bed with my head to the east at the time.

I share these experiences because they happened while I was wide awake at the time they occurred. They were not visions, meditations or lucid dreams. I will speak of those next.

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Fuchs, Animal, Forest, Wild Animal, Animal Portrait

2020 was a very difficult year for me as I’ve shared previously. In February I lost my father, in May I lost both my wife and my dog and in December I lost my job and retired. That left me with a lot of emptiness, an emptiness that I didn’t know how to fill and because of that emptiness I didn’t get much done.

Three weeks ago I got a new puppy named Valentine. She was born in February and is not yet 4 months old. She completely fills up most of that emptiness right now! I have my hands full and I also have energy to do things once more! She brings me that energy and shares it with me as I share my own energy with her by taking her places and doing things with her. She is a precious gift that will help me to move forward through the remaining years of my life time.

In retrospect it is pretty simple. People, animals and things come into our lives and bring us energy and in return we give our own energy to them. It is the combined result that makes our lives rich and interesting. But there are limits to what we can give and limits to what others can give us. That doesn’t mean that we run out of energy or that others run out of energy. It only means that the catalytic effect is gone and what we can achieve from that point on with that person, animal or thing is quite limited. What they can achieve with us is quite limited as well. In romantic relationships this is when the spark is gone. Many people stay together in meaningful and loving relationships after the spark is gone, but they have shifted their priorities to other things. It is one of the normal stages in a relationship.

This spring a new energy is coming in and we can look to see where and from whom it is coming from. Many of us are creating new energetic connections and those new energetic connections will change our lives! It is more important now than ever to become aware of those things we are attracted to and move toward them, following our own personal inner guidance even when it goes against the norm.

But the entire point of this post is to share that there will always be limits to what can be done and there will always be new sources of energy and interest if we allow them into our lives! Life itself requires motion, growth, excitement and a reason to be alive!

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Fantasy, Surreal, Dream, Dog, Photomontage, Mystical

As many of you know it has been a hard year for me. My father died last a year ago last February and both my wife and my dog Luci died a day a part last spring a year ago. To top that off my work place closed its doors and I was kind of forced to retire or find another job.

So I had lots of empty space to fill and nothing seemed able to fill it. So I waited and kept trying to hold an opening for good things to come into my life. That is how magick works you know. The astral is already completely filled up and the only way for something new is for something to leave, either by physically manifesting or by being destroyed.

So we are taught to give things away, to voluntarily create space for new magick to enter our lives or else we resist and things get taken from us. Probably both happen all the time.

But having such empty space hurts and is not comfortable and it is easy to try to force things. I wanted Luci to come back to me as a new pet and tried five different times to adopt a pet but got nowhere. I was trying to force things. I knew that she was out there because I had dreams of her and dreams of a new puppy. But I was impatient. Thankfully, I also try to listen to my inner voice and didn’t push too hard. Finally I just let it go to be fulfilled in its own way and time.

My birthday was 24 April and the first thing that I did that morning was to apply to adopt Valentine. Can’t really say why except that I knew after my birthday was a good time to advance things in my life and the spring energies were so strong. Then I kind of chickened out and asked about another puppy as well, just in case. Kind of hedging my bet so to speak. But that other puppy was already spoken for and Valentine was meant to come home to me. There were eight puppies in the litter she was born into and she was one of two that were left. The others had already been snatched up. Her mother was rescued from Texas and is a Catahoula Leopard Dog. So Valentine is a mix but I already know that she is extremely intelligent for being only 16 weeks old. She has already dragged her water dish over to me demanding more. She has a map in her head of the park where I take her for walks.

But the point of this post is about filling the empty space and about the energies of spring. Right now I can’t go to my social functions or leave home for an extended time because I can’t leave her alone or she will trash the place. I can’t meditate because she will jump on me or come over and try to play.

Things in my life have shifted and they have shifted drastically, but they have shifted in a good way! Things will calm down as she gets a bit older. But I had my time for meditation and introspection. Now it is time for sharing and taking her on adventures.

This morning she jumped on my lap as I was sitting kind of half awake in my easy chair. She kind of dozed off and I sensed her astral body sitting there on my lap as well! That never happened to me with Luci!

The point of all this is there are permanent changes in my life that are now finding physical expression and some of them are almost overwhelming. But I do believe this is happening all over the world to other people as well. The emptiness is being filled. The changes are going into effect. There will be a bountiful harvest this coming fall! Let us tend to the seeds that we have planted and water them so they grow abundant over the summer months.

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Girl, Beauty, Fairytales, Fantasy, Female, Hair

I Really Did It and Organic Gnosticism Social Groups are now up and running at PaganSpace.net so go and check them out! I would really love to have each of you share your own paths and experiences so that I can learn from them as well! Let’s show the pagans over there what Organic Gnosticism is all about!

https://www.paganspace.net/share/URLOXoAad8Az9R2L?utm_source=manual If you use this link I might even get some referral points! Check it out!

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Here is how my May Day celebration went! This is Valentine, my new companion. I had several dreams about her over the past few months and earlier about Luci so I believe Valentine is an incarnation of Luci come back to me. I know that she was crazy excited and happy to see me! And I her of course! It is a happy day and only proves to me even more that things are planned out in the astral before they happen in the physical.

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