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Magician, Forest, Wolf, Fantasy, Mood, Mystical, Magic

I thought I might do a quick blog sharing some information that might clarify some things I’ve written about lately. Currently I really seem to be exploring some deep astral stuff, and doing a lot of reading. But I’ve also had personal experiences to go by as well. I’d like to share a few astral snap shots just to give an idea of what I’m talking about.

What I’m really trying to do is get a better grasp on what is real and not real in the astral planes. Back when I was living in Phoenix over twenty years ago I tried to make contact with a local Gardnerian Wicca group. I wrote them since there wasn’t email in those days. A few nights later I woke up in fright because there was the heavy weight of a person on my chest! My Gardnerian contact had decided to check me out I suppose…

In any respect I took it as an unwanted personal attack and with my connection to Source I blasted him back to where he came from and had the vivid image of him on all fours on his bed puking at the recoil of energies. I know that these projections have weight because I have experienced them.

In reading “Through The Gates Of Death” by Dion Fortune and the fiction murder mysteries of M. R. Sellars I find the experiences of his character quite believable because I’ve had my own experiences with both the dead and dying. None of them very pleasant. M. R. Sellars describes his character getting sucked into the murder and reliving it so powerfully that he almost dies at times. I can vouch for those types of experiences as well.

With some small differences…his are fictional? Based on what??? I’m certain they are based on some real experiences of his own. When I was working as a family crisis councilor there was a case where a teenage boy was having some real troubles and I astrally tried to tap into what was going on. I discovered that he had an entity attached to him and when I tried to removed it by absorbing it I succeeded in removing it from the teenager but that night I had a horrible nightmare in which I relived the death of the entity just like it was described in M. R. Sellar’s books.

In this case a few years earlier this boy’s best friend had committed suicide at this boy’s house and he had been the one to find him. Because I had to relive the death myself I know exactly what happened and it was an accidental death. The dead boy had been playing “The Game” where he was choking himself by hanging in the bathtub while masturbating and he lost consciousness and died. His friend found his naked body hanging in the bathtub from the shower. The dead boy had attached himself to his friend and several years later was still attached until I severed that connection and helped send his spirit into the light.

As for experiences with the dying, my wife’s mother attempted to take possession of my wife’s body on her deathbed and I’ve previously shared that story. I’ve also shared how her father tried to take over my own body on his death bed. When my own mother died I projected to her and helped her remain calm until I could call in some angels and spirits to take care of her because she was very frightened.

One time I had been messing with a powerful electromagnet that I had devised to polarize my aura and astral bodies. Later I was lying down on the bed with my head to the east when I suddenly went out of body and swung to the north like the needle on a compass and wiggled back and forth until I stopped. It was a very strange experience!

I’ve written about some of my soulmate cycles. During these cycles there are powerful bonds between me and the other person. Once this bond was so strong that while lying down on my bed I felt each chakra “pop” like a light bulb and I was pulled out of body by a strong astral cord about two inches thick coming out of the top of my head and attached to her as she was driving away down the road in her car. I was being towed behind her car like a balloon or blimp. I later returned to my own body via the earth connection.

I can’t even begin to share some of the strange things that I’ve experienced in my life…but I read and do research because I want to understand these things better…these books make it clear that others have had similar experiences and that is important to me.

I hope everyone finds some of my stories of interest…these things are very real to me and I live permanently in two worlds…


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Fantasy, Forest, Magic, Surreal, Artistic, Woman

This will probably be a strange post, but I wanted to share it anyway. I try to be open to the ascension energies and allow myself to be directed by my higher self when possible. In the past two weeks I’ve purchased over $300 dollars of used books for some reason or another. Some of them deal with the subjects of magic, hypnotism and tantric sexuality. Just to give an example I’ve got books ordered on Freemasonry, the Order of the Eastern star, fiction books by Dion Fortune and M.R. Sellars (writer of wiccan fiction), Books about P. B. Randolph (Rosicrucianism and sex magic) books by Marie Naglowska, Russian occultist and sex magic practitioner; and some others I can’t think of right now. Oh, yes, noted occult fiction writere Marie Corelli for one.

Something is trying to make it’s way to the surface of my brain and it’s definitely going to be powerful and interesting. One of the other things I’ve been reading about is what happens at the moment of death. Lot’s of low level astral stuff that’s trying to get through right now for some reason.

I’ve been pretty conversant with hypnotism and NLP or Neuro Linguistics Programming, in fact, I studied NLP quite seriously at one time and have eight books on it. I also know someone that trained to be certified as an NLP instructor several years ago. He once told me about the graduation ceremony they participated in after finishing the certification class. Each member of the class walked barefoot about twenty feet through a path of glowing coals without being injured. He said it was like walking through cool moss. But he also said that one man freaked out and got badly burned. They needed to take him to the emergency room at a nearby hospital.

I was interested and asked him if he thought it was the belief of the entire group that made it possible or if he could still do it on his own by himself. He didn’t know but thought that it was the belief of the entire group that keep them all safe. He didn’t think that he could successfully repeat it on his own.

The fiction of Dion Fortune had some really interesting usages for hypnotism that she described. One use was to hypnotize a member of the secret order and use them as an occult telephone to contact other occult groups around the world. She made it seem quite common.

F.B. Dowd was the head of a Rosicrucian group that was originated by P.B. Randolf. He wrote a fiction story called “The Double Man” that talked about a doctor that used hypnotism to sexually take advantage of a young girl that was in his care. One of the interesting points in the story was that the doctor would never tell the girl his hypnotic suggestions, but she needed to read them from his mind…a very interesting and powerful concept.

The point being that the use of hypnosis apparently led to truly magical phenomenon that defied what we consider within the realm of possibility. These went well beyond what is considered possible with hypnotic suggestion.

Some of these occultists also worked with human sexuality and there were two approaches that differed widely. The first was a sacred use of sexuality that didn’t require physical intercourse, but required spiritual or astral mating instead for the creation of the soul and its powers. Dion Fortune speaks of this type of sexual magic as does wiccan occult writer M.R. Sellars. I will include P.B. Randolf and Marie Naglowska in this category as well which is why I’m drawn to their books on this subject. This type of magic is the basis of the Holy Grail legends. This is the stuff of which soulmates are made.

But the second path is not one that uplifts the soul. Instead it abuses the soul, degrades it and creates victims out of the sexual bonds. It also makes use of physical sexuality of the most depraved kind. Aleister Crowley is an example of this type of sex magician and the women that he worked with suffered mental and emotional breakdowns as the consequence of working with him and being involved with him. This path also made heavy use of hypnosis and suggestion to get results.

So that’s the subject matter, but I haven’t done much research yet. I’m still waiting for some more books to arrive. But I’ve started the process and like I mentioned, something is trying to rise into my awareness, something very important…I will share it when I can…




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International Space Station, View, Space

Wow! Talk about intense energies!¬† As we near the end of the year our supply of spiritual light becomes limited and some even run out…We eagerly await the coming year’s influx of spiritual light and we prepare ourselves to receive as much as we can. At least that is what we should be doing…

Tradition  has this darkest time of the year as quite challenging. Are we experiencing the total collapse of our dreams or will we experience the Christmas miracle at the last moment? Will this be a time of despair or celebration? I can only speak for myself.

But first I would like to share that this year things are affecting me on the physical level, making changes to my physical life and not just my spiritual life. That might sound meaningless to others so I will try to explain.

Back in 1991 I experienced the most profound spiritual experience of my life, the crossing of the Great Abyss and my merging with God or Source. At the time I was totally living in my head and very dysfunctional in physical life. I had lost my connection to earth.

In fact, I had a magickal encounter with the Crowley energies that completely severed my silver cord causing it to erupt in flames and be destroyed. My awareness survived by retreating into the safety of Source where I not only survived but began the process of regeneration and coming back down to the earth planes.

There was an active and dynamic process at work that was sifting through all the levels of my soul, healing and rebuilding them from scratch from the top down. It started with the spiritual energies and gave me spiritual illuminations which helped me to understand archetypal reality. Then it moved down into my mental levels completing my philosophy of life or personal paradigm if you will.

Then the activity began to take place in my emotional levels and continued working downward as it permanently activated my various astral bodies one by one and granted me the ability to permanently live in both worlds, the physical and the unseen astral worlds.

1993-95 were years of almost constant magickal battle as I was almost continuously attacked. I fought back the only way I knew how, by channeling the Source energies in my defense. I studied the kabbalah, and freemasonry. I was initiated into both the York Rite of Freemasonry and Crowley’s OTO. There were life conflicts and I became an over the road truck driver, unable to actively participate in either of these schools. While I was attacked, my connection to Source was my shelter, my armor and my weapon. My world could collapse around me, but I was never in real danger.

I continued to work with the healing energies of Organic Gnosticism and gradually left all these influences behind me. I dropped my life long membership in the Rosicrucian Order AMORC and the Traditional Martinist Order. I also became active in the pagan community as I continued working with the energies of earth and human sexuality. I was interested in these things because they involved the lower astral energies and those were the energies that were active inside me at the time.

But through all these years it was only astral activity and even though it brought the development of my soul and its powers through the permanent activation of my various astral bodies, nothing really manifested in the physical plane. Physical life continued to be a hardship and struggle against unrelenting forces.

The point of all this is that a process that began inside myself over thirty years ago has finally reached the point where no further downward astral activity is possible and physical manifestations are beginning to occur in my life. I am becoming physically empowered and it is pretty nice! Good things are happening and I’m really grateful and looking forward to the coming changes. I’ve been waiting for over thirty years for these things to happen and they finally are…

These past threads of my life are now snapping back together in empowering ways as I’ve reported in past posts. I am being empowered through my past connections as they once more come into alignment with my soul and with Source. I seem to be experiencing the Christmas miracle and my heart is filled with love and good-will for all life. These past areas of conflict have become magically supportive instead.

There has been an ongoing war for this world and I have been caught up in it for many years now. This war has already been won on the astral planes and is only now beginning to manifest physically. I’ve shared over and over again, strive for the goal and don’t fall into the trap of conflict. Conflict is only mutually destructive.

Between now and the winter solstice we will see who is who within our society and around the world. We will see which dreams collapse and which dreams embrace the incoming energies of the new year. We are currently experiencing The Event!




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I’ve been spending a lot of time this past month reconnecting to my past, in particular retracing some of my personal spiritual journey and it continues to take up a lot of my time. As I go back over past material and things I’ve learned I’m looking at all of it with a more experienced eye so to speak. That means I’m more able to sort the wheat from the chaff and really get to the core or heart of things.

None of these spiritual traditions are Organic Gnosticism, yet Organic Gnosticism lies at the very foundation of all of them in the most basic form of all. Organic Gnosticism is the wisdom of life itself and requires no teachings, only the requirement of living a full and complete life in a balanced way! It’s spiritual path is a personal path unique to each individual as they follow the guidance of the Christ spirit within their own hearts. It is a path of accumulated life experience and good-will toward others which includes the full spectrum of what life has to offer.

Perhaps the most dangerous thing I see is how far we as a society and culture have distanced ourselves from the organic reality of physical life and continue to live in our heads. We also have forgotten how important community really is, how important family really is in an organic and physical way. We need to reintegrate our hearts, our emotions and most important our physical reality in the present moment.

So what I’m left with is the importance of good-will to others, the ability to see the divinity within all things and the importance of good actions and good thoughts in the uplifting of the soul. These are all very basic organic things in life and therefore an important part of Organic Gnosticism.

For the past three years I’ve paid for listing a local meetup group in the hopes of attracting local people in my community with the same values and interests that I have. People signed up as members but only two or three ever showed up to meet for coffee…then they too stopped coming…no interest…or not enough interest…

A similar thing happened with online communities like Narrative.org. Everyone is so busy doing their own thing that they have no time for community or collective activities. I’m not saying this is right or wrong…I’m just saying that’s the way things are in today’s world. I would also like to share the obvious, sharing within an online community is not as organic as sitting down across the table having coffee with someone and having a heartfelt conversation. If you have a choice, go with the coffee shop!

The new energies are now in place and its time to begin taking advantage of them! From now on there is only the present moment. What are you doing in the present moment? What opportunities are open to you right now in the present moment? What organic opportunities are open to you in the present moment? How can you share in meaningful ways with others?

I thought that having a Meetup group would provide the organic opportunities to meet other people and make new friends, but it didn’t. There was not enough interest. I even considered joining a local church to connect with others that had similar spiritual values. But that wasn’t really a good fit because my spirituality was of the heart and conscience and not of an external authority such as the Church or the Bible (which I consider to be symbolic and not literal).

I also thought that renewing my MENSA membership would allow me to connect in a satisfying way with others who shared some of my spiritual beliefs and values. To my dismay I found that MENSA groups on Face Book and other online communities were full of head trippers without any meaningful heart connections. They were also very politically correct and simple echo chambers of popular thought. Most were rational atheists that didn’t recognize the spirituality that was so important in my own life. For the most part these people were full of intellectual pride, considering themselves above the common folk. That is not what I was looking for.

So the closest thing to what I desired was the local masonic lodge. The Blue Lodge is the original foundation of Freemasonry with its roots going back to early Christianity around AD 935. It’s requirements are to believe in a Supreme Being, to follow one’s conscience in all things and the importance of community or fraternity and doing good deeds. Let me be specific here. I’m talking about the Blue Lodge of Freemasonry and the Order of the Eastern Star which is for both men and women. I am not talking about higher levels of speculative Freemasonry such as the York Rite or Scottish Rite. I place important distinctions between them.

I’ve shared how the spiritual path is different for males and females, and I’ve also shared how important interaction and relationships between the opposite sexes are in the creation and development of the soul and its powers. In this respect the Blue Lodge and the Order of the Eastern Star are the closest thing that I can find for local and organic interaction that fulfills both of these requirements. They are also found within almost every community! This is why they are both now becoming very important to me in my continued spiritual journey. They provide an organic path of human interaction that is available to me in my local community and I look forward to meeting new friends and sharing a common journey.

I will continue to share my ongoing spiritual journey in future posts for those interested. Making the transition from a purely speculative path (spiritual and philosophical) to an organic (action and experience oriented) is a formidable task because the gap between them is so wide…the key to uniting them lies within our hearts…and within the still small voice of our conscience. It also requires the continued good-will between men and women as they share their respective spiritual journeys.

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