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Women, Light, Body, Young, Girl, Beautiful, Femininity

I was nearing my last three weeks in the Air Force and living in Phoenix. I continued my weekly Alanon meetings and support group activities where I met Martha. I was impressed with her during the meetings and loved chatting with her during the social period after the meetings. But I never really got to know her very well. It was just that out of a crowded room full of people she was the one that I was drawn to. That is how the energy works as it chooses whose energy is compatible with yours…

This was somewhat of a repeat of my cycle with Gail except that there was not as much power and the visions were not as graphic but more symbolic. For example, I never again had the vision of the baby being born with the umbilical cord still attached. But I had a vision of a baby. The vision of the created timeline or world was very symbolic as to include as much as possible but almost like an animated cartoon version of the circle of life. This cycle also went extremely fast and lasted only three weeks before it was done.

Again the vivid dreams of initial contact, astral sex, a new astral body and a created world or timeline. Again the sense of blended souls with the sense of her awareness poking around inside of me and me inside of her. Again the vision of the pretty colored stones that represented drugs…of energy surging through my body and blasting out engrams to clear energy channels. Again the sense of healing of old wounds and the illuminations as missing parts of the puzzle were added to my growing collection.

This new astral body had definite human features although it lacked color and the eyes were very dark. Of interest is that all of these bodies were visible to my “Watcher Self”. Also of interest is that this astral body was essentially genderless. While the form was in general male there were no sexual parts that I was aware of. My core self was able to observe these new astral bodies and at times animate them if it wanted to although I normally had a dual awareness of being in both at the same time.

In ascension terms this was the 6th density body created out of abstract mental energies or the noble gas body created out of Neon with eight sensory points of awareness. It was associated with the third eye chakra which had just been forcefully opened. The development of this astral body was the development of the third eye chakra after its initial opening.

I felt that my normal point of awareness was slipping down from the other side of the Great Abyss and moving into the mental levels. I felt despair that I was being pushed out of the Spiritual Light and that Source was pushing me away. In reality nothing could be further from the truth because my connection with Source was permanent and I was simply bringing the energy of Source back down to earth to assist in Gaia’s ascension. My task was to bring down the light and anchor it in the physical. I had become a light worker.

But my soul had changed polarity and an entire lifetime of striving upward toward Source had now changed to a striving back down to earth again…My focus changed from an interest in mystical and spiritual experiences to magical and occult experiences. I wanted to know more about my crossing of the Great Abyss and the only literature I could find on this subject was the Golden Dawn material and the writings of Aleister Crowley so I began reading that material. Remember this was back in 1991.

I also tried contacting the OTO to find out more about it but I ended up getting in touch with a group called SOTO instead which I will share more about in the next cycle. The point is that I was beginning to reach out to magickal groups.

I wrote to a local Gardnerian Wicca group hoping to find some contacts. That led to an unwelcome visitation that I will share. A few days after I sent out the letter I awoke in the middle of the night with the heavy weight of a shadowy figure kneeling upon my chest…In fright I did what just about anyone would do if they  could. I thought, “What the hell!” and used all the energy of my newly created astral bodies to push/blast it away. My astral self followed this visitor back to its home and I had a satisfied vision of someone kneeling on their bed puking from the returned threefold blast.

As I moved down into working with the philosophical energies I need to add that I was also studying Neo-Tech which was the direct opposite of what I had learned in my mystical approach to life through the Rosicrucian teachings. This branch of philosophy was a derivative of Ayn Rand’s Objectivism Philosophy and took it to new levels. It represented an entirely new type of thought that came directly from my blind spot…I soaked it up…


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Hunt, Forest, Hunting, Nature, Hunter, Wilderness

I’ve mentioned how my weekly Rosicrucian monograph studies were the backbone of my newly created and developing personality as I continued on my spiritual journey. Some could say that I had destroyed the false ego or self and discovered my true Ego or Self, but it was really a secondary personality that was simply more healthy than my original one. One day I would need to return to that original ego and self and bring it back to life, bring the lion back to life. But that was to be many years into the future.

There were many important milestones in my Rosicrucian studies and one time during a self initiation an ascended master appeared in my living room. This person was dressed in his ceremonial robes, sitting cross legged and floating in the air about waist high. He radiated a powerful sense of peace and authority and gave me the sense that I had done very well upon my path. I was amazed and carefully walked completely around him, observing from all directions and making sure that the apparition was real. It remained visible for over an hour and the residual energy and power remained for several hours after it was gone.

At the time I didn’t realize that this ascended master was Hanns Heinz Ewers, the person I was in my immediate past life. Our past lives have curious lives of their own and exist within us and outside of us at the same time. Perhaps the correct way to say this is that the entirety of our soul can’t be contained in just one lifetime or one individual. There is simply too much in life for one personality to experience it all. This ascended master appeared several different times in those early years at important stages of my personal development. He gave me important support and encouragement when it was most needed. Over the years we have seemed to merge as one.

I spent six months in West Germany as a college exchange student and they were the happiest days of my life! I felt that I was truly home and belonged there. So many miracles happened in my life during that time that I can’t write about them. It was very healing for my fractured soul and much needed. Just to give some trivial examples I was born on 24 April. My seat on the airplane to West Germany was #24 and it was also #24 on the flight back to the United States. I stayed in room #24 at the hotel for the entire six months. I celebrated my golden 24th birthday high in the Austrian alps in the spring of 1980 in a log cabin above the timberline. That log cabin was over 200 years old. I had never been on a mountain before.

For the first time in my life the people loved me and made me feel welcome and at home. I went to West Germany with $200 in my pocket and came home with $200 in my pocket. We had prepaid and the dollar was doing so well that we got a weekly allowance that was just enough to help me survive until I received my income tax refund. I also managed to get a part time job as an English teacher at the local Inlingua language school. I had many friends that showed me many of the wonders of their culture and their country.

When I returned to the United States I was a new person. I gave both my parents a hug when they met me at the airport and it was the first time I had ever hugged my father. He turned stiff as a statue and didn’t know what to make it or how to respond. I’m glad to share that my father is still alive and now returns hugs from others. Life has a way of teaching us what is important.

Full of confidence and naivety I determined that I was going to pursue a career in astrology and personalized self help hypnosis tapes even though I had never really done any of that work seriously or for others. In the meantime I supported myself by working for Service Master, the professional cleaning company. I put an ad in The Mother Earth News magazine and waited for the orders to come rolling in. I only got two responses.

The first was from a man that was having much trouble in love relationships and wanted to know why. I was offering a twenty page astrology report years before computers. I had to do it all by hand. As I cast the chart for this young man and dove into it I was horrified at all the challenges and obstacles this person was confronting. I felt that it was too invasive and that I had no business knowing what I was learning about this person. I vowed to never again do a horoscope for another person for money. I did a partial report and returned his money.

The other response was from a woman that would later become my wife and mother of my four children. We corresponded for over one year and convinced ourselves that we were madly in love with each other even though we had never met. We shared the best and kept the rest hidden. Finally I went to Kansas to meet her and it was a disaster. There was no spark between us and we were not attracted to each other, but we had sex anyway. At the age of 27 I was still a virgin and she had her own issues having once been date raped. Two desperate people do not make good life companions and it was over before it began…I went back to Minnesota with relief thinking that it was over until I received her letter a few months later saying that she was pregnant…

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Dog, Wolf, Yelp, Moon, Tree, Night, Starry Sky

These posts will carry a very different energy than most of my previous posts because I will be sharing my personal story as we go along and it should stir emotions as well as provide insight into the unseen worlds. This first lunar cycle of 2020 is when we draw in the new energies that are coming into our world and allow ourselves to become filled as much as possible with them. So drink in these emotions and energies that come with my posts and do the same with other things in your life!

Visualize a syringe whose needle tip is dipped in some fluid like water and the plunger is being gently pulled back causing the fluid to be drawn into the syringe by the vacuum created. That is what happens in the astral during the days of the waning moon, those days from the full moon to the next new moon. It is during these days that we draw in this vital life force energy and bring it up into our awareness. We become aware of things! So use these days to draw this new energy in and become aware of it within  your body! Energize your self and your soul! We will use this energy later as the plunger is pushed back in and the energy injected into the astral during the waxing phase of the moon as it travels from new to full.

As a child I loved to read books and each week took at least thirteen books out of the school library. I read them all! I remember reading the dictionary in fascination and needing to look up the words in the definitions because they were not yet in my vocabulary. Often reading one definition would lead to the need to look up at least three other words just to understand the original definition of a particular word.

I would snuggle down in a chair and become lost in a book to the extent that I lost consciousness of my physical body or the passage of time. People would need to speak to me at least twice to get my attention. Today we take things like this for granted, or at least some of us do. But the truth is that in ancient days and to a lesser extent even in today’s world this is almost impossible for some people to do.

To lose awareness of one’s physical body or the passage of time are both considered high states of trance or Samadhi in the Buddhist tradition. They are remarkable achievements to those who are “trapped” within the physical world and the present moment. The same can be said of day dreaming or mental projection. Drug or alcohol abuse are the only ways that many can leave the imprisonment of the present moment. They simply can’t do it on their own without some external stimulus. I was born with these abilities and they came naturally. Don’t fall into the trap of thinking that others can do these things easily because they might not be able to.

When I was ten years old I had a series of recurring nightmare type dreams that would wake me up in fright before the dream could end. It was always the same dream. I was in outer space in a vehicle like a bus or subway train car that was completely empty except for me. I was the driver and this vehicle was pushing against a mountain top trying to move it. The energy in the dream was unbearable because the infinite force of my vehicle was pushing against the infinite force of the mountain in a virtual stand off in which neither force could win. There was an angry electrical or mechanical hum that reached an unbearable pitch of unrelenting tension and I always woke up. I had this same dream three or four times and each time the intensity would increase and the front of my vehicle would cave in a little bit. It was taking damage but I wouldn’t give up! Finally the dream resolved itself as the mountain slowly began to give way…I had won!

This recurring dream has haunted me because it forecast my entire life! This was a dream about Gaia’s ascension and my role in helping Gaia to move into her new place. I was born into this earth life time to fight this very battle against overwhelming odds. The energy that I was bringing in would move the mountain because I would not give up until it did! That mountain was going to move if it killed me…

I can only imagine that others have come in with similar missions to assist Gaia in her ascension and help all life forms as well. Consider that it is no accident that we are living in these times and that what we are doing was planned long before we entered our physical bodies. We each have missions to fulfill. What is your mission?

I had a couple of other recurring dreams during those days that were so vivid I still remember them. One was the horrible scene of an ocean bottom covered with dead bodies and the other was a long procession of people or spirits, including pioneers, going somewhere. What these dreams meant I’m not sure, but the one about the ocean bottom covered in dead bodies was either concerning the devastation of World War I&II or the possible devastation of World War III. In any case World War III needed to be avoided! The procession of people were all those that were incarnating during this lifetime to ascend with Gaia and to help with her ascension.

In respect to these dreams I mention that I believe that I was the author Hanns Heinz Ewers in my immediate past life. He experienced the horrors of both World Wars. He was an avowed Satanist who gave highly popular lectures on the religion of Satan from 1910-1925. He was also an early supporter of the Nazi cause, but later helped Jewish friends to safety. He always believed that the Jews were important German patriots and supported them in all ways. He died in poverty with his books banned in both Nazi Germany and in the western world including the United States and England. His reported last words were, “What an ass I’ve been!” (translation) I believe that with his last words he turned to the light with all his power and will as he died. After such a dark life he returned to Source and in this life I’ve been the vehicle to make sure nothing like that ever happens again! I’ve had to deal with a lot of past life karma from all my past lifetimes!


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Fantasy, Forest, Creepy, Woman, Bird, Dark, Gloomy

Continuing our discussion of the importance and benefits of the Healing and Prosperity Circle meditation is to consider grounding and the etheric double from this new perspective. Now if the mysterious noble gas element #118 is indeed the Ka, the etheric double and the lowest possible level of our reality it is also where we ground during our meditations and magical work. That means the etheric realm is the world in which ghosts and spirits walk and it is in actuality beneath our normal perception of physical reality! This means it is more real than what we consider real physical reality! It is the opposite of imaginary and mental or spiritual creations and life forms which are above our ordinary awareness of physical reality.

In magical practice the meaning of “grounding” is to become anchored in the very core of the earth energies where we are completely safe and sane and anchored within our physical bodies. It is also the furthest away from the Source energies of Love and Light that come in through the crown chakra. It is only full spectrum ascension and Organic Gnosticism that actually connect these two extremes and draw the Spiritual energies of love and light down to the lowest levels as the ultimate form of magical empowerment. We use the connection between these two extremes to open our portal for the Healing and Prosperity meditation. That is why it is so powerful.

In magical practice when people ground themselves and ground the generated energies it means that these energies are absorbed and distributed at the etheric level in a balanced manner. The use of protective circles and rituals is because people are working with energies that are not in perfect balance and not at the etheric level! It means that there are many polarized energies that can disrupt and destroy magical workings if they are not protected. It means magical practitioners are introducing highly polarized energies into the environment in a way to provoke or invoke change and they produce extremely high voltages which can be dangerous if not handled correctly.

What seems to be happening is that perfect balance of energies and Unity only happens at the etheric level of the mysterious noble gas element #118 where the final outermost electron circle is complete and at the  spiritual photon/electron level of absolute Unity. We might also say that each noble gas represents areas of perfect balance and stability as well since each represents complete electron shells. So each fully activated astral body of Helium, Neon, Argon,Krypton, Xenon and Radon are also perfectly balanced and form their own type of grounding spaces within the full spectrum of life experience.

I’ve shared the basic Healing and Prosperity Circle meditation with occultists who have been horrified that there are no apparent protections in place and that I don’t ground the energies after the meditation itself. They don’t understand that it is perfectly grounded from the top down and that there has never been any form of “energy sickness” associated with it. It is also grounded from the bottom up and as stable a form of meditation as possible just the way it is without protections or rituals of any kind.

In fact, I’ve noticed that just like others working with Gaia’s ascension energies, I instinctively avoid the unbalanced energies of discord and negativity. This is why my personal progress has been from the top down and as each level becomes balanced my awareness becomes comfortable there and makes it my new home and my new center of activity. The etheric realm now seems to have become my new home and new center of activity and that is why I’m writing this Book of Shadows material.

When you consider that there are 32 sensory points of awareness or electrons in the etheric body and 32 sensory points of awareness in the noble gas body of Radon directly above that, it becomes clear how difficult it is to permanently activate these lower noble gas bodies. For most occultists they can only be accessed in a temporary manner through the generation or use of vital life force energy either through physical activity or some form of sacrifice. When permanently activated without the Source connection they create the need for vampirism to sustain themselves as I’ve indicated in other posts. This is why the Source connection is so vital in its ability and use of channeling Source energy to sustain these lower level astral bodies.

I’m going to say this another way. I have permanently activated all these astral bodies and have permanent awareness of what is going on around me at all the levels in a continuous manner. I live in a multi-dimensional way that is becoming normal for me. I don’t shift from one level to the other, but exist with awareness in all of them at the same time. My awareness does tend to settle at the lowest level that it is comfortable at since it has become rare for any activity to be a threat in the upper levels. The upper levels have become like blue sky without any clouds so there is not much to see there most of the time. It is the activity that attracts my attention and this activity is now on the etheric level.

I can enter a room like a cafe and just by glancing at the people inside sense what they are thinking or feeling. This is uncomfortable and I usually put up some type of shield to block their energy from entering my own space. So I deliberately choose to block many of the things within my environment. But I do these things naturally and in a balanced way that allows me to be “invisible” in the sense that no one really notices me. Remember that the strongest magical protection is a strong aura!


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Fantasy, Dream, Cartoon, Drawing, Design, Magic, Sweet

Some very interesting and crazy information is trying to break through into awareness. I’ve almost got my fingers on it, but not quite. So I will just try to talk it out and see what happens.

First some very interesting information about chakras and sexuality. This comes from personal experience so it is not theory. Everyone talks about the root chakra and Kundalini energy and how important it is to awaken it and cause it to rise up the spine to the crown chakra.

Well, I’ve got some news for everyone. The root chakra is not that important! There are two chakras below that which are even more important and they haven’t really been truly recognized for how important they are.

Now when a chakra is being awakened there is a feeling like electricity that buzzes around in the area of the chakra. This sensation of electricity can also move up and down the spine and move from one energy center to the other.

Now back in 1992 after I experienced a spontaneous activation of the Kundalini energies and it shot up my spine to my crown chakra with such force that I temporarily blacked out, sagged and almost fell to the floor, as I was doing a yoga side stretch something opened up an energetic pathway that never closed. (Wow! What a long sentence!) Ever since that day I have continuously felt that tingle of electricity somewhere in my body. Over the years the location of that activity has changed, but there has always been continuous activity.

These days there are four main areas where that electrical tingling may be taking place. These are my lower neck, right between my shoulder blades, at my root chakra/base of spine and in my testes. This activity goes on for days and days before moving to another location. I will also share that I have damage in my spine at my lower neck and between my shoulder blades from an old injury when I was breaking horses and got thrown. So there is blockage in those locations and the energy is working to open those pathways and heal my body.

What people don’t realize or hear about is that the testes and ovaries are actual chakra centers in their own right and that tingle of electricity can occur there for days as well. I experienced the electrical tingle at my tail bone or root chakra for many years before I ever experienced it in the testes themselves. This tells me that sexual energy is much lower than root chakra energy and much more powerful! For the last few years that activity has been mostly in the testes and not the tailbone/root chakra although the activity does move around as I’ve mentioned above.

Now changing the subject to the noble gas body of the mysterious element #118 or the etheric double brings up another point of interest and another even more powerful chakra center. As I’ve been doing this research, I’ve also been meditating and trying to get the feel for my own etheric double. What I discovered is that the etheric double exists where the feet touch the ground as I sit in my chair. A dark energy seems to pool around my feet and flow out into the room from the bottom of my feet! An opening also seems to open up beneath my feet that I instinctively know is the etheric world of deepest astral projections.

The implications of this are staggering! People sitting in the lotus position meditating on the root chakra are really also meditating on that point where the body touches the earth which is the point where the etheric double is accessed! It’s not the bottom of the feet, or the root chakra, but where the body touches the earth that is important!

In Wicca and other magical paths we see this in the importance of grounding to Gaia and to the earth! I’ve got to go now but will expand on this later.

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Fantasy, Clouds, Woman, Castle, Sun, Sky, Atmospheric

Happy New Year! Continuing the Book of Shadows material leads us back around to understanding just how powerful the central Healing and Prosperity Circle Meditation  is and how we can use it to accelerate our soul development. The reason I’m bringing this up again is that my current research shows just how important the role of the Spiritual Light plays in Organic Gnosticism.

Actually we need to go back even earlier to some of the preliminary-meditations to clarify an important point. I’m specifically talking about when we reach out as far as we can into Source and bring down/back the highest Spiritual Light and Love that we can connect with. We use that energy to create a ball of energy about two inches above our head and then we continue by visualizing and creating a second ball of energy in the middle of our heads and then join them together creating an energetic link with Source that is permanent.

This is not clearly done in the Healing and Prosperity Circle meditation because we are doing that meditation with others and the meditation has been modified. Originally this meditation was intended for one person as a way of moving awareness up and down the astral planes so that awareness could travel all levels without distortion. As the ball of energy moves up and down the spine like an elevator our awareness can also move up and down within that ball of awareness. By doing this we can use this type of meditation to cross The Great Abyss in full awareness and remain there for great periods of time if we choose. We can also use the ball of energy as an elevator for our awareness to move from noble gas body to noble gas body in smooth transitions.

I just did a Healing and Prosperity Circle meditation for the New Year. I listened to my own video and it worked fine for me. One of the things I realized was that as I did the meditation my own awareness began with Source and then continued down the spine to reside within each chakra center. The actual healing and prosperity work was done with my awareness stable and active at the lowest level, the level of the etheric double. So I was working consciously in my etheric double or Ka body or the one created out of the mysterious element #118. So this meditation causes the point of awareness to gradually shift downward to the most powerful level while maintaining the highest level of consciousness.

Working with tantric or sexual energies can only be safely done after the Spiritual Light is safely acquired and anchored permanently. First you work with the light, then you work to raise the Kundalini energy. I’m trying to make this clear. Sexuality is important but Spiritual Light is most important in these first stages.

After this integration of the Spiritual Light happens and one begins to work with sexual energies one will find that male sexual energy tends to rise by itself up through the physical body, activating repressed emotions as it goes and opening energy pathways on it’s own without direction or guidance.

The female will notice that she can move sexual or Kundalini energy up the spine or body by consciously focusing on it and willing it to go upward. But for her the energy will tend to drop to the lower levels when left to it’s own inclination.

Until permanently activated the male needs to focus with intent on the etheric double and the female needs to focus with intent on the Spiritual Light. This can be done individually as a solitary path.

However, Wicca shows us how the Priest draws down the Goddess into the High Priestess and the High Priestess in turns brings out the Horned One in the Priest. He helps her to rise and she in turn helps keep him grounded in the here and now. This is why “Drawing down the Moon” and the celebration of sexuality are so important within Wicca and other pagan paths. One helps lift up the females and the other helps ground the males.

The Magdalen Manuscript: The Alchemies of Horus & The Sex Magic of Isis by Tom Kenyon and Judi Sion seem to be sharing a very similar message to what I am trying to share with Organic Gnosticism and the importance of Source and the Spiritual Light. In this book “The Alchemies of Horus” is the path of the individual and “The Sex Magic of Isis” is the path of the joined couple.

Remember that the ultimate goal is the permanent activation and integration of the Ka (etheric body created by the mysterious noble gas #118 or Goddess) and the Ba (Unity or photon awareness as Source or God) or full spectrum ascension! This sacred union happens within the individual. We need to recognize the Divine that exists within each living thing and each living heart.

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Mystery, Road, Fantasy, Magical, Fog, Forest, Nature

It’s New Year’s Eve and even though nature might not celebrate this special day humanity most certainly does. Any time that humanity singles out specific days it means that they are days of power in some way or another. So New Year’s Eve and New Year’s day are times of power. Having said all that I’m not going to blather on about the past year and the coming year in this post. Instead I’m going to jump right into my thoughts and ongoing insights into the etheric double as a noble gas body and how magic makes use of this etheric double and the ghostly astral world of the etheric double.

I would like to state that going forward I will speak of Gaia’s ascension as full spectrum ascension, meaning that it also involves the activation of this noble gas body, Ka or etheric double as well as all possible noble gas bodies. The reality is that this activation is what remains in Gaia’s ascension process and in the year 2020 we are going to see and experience pure magic in a way never seen before in living memory. It is time for magic to come back into this world in a very big way as those ascending activate their own noble gas bodies, specifically this etheric double or Ka body.

I’m still in the process of researching and studying various material on astral travel and the etheric double.But I’ve already found some serious differences between Organic Gnosticism and other paths like Wicca and paganism. To put things bluntly these paths do teach the development of the etheric double and it’s powers with the ability to do magic. However, the energetic demands of these paths prove that they are not talking about the permanent activation of the etheric double or Ka. They speak of the temporary activation of it through the physical generation of energies and life force for the purpose of magical work such as healing and spells within a protective space like a circle.

Even Gavin and Yvonne Frost in their books about magical power and tantric practice describe practices that are truly of the etheric double, but of a muddy energetic nature because of using collective sexual energies instead of chakra soulmate energies. In their descriptions of a tantric house the sexual practice is not of chakra soulmates but of collective participating group members.

My personal experience through Organic Gnosticism and chakra soulmates has been the astral exchange of sexual energies with one individual to the point where the energies of any and all other individuals were entirely forced out of both of us for the duration of the cycle. This created bonds of soulmate energy that could not be broken because they were pure phase-locked energies that through the male’s connection with Spiritual light (photon level) and the female’s connection with Universal life force energy (mysterious element #118) formed a resonant circuit with a powerful and infinite tank current that perpetuated itself. Astral creations of this phase-locked energy could not be challenged or tampered with by anyone other than the two soulmates who generated the energies in the first place. The power to sustain and permanently activate the noble gas bodies is channeled and not generated or taken from anyone else.

In summary I’m talking about something that I’ve personally experienced and how it differs from what others have taught or written about. I’m talking about how chakra soulmates and divine counterparts energetically interact to create pure diamond bodies for both that are permanent and self sustaining at all levels…This is new material never released before as far as I know.

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