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We are going to talk about the connections between literacy and the soul. I mentioned that conscious awareness and life itself really depends upon having both some type of a physical body, along with a nonphysical body or energy body. Together they create what’s called a resonant circuit. Now it’s true that souls can exist without a physical body for quite a bit of time, up to thousands of years. But they will gradually fade back into light unless they find a physical body to strengthen themselves and renew themselves.

I mentioned three types of people that seemed to be emerging around 5000 BC in the same geographical area of the middle east. True mystics are actually original souls that were created along with Gaia or the earth and have evolved with her. I also talked about the appearance of the other two groups which I call rational atheists or the materialists and those I called the false prophets or social enforcers.

Both of these groups represent alien souls or foreign souls that have entered in physical life. They were not originally native here but their alien souls have become born into physical bodies. So their souls are in physical bodies and that’s why their soul characteristics are different than those with native souls.

The true mystics or organic Gnostics are the only original Gaia inhabitants and the only original souls that have evolved here along with Gaia. They’re the only ones with the creative, magical ability that both of the other groups are really dependent upon because they don’t have the organic genetic connection to their own souls. They can’t physically manifest things without the help of the organic Gnostics. So they have enslaved the organic Gnostics to do their work for them.

The souls and genetic connections of the organic Gnostics or true native inhabitants have some of the characteristics of the materialist or the rational atheist souls, because they can also be extremely rational but the rational atheists see only light and dark. Only the physical and material world exists for them and because there is no other nonphysical world for them their spirituality takes the shape of community existence.

They are the hive minded people that I’ve talked about. This collective oriented drive for a harmonious society or human collective becomes what is spiritual for them and what they live for.

In contrast the false prophets or social enforcers are very warlike and they have a deep awareness of the nonphysical astral realities and spiritual planes that they have experienced in the past.

The astral is actually showing the tracks of their past as a traditional destiny that needs to be repeated. So they are traditionalist because history does tend to repeat itself and they’re always trying to find that sacred pattern that repeats and repeats over and over again.

Now for literacy and how important a factor it played in the Paleolithic age of cavemen and women. They were able to create art, They were able to create beautiful art. So there was a process inside humanity that was developing a cognitive ability and that’s just the critical time when the other two groups came in.

These groups of alien souls came in at that time because humanity was at a critical and suggestible stage with individual awareness but not enough to develop their own sense of self. Their own sense of ego was not strong enough to really cut it on their own. So these other two groups of advanced alien souls came in and they had a war going on for who was able to take control of those native inhabitants that were just beginning to develop their own souls.

A soul is the sense of self and sense of ego awareness that dwells in the heart. How literacy comes into play here is how what was once art became hieroglyphics and what was once hieroglyphics became letters. Something happened inside the brains of the humans where they began to visualize inside their heads. They began to creatively visualize and imagine and dream. And once they developed a sense of self, or watcher self, they could actually imagine seeing themselves and see an imagined world inside their heads, inside their minds. That is when they began to think about immortality and life after death or the continuation of awareness after death because of this watcher self.

The watcher self or soul was created as an evolutionary byproduct of the invention of reading and writing. It became solidified inside as the ego, as the sense of self, and when the original Gaia inhabitants dreamed they had the ability of having a watcher self. This was a part of themselves that watched the movie screen of the dream where they might see another version of themselves acting out imagined events.

The mental evolution that created a watcher self or soul for the organic Gnostics didn’t happen to the rational atheists. That group of materialists doesn’t have the ability to develop a watcher self. But what they do have is a very sharp perception of physical reality and they rely almost exclusively upon logic and reason. You will not see them using spiritual concepts or nonphysical concepts because they think that’s a bunch of baloney. What they were really after is logic and reason and the collective mind and the collective good of humanity. That is why they insist that each person sacrifice themselves to the common good because that is what they do.

Now the other group, the traditionalists, the false prophets or social enforcers are warlike. They just want to dominate and they want to enslave the rest of the world. So they are basically trying to create a narrative in which they remain empowered and the natural original earth inhabitants are not empowered. So they are being kind of sneaky about it.

Once more you have this war for control over the souls of the original Gaia inhabitants, the organic Gnostics. Now, previous to this time there wasn’t really any anything going on because everything was goddess oriented, basically the native Gaia inhabitants were guided by the feminine life giving principle. They believed that the goddess brought life through birth and that she brought death and then she turned around and brought life again through rebirth. It was so obvious that they didn’t even doubt it.

But after the invention of reading and writing and after the beginnings of this first sense of self things began to change. This first ego. This first sense of awareness of self was a game changer. The two other groups were very patriarchal and anti-feminine and this was their chance to take control of the evolution of the human race.

This anti-feminine trait is another key characteristic because the original Gaia inhabitants were balanced and had balanced their male and female energy all the way down through the DNA. It was in balance all through their genetics and they were able to integrate their own shadow aspect and higher self.

None of the other groups could and that’s the difference. The organic Gnostics are the only group that can draw fire down from heaven. They are the only true Prometheus’s if you will. That is why they have been so chained and repressed. Like Prometheus they were chained because the rational atheists and social enforcers didn’t dare give them true freedom. It is only now after all these years that the organic Gnostics are taking their own power and their own freedom back into their own hands!

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Chapter 8

Rafe explained the best way to survive in the winter was to hunt the larger animals like the deer. Each kill would provide enough food for a week or more and in the winter it was very important to have some food set aside for emergencies and for when the weather really got bad. Winter was also the best time for trapping animals for their fur. He would need some winter clothing before it got really cold and this was as good a time to learn as any. He could make some things now while the furs were prime and keep them at Rafe’s camp until he needed them.

In the meantime it was spring and life was abundant. Flowers bloomed in the meadows and insects flew and crawled all over. Tobal learned to make containers and drinking cups out of the green bark of birch trees and boiled water in them. He used them to make teas and ointments that kept the deerflies and ticks away.

His skin became tanned and his muscles hard from the constant exposure and work. He could stay outside in any weather and walk the entire day without being exhausted. By the end of the second week Tobal was living completely on his own food. He was not only finding food but was providing food for Rafe to eat. He still had trouble cooking though. Nothing he cooked tasted as good as the mouth watering victuals that Rafe provided. Still Rafe never complained. Tobal learned the importance of keeping his knife razor sharp, both of them. He kept the one from his initiation on his belt and his old knife strapped to his right leg above his ankle just as Rafe did.

By the end of the second week he was getting bored with the monotony of the daily grind and the constant need to keep busy. He was looking forward to something new. They moved out from Rafe’s small valley and traveled in different directions meeting up at designated spots on the map every other day. Tobal became proficient with the map and with triangulating where he was at any given time.

He spent some evenings alone and others with Rafe. The evenings he spent with Rafe were spent creating different kinds of shelters and sleeping in them. He was amazed at how many things could be used for shelter. But they all had the bed made of soft fragrant pine boughs and he followed the first rule of never sleeping on the ground if it could be avoided.

Leaning trees that had fallen provided shelter when combined with the gray poncho material. Two trees and his walking stick lashed between them became an impromptu tent. Lean-to shelters were easily made and he also made a small teepee using the gray blanket material.

The need for water was always present and he never strayed too far from a good supply of it. He learned where to look for fresh water springs and waterholes. He also learned to collect rain water with his poncho or blanket and fill his canteens and other containers. Rain water was fresh and didn’t need to be boiled. Water from stagnant pools needed to be boiled before drinking.

He practiced continuously with the sling and his bow. He got his first deer at the end of the third week. He was really excited even though there was too much meat. They spent two days slicing and smoking it into jerky that could be stored away to eat later. It made his pack much heavier and he cached some carefully in a tree marking the spot on his map so he could return to it later.

Once in awhile they would see an air sled in the distance with a medic on it. They would wave and sometimes the medic would wave back. Medics were not allowed to interfere with the Apprentice degrees unless there was an emergency but they did keep an eye on things.

It was during the fourth and final week that Rafe asked Tobal to look at the map and decide where he was going to solo. He should also start thinking about where he was going to be training people. He recommended Tobal stay roughly within 60 miles of the gathering spot.

“Where are the others?” He asked Rafe curiously.

“We don’t move around too much unless we are training someone,” Rafe answered. “The Journeymen usually find a permanent spot and no one bothers them. Many of the older Apprentices do too. That’s why we haven’t seen anyone. Still, a lot of the nicer spots have been taken and it’s getting harder to find an area that someone has not at least passed through. We encourage the newbies to stay within 30 miles of the gathering spot so we can keep an eye on them. Since there are normally not more than seven or eight training at any given time there is lots of space and it’s easy to stay out of each other’s way.”

Tobal enjoyed the rugged outdoor lifestyle and the solitude. He felt a quiet confidence in his growing ability to survive and was looking forward to his own solo that was rapidly approaching.

The fourth week was different than the first three. It was travel, travel and more travel. Rafe knew where several people lived and they set out to visit them. The meaning was clear. Rafe wanted Tobal to be able to go for help and find someone if it was needed. He also wanted Tobal to know who his friends were.

Once when they were going through the woods Rafe stopped him and motioned him to be silent. He pointed at three figures in black that were going through the woods at a fast dog trot.

“There are some people, particularly in the Journeyman degree,” Rafe said later, “that have gone off the deep end and gone rogue. These Journeymen will ambush a person, destroy his or her belongings, take their supplies and leave them helpless. It is a real danger that must always be kept in mind.

Fortunately the rogues do not stay close to the gathering spot. They are not very good woodsmen and can barely survive on their own during the winter. That’s probably why they prey on others. Usually they prey on other Journeymen that have set up permanent camps and take their winter supplies.

It always pays to be careful. If possible, know whom you are visiting, some might make you welcome and some camps might be dangerous. I don’t think there is any danger of being killed”, Rafe said, “but there is always the possibility of being injured and put in the hospital or something. The medics might not be able to get there in time. If you ever run across something that is not yours, leave it alone. There is no need to get anyone pissed off because you messed with their stuff.”

With that final warning they headed back toward the gathering spot and the monthly circle celebration.

Circle was different this time around and Tobal whistled merrily as he traveled the path into camp. He didn’t see anyone on the trail and no one tried to stop him or Rafe. Rafe seemed amused at Tobal’s whistling but didn’t say anything about it. He only whistled a few short bars at two sharp turns in the trail and that was it.

People were setting up teepees and gathering wood for the fires. There was a lot of work to do and Tobal joined in with enthusiasm. He helped dig the roasting pits where the bigger animals were being prepared. It felt good to work along side other clansmen and joke with them. He was grateful to contribute and as evening came closer he wondered what the night would bring.

Everyone was changing into robes. All clan members at circle wore robes that they kept in one of the storage buildings. A black robed guard was handing them out. There was no reason to haul robes around all month when they were only used here. Tobal was given a long gray robe similar to the one he had gotten at sanctuary.

“Just bring it back tomorrow when you’re done with it.” Was all the guard told him.

It turned out only four newbies were being initiated that night. Tobal made some new friends and was hanging out with them. They were all Apprentices. Zee was a raven haired girl with shoulder length hair and a good sense of humor. She had been one of Rafe’s students and was training her first newbie. Nicky, the newbie had just arrived at sanctuary two weeks ago and was being initiated as Apprentice tonight, but would be waiting till next month before starting her solo.

Wayne was a stocky good natured fellow with sandy hair. He had been an Apprentice for two years and wasn’t in any hurry to make it to Journeyman. He didn’t have any student and hadn’t been training anyone for the past few months. He was more interested in being with his girl friend that was also an Apprentice. His girlfriend, Char, had curly brown hair and a ready smile. They were always seen together at circle. Tobal remembered both of them from last circle. It was easy to tell they were in love.

A tall, lanky, sandy haired kid was soloing the same time he was. They hit it off right away during last month’s initiation. In fact, all six that had been initiated last month were soloing this month. Kevin was more nervous about his solo than Tobal was. It made Tobal realize Rafe was a very uncommon teacher and extremely good at teaching others what they needed to know. Most soloists didn’t have the quality of training or the experience Rafe had given him. Kevin kept thinking about bad things that might happen in the woods, things that hadn’t occurred to Tobal since his first weeks of training. Many clansmen were excited about the six of them soloing and they were given lots of support and encouragement.

Nicky kept staring at Tobal’s face, finally she blurted out. “ What happened to your face anyway?”

Tobal was caught by surprise and off guard. “I was attacked by a wild animal that knocked me down. I fought it off and was really lucky.” He lied.

“I almost lost the sight in this eye,” and he fingered the long scar around his right eye.

Nicky said, “It makes you look kind of sexy and dangerous,” and it was her turn to blush. Rising to her feet, she crossed over to where Tobal was sitting and crouched down in front of him putting her arms around his neck.

“Very sexy,” she whispered and kissed him deeply and passionately on the lips pulling his hand against the top of her breasts where her robe lay casually open at the top. Then she stood back up and walked toward the kitchen to refill her mug of beer.

Tobal was stunned, then pleased. In this camp there were many scars and tattoos and each one had a story. In fact, the more scars or tattoo’s a person had, the more stories that went with them. Wayne was planning on getting matching tattoo’s with Char. They were debating what tattoos would look right and the best places to have them.

There was an awkward silence but it passed and everyone started talking again about the coming solo. After awhile one of the red cloaked figures came toward their group. She was a medic named Ellen. Tobal recognized her as the High Priestess that initiated him. She asked if everyone was ready for circle.

A few hours later Tobal and the others were at the circle entrance waiting and watching as it was cast and purified. The older members were gathered around. The central bonfire was piled high and the smaller fires at each of the quarters burned merrily. The High Priestess and High Priest cast the circle and Tobal watched with interest as they worked closely together.

They stood together before the stone altar that was set on the northern side of the central fire. The High Priestess handed the High Priest a bowl of water. As he held it she put the tip of her knife into it.

“I purify you spirit of water, banishing all impurities and illusion. May you be charged with the power, strength and love of the Lord and Lady. Blessed be!”

Then the High Priest put the bowl of water back on the altar and picked up a bowl of rock salt handing it to the High Priestess. She held the bowl as he put the tip of his knife into it.

“I purify you spirit of salt, banishing all impurities and evil. May you be charged with the power, strength and love of the Lord and Lady. Blessed Be!”

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Asphodels
 
The two of us walked
Across a meadow,
Annie Ventnor and I,
As we were climbing from
Mitromania up to Arco,
She had to rest there,
This slender English beauty,
She was thirty-four, hysterical
And badly, badly asthmatic.
Then we went up further
To Monte Tiberio
And then the two of us walked
Across a meadow of asphodels,
Lady Ventnor and I.
 
We walked over the meadow,
Walked toward the sea,
That surged deep below us,
Walked toward the sun,
The evening sun,
That was sinking there
Far behind Mallorca.
And we walked toward death,
Who had planted every where
His sacred perennial plants,
Asphodel plants,
—walked without speaking,
Silently toward death,
Annie Ventnor and I.
 
The outgoing evening sun
Sank into my eyes,
Sank into Annie Ventnor’s
Brown eyes,
Those tired, sick, pleading eyes.
And we felt:
—That now it might very well be!
Then I lifted her up in my arms
And jumped lightly
Down there,
Into the sea, into the sun,
Into the happiness they held!
A leap, a scream:
—Annie Ventnor and I!
 
And yet I knew:
That this evening
I would be down below
Sitting with the officers,
Would be playing Fly and Poker
And would be drinking absinthe,
Singing to the mandolin.
And would be laughing and
Dancing the tarantella
With the prostitutes—
 
And I also knew:
—This same Lady Annie Ventnor
Would be leaving for Naples
In the morning
To her lover.
He was a commissionaire
At the great
Clearing house of Mele,
And was an ugly Moor,
A dirty, stupid, ugly Moor,
That laughed over his hysterical
Countess . . .
And for new embraces
Always give her more
New, beautiful money.
 
I knew all that.
—And still the two of us walked,
Annie Ventnor and I,
In wonderful, Corinthian silence
Over asphodel meadows . . .

-Hanns Heinz Ewers
translated by Joe Bandel

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To be born into a physical body is to know that someday we must also face death. The cycle of life, death and rebirth is everywhere. Nothing in life is to be feared in the sense of becoming so paralyzed with fear that we are unable to function. Embrace the good with the bad and drink the cup of life in its fullness.

There is a bittersweet to life which brings vitality and vigor into our days. It is this bittersweet that teaches compassion and wisdom. I believe the nonphysical part leaves our physical body at death and upon the disintegration of our old physical body our soul is released to be reincarnated into a physical body more suited to our growing needs.

I also believe life requires both a capacitive physical body and an inductive nonphysical body. The combination of these two bodies working together forms a resonant circuit which brings life and awareness.

Put simply we have lived many lifetimes before our present one and a million years from now we will still require both a physical and a nonphysical body. With this understanding death has nothing to be afraid of.

We do have a responsibility to make our world of experience into the heaven it was intended to be and not into the hell it has at times become.

In the past people with highly developed souls and charisma often had physical bodies that resisted the decomposition process after death. This resistance to decomposition in a few cases extended for several years.

Egyptian mummies are examples of souls still tied to the physical corpses they once had. These souls are unable to break the link still holding them to their old physical bodies after thousands of years.

These souls exist in a type of purgatory existence neither alive nor dead. They simply take up space within the earth’s magnetic field where they wait for their mummies to slowly crumble into dust so that they can once more live. Christians call this afterlife heaven and believe there is no need to return to physical bodies. Others believing in reincarnation believe that a point is reached when the soul no longer needs to return into a physical body. My belief is that there will always be a need to return to a physical body. There will always be a need to create heaven here on earth. Once expanded awareness can never return to a smaller existence that what it is capable of.

We as living individuals can project our awareness out to those trapped between lives and make contact with them. This contact gives the illusion that these souls are alive and aware. The illusion is created by these trapped souls getting temporary access to our own physical bodies in the fashion of a parasite. They are only alive and aware through us and through the energetic contact which animates them..

If we are not protected these souls will attempt to possess our physical bodies and use them. As soon as the contact is dropped these trapped souls once more become inactive.

This illusion is the basis for much of the so-called contact with the dead. I personally feel it is wrong to establish contact with these trapped souls and allow them to feed on us in a parasite fashion. If possible they can be helped to move on and release from the lower levels. I have helped several lost souls return to the light and they were not pleasant experiences! It is sad work and dangerous work!

The appropriate solution is that the physical body be cremated after death and the ashes allowed to mingle back into the earth where they originally came from. This allows the soul the freedom to once more experience life in a more appropriate physical body through the process of rebirth as quickly as possible.

The current popular practice of embalming the physical corpse before burial is an abomination. It turns our love of life into a love of death. Our beautiful physical world is littered with the remains of corpses that refuse to return back to the elements they came from. Valuable property and money is invested in what amounts to a worship of the dead. This is necromancy of the foulest sort in my opinion.

Even worse, this worship of embalmed corpses traps souls within the Earth’s magnetic field and within a type of purgatory existence where they are unable to live and unable to die. These trapped souls are left with only the option of a parasite type of existence which feeds on living souls until the destruction of their own physical corpse allows them to move on into a new physical life of their own.

An even greater tragedy is that this nonliving existence clutters and impedes the flow of living energies within both the capacitive physical earth and the inductive nonphysical planes, the magnetic fields which surround the physical earth. We call these magnetic fields the astral planes.

It impedes the flow of living energies by diverting the flow of these living energies into ways long dead and forgotten. It is time to forget the wisdom of the ancients and discover an even greater new wisdom gained through living in the present living moment. It is time to find new ways of living!

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When we consider everything that exists is a photon driven energy systems which is evolving it means human awareness as well.

When we consider the organizing intelligence contained within the cell which remains unconnected to the physical matter that is passed into it and passed out of it we understand that life has evolved beyond the point of being completely dependent upon molecular compound energy. Something exists independently in the astral as life energy and guiding intelligence.

Entering the astral is at first dependent on the energy produced through the breaking of compound molecules through digestion and the stresses of physical existence. A point is reached where existence within the astral is sustained directly through a connection with the original photon driven energy system that first created it. This something exists within the astral in combination with a solid earth connection through our physical body and includes all 118 elements within the DNA.

When the evolutionary force reached the 118th element and couldn’t go any farther it began backing up and entered the astral as the life force. It is the life force that first organized as bion’s.

This cellular intelligence and organizing principle has been called the life force, the id, the shadow, the power animal, Gaia and Lucifer.

The evolutionary forces have formed this life force into a secondary personality which exists within each one of us as an alien entity. This life force and organizing intelligence passes from living organism to living organism if possible.

Consider that every living thing has been created from some other living thing. No living thing has been created out of something dead. The life force has adapted in many ways to ensure the continuity of life on planet Earth. Life begets life and so it must be!

The death of cellular life created memory traces within the astral or blueprints that created that recorded past life patterns through time. As those dying energy pulses returned to source they became free to enter life once more. This time they were able to choose the type of life they wanted to live and reexperience.

Reentering a previously lived life meant there was a preordained destiny to follow but all also meant the ability to improve upon that individual life and make it more successful. These astral memory traces formed around living organisms and species as group souls. They also formed around the entire earth as ecosystems creating a delicate balance within all living things.

These memory traces have been called destiny, the astral, egregores, the collective, our ancestors, the superego, the divine plan and the holy guardian angel. They represent how things will be in the future because they are the memories of how things have always been before.

We call this organizing intelligence our holy guardian angel and it forms a secondary personality within each one of us distinct from our shadow aspect. It is also alien to our normal ego and is archetypal in nature. It is the ghost future of our life as it exists before our own pulse of awareness encounters it. We only own the present moment!

The shadow aspect of life energy forms around the 118th element at our root chakra. The collective or higher self forms around the earth as the memory traces of previous living systems. History tries to repeat those patterns which existed in the past. We as pulses of awareness choose to reenter previous lifetimes and work within those conditions to bring about change in ourselves and in the expansion of our lives into the universe.

We call that pulse of awareness the normal human ego. With human life we find that our awareness is able to travel in three possible worlds. Ordinary consciousness is associated as our pulse of awareness radiates outward into the present moment. This is our awareness of physical reality.

In dreams or meditation we use energy generated during the day to enter into the underworld of the shadow or the spiritual worlds to explore the possible future as it currently exists. We call these the spiritual planes and the magical planes.

The spiritual planes and magical planes encircle the earth in 118 layers with the element hydrogen creating the outermost layer. Our awareness travels through astral cords or magnetic flux lines to explore these memory traces of what is meant to happen in the future.

At the earth’s core the element 118 has seven electron rings and 118 electrons. The astral planes above the equator have a north magnetic quality and are called the spiritual and the astral planes. The astral planes below the equator have a south pole magnetic quality and have been called the demonic or qlippothic planes. The molecules of element 118 within our DNA are linked to the earth’s core and our awareness at times travels the seven underworlds created within the astral plane of the118th element. These have been termed the magical planes, the underworld and the seven Hells. For something to physically exist it must exist in both the spiritual planes and the magical planes. It must have a balance of north and south pole magnetic energies to hold it stable and permanent.

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The astral planes are not empty, they are full to the brim! Sometimes it is almost impossible to inject sexual orgasm energy or any other type of energy into them and other times it is very easy. There are also times when the first injection of energy seems like it hits a wall, but later when you try the second time there is lots of room. What has happened is that the first try actually burst through the astral congestion and made some space for your second attempt! Other times it feels like the astral is draining every ounce of energy away from you! It is doing this to support your own astral creations by the way! Once something is created within the astral it will try to maintain itself and resist alteration. It will draw energy from you to remain intact. This is a good thing even if it drains you of energy!

The lunar cycle is like a heartbeat that alternately squeezes and expands the astral layers and circulates the astral energy throughout all the levels, impelling some things toward physical manifestation and other times destroying astral creations.

The process of generating sexual orgasm energy or any other type of energy twice a day and injecting it into the astral is somewhat similar to jumping in front of a train! Your energy creates a major disruption causing the astral bonds to burst at a weak point and then merge back together in a new pattern, one that includes your added energy! You add the energy and the daily cycle, the lunar cycle and the solar cycle are the trains which create the pressure that makes things happen by bursting through the existing astral configurations.

In the beginning the weak spot is inside of yourself and that is where the energy will burst apart blocked energy channels as it clears them. Later as your energy channels become open and functioning the astral disruption happens outside of you in other places within the astral. At times this messes with other magic workers and provokes magical combats. But magical combat is not to be feared because it is all about energy and you replenish your energy everyday while the other magicians don’t! I have had hundreds of astral conflicts over the years and never lost one of them, although it might have been a draw in the early days and required several repeated attempts.

The important point is that the astral is finite and injecting sexual orgasm energy or any other type of energy into it twice a day radically empowers your astral creations and helps them to magically manifest and also helps to develop your soul and your astral bodies. It forces growth and this is what we want. The astral resists change and will absorb most efforts at changing unless those efforts are forceful. Continue injecting sexual orgasm energy or any other type of energy twice a day into the astral until the present moment is the present moment which you desire. It is that simple. The reverse is also that simple. Without injecting energy into the astral your astral creations will just stay there in limbo and not go anywhere. Most people end up creating astral events for their next physical life because what they create will never manifest in this one!

This is what makes the Tantric path different. It is the path of attainment in this lifetime! These are not empty words! But the path is only for the bravest of the brave!

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I would like to talk about the search for our ancient roots. In particular looking for the roots of true mysticism or organic gnosticism. But in the meantime we also have to talk about the roots of what I call rational atheism and the roots of what I call social enforcers or false prophets. I’m using those terms to describe three separate groups of ideologies that existed about the same time in history in the same geographical locations.

I was recently interested in my genetic history and had a DNA sample analysed. I learned about my family tree on my father’s side. I belong to haplogroup G – M21. This is considered the first immigration group out of Africa and it happened about 13,000 years ago. Now this group of people actually settled in an area that goes from Iran and Turkey all the way up through the Caucasus mountains into the Ukraine, maybe into Russia, over into Bavaria, southern Germany and even into the northern mountains of Italy as well as also reaching into India.

People could have settled in this area as long as 21,000 years ago, or 21,000 to 8000 BC. So my anscestors were actually the first inhabitants of this region that has been roughly described as the Balkans. They were Neolithic farmers and they built some of the first civilizations. No, they were not the Aryan invaders or the later invaders into that area. The Aryans began to invade that same area around 5000 BC, but the original inhabitants had been living there for well over 3000 years, maybe even 13,000 years before the hordes of the Aryans came in. I want to make a clear point that it is not the Aryans we are talking about. Not the Aryans with their warlike beliefs.

The Aryan patriarchal dominated society is the group I will call social enforcers or false prophets and we will see later what I mean by that. I am talking about an ideology that will fit the category of false prophets as opposed to the true mystics or organic gnostics who were the earlier first inhabitants.

Around 1500 to 1000 BC, the Semites came. This obviously included the Semites who were led by Moses out of Egypt and they also ended up in the southern regions of this area. These Jewish people, the Semites, were highly literate. In fact, all of these people were highly literate. I’ll get into that later, but this group of people, the Semites, I am going to call rational atheists because their beliefs were very intellectual, including logic and reason, but they did not really recognize an afterlife or the continuation of awareness after the death of the physical body. They had their own beliefs which even though classified as a religion I’m going to call somewhat atheistic as opposed to that of the true mystics or organic gnostics.

These original inhabitants also lived in the city of Babylon. In India they were called the Dravidians. I don’t really know what they were called in other areas of the Balkans and other East European areas. But these are the people I’m talking about and it’s interesting to know that they were mostly goddess worshipers and devoted to the sacredness of life.

They worshiped nature. They held the the feminine sacred and they had partnerships where the men and the women actually lived on reasonably equal terms so they were not male-dominated. The female was revered because it was the female who brought life into existence and Gaia, mother earth, was considered female because Gaia brought life. The goddess also brought death because life and death went hand-in-hand, and in those days, birth was a dangerous thing because so many women died during childbirth. There were a lot of infants that died at birth as well so the idea of birth and death were tied firmly together.

These were the two sides of the goddess and the male’s role in this was to be in-service to the goddess. It was also known how the energy dynamics of soul development worked through the exchanging of Tantric sexual energies.

It’s interesting that the Dravidian’s in India retained a lot of the Tantric practices and beliefs but they also appeared in ancient Crete. The Minoan culture was very open and free about human sexuality, and equality. They also had a very very modernized civilization that had running water.

The arts were highly developed in Crete and again showed the same equality of the male and the female in social roles and they were not warlike. There were no massive fortifications to protect the populace from invasions. They were mainly farmers and agrarian’s.

It was around 5000 BC when these three groups of people all congested and converged into this area that we are talking about. The original inhabitants whom I’m descended from were peaceful agrarian’s or farmers. Then came the Aryans that were warlike and basically decimated the entire area. A little bit later the Jewish and Semite people brought a third influence into the region. These groups of people were literate. They had a written language. They were literate and that literacy is an important concept to be talking about later because it was the invention of literacy that brought about a revolution is the concept of religion and spirituality, one that was dominated by the male perspective through the invention of reading and writing.

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Rafe regarded him gravely a minute before answering. There are not many people claiming sanctuary in the winter. Some of these people have been Apprentice for three or more years. They might remain Apprentice for the rest of their lives if they don’t grow up and train someone. They either have no interest in training or no one wants to train with them. Some people pick a partner to train, fall in lust, become sex partners and don’t care about advancing. Then there are others that want to advance and simply not enough people to train. It is highly competitive and you really have to hustle if you want to advance.

I’ve made some enemies. You’re my sixth trainee in a year. No one else has ever done that before.

Another thing is that I’m younger than most of the people here. Some of the older people really resent me. They not only resent me. They resent the newbies I’ve trained because I’ve taught them to be competitive too. Some of these old timers are finding it almost impossible to get anyone to train. They don’t want to camp out at sanctuary for weeks at a time waiting for someone to show up like I did waiting for you. They are getting older and blaming the people I’ve trained for taking all of the newbies.

There are some hard feelings out there and some day something is going to happen. That’s why you have to be careful. Not everyone here is friendly. Some people would like to see you or me disappear or come up with a broken leg or something. Watch you back brother, watch your back.”

Tobal thrilled at being called ‘brother’ but a chill feeling of dread swirled around his tailbone. What had he gotten himself into, he wondered? The events of last night’s party were hazy and he didn’t remember much. He did remember the initiation though and how powerful it had been. He said as much to Rafe.

“You’ll have plenty of opportunities to participate in other initiations and experience them more completely.” “In fact,” he grinned, “you can have an active part in every circle and initiation from now on if you choose. It is an important part of your spiritual training. That’s how we do it out here.”

As they walked toward the center of the camp Tobal was surprised at how big it was and how many permanent log buildings had been built. This was his first real opportunity to see the camp in daylight. There were permanent structures like the sweat lodge nestled near a clear pool of mountain stream water. Others seemed to be just empty sleeping quarters. The larger log building where they were headed was the galley and stood out from the others.

Teepees were being taken down and put away. It seemed some of the empty buildings were used for storage. The teepee seemed to be the favorite for those desiring a little more privacy. They were built with long poles lashed together at the top and spread out in a conical shape at the bottom. They were covered with the gray woolen material that seemed to be used for just about everything out here. Many were insulated with heavy furs fastened over the woolen material and tied into place. Tobal wondered in an amused way how many trips through the sanctuary building had been made to get that many of the gray blankets.

They were not the only ones getting ready to leave. Many others were already leaving or saying their final good-byes. Tobal was trying to remember the names of people he had met and failing miserably. He felt good though and found himself looking forward to next month when he would see them again. In the galley they had a final breakfast of cooked venison, wild onions and sweet potatoes. With bellies stuffed packs and canteens full, they picked up their walking sticks and headed out of the camp.

They didn’t go back up the cliff but went down further through the valley and into the foothills. Rafe explained that nobody stayed near Heliopolis. His camp was about 40 miles away from sanctuary and there were other camps even further out. Most people stayed no further than thirty to sixty miles from the gathering spot though. Everyone was expected to find plenty of food and game in individual areas that were not over hunted and fairly private. It was mainly a nomadic existence, especially during the training phase. So you followed the food.

At various times of the year animals would migrate and move out of one area entirely and into others. Winters were hard and people set up permanent camps with stored food caches to help survive when fresh food was hard to find. This time of year the weather was mild and the days were warm and beautiful. The snow was rapidly thawing and new shoots of green vegetation ensured they wouldn’t have to worry about adequate food in a few more weeks. There were small animals and new plant life everywhere they looked although it was still too early for any insects.

Shortly after leaving the gathering spot Rafe said, “Give me your map.”

Tobal handed Rafe his map and Rafe marked an “X” on it. “This is my main camp,” he said. “We will be heading there first. That’s where I will show you how I make things and what a permanent camp looks like, especially in the winter. We’ll stay there a week or two while I teach you the basics you will need to know. Then for the last two weeks we will go out and find you some new territory to solo in. Ok?”

Tobal fought a knot of icy fear and managed to nod in agreement. He wasn’t quite certain about how easy this was going to be. Two weeks didn’t seem like very much time at all.

“Ok, then,” said Rafe. “You know where my camp is now so you lead the way!”

Tobal was momentarily confused. Then he understood and took his map back. He studied the spot Rafe had marked and compared it to where the mark for the gathering spot was. He knew they were about ½ mile north of the gathering spot and tried to orient himself on the map. The map showed Rafe’s camp lay about 50 miles in a northeast direction. Damn, he thought, Rafe certainly isn’t one that likes living close to the gathering spot. It would take a hard two days getting to his camp, maybe even longer if the terrain was really rough.

He noticed something else. Rafe was making certain his map had sanctuary, the gathering spot and Rafe’s own permanent camp on it. He felt a warmth of gratitude toward Rafe for that. If anything went wrong he would be able to find help if he needed it.

Tobal sat down with the map trying to puzzle out the best way to get to Rafe’s camp. He noticed that it was in some very rough country which meant it would be at least three days and not two.

“I don’t know if we can get to your place by going in a straight line.”

Rafe grinned evilly, “It looks like 50 miles in a straight line but it’s more like 100 the way we’ve got to go. It’s going to take us almost four days to get there.”

Four days! Tobal suddenly felt very vulnerable and unprotected. How in the world was he supposed to survive in this God forsaken place? He fought a rising panic and looked at the map again more carefully. Four days meant they were going to need water. He noticed a small stream 25 miles away and decided to make that their first camp. It was a little out of the way but he felt it was a good idea to stay close to water.

He studied the map some more and decided the second day they could head straight north and set up a dry camp. The third day would be another dry camp and they would reach Rafe’s camp sometime on the fourth day. They would also reach water on the fourth day before reaching the camp. He explained his plan to Rafe and showed him the map. Rafe studied the map thoughtfully.

“Ya, We can try that.” He said. “You did a good job thinking about what you were going to do and made a plan. You also remembered we need water and that’s very important out here. It looks like a good plan and I’m willing to try it with you. Lead the way.” He said.

Tobal pulled out his cord and undid all the knots in it. He aligned the red line on his compass for a northeast heading and surveyed the landscape seeking the best pathway through it. Choosing his route between trees he set out purposefully with Rafe following cheerfully behind him.

It was rough going the next three days. He didn’t need to worry about water because it rained all the way to Rafe’s camp. Tobal was glad for the makeshift woolen poncho that kept him halfway warm even when it was wet. It was miserable travelling.

He made a hat to keep body heat from escaping out the top of his head. It was welcome protection from both the sun and the rain since Tobal had fair skin that burned easily. Rafe had been insistent he had some type of head covering. One of the quickest ways of loosing body heat was not having your head covered. Sun stroke and sun burn could be dangerous killers. In the wilderness these things were not to be taken lightly. Tobal learned to move carefully and deliberately in the rain and slick mud.

Rafe continued his education by pointing out and gathering herbs. The unceasing rain made the snow disappear almost overnight. He explained about tinder and how to find good dry firewood even in the rain. Tobal learned to always have enough dry tinder and kindling to start a fire. He carried it with him in a pouch on his belt. The pouch was created by cutting some of the fabric off the poncho. He used the sewing kit to sew it together. He also used the sewing kit to mend some of his socks.

He made it a habit to gather small pieces of firewood as they went along so he didn’t need to look so hard for it at night. While it was more weight to carry, it was easier than looking in the rain and darkness for dry wood.

Each evening Tobal would select the campsite and start the fire under Rafe’s supervision. Together they would gather the rest of the evening’s wood and take turns preparing the meal. At night they set snares for small animals. In the morning they would check the snares and sometimes they would be lucky. Often they would find only an empty snare.

They couldn’t get warm enough in the constant drizzle but the fire did feel good even if they couldn’t get dry. During the day they also hunted for small game. Rafe and Tobal each cut a long strip of fabric and made a sling out of it. Together they practiced with small stones at various targets. The first day Rafe hit a rabbit and that night they ate rabbit stew. There was always some kind of greens for a salad.

Small animals were not all they would eat. Rafe showed him how to break open rotten logs and find the grubs within them.

“They are better cooked in something.” Rafe grinned as Tobal fought off a wave of nausea. “Still, they are better than not eating at all. The large wood ants have a lemony flavor but you need to make sure you bite them hard before swallowing or they will try to crawl back up.”

By water they set traps overnight for fish and set snares for small animals. If they caught anything it was usually a rabbit or squirrel and went into the stew or was simply roasted. They ate the fish immediately.

At noon every day Tobal triangulated his true position on the map and made small corrections in their course. At times he rethought the best route to Rafe’s camp from their current position. The wilderness often looked much different than it did on the map and the differences took some getting used to. Some areas that looked passable on the map certainly did not look inviting in real life and other times it seemed appropriate to take a short cut that had not been considered.

In all this Tobal was the guide and Rafe simply listened and followed. Once in awhile he would make a comment about some of the changes in the plan that Tobal proposed but he went along with them. At times Tobal realized he had made a mistake and hours were spent retracing the way back to their starting point. Still, with each success and miscalculation he learned more about both reading the map and moving through rough country.

Late afternoon of the fourth day they arrived at Rafe’s base camp. The rain had stopped but they were soaked to the bone. It was a secluded valley and Rafe had to show Tobal the hidden entrance or he would never have found it. The main camp was a large teepee with several small outbuildings made of logs. He had his own sweat lodge built next to a small mountain stream. There was also a rack for smoking meat and making jerky. The first thing they did was get into some warm dry clothes and fix a decent meal.

The rest of the first week passed quickly. They stayed in the area and set traps for fish and snares for smaller animals. Tobal learned the ways of each animal he hunted. Rafe showed him the game trails and what the individual tracks of each animal looked like. They smoked the fish and other meat so it would keep and not spoil.

In the evenings at the campfire Rafe had him work first on a bow and then on some arrows so he could hunt larger game. He learned how to skin and dress the smaller animals like beaver, muskrat and mink. He would carefully stretch and dry the pelts for later use as winter clothing. He learned the basics of tanning leather and made his first leather crafted items. The weather was turning too warm to be wearing furs anymore and the pelts would soon loose their value as the animals shed their heavy winter fur. He could always use some leather though and concentrated mainly on tanning leather.

Each morning they explored the area, checking game trails and sneaking up on animals without trying to kill them. They had plenty to eat and practiced stalking larger game animals like deer and mountain goat. During the following week Tobal learned more about tracking and how fresh an old track might be. He was getting fairly good with the sling and practiced every day with the bow.

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Through the Flower
 
I can’t tell you the flower’s name,
Which is like your soul.
It must burn a deep scarlet,
Such flowers wilt easily.
 
And when its red charm is gone,
It wants to become young again.
And must deep down in the sand,
Fertilize with its own blood.

-Richard Dehmel
translated by Joe Bandel

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