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Chapter 12

Circle that month was eventful, Tobal had never seen eight people get initiated at the same time. The initiations started early and they continued late into the night. Everyone was tired and the party didn’t get going until well after midnight. After the initiations the drum circle began and it was party time. In all it was a good time and the night went by very fast. It was early August and the sight of naked bodies dancing wildly around the central fire was as intoxicating as the home brewed beer.

One of the wilder dancers was Zee. She beckoned him to join in the dance and on impulse he threw his robe to the ground and leapt into the circle of cavorting bodies, giving himself away to the driving rhythm. The energy in the circle was intense and the drummers never seemed to tire or stop.

Later during a break she was leaning on him with her arm around his shoulder and he felt her breast against him. She told him she was sitting out the winter and wondering if he would like to partner up with her. He was flattered and she was an inviting partner. Regretfully he squeezed one of her cheeks.

“I’m sorry Zee, I’m going to be training newbies all winter. Otherwise I would, really.”

“Fine then,” she pouted and abruptly turned back to the dance.

Kevin had been watching and came over casually asking how things were going.

“She’s really something, isn’t she?” Kevin watched her retreating rear move in time to the drums as her braided raven hair flew about like a whip.

“I think she’s looking for a winter partner,” Tobal volunteered.

Kevin shot a quick look at him, “Are you interested?”

“No, I’m training newbies this winter.”

“That’s really hard they say,” Kevin glanced once more at Zee. “I’m not even thinking about it myself. I might have to go over and introduce myself.”

Kevin chuckled and drained his mug of beer. He set it down beside his robe and disappeared into the dance slowly working his way over to Zee and cavorting his lanky muscular body in front of her.

Tired of the dance Tobal donned his robe and headed to the keg for another refill of beer. He noticed Melanie and Becca sitting off to the side. Neither of them had joined in the dance or partied much. It seemed they preferred each other’s company to that of the group. As he approached Melanie looked up.

“Hey Tobal, is it alright if Becca goes with us. We can all travel together and get to know each other better.

He muttered something about it being all right with him and made an excuse to go look for Nikki and ask how things were going with her newbie. There was a lot of tension between him and Becca and he didn’t know how to make things better, hell, he didn’t know if he wanted to make things better. He was irritated at how close Melanie had gotten with her though. It looked like they were best friends or something.

Tobal avoided Ox who was drunk, belligerent and telling stories about training his last newbie. Ox was complaining how no one could get newbies any more because some people were taking them all and not training them properly. Everyone knew that newbies needed more than a month to train before they could solo. He didn’t think the elders should have let Nick solo and he was letting everyone in camp know about it too.

The next day it was more fun travelling with the two girls than alone Tobal reflected. Even if they did tease him a lot. They seemed to have boundless energy and a sense of fun that made the trip go by quickly. He found himself laughing with them in spite of his normal taciturn self. They were both surprised when he told his first joke and pinched each other to see if they were awake or not.

Winter was going to hit the mountains and it was a pleasant surprise to find eight newbies at sanctuary. This was the last chance to get training in good weather before the winter months hit. Most Apprentices didn’t like training during the winter because it was hard enough to survive alone without trying to teach someone else He figured that was why both Tara and Zee had asked him about partnering up for the winter. He was even considering asking Melanie if she wanted to partner up with him for a month or two. The timing just never seemed right.

Two other Apprentices were already there. They had missed circle to get newbies and it was just dumb luck there were enough newbies to go around.

Early August had blasts of cold that reminded Tobal of the bitter winter months ahead. He needed to be thinking about his own permanent winter camp. During the winter travel and temporary camps were both dangerous. Winter clothing was essential and food critical to replace the heat given off by the body.

In addition the nights were longer and there was less sunlight. The chance of getting caught in mountain storms was very real and likely. Rafe had talked some about winter survival but there had not been any need to do much preparation then. Now it was time to do some serious thinking and integrate it into his training.

Tobal found himself with his third trainee. To his delight it was Sarah. He had forgotten she would be claiming sanctuary in the late summer. When she saw him, she raised a scene by running over and hugging him. She refused to go with anyone else and there were a few tense moments. Since there were enough newbies things were soon straightened out and everyone was happy.

The days were getting shorter and travel would soon be getting harder. The leaves were turning and there was not as much ready vegetation for fresh salads. They relied on dried fruit and meat. They scavenged for herbs and nuts that would be impossible to find after the snows came and began collecting and drying them. They stayed on the lookout for Hazelnuts, acorns, walnuts and chestnuts.

Acorns needed to be roasted but any nuts were good protein for the winter months and kept well in storage. Some tubers and inner bark of trees were collected to be made into flour later on. Tobal was hoping to make some bread this winter if he could figure out how to do it.

Trapping became the most important thing since they needed furs to make clothing for the coming winter. The easiest fur bearing animals were the beaver and muskrats. They spent much time near the streams during that first week living off fish and small animals they snared. They even tried eating beaver and muskrat. Tobal decided he could eat it if needed but used most of the meat for baiting traps and snares for more pleasant tasting game.

The skinned pelts needed to be fleshed by scraping off every bit of fat, flesh and membrane from the back of the hide and then stretching it on a stretching board with the fur on the inside leaving it to dry. It was hard nasty work that dulled knives and took up most of the day.

The muskrat pelts were stretched over specially whittled and sized boards but the beaver pelts were stretched in circular wood hoops and laced into place tightly. The wooden hoops were made by steaming the wood and gently bending it into the desired shape and then lashing the wood tightly into place. This was also the way snowshoes would be made later when they had more time.

After the pelts had dried a few days they were tanned with a cooked smelly mixture of brains, bone marrow, and liver spread liberally over the hides, worked into them and left for a few days. The foul mixture was then washed off and the process of “pulling” the leather began. Enzymes in the bad smelling mixture softened the leather enough to tan it.

Pulling the leather was a process of bending it sharply and making it pliable. This was done by pulling the pelt across the sharp edge of a stone or around a small smooth wooden pole set in the ground. After the pelt was soft and pliable the last step was for the tanned side to be smoked so the leather would not become stiff after it had gotten wet. It was only then the pelts could be cut and sewn into winter clothing.

Making the stretching boards and the stretching frames took several days and Tobal knew Sarah would not be ready to solo at the next circle. There was too much to be done. By the end of the 2nd week they had trapped enough beaver and muskrat for their own use and were busy tanning and smoking the pelts. What worried him was they hadn’t had time to do much else and the weather was getting colder. They were running out of time.

He worried about Melanie and Nick. He had not taught them much about tanning leather and making winter clothing because it had been the middle of summer. Rafe had not spent much time on it because the weather had been getting warmer. But he had shown Tobal the basics of tanning leather and making winter equipment. Rafe had also shown Tobal his own finished products at his base camp. Tobal still had things stored away at Rafe’s camp and he needed to get them.

Rafe was no longer available and busy with Journeyman things. It was Tobal’s responsibility to make sure those he trained were able to survive the harsh mountain winters. Most Apprentices would simply hole up in their base camps and wait the winter out.

Rafe had told him the entire purpose and spirit of being an Apprentice was to learn and train people to survive during any time of the year, not just the good months. In fact, the reason Rafe trained six people so quickly was because he trained them in the winter when few people were willing to train. Last winter medics on air sleds twice sought out Rafe and told him there was a newbie waiting at sanctuary that needed training and they asked if he would do it. They only asked this of the best and most experienced teachers. Rafe had even talked them into giving him an air sled ride to sanctuary so he didn’t have to travel in the bitter weather any more than was needed.

In the snow travel would be almost impossible unless snowshoes were made and now was the time to be making them. The green wood needed to be steamed until it could be bent into the snowshoe shapes and then lashed together for drying. They would be laced later.

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Passion Flowers
 
They stand on the table,
Creeping around from out of a green vase,
Twisting, rambling, over here, over there,
Pale and wan, like consumptive lips.
Passion flowers!
Like a dying, torturous last gasp,
Like the scream of a drowning boy,
Passion flowers!
And they tremble and perfume,
Painfully and abusively,
Weak and diseased, pathetically coughing,
They tremble and look at me in hesitation,
Half complaining in pain and half vengefully,
Like the sundering eyes of the gallows birds!
—Oh, I know you, pretend flower,
Know you and your entire proud relatives,
I know Genoveva, and poor Heinrich,
Know the suffering fool on the cross
And all the chosen knights
With pale cheeks and gaping maws!
Know all of you! And hate all of you!
—hello, pale flower, voluptuously soft,
Just waft your Nazarene poison here:
I am immune and I grab you
And crinkle and tear tendrils and blossoms,
And with a healthy curse
Throw everything
Out through the window,
Into the dirty, stinking street!
—Passion flowers!

-Hanns Heinz Ewers
translated by Joe Bandel

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Defining terms is important in communicating with others. The following concept is about “actuality Vs reality”. Actuality is what exists in the universe. We might never know it because it is so complex and based in chaos theory. What exists might be so complex the human mind might not be able to perceive or understand it.

Consider that animals are able to smell scents we are not aware of. The honeybee can see colors we are not aware of. There are many life forms living in our world that sense things we do not. It is almost as if they are living in a different world. We are limited by what our outer and inner “senses” tell us and we call that “reality”.

The scents we can’t smell and the colors we can’t see are not “real” to us and are not part of our “reality”. It is our subjective view of “Reality” that we live and act in.

There is also a “collective reality” we agree on most of the time. For example we agree to drive on the right side of the road if we live in the United States. There is a paradoxical element about actuality and reality.

The closer our “reality” approximates “actuality”, the more successful our efforts will be. If we believe in a fantasy that is make believe it will never manifest results in physical life. If it works use it. If it does not work…throw it away. We are interested in results and in fulfillment of our needs. We are not interested in perpetuating illusion and superstition.

Another aspect of this issue is that a “close minded” person will achieve much more than an “open minded” person. The close minded person has no doubt about what is right and what is wrong. He or she does not hesitate to do what he or she feels is needed. For personal empowerment we need to be “close minded”. This will grant us certainty and keep us tightly focused on our goal.

The trick is to be “close minded” in a healthy way. We do this by perfecting our personal view of reality or our “paradigm”. In following our “inner authority” we get flashes of insight and personal “truths” that gradually become our “reality”. When we find our “true path” and “True Will” we know what is real for us. We become “close minded” in confidence that we are doing what is best for both ourselves and we are also helping the entire human race.

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The dream interaction with your “soul mate” in the first soul mate cycle marks the beginning of the grade of Magus and the struggle to complete the Great Work. These soul mate interactions create phase-locked astral energy that is extremely powerful.

When this contact is made a new “resonant” circuit is formed between you and your soul mate that nothing can interfere with. At this point you can begin living the life that you truly want to live in that the fixed etheric levels have been purged of oppositional and negative influences.

It means that you can hold these negative influences at bay indefinitely because you are stronger than they are. It’s marked by a dormant period in physical life where everything seems to be at a stalemate. You can’t get ahead but you won’t back down to the opposition either. All of your energy is spent in holding these oppositional forces at bay. With each lunar cycle you make slow gains and increases in self-empowerment. The opposition becomes less and you become stronger.

The entire process is completely automatic and requires only a regular input of all types of energy to ensure total success by anyone. In fact, this process will also work with the spiritual energies and the “soul mate” cycle without the addition of the sexual energies but it will take a lot longer because spiritual energy is not as dense and heavy as sexual energy.

There is a real problem with “phase-locked” astral creations that must be clearly understood. They will resist every possible effort to become physical events and objects. This is why this is called the Great Work. To bring these astral creations into physical existence requires an unlimited source of energy and the will to go against the will of the entire world. It involves forcing and racking the astral planes until they have no choice but to give you the things that you want.

Opposites attract each other and you will automatically attract astral events to you that you don’t want and you will repel the events that you do want. The astral events that you don’t want will be attracted to the “fixed” Akashic records to become physical events in this lifetime.

The astral events that you want will repel themselves from the “fixed” Akashic records and form the basics of your next lifetime, the one after this one! You can have these things in your next life after you die! This is the way the process works unless the system is forced into giving you the things you want now in this lifetime.

This is why it is easier to prevent something negative from happening by forcing it out of the fixed etheric planes than it is to impel a created astral event into physical reality. It is easier to destroy than it is to create!

In the same manner the good life experiences that you now enjoy were earned and placed into the “fixed” Akashic records only after the death of your past life. That is the only reason that anything good is happening in your life at all!

Obviously this is not acceptable to us because we do not want to wait until our next lifetime for the things that we want now! There are three things that we can do to get the things that we want in this lifetime.

The first is known as “black” magic because we take the astral creations that someone else has made and make them our own. Because these astral creations are not made from our own energy they are not repelled and will enter into the “fixed” Akashic record to become physical reality during this life time for us.

There are important limitations to this type of magic. Because these astral creations are not our own they will never truly satisfy us. We will never be able to get what we really want out of life. In addition, we are causing pain and injury to the ones that are victimized by us and we are neglecting our future lifetime.

This path will cause our next lifetime to be without any of the things that we really want. Instead it will be an entire lifetime of tremendous hardship and suffering. For these reasons alone it is unacceptable to follow this path.

The second possibility is that of “group” magic. This type of magic is very effective in bringing astral events into physical reality but it also has its limitations. The way it works is that the other members of the group will energize and create things astrally for you that you desire to have. Since it was created by others it will not repel from you and will enter into the “fixed” Akashic records to become a physical event. If you do what society wants you to do, then society will reward you in many ways. It is the path of the conformer to the demands of the collective.

In the same manner you will energize and create astral events for others that they desire and help them to become physical reality. This is most common in prayer and healing circles where the group gives its energies to other members of the group.

While this method does bring good positive things into your life they will never really be just exactly what you wanted. It will always involve the compromise between what you wish and what the collective wants of you. Your true wish and true desire will never be fulfilled in the way that you want it to. You must always settle for second best and for less than you really wanted. For this reason this method is best left for emergencies and for a general willingness to help others with good will. It can’t hurt anything.

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After thinking things over I’ve decided to start an Organic Gnosticism Facebook group. It is a closed group so if you are interested you will need to type Organic Gnosticism into the search bar. Then you will need to request to join and I will let you in.

This is a group for people that share some of my own interests and just want to socialize, share their own thoughts and stories and get to know each other. It is also a place where you can ask me questions to help clarify some of my posts if you want. So this is a place for all kinds of discussion related in some way to Organic Gnosticism.

In the last few months I’ve posted over 450 posts on the core essence of the Western Mystery Tradition as I understand it and framed it in modern concepts. That was mainly to introduce myself and let people get to know me a bit and what I believe in. I’ve wanted to have a safe place for open discussion and the sharing of personal experience for several years but it has never happened. I want to connect with people like me and you are very hard to find!

If you feel drawn to the energy I channel please come and join me in the new forum!

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Tonight we are going to talk about the soul. The creation of the soul and how there are too many souls and not enough bodies to go around! When self-awareness or the sense of self, the ego becomes stable enough and integrated to the point where it no longer identifies with the physical body, It is able to exist after the death of the physical body in a limited sense and that’s part of what we are going to talk about. That’s what the mystery schools discovered. That was the byproduct of the invention of reading and writing that I’ve mentioned in my last few posts.

Now this new born soul, watcher self or Observer self may identify itself as an individual soul, it may identify as part of a collective group soul or if it’s not strong enough it can still identify as a reincarnating ego or higher self that holds the fragments of the self together enough to go from lifetime to lifetime.

The soul needs a physical body or it will begin to fade away. It might exist for thousands of years, but it will gradually begin to fade away and return to the original photon state. The connection of awareness with the physical body creates a resonant circuit and it feeds the physical body which actually creates the soul and supports the soul. The soul in return supports the physical body. They create a circuit. They need each other.

Now there are not enough physical bodies in the universe for the number of souls that require them. That’s because there’s not enough life in the universe and that is why life is so sacred. It’s why earth is such a special place because there is so much abundance of life here on earth. We want to keep it that way! Life has evolved in other places in the universe and is still evolving but these places are finite and limited. Much life has been destroyed.

We share this world with our space brothers and sisters, alien souls that did not evolve on our planet, but evolved on other planets. Most of their home planets are now dead and do not have life upon them, and that’s part of the problem. Their home planets became lifeless when they ascended. Many of these souls did not understand the need for physical life, the need to have a physical body, the need for that reciprocal relationship and they allowed that life to die. There are so many of these life forms, these souls.

Now they tell us to leave our physical bodies as fast as we can. They say that eventually we must all return to Source from which we came. And this is what is really sinister, they tell us that over eons and over thousands of years our souls will gradually return to Source. But that return to Source actually means that our souls are going to dissolve into nothingness.

That’s not a good thing and that’s not what Source intends for us! But that’s what their message is. By evolving to the point of leaving the physical body behind they have scorned the importance of having a physical body and it is coming back to bite them.

There is one group of pre-existing souls that was present at the birth of our planet, and they have guided and directed the evolution of life upon this planet since the very beginning. They’ve been called the fallen angels, and they have been incarnated into all of the lifeforms that now exist on Gaia.

They’ve embodied the plant life. They’ve embodied the simple animal life. They’ve evolved along with every form of life present upon earth and acted as oversouls or guiding souls. But the simple life upon Gaia evolved as well and followed its own evolutionary process to the point where it became human. This simple life became human and did not have a strong enough sense of self, a strong enough sense of ego to be fully conscious and fully individual.

But they were beginning to and that’s the point when our space brothers and sisters came. When these primitive first humans began to gain the ability of self-awareness for the first time the alien souls of our space brothers and sisters began incarnating into physical bodies. For the first time these human bodies could support their own higher awareness.

I’ve talked about these two groups of humans that originated from our space brothers and sisters and they are alien souls. They are the rational atheists or collectivists that belong to a hive mind and to a group soul. They don’t have any concept or awareness of the spiritual or metaphysical side of things because it doesn’t exist for them, Their sense of identity is identified not with themselves, but as member of the group mind.

The other group of souls that began incarnating into primitive human bodies were what I call the social enforcers or traditionalists. They came in with individual souls and with a superior sense of self and strong ego. They dominated the weaker humans. They wanted to create a master slave relationship with these young humans and they did.

The more highly evolved group, the original fallen angels tried to minimize that effect as much as possible because they understood the importance and the sacredness of life.

But the social enforcers did not recognize the sacredness of life and their whole message was one of anti-life, death and destruction. Leave the physical body and go to the spirit world of heaven. Deny the physical body and the organic wisdom hidden deeply within the DNA.

Life was cheap with these people. And in today’s world there’s a war going on because this particular group of people is intent upon destroying the existing life upon this planet! That cannot be allowed to happen. In contrast, the other collectivist group of rational atheists are not that great either. At least they want to have life on this earth, and they want to have it in good terms.

The original fallen angels have an alliance with the collectivists even though it is not always in the best interests of the original simple folk, the people of heart, the people that are just developing their sense of self for the first time. Their new born souls also wish for life and for abundance and they don’t want to be caught up in this destructive thought, this destructive worship of death.

This anti-life self destructive cycle is currently trying to work itself out. We are in a battle for Gaia and for the survival of our souls.

Right now the anti-life forces really need to be identified so that they can be confronted and stopped.

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Nick was strong and liked working with his hands building things out of stone. He got the idea of chipping flint much more easily than Tobal, which was good, because it was just about the only thing Nick found easy.

They spent most of their time trapping and hunting. Tobal wanted to be sure Nick would be able to get enough food when winter came. Nick was a total klutz in the woods and seemed to lack an intuitive sense about anything dealing with animals and hunting. But they kept at it until he was getting good results simply from repetition. Nick was a person that couldn’t be told anything. He had to learn by doing it himself and that took time.

It was a long hard month but at least the weather cooperated. Nick was a little slower than Melanie was. He required more work and didn’t get things quite as quickly. There were times when Tobal’s patience wore completely out and he felt ready to explode, especially after going over the same thing for the fourth or fifth time until Nick got it right. Nick required a lot of personal attention and hands on experience but once he got it, he really got it and he was ready to solo by the time of the next gathering.

Nick was the only one of five new initiates ready to solo and that made quite a stir within the clan. Tobal was proving himself to be quite a trainer following in the footsteps of Rafe and even doing a little better as long as his students were trained properly and he knew they were. The elders were inclined to agree and allowed Nick his solo after questioning him at length about what he had learned. The weather was getting colder and they were getting more careful.

Nikki, Kevin and Zee were each spending another month training their newbies even though they would be initiated tonight.

The elders called Melanie and Becca to the front of the circle for completing their solos. Then it was his turn. He had his 1st chevron sewn on his shoulder and it felt very good indeed.

“Hey Melanie! Wait up!” He hurried to catch up as they headed to get robes. “How was your solo?”

“Oh, I found the perfect place and it’s not that far from yours,” she said excitedly. “It’s east of yours on the other side of the stream that feeds into the lake. I’ve already started building my base camp. You need to stop by and see it some time.”

“I will,” he promised. “Is it easy to find?”

“Give me your map and I’ll mark it for you,” she held out her hand for his map.

“I don’t have it with me,” he said. “It’s in my pack.”

“Well, let’s get it then,” she said and they wandered over to his pack. He handed her his map and a pencil. She put a quick mark on the map and he looked. It was about ten miles east of his own camp and in some even rougher territory.

“I know this is going to be hard to find,” he told her. “You might have to show me how to get there the first time.”

She smiled quite pleased and replied. “Sure, I’ll take you out there anytime. I really want to train one newbie before winter sets in though. I’m leaving very soon.”

“Well, good luck and take care of yourself,” he gave her a hug and a kiss. “I miss you a lot more than I’m going to miss Nick. Say, I’m going to sanctuary after circle. If you want to we can go together.”

She laughed and waved as she turned around. “Let me think on it. I was going to leave before circle. I’ll get back to you.”

With that she wandered over to the food table and he went back to where the robes were being given out and changed into his. Angel was handing out the robes this month. Most clan members wore tunics during the day but were required to wear robes during ritual. Everyone was responsible for their own robe and was expected to turn it back in by noon of the next day.

“I see you’ve got four chevrons now.” He kidded her. “Your leg must be getting a lot better.”

She laughed, “I beat up one of your friends to get it.”

“Really,” he said suddenly interested. “Who’d you fight?”

“Oh, it was just Rafe,” she said. “But he really is getting better. I used to feel so sorry for him getting picked on all the time and then it was my turn and I thought “why not.” It was a tough fight though. He almost beat me.” She grinned, “Don’t tell him that though. That’s just between you and me ok?”

“Ok,” he said, but was already thinking about kidding Rafe and went looking for him.

Tobal roamed the gathering spot talking and mingling with his friends and other clansmen. Everyone seemed friendlier then last month. He spent time talking with Wayne and separately with Char.

Wayne was a burly salt of the earth type that was friendly and open. He and Char had been the first one’s to welcome Tobal into the clan and make him feel wanted. He always made a point to speak with them and see how they were doing. Wayne had one chevron because he had trained Char. They had stayed together over the past winter and summer but there were growing problems. They both needed to train newbies and didn’t want to loose each other as romantic partners. Char wanted to leave and train someone else over the winter.

“I think she’s tired of me and doesn’t love me any more,” Wayne complained to Tobal. “She wants another boyfriend. If she thinks she can do that, I’ll rip his head off.” Wayne stamped his foot on the ground in anger. “I don’t want to share her with anyone else.”

Tobal didn’t really know what to say since his own track record with girls wasn’t that good. He patted Wayne on the shoulder and tried calming him down.

“Hey, things might not be all that bad,” he said. “Tell you what. I’ll go over and talk with Char and see what’s up. Will that help?”

“Thanks Tobal, I’d really appreciate that.” “I owe you one,” he said.

Tobal went looking for Char about the same time Tara walked by with Nick. She was getting him pumped up about his coming solo. Tobal thought he knew what was on her mind but it wasn’t any of his business so he kept his mouth shut. He remembered going up to her one night after seeing her dancing naked at the drum circle after ritual. There was no doubt she was hot and liked to have men look at her. Under ordinary circumstances he might have been inclined to take up her offer to spend the winter. Nick was old enough to look out for himself.

“There you are,” he called out as he caught up with Char at the roasting pit where she was cooking a monstrous venison roast. Char was a stout round faced blond and the best cook in the entire camp. Her cooking was legendary and this roast was no exception. It looked and smelled wonderful. A roast that size took several people to handle and there were five or six others taking turns watching the roast, turning it as needed and coating it with spices and sauces. There were three fire pits with different things cooking in each one. The cooks kept an eye on all of them and helped each other as needed.

“Need any help?” He asked with a smile.

“Sure, turn this for a quarter turn and hold it if you would. It’s not balanced right and that spot never gets cooked enough.

Tobal did as directed and levered the roast around. She had been right. It was not balanced properly and wanted to fall back to its original position.

“There’s got to be a way to hold this in place,” he complained. “Do you have any rope around?”

He let the roast drop back to its original position and rummaged around for some lashing material and a long pole. He set the pole up with the lashing material so it worked like a very long handle that would spin the roast. It was not pretty but it did lock the roast in several new positions for more even cooking.

“I talked with Wayne.” He ventured cautiously.

Char sighed, “I’ve been out here for one year and I still haven’t trained anyone. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life living in a teepee. Wayne doesn’t understand that. He’s like a big child yet. He thinks this Daniel Boone stuff is fun.”

“Well, I don’t,” she said”. “ I’d like a regular bath with warm water and soap, nice clothes and both of us leading a normal life, even having kids some day. I love Wayne and want to spend the rest of my life with him, but I don’t love him enough to spend it out here. We both need to train six people and get to the next level of training.”

“ I understand,” Tobal told her. “I’m trying as hard as I can to train people. I want to be a citizen and don’t have any intention of living this way the rest of my life.” He added, “I’ve often wondered when the two of you were going to start training newbies. I knew you were in love but it seemed like it couldn’t just go forever without training people. Maybe you can talk to Wayne like you did to me and let him know how important it is for you to start training. Winter is a hard time to train anyone though.

“Yes, I suppose I’d better try talking with him again,” she sighed “but he is slow as an ox at times. He’s a Taurus you know.”

“So am I,” Tobal grinned at her. “Well I’d better be going. I think circle is about to start and I want to be there.”

He gave her a hug and a kiss and walked back toward the circle. If she was talking about kids he didn’t think Wayne really had much to worry about.

Later he kidded Rafe about being beaten by Angel but Rafe wasn’t in a good mood about it and changed the subject quickly.

“Hey you remember the dark haired girl that initiated you?” Rafe asked.

“Yeah, what about her?”

“Her name is Misty and she only needs one more fight.”

“I already knew that. I was talking to Angel about her last week. I thought maybe you had something new about her.”

“Not really but she is kind of fun to talk to. I wouldn’t want to fight her though.” Rafe joked. “Pretty soon babies will start challenging me and then I might win once in awhile.”

“You will get your turn Rafe. Don’t worry so much about it. Angel said you almost beat her.”

“She did?” Rafe eyed him hopefully. “What else did she say?”

“I wasn’t even supposed to say that,” Tobal shrugged. “You were just feeling so down I thought I had to say something. I know I’m really going to have trouble fighting when it’s my turn. Still I try not to think about it any more than I need to.”

“How long do you do guard duty for the initiations anyway?” He asked to change the subject.

“This is going to be my last month,” Rafe said. “Then I’ll get some other duty. Did you know we lost two Apprentices already this month?”

“What do you mean ‘Lost?” Tobal asked curiously. “I thought the medics looked out for all of us.”

“Oh, I don’t mean they got lost in the woods or died,” Rafe corrected. “I mean they got fed up and headed back to civilization before winter set in.”

“People can leave?” Tobal asked in surprise.

“Sure,” this is a voluntary program and you can leave anytime you want. There is nothing keeping you here except two hundred miles of wilderness. Remember New Seattle is only a hundred and fifty miles straight south of here. You can make that in three or four days pretty easy.”

“I had forgotten all about that.” Tobal said. “Do people take time off and go to the city once in awhile for fun?”

“It’s not allowed,” Rafe said. “If you get out of range of the air sleds and they can’t monitor your med-alert bracelet you are considered to have quit the program and need to start all over from scratch. Each year someone finds that out the hard way. Most of the times a medic will stop you and give you a warning though.”

Changing the subject Tobal asked, “How’s Dirk doing anyway? I feel real bad about what happened last month at Melanie’s initiation. I should have warned her or something.”

“No, people aren’t supposed to know what’s going to happen. Dirk is doing fine and his wound is healing fine. That whole thing was just bad luck, that’s all. Dirk’s a good sport and taking it pretty well even though some of the kids are razzing him.”

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In a Boat
 
I sit quietly in a little boat
And look into the deeps
To me it is, as if with endearing sounds
The voices of my sisters call.
 
They misunderstand, taunt me
The other children of men,
I am fragile, easily wounded,
So strange, timid and blind.
 
How they pull me from the world and light,
Into the immeasurable deeps,
I have certainly arisen from out of the ocean depths
And have never forgotten them.

-Mia Holm
translated by Joe Bandel

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Our individual needs are complex and each person is different from their neighbor. Still we can simplify our needs into broad general categories.

The important concept is to live “balanced” lives, giving attention to each major area. If we devote too much time and energy to one area, the areas we have neglected will create problems for us.

The ancients used astrology and the twelve houses to categorize our individual needs.

They are:

Ego and self
Money and possessions
Travel
Family
Romance and Love
Work
Partnership and marriage
The Occult and death
Higher Education and Law
Our public image
Our hopes, dreams and wishes
Our restrictions

My apologies to any astrologers for mistakes I might make in this. It is simply a map or grouping of life’s major areas. We need to pay attention to each area in a balanced way if we want to be successful in life.

I hope to create a forum or discussion group on Steemit called Organic Gnosticism where people can discuss the wisdom of life and these 12 areas to offer a well-rounded experience and fun place to visit. This should be in place by the first of the year.

This helps to ensure vital areas are covered for a balance approach to living. In addition to devoting time to each of these areas there are seven other personal areas to be developed. The most obvious deals with our physical need to stay alive in physical bodies. This includes body awareness, awareness of the environment through the physical senses, our ability to live in the moment. It also deals with the ability to stay alive.

Our physical and etheric bodies require nutrition and exercise to remain strong and healthy. There is a requirement to “live in the present moment” and develop these needs to the fullest capacity. It is through aerobic exercise we develop our ability to manifest our dreams in physical reality. There is nothing magical about this.

We have our sexual needs and instinctual drive to perpetuate the human race through reproduction. This requires us to openly confront our sexual needs and interact with a partner in order to fulfill them. Repression of the sexual drive has caused death and perversion. Feelings of guilt and shame have made something beautiful and sacred seem dirty and ugly. We need to cultivate healthy attitudes about sexuality by finding an appropriate partner.

Joy, laughter, music and creativity are emotions that make life rich and rewarding. These are feelings that make life worthwhile. Have we set aside time to play each day?

Follow the way of our heart. What do we stand for? What things are sacred and make us who we are. What concepts and values define us and how others to see us. We need to believe in who we are and what we stand for. We need to believe in ourselves and in our ability to achieve personal happiness. There can be no compromise because we need to live with ourselves and the voice of our own conscience.

In communicating with others we learn we are not alone in our experience. Our ability to learn from others and to learn from our own mistakes allows us to progress and develop in life. It’s good to learn social skills and teach others what we know. We learn from others what we need as well.

We all have glimpses of insight that involve a “knowing” and perceiving of “archetypal” reality. It is through these intuitive “flashes” that our internal authority will reveal personal truth. These intuitive “flashes” form our personal paradigm or view of reality if we have enough of them and trust in them.

It is our personal view of reality that determines our physical actions and how we attempt to fulfill our needs. We do what we think is right, even if it is wrong. The more we listen to our internal authority, the more we will do the right thing.

It helps to remember we are all brothers and sisters, common members of the human race. We can’t hurt someone else without hurting ourselves. We are a part of the earth and what we do has purpose and is important.

Each and every day we should exercise our physical body, devote time to our primary relationships, play and have fun, do or read something inspiring. We can challenge our intellect by learning something new. Meditate and commune with our inner authority and lastly, reflect on the unity of all things and how each has it’s own place and time.

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Entry into the solar and lunar cycles establishes contact with one individual that will act as a “soul mate” and replace this mixed opposite sex energy with pure opposite sex energy. This dream connection will establish astral bodies that are “pure” and permanently activated.

A soul mate is described as someone whose energy is of the same frequency as your own and is able to “phase-lock” with your own energy. When your energy “phase-locks” with your soul mates energy astral creations will also be “phase-locked” and very stable. In effect, for the male one power source continues as “light” and the other “earth” power source establishes itself as dream contact with a physical female that he may or may not know. This female taps into the “earth” energies at the frequency needed and has a surplus that she gives to him.

For the female the process is reversed in that her source of “earth” power remains the same but dream contact is established with a physical male who in turn provides the “light” power source of the proper frequency for her use.

What is happening is that you are being given access to non-spiritual opposite sex energies via dream contact. A person will probably share energies with several “soul mate” type encounters. This as a type of rough draft, first draft, final copy, and revised edition where one “soul mate” at a time is contacted and as much is done as possible.

It appears to go through a cycle for each main type of energy. The first dealing with abstract spiritual concepts and the cosmic cycle. The second and third dealing with mental energies, global and international events. The fourth and fifth dealing with emotional energies and personal issues. The sixth and seventh dealing with the etheric energies needed in establishing the causal link that will allow you to achieve physically that which you have astrally created. Each cycle is personally empowering and creates a “future” for you.

Each cycle involves serious disruptions of the “fixed” etheric levels, but each time the disruption is less and acts as a minor fine tuning that corrects and alters key areas of your life that are already embedded within the “fixed” etheric levels and your “future”. These types of astral creations will resist almost all efforts by others to alter them and will belong exclusively to whoever created them. At some future time they will eventually become physical events for whoever created them.

It is assumed that anyone who has worked through the exercises of chapter four successfully has attained to a connection with such a “soul mate” and has become aware of the influence of the lunar and solar cycles. Such a person has crossed the Great Abyss and has attained the Grade known as Magister Tempi. They are now a “babe of the abyss”. Much of the inner work has been done and the various astral bodies have been activated with spiritual energy.

Magical and mystical schools will have their students study obscure and difficult material for years. They will teach methods of meditation and ritual that are designed to gradually bring students to this point. Many of these students will never achieve the grade Magister Templi. The techniques given in chapter five will allow anyone to achieve this level safely in as little as six months!

Once a person is opened to the lunar and solar cycles as described above there is no need for further instruction because the individual Master Within will teach, direct, and guide that person. His or her eventual progress and development is assured. These greater cycles will take over the individual’s development. O. A. K. shows the shortest possible way to achieve this grade without the superfluous aspects that characterize most of these schools.

This is possible largely because of an understanding of chaos theory and how the energy dynamics really work. In the old schools many of the subjective experiences were attributed to different causes and efforts were expended that were contradictory in nature. What happened was that the student put out the energy and effort and gradually developed in spite of all that these schools could throw at them. Mastery of materials allowed the buildup of energy development required. As long as the energy escaped through some form of fuzzy thinking the energy could not buildup and development could not proceed to the next stage.

O. A. K. has a minimum of material to learn and is easily graspable. Personal time and energy are not spent learning dogmatic material but instead applied toward plugging the holes in one’s own personal philosophy of life and integrating with physical reality. This represents self-actualization at its highest peak of attainment.

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