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The child immerses itself in the world and is carried along by the experience without the ability to change it. The youth begins to understand by stepping back from life to more objectively consider it. The youth begins to live in their head. It is the task of the adult to go after personal dreams and make them become real. We can’t go after our own dream when we are following the commands of external authority, no matter how noble the cause might be. On the contrary, when we find our true path in life the entire world benefits as well and is supportive of us.

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The Strangling Hand
by Karl Hans Strobl
translated by Joe E. Bandel
Copyright Joe E. Bandel
The Strangling Hand Ch 1 pg 13-16

With a long last glance Eleagabal Kuperus parted from his souvenirs of the dead and turned to a table, which stood in the middle of the room covered with strange instruments, beakers and retorts. The wrapped head of the poet lay between sparking knives, lancets and clamps, so sharp and precise that it gave certain evidence of its reality, even though Emma knew that it had been left behind on the marble table in the domed hall. But she didn’t have time to think about it, how it could have gotten here, before the old man picked up the package with soft tenderness and began to unwrap it. As the head of her beloved appeared, a sharp pain began to climb out of the deeps, as she saw that it had begun to decompose. The eyes lay deeper, the mouth gaped open and was covered with a dull foam. Gory blood stuck to the severed surface of the neck. Under the equalizing power of death the head had lost its freshness and now showed a dull humanity, which a richer and finer spirit had once struggled to overcome.

The scrupulous finger of Kuperus lifted the lids from the eyes of the dead. The spouse, who had done the work of washing the corpse herself, watched the moderate hands work with strong emotion which she sensed as almost a rape, as this man held it as a friend cuddles what was dearest to herself.

“You are welcome here poet, far more welcome than any of the others who would despise my work.
Now you are restored,” and after a short thought, Eleagabal Kuperus added a short sentence from out of the Book of the Dead. “Even the greatest is only a cobblestone for the roads of the public to destroy.”

The spouse stood there astonished: “You know his words.”

“I don’t live in the world, yet I live with it. Should I tell you something similar? The eternal point remains unmoving, where equal forces cross each other, which are striving in opposite directions. It also exists in all streams and takes on different aspects as it flows. I live in this point called the present moment, and pour myself into every possibility. Yet the best and finest thing is to rest in peace. Everything comes to me, and I merge more deeply with the world.”

He raised his hand. “Go my dear friend. You brought a stream of beauty and love. My most diligent skill will maintain the memory of your spouse for you. You must never carry any guilt about this, because immortality can only be preserved with hands of love.”

He reached into the marble wall and hastily lifted the network of vines up to allow the Frau to step back into the domed hall, where the servant with the wolf’s face waited, in order to escort her out of the house.

She stood quietly before the door for a short time and looked over at the Cathedral, whose immense weight, seemed to have increased in the night and the heavy, unmoving fog, pushing it down into the hill upon which it stood. Tired and flickering gas lanterns fought the darkness which crawled up to the foot of the Cathedral and pulled itself up the walls, as if the ground was seeking to pull it in. She was seized with the thought that she might be singled out for attack by a drunk in these empty streets, and even more by the notion that she was afraid of the sinking Cathedral. She didn’t dare leave the door of Eleagabal Kuperus.

Through the uncomfortable play of the darkness and the gloomy lights a stone face magically appeared on the front of the Cathedral with a broad talkative, but now closed mouth. There was a broken balcony and above the high arched windows appeared two mismatched silent and stubby towers. They were so misshapen and alien that they grew out of the massive structure like a finger that springs out from a head. After the impression of harmonious peace and wisdom, which Emma had sensed in the domed hall and the museum of Eleagabal Kuperus, this Cathedral across from his house appeared to her like a lurking monster of stone. One with a scornful, contorted smile that leered at the hand over the door, prepared to strike some fearful, murderous blow if it had the chance.

In the same way that the meerschaum mask of a warrior, the terrifying painted shield with the head of Medusa on its polished armor, or the locked visor of a helmet bewitched at the sight, so did this sinking Cathedral in the darkness. The friendly gestures of hospitality, which greeted the oppressed during the daylight, transformed during the night into a procession of unquiet, murmuring voices filled with a malicious joy that spread fear and terror.

And now – ever more clear, came a sad and unrelenting melody from out of the confusion of voices, rising up – a sad and unrelenting melody. A long, drawn out, dreary song, which lingered on a few notes, climbing up and down as if it were sounding a warning. Something wasted and bleak lay within it, like a breath, which comes from over infinite planes, which has uprooted all life from out of a magical world, something poisonous and offensive, like the wind that blows over a field of slaughter. This song, this unbearable, monotonous tune seemed to come from out of the solidly closed mouth of the Cathedral, as if it was searching for some way to escape. The wailing of this monotonous hum rose and died, and when it finally lost itself in the whispers of the fog, it never left the trembling Frau for a moment.

She knew that this was all related to her past life, when she was younger and had suffered under this same song, but she was not capable of finding her way free of it, and could not really say what was reality and what was dream. She just stood at the threshold of Eleagabal Kuperus and held on to the iron ring which protruded out from the carved wooden door. Some superstition and fear had her convinced that she would fall under the power of an enemy if she stepped onto the courtyard in front of the Cathedral.

Slow steps came from out of the darkness, which echoed dully and repeated against the walls of the houses. The night had produced feet and wandered across the courtyard in front of the Cathedral. But it was only a watchman, who came through the fog with heavy legs, tired from long service, and his movements were like those of a drunken sleepwalker. In the thick fog his movement appeared aimless like the movement of a ship that has lost its direction. He came up to the Frau, looked sharply into her face with a penetrating glance, was about to say something about single women walking the streets at night, but then turned and walked back up the street, stopping under a street light. He stayed there, prepared to perform the duty of his office if needed. The tip of his helmet began to glimmer under a ray of light, as if it carried a little blue flame.

His appearance broke through the spell of this place. Then Emma once more gathered her courage. She let go of the ring, whose coldness had frozen her fingers, and walked across the courtyard, between the two ill tempered saints of stone, around whose raised arms the thick fog collected and she climbed back down into the city. The cold, leering eyes of the saints and the echoing footsteps of the watchman followed her.

 

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When we were children we immersed ourselves in the world without thinking about it. We wanted experience, not awareness. As we became teenagers our awareness grew and we began to distance ourselves from reality and live in our heads. Today that has become a real problem. We need to get back to our hearts.

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Three of Pentacles

Symbol– Lumberjack wants to embrace her
She hands him ax instead
Meaning- attraction

He has used her high level physical energy as encouragement to achieve those things in life that he wishes for. He is at an all time peak of popularity and success. Still he wants more. He wants her. He tries to get her into a serious relationship with him.

He is beginning to generate low level physical energy and he is sexually attracted to her. He is motivated by lust and other lower level motivations. He tries to force his attentions on her and gain her interest.

The result is that she gives him her excess low level physical energy and encourages his sexual advances to a point. She is still not ready for a sexual relationship and tries to divert his sexual energy into other physical activities.

Low level physical energies are not only sexual energies, they are also the energies of abuse and violence. If he or she has a personal history of violence or abuse these will be activated at this time.

This may include violent fights and quarrels as well as potential rape or enslavement. The point is that he receives her energy through a type of physical domination and she is at this point physically at his mercy, much depends upon the type of person he is. This is potentially a dangerous time for her.

She senses this danger and tries to defuse it by diverting his attention into more harmless areas, areas of non-personal physical activities. This may or may not work.

Male experience:

He is at his peak both physically and socially. He is successful in his life’s goals and thinks he can have anything he desires in life. He wants her and he wants her sexually.
He is powerful and confident and moves in on her easily. He tries to become sexually involved with her and when she resists his advances he tries to force her with his will power. If that doesn’t work he may physically try to force her into doing what he wants. He won’t take no for an answer.

Female experience:

Suddenly she becomes aware of the dark and dangerous side of this charming person that she had been attracted to. His sexual advances seem threatening instead of pleasurable and she senses that he wants control over her.

This turns into a battle of wills that is very dangerous for her and may even lead to physical violence or rape if she is not very careful. He won’t take no for an answer and she is powerless to make him go away. She tries to divert his attention to more harmless subjects and that may or may not work.

 

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Are you bigger than the stick? Do you remember as a child when your will was so strong that it became stronger than the fear of punishment. What happened? Do you remember when there were consequences to our actions? That was three generations ago, three generations of people no longer needing to experience the consequences of our actions, both good and bad. Look at what our world has become! The world demands discipline and it can either be self-discipline or externally imposed discipline. Why does it always need to be externally imposed discipline? I believe in self-discipline so strongly that I have become so fed up with the idiocy of the left that I have felt compelled to join the NRA, not because I care about guns, but because I care about personal freedom and liberty!

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Two of Pentacles

Symbol– He places her on a pedestal and brings her gifts
She reaches down to him in love

Meaning- movement

He begins to generate high level physical energy and constructively work toward the things he wants in life. After he achieves his goals he will find the right person. What is important for him now is that he gets on with life.

He has compassion in his heart for the loneliness and suffering of others. He is a gentle and productive person and others respect him. As he interacts with others he becomes less lonely and more supportive of others.

Others become physically supportive of him and his efforts. He receives excess female physical energy that combines with the energy he is generating. They physically encourage him in his efforts. This energy helps him to continue the struggle of his solitary physical lifestyle and his labors to achieve the things he wants in life. He has female friends.

She sees him as a very attractive hardworking man that has a lot going for him. She gives him her excess physical energy in the form of support and recognition. She is interested in spiritual things and these are the things she sees in him. His lofty ideals and his spiritual nature that is also applied constructively in physical activities.

She is a slave to the circumstances of her past karma but knows that as soon as her karma is over she will begin to live the improvements in life that she has earlier astrally created. She is trapped in the present moment.

In the meantime she laughs with good companions and enjoys the solitary life as much as she can. She enjoys his company because he makes her feel good but there is no relationship, only a casual friendship.

Male experience:

He is content to lead a solitary life and is a highly spiritual person. He is a hard worker and well liked by others. Others give him public support and encouragement, especially other females. They see him as having a lot going for him.

This public support helps encourage him in his efforts to get ahead in life and life goes a little better for him right now.

Female experience:

It is better to lead a solitary life than to be in a relationship with the wrong person. She enjoys the company of good friends and companions and avoids serious relationships. She is lonely but she is learning to live with her loneliness.

She has no real public support and is just an ordinary personal in the eyes of society. She tries to remain in the background and maintain a low key type of lifestyle. Something that she is comfortable with. Something that is really her.

 

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How do you know what’s best for me? We are all unique and have insights that are unique to our personal experience of life. How can hive minded collectivists presume to act in my own interest? Or your interest! We need to empower ourselves, not external authorities. Why is it so important that we must have the same beliefs and values?

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Ace of Pentacles

Symbol-Half male and half female figure

Meaning- union

At this point both the male and the female are freely generating spiritual, mental, and emotional energy. They each have a strongly developed psychic sense. They each have strongly developed astral bodies and they have each astrally created potential futures for themselves.

They both have a good understanding of the opposite sex and realize that no one can fill the emptiness within themselves. If there is something missing in their lives it is because they themselves have made that choice. No one else can make us complete. We must find completeness within ourselves.

The lesson learned is that when you feel that you need someone of the opposite sex you will never find the right person. Only after you have accepted the loneliness and found peace in a solitary lifestyle will you find the relationship that you seek.

Anyone and everyone is potentially a perfect mate because we are all part of the same universal soul. We are all part of each other. It doesn’t really matter who you have a relationship with if it is a good one.

Male experience:

He is content to live the life of a bachelor and find peace and joy in doing physical activities. Being and doing unite as much as possible and he is able to lose himself in the moment of day to day living.

He discovers the Goddess within himself and seeks to understand more of his feminine nature. He grows above his personal limitations and accepts himself as a sexually attractive person. He understands death and realizes that he is an immortal soul.

Female experience:

She is content to live alone. If she never finds the right man that is okay with her because she has him in her heart. She is a Goddess and life is opening up to her in total aliveness.

She does what she chooses and acts with gentleness and love. She is reborn and realizes once more that sex and male- female relationships are good. She knows that she needs sex for a full and complete life.

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We are told to care about everything except our own mental, emotional and spiritual health. Why? Why is it always only external authority and never the internal authority of one’s inner conscience. What is so dangerous about following our conscience?

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