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The exposure to the concepts in my posts is an initiation in its own right that needs to be discussed. In one way or another this is the way initiation has always been. It begins with exposure to new concepts and dots begin to be connected within each individual’s own paradigm of reality. An awareness and understanding once expanded can never return to the smaller box it originally lived in! That means each new connection and illumination bring changes to the psyche that can’t be undone, only modified.

The intent of my posts is to offer antidotes to toxic concepts that already plague and torment humanity. They are meant to spark original thought and to be left behind when one has found their own truth. A true catalyst leaves nothing of itself behind!

These posts consist of what I call the OAK material, short for Order of Anarchistic Knights. I might also say short for Organized Applied Knowledge! This knowledge is woven together so tightly that it creates a matrix that is self supporting and self sustaining. It is all connected together in some way even if that connection is not readily apparent.

Entry into such a matrix is a one way street. Once you start on the path of Organic Gnosticism there is no going back! The thing to be pointed out is simply that these posts reflect my own personal matrix and you need to develop your own! Traditionally by offering my own matrix you can sort through it and take from it things that you like. By making this material public I am less likely to get into magical duels because your own matrix will not be as likely to conflict with mine and it might even be supportive of mine! This creates a win-win situation for everyone!

So exposure to these concepts is an initiation in its own right, and the soul growth and development of the Organic Gnostic gradually increases as the material is integrated and the catalytic effect is gone. That point has it’s own grade of OAK Minerval. But in any magical system the first step is exposure to the energies and concepts of that system. The right people will be attracted and the wrong people will be turned away. That is the way it has always been.

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Today we are going to talk about physical life and the soul. The physical body creates the soul, the Observer self or the ego and it’s actually a byproduct of the invention of reading and writing. It was discovered that this watcher or Observer self exists far beyond the death of the physical body and is immortal. But it was originally created by the physical body and that is why physical life is the most important thing in the universe!

That’s why physical life is so sacred and why Gaia is so sacred now. Once the soul is developed it can exist for thousands of years without a physical body. I’m not going to argue because that does seem to be the case, but it will gradually dissolve and lose awareness until it fades away into nothingness If it is not reunited at some point in time with a new physical body. That is why I have shared that the soul requires a physical body and a million years from now, a billion years from now, the soul is still going to require some form of physical body.

This whole concept that the soul is going to merge back into Source is not what’s meant to happen because life is meant to grow, become more complex and explore all things. It’s not meant to dissolve back into nothing and anyone that has had the mystical experience of merging back with Source can tell you that once you merge back and are embraced with that Source energy it will gently send you back out into the world again.

That’s the truth. So this whole concept of going away and leaving the physical body behind forever is false. The idea is that we bring heaven to earth, not that we go to heaven! I’m also going to admit there are entities or beings that exist within the astral and they may have at one point existed within physical bodies. Either that or they are tasked with holding the fabric of physical reality together and the time will come when they also have to make the choice of living within physical bodies.

They will need to decide if It’s time to come back and experience life in a physical body to renew their soul so that their soul can grow and develop. A lot of spiritual teachings through the ages have said that being in a physical body and experiencing physical life is an important opportunity for rapid soul development. These souls or awareness’s without physical bodies don’t have opportunities for rapid soul growth.

The main way these souls develop is through interaction with people who are all already in physical bodies and then they draw life force energy from those people.

Now I’m going to talk about three types of people. The three types of people I’m going to be describing have already developed souls or are in the process of developing souls for the first time.

I call the first group organic Gnostics or true mystics. They have a physical genetic connection with all of life on Gaia as well as a spiritual connection. They are able to go as high as possible in a physical material way, but also in a nonphysical, mystical and magical way. They are able to integrate their own shadow and higher self aspects and that is what makes them so powerful. That is also what makes them so threatening to the two groups of people that I’m going to talk about next.

These are the rational atheists and the social enforcers. The rational atheists and the social enforcers are space brothers and sisters with pre-existing souls that have incarnated in physical bodies to experience physical life and continue the development of their own souls. But both groups are extremely different and they both lack a spiritual genetic connection to earth. So when they are here in physical bodies. They don’t do so well unless they enlist the help of the true mystics or the organic Gnostics.

There’s a big difference between enlisting the help of the original inhabitants and trying to enslave them! That’s what historically has tried to happen!

The rational atheist group can be extremely intelligent but they believe in hard science. They believe in logic and reason, and there is no spiritual. There is no afterlife. They don’t recognize any paranormal activity at all and back before before the time of Christ, this group was called the Semites. Today these souls can be of any race, creed, religion or nationality. But the nature of their soul still remains the same.

Generally speaking, they do not believe in an afterlife and do not believe in the soul. I’m giving a blanket description of the rational atheists and you can find them in any country and in any nationality of the world. But this is their internal wiring and they come into physical bodies with a strongly developed sense of the group soul.

They tend to be collectivists, and instead of self they think of race. They think of the collective hive mind and the higher good of the whole. You get the picture. I’ve talked about them before.

The social enforcers or the traditionalists are extremely psychic and they can perceive things in the astral but they don’t understand that the astral is mostly made up of ghosts of the past. They can’t creatively fashion a new future so they remain stuck in a repeating loop of history that keeps repeating itself over and over. That’s why they are called traditionalists and history does tend to be circular. Time does try to repeat itself, but it’s never the same. So the social enforcer’s traditionalist view of things is not entirely correct,

As the soul grows and develops it has new requirements. The social enforcers have the idea that life on earth is sinful and unclean and they deny the physical. They deny the physical body. They believe in a life after death and that’s what’s important. They also believe in merging back into Source. They have glorified this to the point where they are willing to destroy life upon earth to go back to God.

That makes this particular group of people perhaps the most dangerous group of all. We see this group of people in the religious fanatics of the world today!

We can share the common goal of making this earth a paradise with the rational atheists, even though they don’t understand the spiritual realities that we experience. They want a beautiful heaven on earth just like we do!

The social enforcers on the other hand, are intent on destroying everything that life has created so that they can leave the physical bodies in which they feel trapped.

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Chapter 10

Now that she was calmer and accepted the situation things went smoothly. He helped her go through her equipment and made sure she was wearing her med-alert bracelet. He explained about sanctuary, how the food and water were safe to drink but really nasty tasting and how everything was calculated to encourage people to leave as soon as possible.

Tobal showed her the compass and map and which items were more important than others were. He advised her to grab a couple extra blankets off the beds and showed how to pack everything tightly into a pack that she could carry.

He decided to wait out the rain. There was no sense traveling in such bad weather and he spent one more day at sanctuary getting to know Melanie and teaching her how to use the supplies. He explained about the maps and compass and how to read them. On the morning of the 2nd day the rain had stopped and it promised to be mild and clear. The sun was shining. The air was fresh and clear. It was a perfect day for traveling and he started by having her triangulate their location and finding it on the map.

In high spirits they headed straight for the lake cross country to the South East where his main camp was. Melanie was leading the way and tying knots in her cord every ½ mile. Since her steps were shorter than Tobal’s she used a higher number of steps before tying the knot but the principle was the same.

Things didn’t go as smoothly as they had when training with Rafe, especially since he had lost most of his emergency supplies in the flash flood. They did not have much food in reserve and at first needed to rely heavily on the nasty tasting stuff they brought with them from sanctuary.

Melanie proved a quick student with an animal instinct toward self preservation and survival. Tobal made a walking stick for her and showed her how to use it. As they traveled toward the lake he taught her many of the things Rafe had taught him. He taught about testing food to see if it was edible and collecting herbs as they went along. She caught on to snares with an uncanny sense of how animals thought and where they made their trails.

More times than not it was Melanie’s snare or trap that held the rabbit or quail and not Tobal’s. She turned out to be a much better trapper than he was. He comforted himself with the thought they had plenty of meat and spent a few days smoking jerky and building up their emergency food supply.

Melanie proved to be a natural with a sling and said she played a lot of baseball as a kid. She was already skilled in archery, which she learned in high school. She had been on the school archery team.

There were less than 24 days until the next gathering and Tobal wondered if Melanie would be ready. He suspected she would given how fast she caught on to things. He would know for sure by the gathering and pushed the thought out of his mind.

As they drew near base camp his spirits rose and he began describing the beautiful place he had found. She was a good listener and never seemed to tire of his stories and descriptions. Tobal was a good instructor and leader. All thoughts of Becca Morgan were forced out of his mind by the demands of teaching Melanie and he pushed her to the limit. Still there were nights he lay looking up at the stars wondering about and dreading the next gathering when he would see her again.

Melanie thrived in the outdoors environment. Her face became tanned and happy. Her body became hard, brown and sinewy. The bruises on her face disappeared and her laughter was infectious. She became relaxed and easy with herself and with Tobal. The only unusual thing was how she always seemed to have a knife in her hands, sharpening it, tossing it up and catching it, spinning it and even throwing it. Her speed was unnatural. Once they startled a quail at their feet. As it burst into flight she threw her knife with blinding speed and killed it. She took the tail feathers of the quail and wove them into a pretty necklace she wore around her neck. She said she would be making a cloak out of them one day and he believed her.

It was four days when they reached the lake. Tobal looked around his camp with a mixture of shock and grief. There was nothing left standing. It had been vandalized and burned until nothing was left. Two of his food caches had been plundered but luckily they hadn’t found the third in a hollow spot of an old tree and sealed with rocks for protection from squirrels and other animals. As they opened the cache and divided the food Melanie started a fire and began making supper. Tobal wandered the ruins in stunned disbelief with tears stinging his eyes wondering why anyone would have done this. Gradually grief gave way to intense anger that rolled in his belly and glinted harshly in his eyes. He started looking around the camp for signs of who had done this thing.

He found some tracks and sign but wasn’t good enough at reading them to discern much about what had really happened. Obviously three people had come along and destroyed the place. All of his hard work was gone and his supplies ruined. It was hard to tell what was missing or just scattered. He was able to retrieve a few tools. Everything else was a loss.

The attackers left no trail to follow. Not wanting to stay in the remains of the camp they set out around the shore of the lake. There was a waterfall at the far end of the lake where a mountain stream fed into the lake and Tobal wanted to explore that. He had noticed it on his first trip around the lake and something about it called to him. Now he wanted to check it out more closely.

The country was rough and they were careful to keep their own trail hidden. The next camps Tobal and Melanie made were small and well hidden. They now knew why no one else built anything on the lake. It was an obvious target for anyone going up or coming down stream. It was simply not safe and asking for trouble to build there permanently.

The end of the lake with the waterfall was very rocky and difficult to travel. There was no shore and the rock simply dropped down into the water. What Tobal had in mind was finding some way to go upstream and explore with Melanie a couple weeks until the gathering. Perhaps he could find a better place to set up a main camp. With this goal in mind they struggled through the maze of rock, boulders and vegetation until reaching the edge of the water on the left side of the waterfall.

The waterfall was thirty feet high and you could tell it was ancient since it had once been ten feet higher. Erosion by water in the stream bed caused the rock on both sides of the stream to rise like stone pillars hidden by pine trees and forest vegetation. It was a small stream only ten feet wide. The falling water arched over a narrow ledge that disappeared into blank stone wall at the other end of the fall. Where they stood the ledge opened into a small patio like area that was flat and free of rock. It was less than a foot higher than the lake and formed a deep pool.

The water fell into the lake with a roar and violence that made the water churn and froth, but on the side where they were standing the water was inviting and made just for swimming. There was a ledge slightly below the surface of the water so a swimmer could easily climb back out after diving into the icy water. Tobal probed the hidden ledge with his walking stick and the shock of discovery made icy chills explode at the base of his spine. It wasn’t a ledge at all. It was the first of at least three steps that had been deliberately carved into the rock leading down into the pool of water. This was something he needed to explore more deeply on his own later.

The discovery of the stone stairs made him more alert and he carefully examined the small patio area where they stood. Melanie shared his excitement and enthusiasm. She finally found what they both were looking for. The cliff face jutted out in a rough and uneven manner. She had been following the cliff face and turned a sharp corner that couldn’t be seen from the patio area. In a small recess there were distinct foot holes and hand holds carved into the face of the cliff leading up the cliff where they seemed to disappear.

Tobal was first up the cliff and pulled himself onto a wide ledge that wasn’t visible from below. He helped Melanie over the edge and they both looked around with interest. There was vegetation since top soil had collapsed from above and fallen down. Trees, shrubbery and vines found footholds in the small layer of top soil and clung desperately to the rock.

Near the trees a narrow crack in the cliff face formed a small chimney that could be climbed by pressing the body against one side and gradually working up the remaining fifteen feet to the top. They took off their packs and cut one blanket into strips, braiding it into a short rope they used to lift their packs up the chimney.

Grabbing onto foliage and tree roots Tobal pulled himself out of the rock chimney helped Melanie out and coiled the rope putting it into his pack. At the top the soil was heavier and the foliage more dense and almost impossible to get through. The ring of foliage gave way to pine trees and the footing got easier. He could see what looked like a clearing ahead and started toward it.

They broke into the open and looked around in wonder at what had obviously been a camp. There were the remains of permanent shelters and kitchen area. Near the river was a large circle ringed with stone seats that must have been used for ceremonies and initiations. Further up a small hill were the remains of a sweat lodge and beyond that a patch of volunteer corn was still coming up in patches after all these years. It must have been fifteen or twenty years since anyone had visited or used the camp.

A large cairn of rocks dominated the middle of the site and covered with offerings. They were a strange assortment of man made objects weathered and destroyed beyond recognition of what they once had been. There was a haunted feeling that struck him and he had the sudden conviction he was looking at a mass grave of those that once lived here.

This was the place he had been dreaming about. People had once held gatherings here just as they did at circle. What had happened? How and why had they died? Had they known his mother and father? Was this the place Sarah’s mother and two brothers were buried? A certainty deep in his gut told him that it was. All these questions were turning in his mind, but even more forcefully was the instinctive knowledge that they needed to get out of here fast. They couldn’t be found in this place.

He knew with sick certainty this was why no one was allowed to build camps near the lake. There was some secret hidden here that was meant to remain hidden. It was dangerous to stay because they could be tracked by their med-alert bracelets. Medics would be coming soon by air sled to check on them unless they got out of the area quickly.

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Twilight Hour
 
Sweet, blissful, magical, twilight hour!
In the fireplace a bright flickering light,
Joy flashes from out of your face,
Jokes spray from out of your red mouth.
 
Then only sparks glimmer here and there,
Jokes and laughter gradually become silent,
Wrapping everything in soft darkness,
Until you sink down into my heart.

-Mia Holm
translated by Joe Bandel

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Before we are born we exist in the astral with the total accumulation of energies we have acquired during our past lifetimes. There are genetic and etheric bonds that link us to our future parents. Some call these bonds karmic bonds.

We choose our parents and they choose us. In giving us life part of both parents has united genetically and etherically to fashion a physical vehicle that can contain the energies making up our soul. At the moment of birth we are more alive and vital than we will be at any time in our lives.

Our Holy Guardian Angel is functioning in harmony with our Shadow. They both wish to keep us alive and healthy. We bring into this life the energy we carry with us from past lives. This energy supplements all areas of living as a form of grace or protection.

Our abstract spiritual and concrete spiritual bodies are developed and very active. Babies are very intuitive and capable of psychically knowing things about the environment.

Most babies are surrounded with spiritual love and light. They have strong auras. Their abstract mental energies are high. Babies have an intense ability to focus all of their energy on one thing at a time.

The ability to focus is so complete the need seldom lasts a long time. It is the opposite of a short attention span. In seconds they assimilate the usefulness of an object and become bored with it. See it. Taste it. Feel it. Hear it. Smell it. Break it. What else is there to do with it?

Concrete mental energies are awesome. A child learns as much or more within the first six years of life as in the entire rest of his or her life altogether.

Upper emotional energies make the lives of most children lives of happiness and adventure as new horizon after horizon opens before them in beauty and wonder. Life is a joyous exploration as the world unfolds in all of its splendor.

Lower emotional energy is strong also. Children get angry and stubborn when they don’t get what they want. They become adept at getting the things they want from other people.

Etheric energies are very powerful in children. Family ties are very strong and a child’s love for parents and siblings is unconditional.

At birth all of these energies are at a maximum within the newborn and only the parental bonds have been established; especially the bond with the mother. They flow through the entire body in an unrestricted manner. The energy of love flows through these bonds as well as others.

This energy represents the energies carried over from past lifetimes. As the child interacts with others and gains experience he or she establishes astral connections that draw this energy away in an expansive manner. The natural energy reserve is like money that is gradually spent through experiences with others. The world expands before the child and absorbs the child’s energy. The child absorbs the experience. This happens with each form of energy and represents the expansiveness and innocence of youth.

A point is reached when the child has given out his or her ready supply of energy. When this happens the energy flow reverses and what was an expansive experience becomes a restrictive experience. This reversal of polarity occurs normally in the troubled teenage years and marks what we have come to call the loss of innocence. This loss of innocence is very painful and will happen sooner or later at every level as our energy reserves run out. Our grace period has run out and we need to generate our own energy to stay alive.

The physical body can learn to generate these energies and slow or even reverse the aging process. It is extremely difficult for most people to generate all seven types of energy. Most are able to generate a few of them and they remain young in the areas that they have learned to generate energy. They continue to age in the areas of those energies they don’t generate.

The process is as follows:

1 It is easy to give away energy.
2 It is difficult to give away energy.
3 Energy is taken from us.
4 Energy is painfully taken from us.
5 we painfully are forced to generate more energy.
6 With difficulty we work and generate more energy.
7 We just feel a drain on us that is a mild irritation.
8 It becomes effortless to generate the energy and we once more have a surplus and the world expands before us.

This process can be followed with any of the seven energy types.

Abstract Spiritual

1 Easy to love
2 difficult to love
3 love is withheld
4 love is lost
5 love in face of rejection
6 love in spite of rejection
7 love without expectation of return
8 love unconditionally

Concrete Spiritual

1 easy to intuit
2 difficult to intuit
3 extremely difficult to intuit
4 impossible to intuit
5 intuit through trial and error-process of elimination
6 intuit from what is missing or not there
7 intuit shadow self
8 intuit true self

Abstract Mental

1 easy to focus
2 difficult to focus
3 extremely difficult to focus
4 impossible to focus
5 many fragments click together
6 refine big picture
7 broad paradigm
8 integrated personal philosophy

Concrete Mental

1 easy to learn
2 difficult to learn
3 extremely difficult to learn
4 impossible to learn
5 learn through hard work
6 learn through hobbies
7 learn from life’s experiences
8 Each moment is a learning process

Upper Emotional

1 easy to experience joy and happiness
2 not so easy to experience joy and happiness
3 extremely difficult to experience joy and happiness
4 joy and happiness seem impossible
5 irony and dry humor
6 a bitter-sweet joy in life
7 easy humor
8 regain joy and happiness doing things we love doing

Lower Emotional

1 use anger to achieve goals
2 anger doesn’t work as well to achieve goals
3 anger only helps occasionally to get goal
4 anger won’t get us our goal
5 anger works against us
6 anger creates problems for us
7 anger and frustration while achieving goal
8 anger in form of determination and stamina is used to achieve goal

Etheric

1 unconditional love of family
2 difficulty with family
3 extremely hard times with family
4 impossible family-leave home
5 impossible family-return home
6 new family-difficult adjustment period
7 difficult to accept new family roles
8 new family roles and stations accepted

In each case we can regain the ease and vitality we once had as children by learning to generate our own surplus of that type of energy.

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Vital life energies need to circulate freely within both the physical and non-physical body before they can become integrated and function as one complete unit. These energies flow through natural circuitry within the body. This circuitry is often blocked with repressed emotional energy that is trapped within the physical body and stored there.

There are many ways to release these pockets of trapped and repressed emotional energy. Rieki or massage can do it and so can yoga or other types of physical exercise. A more gentle approach is through some type of meditation that safely brings this energy into awareness. Freud’s method of free association does this. Dianetics Book One processing does this in an even more effective manner. The OAK Energy Ball Meditation does this even more effectively.

When these circuits are fully open a form of alternating bio-electrical energy is allowed to pass through that is responsible for most psychic phenomenon and conscious awareness experiences. When the current is allowed to flow only one way as in direct current these psychic phenomena are not likely to occur.

Radio and Television are examples of modern applications using alternating current. The alternating current or sinus rhythm is pervasive within the human body. This includes brain waves, nerve energy and heart beat. It is the lower energies of fear, pain, sexual energy and anger that block these pathways and accumulate to dangerous quantities within the physical body.

It is ironic that the development of these same energies in a free flowing and healthy state bring the most power to manifest things in life. They are the energies people regard as charismatic. The development of charisma and personal magnetism depends upon the generation and accumulation of these energies and their healthy use. Training in the martial arts is an example of a method of generating and developing these energies.

The development and accumulation of physical or sexual energies is not safe until the psyche has been purged of all past repressions and “buried” traumas that form black pockets of negative energy within the body. Development of lower energies tend to activate these pockets of “black” repressed energy sometimes resulting in “knee jerk” behavior where we do and say things impulsively without even knowing we are doing or saying them. This happens when the repressed and trapped emotional energy breaks free and travels through the nervous system.

In the medical profession this is called “psychotic” behavior and is not what we want to be doing! Instead we purge these repressed energies out of our system one at a time. The safest way of doing this is working from the “top” downward.

We do this by generating “mental” or “spiritual” energy and forcing increased bio-electrical energy flow within our bodies. The OAK process is in my opinion safe enough for anyone to use. As a precaution, though, people in poor physical, mental, or emotional health should not follow any of these procedures without their doctor’s consent. I am not a doctor. The following expresses my opinion about what is happening and why it happens.

I must stress the incredible power of this method. In a matter of days we gain an increasing number of “insights” into our personal affairs. At first these will be “insights” into our personal philosophy of life as our mental outlook begins to clarify and complete itself. This happens through working with mental energies.

When our belief system is complete enough our awareness will transfer itself to the mental level permanently. From this mental level we will be able to objectively deal with the “repressed” emotional pain and trauma from the past. Moving into the mental level makes working with past emotional trauma much safer.

Our ego will be centered at the mental level where it is safe and in control. This is very important because releasing this “black” energy into awareness is very traumatic. As I went through this process I was seeing a psychologist as a precaution to ensure I was in no danger of “losing it”.

The gains and personal insights I was making at that time were so remarkable my psychologist described my personality as “fluid”! At the same time my ego was very strong and plastic and in no danger of being fragmented in any way.

Anyone can experience the same rapid personal growth and may at times be alarmed. Most of the time we will be joyous at the chance to rid ourselves of these “ghosts” from the past that prevent us from living the type of life we really want. THIS IS THE REAL THING!

This meditation purifies both the physical body and psyche so it can handle the more powerful and intense sexual and physical energies. It also opens one up to the lunar and solar cycles whereby monthly and seasonal energies are added to your own personal efforts and personal development is greatly accelerated.

MEDITATION EXERCISE

This exercise should be done at least once a day and if possible twice a day. The entire exercise lasts only about ten minutes but its effects are felt throughout the day and the night in spontaneous “insights”, lucid dreaming, and a marked increase in psychic abilities in general.

STEP ONE

Seat yourself comfortably with your spine straight and your hands resting comfortably on your lap.

Take a few deep breaths to relax and get into the right frame of mind. Close your eyes and visualize a ball of energy about four inches above your head. Keep trying until you can visualize this ball of energy easily and vividly.

The action of visualizing a ball of energy “outside” of the body is a very complex action. It involves a high degree of abstract thought and is at first very difficult. It requires a lot of energy in the head area as well as the ability to focus this energy.

The most important suggestion here is that practice makes perfect. A headache may result from this exercise if a person is not used to abstract thought of any kind. This is not serious unless it persists. A few days of not doing the exercise should correct the problem.

This exercise causes increased blood flow and oxygen to the brain and to the pituitary and pineal glands stimulating them to increased activity.

The idea of step one is to gradually strengthen these glands and increase their hormone activity. They are the master glands of the body and control other endocrine gland activity. This is the first step in increased health benefits.

Visualizing the energy ball as a rotating ball of energy helps to stabilize the visualization. Rather than clockwise or counter clockwise I always felt better rolling it like a snowball with the energy going up the back and down the front. This is similar to the way kundalini energy goes up the spine and then flows down the front of the body.

After visualizing a stable rotating ball of energy about four inches above your head, begin to visualize a second ball of energy surrounding the pineal gland in the center of the brain. This will directly stimulate the pineal gland. Simply forget about the first ball of energy and let it be. Turn your focus on creating a ball of energy right in the center of the brain.

Do the same thing as before mentally rotating it to help the energy stabilize. You may feel a strange sensation in your head as you are doing this. Increased blood flow is going to your brain. When this ball of energy is stabilized go back to the first ball of energy that is above your head and refresh it.

At first it will be difficult to visualize two energy balls at the same time. Rapidly switch awareness from one to the other until both are visualized at the same time. Continue this until both energy balls can be visualized quickly and easily. Each ball of energy is created out of a different type of energy. Take your time and make certain you are doing the meditation correctly.

STEP TWO

With both energy balls clearly visualized try to mentally force them together into one big energy ball. At first they will resist going together because the energy is not “synchronized”. It will seem like trying to push two balloons together. You will sense the resistance. Be persistent and keep trying until both energy balls merge together into one larger energy ball.

When the energy balls do finally merge together into one big energy ball there will be a definite shift of awareness that can be felt. The center of the big energy ball will have shifted toward the back of the head and it will feel as if half of it is protruding from the top and back of the head. Before this both balls were centered on and over the middle of the head.

This will be accompanied by an intense sensation of light and energy as illumination. Some have described the sensation as getting a buzz or getting high. There will be no mistaking when the two types of energy fuse together. It is a very powerful experience. Some people have been frightened by the experience and refused to continue further with the meditation.

Now it will feel like a basketball sized energy ball is half in your head and half outside the back of your head. This feeling will be very pronounced and definite.

Two types of energy are now synchronized together and working as “one” energy. Try to maintain this “locked together” visualization as long as possible. “Spiritual” energy is directing and fusing with pineal gland energy and stimulating all of the endocrine glands in a beneficial way. The pineal gland is the master gland of the body and will begin to work with the spiritual energy and distribute it throughout the physical body.

This begins the process of physical rejuvenation and increased health with all of the glands “synchronized” and working together. This is your direct connection to “Cosmic Energy”.

STEP THREE

After successfully visualizing the big energy ball, visualize a second energy ball centered directly behind the eyebrows where the pituitary gland or “third eye” is located. Forget about the big energy ball and focus on the new energy ball rotating it as before until it is stable.

When this is clearly visualized try to merge the two energy balls together. As before they will resist at first but when they do merge there will be a definite shift of awareness toward the center of the head. The combined energy ball will be much larger and fit around the head like a fishbowl. The sensation will not be as strong as the first time but you will be able to feel the separate energies fuse into one single energy.

A distinct awareness of a very large energy ball that extends around the head will result. With this experience will come the absolute certainty that the pituitary and pineal glands are “phase locked” together with the third “spiritual” energy. This is the formation of a resonant circuit within the brain itself! It will try to maintain itself through the day. This is the reason for the incredible gains of this method. After a few successful attempts this will be a permanent change.

The “phase locked” condition also causes the “master glands” to work together more closely than ever before. This alters the operation of the endocrine glands in a more harmonious way causing subtle changes throughout the entire body and releasing trapped “black” energy.

A few successful attempts will result in a permanent change with all three types of energy “phase locked” together. At first it was hard to merge them. Now it will be hard to separate them from each other.

STEP FOUR

This step completes the construction of the basic “energy ball” used in the remaining steps. After visualizing the energy ball as described in the first four steps you have integrated the energy of the crown chakra and third eye chakra. These have formed a large ball of energy that is surrounding the entire head. Now visualize a second energy ball located on the thyroid glands in the center of the throat.

Spin the energy ball to help stabilize it. As before merge this second energy ball with the large one to create an even larger energy ball. This is more difficult than the earlier steps because of the sheer size of the visualization. The finished ball extends above the head a little and includes the throat area. The “phase locking” sensation may be more difficult to sense. Keep working at it until you sense all of the energies blending together. This may even seem like a fog of energy that surrounds you.

After the ability is gained to easily create this large “phase locked” energy ball there are several ways to strengthen it. My choice is to mentally rotate it from the top of the head forward like a ball rolling in front of me. This motion helps to stabilize and strengthen it.

At this point you have an energy ball made up of four different energies that have “synchronized” together as harmonics or octaves of each other. They are locked together in a “phase locked” circuit that resists change and seeks to maintain itself. Your point of awareness should be able to easily move anywhere within this ball moving from one type of energy to another.

When this point is reached there will be a permanent change taking place in your awareness. These energies will begin to bleed through into each other and open blocked energy pathways.

Your entire day will be filled with one “insight” after another in a way that is truly incredible. Your mental processes are going through a complete overhaul as you fine tune and perfect your personal belief system.

Illuminations will fill in the missing pieces for you and you will gain many useful understandings.

This “locking” together of these energies is a wonderful thing and will begin the process of regeneration within your physical body. Parts of your psyche will begin to fit together as never before.

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Consider Gaia and how she twirls round and round as she travels through space. There is a northern hemisphere and a southern hemisphere. The northern hemisphere is magnetic north and the southern hemisphere is magnetic south. They are true opposites, one clockwise and the other counter clockwise; one pushing outward and the other concentrating like an inner vortex pulling things in.

Yet these two opposites which have nothing at all in common are united and in their union they reinforce each other and form the stable structure that supports Gaia and all life upon her!

This is the function of duality; two unite in a third form and create something stable; something both can support with all their power! This is also the dream of male and female and how love can unite them in a third marriage or union that joins their souls together in a joy that transcends life itself.

The Prince of the Sun degree in Scottish Rite Freemasonry teaches this ultimate union of opposites. It is symbolized by the snake swallowing its tail and by the circle. The idea is to recognize the ultimate union of opposites and play both ends against the middle, to gain the desired objective. So we have Democrats and Republicans; both convinced in the rightness of their own cause and the wrongness of the other. We have men and women misunderstanding and hating each other in a war of the sexes.

There is a deliberate effort to keep duality as conflict; duality as good and evil; alive and to eliminate duality as stable union and as strong and stable love between a man and a woman!

Are you getting angry yet? It gets much worse!

Now we can talk about the immortality of the soul and its empowerment; how conscious awareness can stay alive after physical death through the development of a strong sense of self that is not dependent upon the physical body. Psychologically we are talking about the creation of “an observer self”, that part of us that watches our dream self as we dream. Not every one has this; but many could. Strong egos and strong self esteem can be developed in many ways and I’ve written about some of them.

But this too is old news! The creation of the soul and the survival of awareness and consciousness after the death of the physical body have been known for ages. Each religion developed ways of doing this and they are strikingly similar.
But even here we have been played for fools! We have not been taught the need for uniting opposites in love to form a new and greater third; but taught the inevitable conflict and ultimate victory of one opposite over the other! This is the greatest crime that has ever been perpetrated against humanity and has resulted in the loss of many souls and many lives!

The various mystery schools of the East and the West have taught both a “White Path” and a “Red Path”. The “White Path” is essentially the mystical path of the Marriage of Sophia and Christ which culminates in the birth of the observer self or immortal soul, an awareness that can exist beyond the death of the physical body. It creates an astral body out of mental and spiritual energies and involves the denial of the physical body and its pleasures. But it is a true path in that it does involve the union of opposites.

The “Red Path” is essentially a path involving tantric sexuality and the union of opposites to create a “magical body” which can survive after the death of the physical body.

Variations of both the “White Path” and the “Red Path” can be found in Western Alchemy, the Hermetic Tradition, Neoplatonism, mythology, Arab, gnostic and medieval sources as well as the Eastern Religions including Buddhism, Taoism, and Hinduism.

In all of the above the true paths can be discerned by this balancing of contraries and necessary union of opposites. The false path can be discerned in the inevitable conflict of opposites and the dominion of one over the other. One is the path of love and the other is the path of hate!

We have been played for fools! What are we going to do about it?

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Today we are going to talk about the emergence of patriarchy and the male dominated religions. In our search for true Gnosticism and true mysticism it is important to mention that no Gnostic texts predate Christianity. I find that very interesting. What happened during the time period from about 1000 BC to the birth of Christ?

Several things were happening. One of them was the demise of goddess based religions, along with the rise of patriarchal religions, and this was tied in very strongly with the invention of reading and writing.

That was because reading and writing involved an evolutionary leap in human thinking. To understand written words and concepts needed imagination. You needed to be using your brain in an entirely new way because you needed to literally create an imaginary world, a world inside your head that reflected what the words were about.

You couldn’t just look around you and tell what was written down because that’s not how worked. You had to visualize and understand the words in a way that had not existed before. And one of the things that happened during this phase was the development of a sense of self, a sense of ego, by some people. In psychology. we talk about, the Observer self or the watcher.

Not everyone can do this but some people can.This includes me. There is an Observer self and part of me watches another part of me act out a dream and and I’ve even had that Observer self notice other versions of myself! What we are talking about is the evolutionary creation of this watcher or Observer self. It was a very exciting thing that happened because suddenly people began talking about the soul, the immortality of the soul and life and the continuation of awareness after death.

This had never happened before that. Before reading and writing all that people were doing was worshiping the goddess who brought forth life. We died and then we were born again.

Now for the first time they were latching onto this concept of life after death. Life without a physical body! 1900 BC was the time of classic paganism In Greece, pantheism in India and Brahmanism. The first beginning concepts of reincarnation or transmigration of the soul was between 900 and 800 BC.

700 BC to 600 BC the Vedas were completed in India and these are considered some of the earliest religious writings. These writings were believed to be expressions of things that were literally seen or experienced by masters, in other words, there was nothing theoretical about them and they were represented as reality.

We have Buddha around 500 BC, and I might add a note here that the sixth century BC was the high point of human wisdom because during that century we had Confucius, Buddha, Zoroaster, the Jewish prophets in addition to the Greek poets, artists and scientists. All of these things seemed to be happening around that one time and they were all swirling around this concept of reading and writing.

Between 500 BC and 450 BC “Prometheus Bound” was written, and now we are beginning to see a split between the organic Gnostics or true mystics and the rational atheists who believed in logic and reason, and did not believe in life after death, or the spiritual realms at all.

Lastly on this timeline we have the library at Alexandria was destroyed by fire in 47BC, So this time frame. loosely speaking, shows the transition from goddess oriented civilizations to patriarchal civilizations.

Something thats not mentioned very often is that It also represents a shift from religions or spirituality that celebrate life to religions that celebrate death; religions that celebrate the afterlife of the disembodied soul. For the first time the things of the physical world are looked at as simple and unclean.

Instead you begin hearing about the divine feminine, as Sophia and the marriage of the soul with the higher self, This was the point where people started going into their heads instead of their hearts. Everything became spiritual and mental, philosophical, and getting further away from the heart.

What’s important here is that we can actually see where suddenly instead of a celebration of life, religion became a celebration of death.

Zoroastrianism is one of the first religions that involved monotheistic beliefs, the belief in one source supreme source. The Egyptians also under Pharaoh Ahknaton believed in one solar deity as God. Moses got the belief of one God from the Egyptians because he was trained in the Egyptian temples. He was raised by an Egyptian princess as her own son and went to the Egyptian temples during this time in history.

All of these new religions were domnated by males!

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The cheerful, easy piece of mind he had experienced during his solo was gone and he stumbled blindly along. The connection he had formed with nature was temporarily forgotten as the sun beat mercilessly down on him during the day and he slept on the hard ground during the night. The next two days it rained mercilessly and he narrowly avoided a flash flood that swept his camp away with most of his belongings.

Luckily he still had his map and compass in a pouch around his neck and was able to triangulate his position. He was wet, cold, tired and hungry as he trudged across a muddy terrain made slick in spots by red clay that clung to his shoes making every step a challenge. The water had filled his shoes and sloshed between his toes. He could feel blisters beginning to form on his heels from the chaffing.

When he arrived at sanctuary nobody was there. He was a disappointed but also very humbled that he had lost most of his supplies in the flash flood including his jerky. As he chewed down some of the nasty tasting stuff from the machine he resolved to wait right there until someone did show up. There were usually several new people each month that somehow arrived at sanctuary from where ever they came from. Remembering Rafe’s advice he stripped completely leaving his gear in a corner and went through the medical exam again getting a new set of robes, pack and med kit and most important fresh socks and a new pair of hiking boots.

Tobal thought about using the new robe as a rain coat or slicker and grabbed several blankets to take back to the lake as a covering for his teepee. He went through the contents of the new pack, med kit and found another knife, razor and toothbrush to replace those he had lost in the flood. He looked at his old wet hiking boots wondering whether he should keep them or not. Besides being soaked, they were almost worn out from the rugged life style of the past two months. He decided to hang onto them anyway. Boots were hard to come by in the wilderness and homemade ones just didn’t have the comfort of these heavy duty hiking shoes.

He was feeling satisfied with his pack and starting to feel better in general when he heard footsteps entering the building and a timid “Hello.”

He froze in the darkness waiting. There was a short silence and the footsteps continued until he heard the familiar mechanical voice saying.

“Do you seek sanctuary in the city of the sun?”

A timid female voice answered weakly, “Yes, I do.”

Tobal moved silently to the edge of the dark archway and looked into the other room. He saw a slight figure with her back toward him. She was entering the sliding door into the exam area.

Yesterday he had gone through the exam wearing his med-alert bracelet and it had been nothing like the two day processing he had gone through the first time. It had only taken about 3 hours before he emerged with his new clothing and gear. He knew it would be two days for this newbie to finish processing so he settled down to wait. The pouring rain continued and he assumed Zee and Kevin had decided not to travel in the storm and would be coming later after the weather had cleared.

It was around noon on the second day that a sure footed hulk came through the door dressed in the gray tunic of an Apprentice. It was a boy Tobal had seen at circle briefly but hadn’t talked to. He felt this hulking boy had been hostile toward both him and Rafe. Tobal remembered the boy’s name was Victor, but most people called him the Ox, probably because he was so slow and big. The Ox stopped and grinned when he saw Tobal.

“Anyone come in yet?” He asked.

“Yeah, someone’s processing right now,” Tobal replied.

The Ox padded over to him, his bulk towering over Tobal in a menacing way. He could see the five chevrons on the Ox’s sleeve and knew the Ox intended to claim this newbie for himself.

“You’d better run along little boy,” the Ox told him. “I’ll take care of this one.”

An icy feeling settled into Tobal’s gut. He felt sick and powerless to stop what was happening. The Ox was too big for him to take in a fight. He sat back on one of the cots without saying anything. A small flicker of triumph gleamed in the Ox’s eyes as he turned and went outside for his pack.

Moments later Tobal heard a door slide open and the girl, now dressed in a gray robe and carrying a bundle, stepped into the darker room where he sat waiting. As if on cue the Ox came stomping in and walked up to her. He roughly grabbed her arm.

“Come on, I’m your new teacher,” he growled. “Let’s get going.”
She shrank back obviously terrified and Tobal instinctively stood up without thinking.
“Wait a minute Ox,” he said. “I’ve been waiting here three days and I think you’re rushing things a little bit. She might prefer to go with me than go with you.”

His challenge stopped the Ox in his tracks.

“You still here scarface?” He asked, “You’d better run back to Rafe before I mess you up.”

“Why don’t we just explain the situation to the newbie,” said Tobal reasonably, “We can both talk to her and she can make her own decision about who she wants as a teacher.”

The Ox didn’t even wait. He spun and lurched over to where Tobal was standing, grabbed him by the tunic and threw him down on the floor. In disbelief Tobal narrowly missed being kicked in the face by a huge boot. This guy was really trying to hurt him! He rolled hastily to his feet and watched the Ox with fear in his eyes. There had been no real warning. Tobal was caught completely off guard by the viciousness of the attack and had no idea what to expect next. The Ox was obviously used to getting his own way and was coming around the end of the cot to close with him and give him a real pounding that could involve serious injury.

Instinctively Tobal’s hand went to his knife and he held it in front of him protectively with the edge upward. The Ox halted, shock registering on his face. He was obviously not used to being threatened with knives and didn’t know what to do about it.

Sensing an advantage Tobal took a quick step toward the Ox, waving the knife slightly.

“I said let’s talk to her. Let’s explain things to her and then let her decide.”

The Ox stood still, not moving, a nervous tick showed on his left cheek and his eyes were bulging. Like most bullies, the Ox was a coward at heart. He was clearly unprepared for any of this and didn’t know what to do. The silence built until his nerve broke, unwilling to challenge Tobal any further he spun away with a dangerous glint in his eye.

“I’ll remember this.” He said and stalked heavily out of the room.

Tobal turned toward the girl who was shrinking from him in fear. Then it occurred to him he was still brandishing the knife in a threatening way. He put the knife away blushing.

“Sorry about that,” he said in an embarrassed way. He felt a red flush creeping up his face making the muscles go tight and pulling the scar tissue making it stand out in the dim light. He was uncomfortably aware of how he must appear to this frightened girl.

“Sorry,” he said again weakly and sat down on the edge of a cot.
“It’s ok, don’t be afraid. I’m Tobal, What’s your name?” He asked trying to lighten the situation a little.

“Melanie,” she whispered. “I’ve come to seek sanctuary but they stole all my things!”

She burst into tears not able to take any more. Despite himself Tobal chuckled at the irony of the situation. Apparently she knew as little about sanctuary as he had when he first arrived a little over two months ago. He lay back on the uncomfortable cot and looked her over with interest. She was taller than he had first thought and came up easily to his shoulder. Her dark hair was straight and stringy and her face was thin and long but her eyes were dark brown and vulnerable right then. Her shoulders were shaking and she was obviously going through an ordeal.

“You’re not from around here are you?” He observed thoughtfully.

She whispered “No”, with a sad and lost look on her face that told him she didn’t really want to be here now either.

“Why did you come here then?” He asked.

Gradually her story came out. She had heard about the mysterious, Forbidden City of Heliopolis and of how anyone, no matter their race, religion or past could go there and claim sanctuary. There were rumors of time travel and witches circles and magick. She had run away from an abusive home to get here and now she was scared. She didn’t understand anything about this place.

“It’s not at all like I thought it would be,” she confessed tearfully.

“You ran away from home?” Tobal asked.

She blushed and her face went red to the roots of her dark brown hair. That’s when Tobal noted in the dim light the remains of a black eye and a yellowing bruise on the left side of her face. This girl was not a stranger to violence. He shuddered to think of her with the Ox as a teacher. She was seeking sanctuary in a totally different way than he had claimed sanctuary. He had been seeking for clues about his parents and their deaths. She was simply looking for a place of safety.

Not quite knowing how to begin. “This is kind of complicated,” he said at last.

“Sanctuary is not that easy and becoming a citizen takes a long time.” He began lamely. “You see, they don’t just let people into Heliopolis….”

She started to clench up and quiver at his words fighting back tears and he motioned her to keep quiet and let him finish. He tried a kindly smile and saw her flinch at his attempt.

“Heliopolis only grants citizenship to those that have proven themselves worthy of being citizens. Claiming sanctuary just means you are applying for citizenship and willing to prove your worthiness.”

He stopped as he realized she didn’t understand a word he was saying. He tried again.

“You just had a medical exam right?” She nodded. “You’ve also taken a bunch of tests and been given a pack with some clothing and a sleeping bag right?” again she nodded.

“What you are now expected to do is go out and prove that you can live off the land by yourself for an entire month.”

She looked at him in shocked disbelief. Her eyes were starting to widen in horror with dawning comprehension.

“You mean there is no sanctuary here?” She asked.

His face relaxed into a grin as he sat up once more on the hard cot.

“There is safety and sanctuary in a way. A group of us live outside the city in the wilderness. We have all claimed sanctuary, even Ox whom you already met. We are proving ourselves worthy of becoming citizens of Heliopolis. The requirements are completion of three degrees of work and study. The Apprentice degree is to learn how to survive alone in the wilderness for an entire month or 28 days, which is the moon cycle. You do this without any assistance from anyone else. Once you have soloed you are expected to train six other people to solo. Training these six people proves your mastery and ability to survive in the wilderness. Once these six people have soloed you are eligible for the Journeyman degree which we can talk more about later.”

“Ox has already trained five people to solo but I haven’t trained anyone yet. I just finished my own solo three days ago. I came here hoping to find someone to train.”

She was much more curious now and attentive to what he was saying.

“Ox came here to find someone to train and we had a little personality clash as you noticed”, He grinned ruefully. “At least I’m still alive! I thought he was a little too offensive for my taste.” He looked at her solemnly and said, “I’d be glad to teach you the survival skills needed to solo and receive the Apprentice degree if you would like.”

She looked at him with a glint of humor in her eyes and a light smile on her face.

“I’d like that very much Mr. Tobal,” she said.

“Tobal,” he replied, “Tobal.”

“Mr. Tobal,” she said, “ I like your style.”

“Drop the “Mr.,” he said, “just Tobal, ok?” They both laughed.

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White Dog Roses

Behind the monastery lies a garden,
That belongs to the old, noble family
Of Capri,  to Nikola Vuoto.
 
And you must go through his garden,
If you want to get to the Saracen tower,
The Marelatto, that clings to the side of a cliff.
 
But if you are careful, stranger, you can climb up
On a steep goat path that leads down to the sea:
And throw heavy stones at Vuoto.
 
Be careful as well in the rock tower,
If you step on the wrong flagstone,
You will plummet down into the blue waves.
 
—Until you are there take off your shoes, stranger,
Lay your stockings aside and take your knife,
Scratch your soles and heals,
 
So that the blood lightly oozes:
The blood will cling to your feet
And to the smooth stones of the Castiglione.
 
You only need to climb a little higher
And you will see growing on the steep cliff walls
A bush of white dog roses.
 
Stick to it, stranger, look only at the roses,
Don’t cast one look down below,
Where the blue sea temptingly cavorts,
 
Where many blonde German youth have already
Dashed out their brains on the salty rocks,
Mixing red blood with deep blue.
 
—Oh, I lift my clear headed gaze,
To greet the sun in the sea, rejoicing,
Rejoicing, as I pluck my white roses!
II
 
If you climb up a few steps from the piazza,
You can see Santa Teresa,
The palace of Bourbon times.
 
Just ask there for the Signore,
And they will lead you into a cool hall,
Everyone knows the invalid Herrn of the Villa.
 
In earlier days he rode on fast horses,
A leader of one of the lusty dragoons
That rushed charging through the fields of France.
 
In earlier times he fought well with a sharp saber,
Which he waved in front of his squadron
Of Italians, giving the order to attack—
 
But today he goes on his way sedately,
In the most beautiful place on this beautiful earth,
Living for his art and for his dreams.
 
Stranger, if you see his pale cheeks,
Greet him from a German poet,
Whom he once led through his hall,
 
Who loved the fine features of his head,
His long narrow hands,
And the deep silence of his villa.
III
Slowly I went back to Santa Teresa,
I carried my white dog roses
Into the coolest of its cool halls.
 
I carried water in a polished lava vase,
In the deep silence of this villa
And sat alone with my white roses.
 
Strange!—my dog roses laughed,
In the wondrous deep silence
They chuckled in exalted innocence!
 
But this laugher sounded like crying,
—crying without tears, foolish crying,
Like the sounds of silly children’s songs,
 
Silly songs, like the “Five Barrisons”
Had once sung, at the winter garden
In Berlin in front of witty Berliners.
 
The same way Salome danced in the Pomare:
—for the head of John the Baptist!—
This exalted innocence was cruel!
 
She was cruel, as if even her nerves
Felt the sweet tickle of desire,
Of wanton thirst, this woman of antiquity,
 
Even though no surge of blood
Raced through her thin arms
And no light flickered in her eyes.
 
Her cruelty was white as marble,
White, like her silky baby soft clothing,
White, like my dog roses are!
 
And she shook her alluring little head,
Clasped her hands together, leaped, curtsied,
And her narrow, pale lips smiled:
 
“Daddy wouldn’t buy me a Bow, Wow, Wow,
Daddy wouldn’t buy me a Bow, Wow, Wow.
So I’ve got a little cat
And I’m very fond of that,
But I’d rather have a Bow, Wow, Wow!”
 
—Yes, she sang and her lips smiled,
But her laughter sounded like crying,
Like the crying of my dog roses.
 
Ask, why are you crying?—then the roses laugh.
Through the wondrous deep silence
They chuckle in exalted innocence.
 
Laughter without desire and crying without
Tears.—their song echoes strangely,
Their silly foolish children’s song,
 
Through the cool halls, these thin,
Pale dog roses strangely sway,
In white exalted innocence.
 
—tell me, why are they laughing?

-Hanns Heinz Ewers
translated by Joe Bandel

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