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Our Society Wants To Die

Posted in ascension, earth changes, end times, fifth density, light workers, Mensa, Uncategorized on November 7, 2017| Leave a Comment »

Our society encourages reliance on outside help and discourages self-reliance. We are encouraged to remain passive and let others do our thinking and our living for us. Everywhere someone is trying to entertain us and direct our thoughts. We are told there is no need for a will to live. We are told we no longer have instincts, we have outgrown the need for them.

Yet when we try to entertain others, when we feel we have something of importance to share, no one listens or is interested. When we try to do something we are blocked. Our society wants us to remain right where we are in life.

Give us noble spiritual goals and ideals. Tell us how important the next political election is going to be. Saturate our minds with words and ideas until our heads spin. Seduce us into living fantasy lives that have little to do with physical reality. Encourage us to give our personal power away to external authorities.

But at any cost, do not let us actively and physically take steps toward making our world a better place. Don’t tell people they must take baby steps before they can run. Don’t tell people a goal must be small and attainable at first.

Show people great heroes and tell them, “Look, you can do that too!” But forget to tell them hard work is involved. Sell everyone the easy route to success that never works.

Our society does these things and our society is seriously flawed. Our society is falling apart and all we are doing is watching! We are watching because we have been taught to. Our society is trying to die!

This over valuing of the spiritual and mental life prevents us from acquiring mastery of our physical lives.

Yes, our soul is immortal. Yes, the Christ spirit is within us if we will reach out to it and listen to the still small voice of our conscience. No, the spiritual life and mental life are not more important than the physical and emotional life.

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The Evolution Of Life

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The Evolution of life

The first major evolutionary stage was the photon pulsing in space in a vibratory motion that is echoed within all living things. As the photon was propelled through evolutionary stages it passed through the light spectrum of violet,indigo,light blue, green, yellow, orange and red giving us for the first time the seven divisions found everywhere in nature.

These have been called the seven rays and each ray has its own mystery school. The second major evolutionary stage was the photon rotating in space as it expanded and contracted. This created the magnetic field energy vortexes, black holes and magic cones of power. This is the core element of attraction and repulsion that we experience in all aspects of daily life. Cosmic rays, radio waves and x rays belong to the radio spectrum.

We can see the number seven at work here in the seven keys of the musical scale on the piano keyboard. Each musical note is a harmonic of a color.

The third major evolutionary stage was the photon’s magnetic field extending outward and then doubling back on itself in the creation of a pulsing rotating sphere of energy.

This first rotating sphere of energy was the physical atom Hydrogen. It had one electron and one proton and had physical mass. This photon continued to be propelled through evolutionary stages with the continued addition of electrons and protons.

Hydrogen evolved into Helium and so on through the entire elemental series and the creation of 118 elements. The seven electron rings were gradually created through the evolutionary process. The first ring had two electrons, the 2nd and 3rd had eight, the 4th and 5th had 18 and the 6th and 7th outer electron rings each had 32 electrons possible.

Each ring formed a barrier or shell that contained the electrons inside it and resisted contact with other neighboring rings. Only the outer rings had contact with outside influences.

Each of these seven rings exist as astral rings around the earth with Hydrogen and Helium at the outer edges of the earth’s atmosphere. The 1st ring is spiritual energy, the 2nd and 3rd mental energies, the 4th and 5th are emotional energies and the 6th and seventh are physical energies.

These electron shells also exist around the physical body as auras or astral bodies. There are seven astral bodies possible.

We’ve covered pulsation, attraction and repulsion. In the last essay we talked about how the elements were created in a linear fashion with the simple addition of an electron and proton. We also talked about the number seven and how we can see it in the seven colors of the rainbow, the seven notes of the musical scale and the seven electron rings of the atom itself.

The next major quantum leap in that of compound molecules and modern chemistry. All possible elemental combinations are tried. Long chain molecules are formed with positive and negative charges.

This is where modern science leaves off and is in the dark. The next major quantum leap is the creation of an entirely new type of particle. There is a universal force that propels growth and evolution within the universe.

New photons are constantly being inserted into a finite space and forcing the older ones to quantum leap into new types of energy and existence. What happens when the final atom, #118 is created? The fourth major quantum leap is into chemical or molecular energy.

In the physical world a molecule is formed. In the astral world a bubble is formed that contains the “blueprint” of the photon as it evolved from light into magnetic vortex energy and finally into elemental forms. This bubble surrounds the molecule as its “chemical charge”.

Molecules of complex compounds are created according to natural law and probability. These complex molecules have the ability to store and discharge energy. Molecules can have positive or negative charges or valences. We perceive this chemically and understand it scientifically.

The fifth major quantum leap encircles and contains all previous growth. It creates a new particle and a new type of energy. Perhaps the best way to think of this “bion” is like a cell with DNA in the center of it. Except there is no DNA in the center, only a straight linear blueprint from Hydrogen as the first element through the evolutionary stages to the final unknown 118th atom. These bions exist in the astral as what Wilhelm Reich called “DOR”, deadly Orgone Energy.

A charged astral bubble surrounds molecules or entire objects and charges it with negative or positive electrical charges. These “DOR” bions culminate with advanced compound molecules called amino acids. We still don’t know all of them. What we do know is that amino acids somehow bring about life. “DOR” bions are charged particles that penetrate everything. They are extremely reactive and act as a catalyst that brings about advanced chemical changes within organisms.

They are also deadly to living things and accelerate illness and death. They are responsible for putrefaction as living matter deteriorates into its chemical forms. “DOR” bions are created both when compound molecules are stressed and when organic matter decays. According to Wilhelm Reich they are also responsible for radiation sickness.

We are moving away from Dewey Larson’s reciprocal theory at this point. Dewey Larson explains the evolution of matter from the photon up to and including compound molecules. It’s time to take a break and review things we know so far about the photon making evolutionary quantum leaps into new types of energy systems. This process is more of what chaos theory is about.

Still we can make a few general statements that seem valid. During this evolutionary process the original photon appears to “grow” both in energy and in mass. White light is the combination of the entire light spectrum. It contains all of the other colors. This means it is somehow greater and more complex than each individual color. It also has the combined energy of all the colors as it pulses through the universe. The “older photon” seems to absorb younger ones and contain their energy as its own.

Things become a bit more clear when we consider the evolution of the atom from Hydrogen with one electron and proton to the 118th atom with 118 electrons and protons. The 118th element contains the characteristics of Hydrogen in potential. Its inner electron shell is completely full. This is the same for all the other elements. This final element has the most mass and the most energy. We can generalize that the original photon turned atom grows and acquires more substance and complexity through this evolutionary process. Thus our first generalization is that the original photon grows and acquires other “photons” somehow.

Perhaps a better way to explain it is that as the original photon pulses the outer pulse is the older pulse. The older pulse is the one forced to make quantum leaps and change characteristics. It is the older pulse that contains the younger and fresher pulses. This means the atom is an energy system in which light pulses through the center becoming first Hydrogen and then evolving outward until it reaches the final outer ring.

This means the center of the atom is feeding it and causing it to “grow”. Strictly speaking it does not acquire new electrons and protons but grows them from within its core of pure pulsing photon energy. We can modify our generalization to say the atom evolves and grows because of an internal pressure from the original photon source that forces the system to expand outward. The outer most electron contains the system and determines its characteristics.

We can generalize further to say there is an original source of photon energy that pulses and radiates energy outward into our universe at a particular point. This source injects light into our universe and forces growth through evolutionary quantum leaps. Thus we have source and outermost pulse as the two most important features of any energy system. The source drives the system and the outer pulse determines its nature.

Let’s skip Wilhem Reich’s DOR particles and move to his Orgone Energy particles called Bions. Reich claimed that organic cells when destroyed or stressed produced pulsing energy particles called Bions. All living matter contains DNA chains and cellular walls that organize and contain the cellular structure.

We can theorize that somehow life evolved because of a quantum leap from complex molecules like amino acids into cellular life forms. A living cell has the original photon driving it to grow and expand. It also has the energy and mass of complex DNA molecules at its core as well as amino acids and other components. It is the outer edge of the cell that somehow knows how to absorb nutrients and expel waste matter so it can continue to live.

There is a tremendous amount of energy that controls and directs the cellular functions. This is something that exists astrally in the electron cloud that surrounds the cell and determines its function. This bion is a rudimentary “Life Awareness”. When the cell is destroyed or stressed this bion is released as a free particle that can attach to other cells. It is a free floating bit of life energy.

Dewey Larson’s Reciprocal Theory does a good job of explaining how each atom is a photon driven energy system that is forced to expand and age as it evolves additional protons and electrons. We can reframe this to say each element has a half-life and will eventually age. It is unfortunate that in physics and chemistry the evolutionary process is called the decay process.

As the atom evolves it gains both energy and complexity. An atom of Hydrogen will not remain an atom of Hydrogen even if it wanted to. It will one day age and become a Helium atom. Chaos theory gives us the next clue as to what happens at the formation of the final 118th element.

An atom is a photon driven energy system confined in a finite space. Energy is continuously added to this finite space until the finite space can no longer contain it and the system collapses and reemerges as a greater energy system.

Restating this an energy system will progress in an orderly manner as energy is applied until it reaches capacity and becomes stressed. The stress period is termed the chaotic period resulting in the breakdown of the original system. The evolutionary leap happens when the system reactivates on a higher octave as a new type of system with a new type of order and progression.

For atoms the next stage is the formation of molecules. In the formation of molecules we find our next general universal principle. There are atoms that like to combine with only the same element and atoms that like to combine with different elements.

For example Hydrogen can be found as Hydrogen molecules of two combined Hydrogen atoms or it can be found forming compound molecules with other elemental atoms. One type of Hydrogen likes to combine and form compounds while the other seeks to remain pure.

For the sake of future discussion we can call these “Spirit Hydrogen” and “Earth Hydrogen” or any other respective element found in nature. The first has a North Magnetic Polarization and the second has a South Magnetic Polarization. North magnetic pole energy seeks to remain pure and South magnetic pole energy seeks to combine with other elements.

We might theorize as our first photon driven energy system breaks down with the creation of the 118th element it creates a “black hole” at the center and at it’s outer edge it creates the finite limit of a new energy system we call our galaxy. Each galaxy consists of a black hole at its center as the primary energy source driving the entire system and the outer edge that determines its final nature.

As the new energy system emerges we see the spontaneous appearance of both “Spirit” atoms and “Earth” atoms scattered throughout the entire galaxy in space. The Big Bang theory postulates an explosion at the center of the universe with an outward velocity and force in all directions from the center. There have been problems with this idea. Chaos theory alters this with the implication of random and chaotic appearances of new atoms within the finite boundaries of each galaxy. These random appearance are the births of new and more complex energy systems that combine to gradually form solar systems.

The hallmark and identifying characteristic of any completely new energy system is a recalibration and connection to the original photon. The new energy system is accompanied by a burst of “light” or photon energy. Each star is an energy system that gives off “light”.

This giving off of light is something we will explore in greater detail later. For now it is enough to generalize that the appearance of light or photon energy signals the “birth” of a new energy system in harmony with the original source. It is a harmonic or higher octave of the original. This is why the beginning a a new age is always accompanied by a burst of spiritual light and teachings.

Wilhelm Reich discovered a life energy he called Orgone energy. When living cells were stressed or destroyed they gave off an energy called bions. He believed these bions were the life energy that created cellular life.

We have previously explored the concept of a photon driven energy system that propels itself through the evolutionary process.

The photon made a quantum leap to North and South pole rotating magnetic field energy and the entire magnetic spectrum.

The next quantum leap propelled the original photon into the creation of the first atom and the creation of all 118 possible elements.

The next quantum leap involved the creation of molecules. I suggested the creation of Spirit atoms and Earth atoms. Spirit atoms tried to remain “pure” and Earth atoms readily combined to form complex compound molecules including amino acids.

It was the next quantum leap that created cellular life and bions. When we consider cellular life we notice something very new. Some form of organizing intelligence remains while nutrients are absorbed into the cell and waste material is expelled. This organizing intelligence can exist independently of the physical cell itself.

This “bion” absorbs and contains the photon energy of all the numerous atoms within the physical cell. It lives off the numerous photon energy systems within the physical cell. When the physical cell dies the “bion” moves on to find a newer and more healthy cell.

As the “bion” feeds off the physical atoms within the cell compound molecules break down and give off energy. The nature of a “bion” is to accelerate the normal evolutionary process of each photon driven atomic system. It causes the atoms and molecules within the cell to “age”. As they age they break down, give off energy and then get discarded.

Bions and cellular life both evolve through seven evolutionary stages similar to the seven electron rings within the atom. The youngest bions are violet while the oldest bions are luminous yellow green. The poisonous or toxic effect Wilhelm Reich noticed about bions was due to the acceleration or aging effect they had on living systems. Dehydration was noted in particular as water molecules were broken down into Hydrogen and Oxygen. Bions also accelerated the decay of radioactive elements and caused some radiation sickness.

In general small amounts of bions increased health by tapping into the photon energy of individual atoms and the breakdown of compound molecules. Large amounts of bions were toxic at the cellular level because new nutrients were not absorbed quickly enough and the waste material was not passed quickly enough out of the cell.

Bions are progressive energy systems and go through the evolutionary process as well. As the human system or living system grows and uses more energy it learns to tolerate more energy and draw more energy into it. At the optimum level each bion can tap into the raw photon level of light and electricity without the destruction and aging of the compound molecules. This is the rejuvenation effect Reich noted as the human system adapted to bion energy. The living system became immune to the toxic effect of the bion and gained energy from it instead.

Before I get too involved in the evolution of life I need to back track a bit and cover some previous territory a bit better. My apologies but this is a rough draft and I’m sorting these concepts out as I go. I’ve covered the universe as a photon driven energy system that is forced to evolve as new energy is progressively added to the system within a finite space.

What I would like to cover more is the photon cycle of vibratory motion and the quantum leap that is made at the end of the cycle. This cycle happens in both universes of time/space and space/time or the physical and the astral universes.

Vibratory motion is most often depicted as a sine wave with four definite parts. The first part is the outward pulse of light as it expands in all directions until its energy is expended. This is depicted as the rising portion of the sign wave in a positive direction.

The second part of the cycle is when the outward energy is spent and the photon collapses back in on itself as a pulse of electrical energy

That takes it back to source.
The third part of the cycle is when the momentum of the returning pulse pushes downward into a negative area as an outward north pole spiraling electromagnetic pulse.

As that energy is expended it collapses back toward its origin as a returning south pole rotating electromagnetic pulse. This completes the four stages of the complete cycle.

It is these four stages that we need to take a closer look at. As the vibratory energy of the photon increases the color changes. When the final color is created the system has no where to go and the energy begins to pile up at the end and feed back on itself. This back feeding process continues in reverse progression back up the light spectrum.

The energy system is in “chaos” mode giving off seemingly random energy. When the system backs up to its original point and connects with the original photon pulsing it dissolves back into light and makes the quantum leap to a new state and a new energy system.

This is more easily visualized with the creation of the elements. Hydrogen becomes Helium with the addition of an electron and a proton. This evolutionary process continues through the creation of all 118 elements. When the final 118th element is created the entire system has no where to go and begins to back feed on itself. The energy begins to pile up around the 118th element as radiation. As the energy continues to build a second atom of element 118 is created.

This creates the first molecule consisting of two atoms of element 118.The energy then continues backing up with the creation of a molecule of element 117 and so on working backward until the final molecule containing two Hydrogen atoms is created.

Again the system reduces itself to light and makes the quantum leap into compound molecules. The energy works its way down the compound molecule chain until it has nowhere to go and then backs itself up until once more the backed up energy connects with the source, reduces to light and makes the next quantum leap into cellular life.

It is this quantum leap into cellular life that I would like to clarify because each part of the cycle creates its own type of cellular life. Each type of cellular life follows its own evolutionary path and all four working together create the complete circle of life. All four are needed to sustain life and create a symbiotic system of mutual interdependence.

The first type of cell is the vegetable cell. The plant kingdom evolved from this type of cell. It gets nourishment from sunlight and the break down of molecular compounds. It gives off as by products organic nutrients needed for the next type of cellular life, the animal cell. These single celled organisms were the first primitive life and the result of the evolutionary progression. Plant cells originated on the first part of the cycle and animal cells originated on the second portion of the cycle springing from the organic remains of vegetable life.

As the energy started backing up two other types of cellular life were formed. These were the genetic basis for reptile and insect life. During the next quantum leap these living cells formed the basis for the respiratory system(vegetable), circulatory system(animal), nervous system(reptile) and the digestive system(insect).

The next quantum leap began the evolutionary process of each of these four kingdoms.

We can see the molecular chain created as Hydrogen evolves into Helium and so on. It creates the first strand of DNA molecules. The energy begins to back up at the bottom of the molecule where element 118 is and creates magnetic field energy that creates the outer boundary of the first cell.

The creation of the second DNA strand completes the cycle as a flash of light and life is formed for the first time. As more energy enters the system we see the first cell division as the twined double strand DNA separates with a single strand in each cell and forms two combined cells that are joined together.

They seem identical but one was formed in a progressive manner and is a male cell. The other was formed in an inverse manner and forms a female cell. The energy flow belonging to each is in different directions.

A male cell will act differently than a female cell. This is the creation of sex and gametes or sex cells. One forms a sperm cell and the other forms an egg cell. In each there is only one strand of DNA and it seeks to duplicate itself by absorbing nutrients from the environment and passing them through the cell wall.

The male cell absorbs light and passes energy through to the female cell. The female cell in turn creates physical nutrients and passes them back to the male cell. This is your standard XY chromosome pattern that represents the energy flow in two directions. This creates male physical life as we know it.

The female cell duplicates itself from the bottom up and forms the standard XX chromosome pattern that creates female physical life as we know it.

Earlier I talked about the four types of cellular life. These formed the basis of plant,animal,reptile and insect life. In this post we can see how each type of life duplicated itself through cell division.

During the next evolutionary quantum leap each type of life took organic matter from the others to form higher life forms with respiratory,circulatory,nervous and digestive systems. Each of these life systems was created as male and female and tied together in a symbiotic fashion. Once more the paradox is resolved through a quantum leap.

We have explored how cellular life evolved from a photon driven energy system that forced evolutionary changes and quantum leaps into new organizational patterns. This is basic chaos theory.

We also see a cosmic keyboard upon which this masterpiece is played. At first it seemed that seven was of primal importance. There were the seven colors of the rainbow, the seven musical notes and the seven electron rings surrounding the atom. There are also the seven chakra centers within the body and the seven astral bodies that can be created.

It appeared that in a progressive fashion nature utilized seven major stages before moving to the next evolutionary quantum leap. Understanding the way of return as the energy backs up on itself and moves in a reverse pattern back toward source shows us many more stations and distinctions. In the Kabbalah this reversal is known as the way of the serpent.

Insects are able to see colors that we can’t see. Other animals can hear and smell things that we can’t. The piano keyboard has the black keys as well as the white keys. In physical science there are 118 elements possible until a major evolutionary quantum leap is made.

Each evolutionary quantum leap moves the original pulse of awareness to a higher level of organization and intelligence. As element 118 contains many electrons and protons in contrast to Hydrogen which only contained one electron and one proton,the general principle seems to be that older pulses will absorb and contain newer ones until they can’t anymore. When they can’t contain anymore new pulses they explode and recreate themselves on a higher organizational level.

It is in the death of cellular life the next evolutionary leap is made. The oldest pulses of awareness became ghosts or astral memories of the cells they once were. This is an important metaphysical concept. Physicality came before astral creations. The astral ghosts or memories helped organize younger physical matter into new cells.

In this way history repeats itself by following the astral patterns of ghosts that have gone before. The astral worlds do not show us possible futures, they show us the future memories of those pulses of awareness that have gone before us. Our personal future is yet for us to make. There is only the present moment in time.

We are each a single pulse of awareness traveling through an astral life memory that existed before we entered it. Today I get to be Joe Bandel,aka anarchistbanjo. Next time I will choose someone else.
Like a giant video game I choose the character I want to play and hope I can improve on the score of the previous player. I see in the astral what the previous player has done and the choices they have made. I may make the same choices or do something completely different. This is why the game of life is the greatest game there is.

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The Face Of God

Posted in ascension, end times, fifth density, light workers, Mensa, Radical Satanism, Satanism, Uncategorized on November 6, 2017| Leave a Comment »

It is the false god, the hive mind that must be revealed for what it really is! This is the true toxic poison that lies buried in the heart of the human race!

When we speak of creation; we speak of the living and nonliving parts of creation. The nonliving parts, the elements the atoms the molecules the planets, the stars, follow the laws of physics. It might not be a type of physics that we understand completely, but it exists and some day we may understand. It is possible to recognize the regularity and the order within all nonliving things. It is possible through science to understand the creation of all things. Everything that exists is created out of light, the spiritual light. Everything is created out of divine sparks of light.

In systematic progression these sparks of light vibrate and move through the spectrum of existence; through the colors of the rainbow one quantum leap after another. At some point, perhaps instantaneously, these flashes of divine light give off magnetic pulses as well. These magnetic pulses create rotational movement, both clockwise and counterclockwise.

In like manner, the first atomic particles are formed, the first atoms, the first molecules and finally the first living cells. In this process we can perceive the workings of God in many ways. But in regards to this chapter the most important aspect of God which we can recognize is the continuous inpouring of divine love and light. The pure essence of God, which we perceive as spiritual light continuously enters into our universe, into every atom, into every molecule, and into every cell. This constant inpouring creates an expansion, a pressure, a voltage or force that creates an equal and opposite resistance against it.

What I’m trying to say is very simple and yet very profound. At the center or core of every atom, every molecule, every cell, in everything that exists, living and nonliving, there is a pulsing spark of divine light. This light continues to pour into our universe and needs somewhere to go. It is this constant inpouring of creative divine light that forces all things to grow more complex and evolve.

The purpose of all existence, of all life, is to grow more complex and to evolve. All possibilities are to be explored, good and bad. This is true for all living things as well as all nonliving things. Living things need to gain an awareness, a way of coping with those things that are dangerous and deadly if they want to survive. Just as much can be learned from the failures in life as can be learned from the successes.

In a symbolic way when we look at the simple atom we can perceive the face of God. At the very center is a flashing spiritual light that is so great we cannot look directly into it. We cannot look upon the face of God. The face of God is covered by veils of pulsing whirling energy, rotating magnetic fields that push and pull us in different ways and confuse us. Yet, this flashing spiritual light and these rotating veils extend into the physical world to create a throne, the first physical object, the hydrogen atom. And upon this throne sits the son of God, the helium atom.

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Chapter 1B

Posted in fantasy, Mensa, Uncategorized on November 5, 2017| Leave a Comment »

“No”, he screamed in horror!

Four angry scars ran diagonally across his face. They were about an eighth of an inch wide. One reached from his right temple to cross his right eye, slashing across his nose and touching the corner of his mouth moving down along his jaw. That was the worst. That was the one that had almost taken his right eye out. There was a smaller one above that started at his forehead and swept across to the left eyebrow. There were two smaller ones across his cheek and along his jaw starting at the right cheekbone. They looked swollen, angry and discolored around the scar tissue that was forming.

Tobal stared in horror at the face he would be carrying for the rest of his life. With a curse his fist smashed into the mirror. As it shattered into pieces he screamed and clutched his bleeding fist, sobbing as blood flowed down his wrist into the sink and onto the floor.

“No! Goddess No!” he sobbed.

Blood spattered and covered shards of broken mirror erased his image as he slumped toward the floor holding his ruined face. His life would never be the same.

Tobal took it hard. He refused to go back to school and went from being an out going, fun loving kid to a loner. He didn’t want to see any of his old friends or do any of the things he used to do. He continued spending time alone on the grounds of his uncle’s estate either trekking across the frozen wasteland of the lake or riding his horse through the eerie quiet of the pine forest. He was numb inside and it was the harsh bitter cold that broke through his isolation and made him feel things, even if it was only physical discomfort. Somehow it felt good to feel something, even if it was just the cold. As the days passed the quiet solitude seared his soul with an agony that let him know he was still alive.

He kept to himself, even when indoors. The few friends that came to visit were turned away until even they stopped coming. There were no more cards or invitations. One day his uncle brought up the subject of his going back to school.

“I’m not going back to school”, he shouted in anger at his uncle.

Uncle Henry tried pleading with him, drawing him out, doing things with him, but nothing could break through the wall that Tobal had placed around himself. He was locked in his own hell of suffering and self-pity.

His face had healed as well as it was going to. He had just come back from a consultation with his doctor. Plastic surgery might make the scar tissue smaller and less noticeable but his skin would always show the scars. Plastic surgery had been his final hope and he felt himself falling even deeper into a black hole of despair and apathy.

It was late New Year’s afternoon when his uncle Harry knocked on the bedroom door asking to come in. Tobal grudgingly stood aside and let him into the room. Uncle Harry wheeled his old fashioned wheelchair slowly into the room balancing a highly polished and elegantly crafted oak box on his lap. It was the size of a small jewelry box with ornate carving on the sides and top.

With a start Tobal recognized the deeply engraved symbol on the top of the box. It was a carving of a man and woman standing side by side and holding hands. Surrounding the nude figures was a deeply engraved circle. The entire image was about three inches across and carved out of highly polished white oak.

Uncle Harry laid the box gently down on the bed and wheeled his chair back making room for Tobal. He was looking at Tobal thoughtfully. There were conflicting emotions in his eyes. Dark shadows that Tobal didn’t remember seeing before showed beneath them and he felt a sudden chill. This was not the uncle that he was familiar with. This was not the uncle that he had known his entire life.

Looking at his uncle Tobal saw an aging cripple with unkempt hair, a sunken chest and liver spots on his skin. He still had the use of his arms but his legs were withered and misshapen like tree limbs tossed in a storm. It was hard to think of this broken man as Lt. Col. Harry Kane, Federation Officer once retired and now called back into active duty. It was hard to think of him as his father’s brother.

It was his uncle’s eyes that gave Tobal chills though. They were burning with some unseen torment and held some unholy knowledge or wisdom that pierced Tobal to his very core. He suddenly realized he had always been a little afraid of his uncle even though he didn’t know why. All he knew was his uncle was or had been at one time a very dangerous man.

“It’s time I gave you this,” Uncle Harry waved distractedly toward the box lying on the bed. “Promised your parents that I would when you were grown up. God knows you’re grown up. You’ve probably aged five years in the last two months.”

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The Winged Torch

Posted in ascension, end times, fifth density, German literature, light workers, Mensa, Radical Satanism, Satanism, Uncategorized on November 5, 2017| Leave a Comment »

The Winged Torch
 
You desire a symbol for you and your house,
Which is a symbol of happiness for all time;
Yet which image is so rich and free,
As to symbolize the desires of so many souls.
 
We would gladly like everyone to achieve the happiness,
That finally unifies the eternal duality;
Yet when I seize mine, yours perhaps goes away.
So I lay down and thought about such a symbol.
 
Then I dreamed: On a coat of arms with two divisions
A torch came drifting through the night.
It blazed; the stars all hung
Like gnats around it, and its soaring flight
Caused me to spring up:
This sign applies to everyone, who understands it!

-Richard Dehmal
translation by Joe Bandel

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The Will To Live

Posted in ascension, end times, fifth density, light workers, Mensa, Radical Satanism, Satanism, Uncategorized on November 5, 2017| Leave a Comment »

Acquiring the will to live is an important step toward self-empowerment and mastery of our physical lives. Not everyone has it. How can we achieve this strength of will? There is an instinct or primal will to live deep within each of us. It is the collective will of the human species to survive into the future, to grow and expand.

We are a part of the human race and there is within us something that wishes the human race to physically survive. There is something that wants the human race to be alive billions of years into the future when our sun goes nova and dies out.

There is within us something that wants the human race to expand beyond planet earth, to explore the stars and other galaxies. Something that wants humanity to build miraculous cities beneath the oceans and on top of the highest mountains. Something that wants us to go ever onward in the face of overwhelming opposition.

There is something within us that delights in healthy bodies with fine athletic ability. Something that delights in competence, problem solving and new challenges. Something that wants the human race to take the next evolutionary step toward physical perfection.

That something is the WILL TO LIVE. Why is this will to live so strong in some people and weak in others? When confronted with obstacles and strong adversities why do so many people give up? More important why do those few not give up?

Most of us have learned we are more than physical bodies, we have a soul or astral body and awareness. We have learned to value our “spiritual” selves over our “physical” selves and been taught that physical life is not spiritual life.

Spiritual and mental pursuits are what have become important in our society. Even watching football or basketball on television is a passive pursuit! It isn’t a physical one. Has anyone ever thought it strange that people become more emotional about watching sports than actually playing sports? Perhaps the only way some people can become emotional in today’s world is by watching someone else do something.

We have become a society of “watchers” and not “doers”. Our sense of personal responsibility has been lost. We allow the few “doers” to dominate and control our lives. Because we have no “self discipline” we submit to “external discipline”. Rules and regulations are constantly eroding our personal freedoms while we say and do nothing. Each new law places a restriction on our lives that was not there before.

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Attraction And Repulsion

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The first type of motion found in the universe is pulsating motion or vibratory motion. The second type of motion is rotational motion and is associated with rotational magnetic vortex energy. North Pole magnetic energy creates an expanding vortex and South Pole magnetic energy creates a constricting vortex. We subjectively experience these as forces of attraction and repulsion.

We are magnetically drawn to certain people and events. We are magnetically repelled from others. Attraction and repulsion happen at all levels of human experience as well as in physical science. I choose to deal with human experience. Dewey Larson deals with the scientific applications.

We might be mentally attracted to a particular subject and want to study it in detail. Perhaps a song on the radio really brings out our emotions and it becomes our favorite song. Love and passion are physical and sexual types of magnetic attraction.

Repulsion works the same way. We avoid things in life because they repel us. Some times we feel pulled into situations we can not escape from. Other times we can’t seem to reach our goal no matter how hard we try. Our goal repels us!

All of these subjective experiences are powered at core level through the basic magnetic forces of attraction and repulsion. What we understand about magnetic fields helps us understand what we need to do to achieve our goals.

Opposites attract is the cosmic law of these rotating magnetic vortexes. The North Pole energies are attracted to the South Pole energies. The expansive male energy is attracted to the restrictive and forming female energy. In like manner same repels. South Pole energies repel other South pole energies. North pole energies repel North Pole energies.

This is also the law of co-dependent relationships. Each person feels they have found their missing soul parts within the other. They see in the other what they sense lacking in themselves. They stick together like sand burrs stuck on their own stickers constantly hoping for integration and acceptance and finding only differences.

Healthy love relationships are based on mutual sharing of common things. This can only happen when each has developed both energies within themselves. Each has recognized the male and female energies of their own soul. One partner will default to spiritual or mental things like meditation and artistic creation and the other will default to the biological demands of daily living like cooking and family but both will have open access to the other’s world.

They will each have shared moments of understanding and accord that support and fuel their relationship needs. Understanding differences will strengthen individual roles and self esteem as loving partners help each other through the highs and lows of life.

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God As Divine Counterpart

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In the beginning was God. What does that mean? What or who is God? Does God really exist? There are so many questions surrounding God, and it is not humanly possible to answer them. By definition, God is beyond human comprehension. God is so far beyond human comprehension that literally we create false images of God when we try to understand. To ponder imponderables is a waste of time, energy, and effort. To try to understand something that can never be understood is to be defeated before we even begin. These things need to be said, before we even start this brief post about God.

Yet we can find glimpses of God within the universe, within creation itself. In everything. And by recognizing God in everything, we can become closer to being one with God.

It has been said that our world is simply a hologram created by us and would not exist without us. While this is true, the energy used to create our world is generated through our union with our Divine Counterpart even if it happens at a level we are not aware of.

So let’s talk about this first source of creative energy, let’s talk about God or Source!
Philosophically God or Source exists as the supreme intelligence that governs all of creation. It is the first or primal cause from which everything else is created. This is all old stuff and well worn, but the new spin on this information is that each individual soul is created in two parts. Each soul has an opposite Divine Counterpart!

To know God or Source is beyond human comprehension and always will be. But the highest we can comprehend is the divine within our Divine Counterpart! What this means is that our highest spiritual illumination or spiritual experience will always be a reconnection to our Divine Counterpart. We experience our Divine Counterpart as God or Source!

Every religion or mystery school that is a true one leads us to reconnect to our Divine Counterpart at the highest spiritual levels. This is why our connection with God or Source is always a personal one. Each one of us is connecting to our personal Divine Counterpart even when we have similar experiences. This path has been well traveled and is well known throughout the ages.

The alternative is a false god, a collective god, the lowest common denominator of what humanity considers god to be. While our Divine Counterpart urges us to be the highest and most spiritual that we can be; this false god urges us to only be human, to participate in the hive mind of humanity. This false god is the collective mind of the human race and consists only of those attainments and abilities common to all humans. The seeking is not to be the best we are capable of being, but a seeking to be the blandest and most common that we can be. In this we find the true enemy for the first time, this false god, this collective god that lies far below the true God or Source and also far below the divinity we can experience in contacting our Divine Counterpart.

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Satan As Woman

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Chapter 1A

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Chapter 1

Tobal awoke in the hospital confused and groggy. His muscles ached from being in bed too long. He did not know where he was or what had happened. Gradually memory returned. He groaned and reached his right hand up to touch his face. He felt his entire face covered with gauze and panic began to grip him. Everything was black and he couldn’t see. Desperately he tried sitting up and was reaching up with both hands to rip off the gauze when he felt an arm pushing him gently but firmly back down as an alarm started going off somewhere on his left.

“Take it easy son,” Uncle Harry said pressing him back down into the bed. “You’ve got to rest. You’ve gone through a rough time boy.”

“What happened?” Tobal asked weakly.

“Some young lady almost gouged your eye out,” chuckled his uncle dryly. “She scratched the hell out of your face. Peeled it like an apple. Doc says you are going to have some nasty scars. How did you get her that mad at you anyway?”

“I don’t remember,” Tobal whispered. A flush of heat and embarrassment crept into his face as memory returned, tightening his skin and causing a burst of pain to flash across his face. “I was dancing and bumped into her, then I turned around and her dress tore. The next thing I remember is her clawing at me like a wild animal.”

“I can’t see!” He panicked clutching and tearing at the bandages.

His uncle calmed him down once more pulling his hands away from his face and the bandages.

“Well, it’s the bandages, that’s why you can’t see,” his uncle continued, “there was something on her fingernails, to strengthen them or something and they peeled away some of your skin. We don’t know why but it’s raising hell with the healing process. The doc tried pulling the skin back together and sewing you up but there will be some scarring. It’s going to be awhile before you get healed up. Don’t worry about it, doc says your eye is going to be fine, but it was a close thing and he doesn’t want any infection setting in. You rest now, just lay back and sleep a little more. We’ll talk about it later OK?”

Tobal heard someone move near his uncle and felt something tug at his arm as the nurse injected something into the IV tube fastened to his wrist. He felt a wave of dizziness sweep over him and barely heard the creak of his uncle’s wheelchair as it left the room.

He awoke to the smell of violets in the room.

“It’s about time you woke up,” came Fi’s cheery voice from the edge of the bed.

He moved his head cautiously and opened his left eye. Fi was sitting in a chair near the hospital window. She set down the magazine she had been reading and moved closer.

“How are you doing,” she asked in a concerned tone? “I’ve really been worried about you.”

She reached out and gently touched his arm. He pulled it away. Fi was the last person he wanted to see right now.

“I don’t know,” he mumbled. “I just woke up.”

He looked around the room for the first time. There were flowers and get well cards. The room felt hot and made his skin itch.

“Is my uncle here?” He asked in a more friendly tone and tried to smile but winced instead.

“Oh,” her hand involuntarily leapt to her mouth. “Are you alright?” She rose out of the chair and came toward the bed with her arms out to enfold him in a hug.

He roughly pushed her away, feeling a pang in his chest and a burning in his eyes.

“I’m fine,” he said bitterly. “I just want to be left alone, ok?”

There was a hurt and wounded look in her eyes and the beginning of tears.

“Can I come back later then?” She pleaded. “I’m really sorry about what happened. I came yesterday but you were in surgery and then sleeping. Maybe I can come over to your Uncle’s and we can talk.” She smiled bravely.

“Uncle Harry doesn’t like visitors.” He lied weakly. “Maybe we can get together back at school after Christmas break. How does that sound?”

“Sure, back at school,” she said softly and reached for her purse. Tobal didn’t see the tears in her eyes or hear the break in her voice as she turned away. “Take care of yourself Tobal.”

He watched as she left the room. All he knew was that he wanted to be left alone. It never occurred to him how rude he was being until much later and then it was too late. He never saw Fiona again. He never even said goodbye.

A few hours later Uncle Harry came and took him home to the estate. In the weeks that followed he got cards, letters and emails from his friends and schoolmates, invitations to parties and dances. He threw them all away without bothering to even look at them. It was vain and shallow but he had always depended on his looks. Now he felt afraid and unsure of himself. He didn’t know how his friends would react when they saw him. He hadn’t seen his own face yet and he was not sure that he wanted to.

Thanksgiving came and went. There was no real celebration in the Kane household unless it was a private celebration held by the staff. His uncle was an embittered cripple and widower confined to a wheelchair. It was only Tobal’s injury and depression that prompted his uncle’s apparent interest now.

Tobal knew that it would not last. Uncle Harry was his only living relative. His parents were dead and he had no brothers or sisters. There was a time he had felt much closer to his uncle but that was long ago. It seemed Uncle Harry was as preoccupied as Tobal was.

“I don’t understand what the Federation wants with a cripple,” he snarled at dinner.

Lt. Col. Harry Kane was being re-activated and he was not happy about it. “I need to go away for a few days and see what they want. Can you handle things around here by yourself? Maybe you could have some friends over. How bout that girl friend of yours?”

Tobal squirmed uncomfortably and felt his face flush with heat. “We, ah, broke up,” he said lamely.

His uncle snorted in disgust. “Well suit yourself.” He turned and wheeled himself out of the room. “I’ve got to get ready.”

Three days later his uncle returned and Tobal hardly recognized him. Overnight his uncle looked ten years older. His shoulders were more stooped and bags had formed under his eyes giving him a haunted look. It didn’t take long to realize his uncle was avoiding him. The tension in the house was unbearable.

Other times Tobal tried to deliberately avoid his uncle. As the days passed he never knew if his uncle was in the house or called away on some important military business and he hardly cared. They had never been that close. His only curiosity over the years had been how a simple Federation Officer had managed the nearly impossible feat of enrolling him in Tavistock Educational.

One day he asked his uncle at dinner about it. “It was what your parents would have wanted,” was all uncle Harry would say. Tobal never knew if his parents had moved in such high circles or if it was his uncle. It never seemed important before. He didn’t know why it seemed so important now. All he knew was he didn’t want to go back.

He dreaded the coming of Christmas because it marked his return to school. That was his truth. The weeks passed with several trips to the doctor and still he was not allowed to see his face or remove the bandages on his own. There seemed to be some problem with the healing process although he was told there was nothing to worry about.

It didn’t seem right and he worried about it. He took long walks in the bitter cold to get his mind off things. His uncle’s estate was just a few clicks north of New Rome. New Rome was a city-state in what had once been central Minnesota. It was an area with many lakes and lots of privacy. The privacy came with a big price tag. Again Tobal wondered at the source of his uncle’s obvious wealth.

This time of year the lake was frozen over and he took long walks on the snow and ice. Bundling up against the bitter cold wind helped him forget his face was covered with bandages. Feeling the painful cold in his fingers helped him forget the painful lacerations on his face. With his uncle gone most of the time he was pretty much left to his own devices and he liked being outdoors.

There was something fresh and clean about being alone and outdoors that gave him comfort. The ice and snow crunched loudly under his boots and the sun glared brightly. Today there were sun dogs on either side of the sun with a rainbow arch partly visible. His breath came out in clouds and burned a bit in his lungs. He turned off the lake and headed toward the stables. He had been spending a lot of time there lately and liked working with the horses. They were better company than his old friends were and they didn’t care about how he looked.

As Tobal moved away from human contact he turned more and more to the silent companionship of animals and nature. If his uncle noticed he never said anything and neither did any of the staff.

By Christmas Eve he was fretting and fingering the bandages on his face, itching to tear them off. He’d been instructed to leave them on one final week and today was the day they came off. With trembling fingers he went into the bathroom, found surgical scissors and began cutting the layers of gauze away from his face. He was tired of looking like a mummy. The gauze wanted to stick to his skin and he felt pain as he gently tugged at it, lifting the last of it carefully off his right eye. The bright bathroom light stabbed into his eye and sharp blinding pain flashed through his head.

He closed his eyes against the pain and waited until it faded away. His fingers touched the newly healed skin and he carefully opened his eyes and looked into the mirror.

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