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I was nearing my last three weeks in the Air Force and living in Phoenix. I continued my weekly Alanon meetings and support group activities where I met Martha. I was impressed with her during the meetings and loved chatting with her during the social period after the meetings. But I never really got to know her very well. It was just that out of a crowded room full of people she was the one that I was drawn to. That is how the energy works as it chooses whose energy is compatible with yours…

This was somewhat of a repeat of my cycle with Gail except that there was not as much power and the visions were not as graphic but more symbolic. For example, I never again had the vision of the baby being born with the umbilical cord still attached. But I had a vision of a baby. The vision of the created timeline or world was very symbolic as to include as much as possible but almost like an animated cartoon version of the circle of life. This cycle also went extremely fast and lasted only three weeks before it was done.

Again the vivid dreams of initial contact, astral sex, a new astral body and a created world or timeline. Again the sense of blended souls with the sense of her awareness poking around inside of me and me inside of her. Again the vision of the pretty colored stones that represented drugs…of energy surging through my body and blasting out engrams to clear energy channels. Again the sense of healing of old wounds and the illuminations as missing parts of the puzzle were added to my growing collection.

This new astral body had definite human features although it lacked color and the eyes were very dark. Of interest is that all of these bodies were visible to my “Watcher Self”. Also of interest is that this astral body was essentially genderless. While the form was in general male there were no sexual parts that I was aware of. My core self was able to observe these new astral bodies and at times animate them if it wanted to although I normally had a dual awareness of being in both at the same time.

In ascension terms this was the 6th density body created out of abstract mental energies or the noble gas body created out of Neon with eight sensory points of awareness. It was associated with the third eye chakra which had just been forcefully opened. The development of this astral body was the development of the third eye chakra after its initial opening.

I felt that my normal point of awareness was slipping down from the other side of the Great Abyss and moving into the mental levels. I felt despair that I was being pushed out of the Spiritual Light and that Source was pushing me away. In reality nothing could be further from the truth because my connection with Source was permanent and I was simply bringing the energy of Source back down to earth to assist in Gaia’s ascension. My task was to bring down the light and anchor it in the physical. I had become a light worker.

But my soul had changed polarity and an entire lifetime of striving upward toward Source had now changed to a striving back down to earth again…My focus changed from an interest in mystical and spiritual experiences to magical and occult experiences. I wanted to know more about my crossing of the Great Abyss and the only literature I could find on this subject was the Golden Dawn material and the writings of Aleister Crowley so I began reading that material. Remember this was back in 1991.

I also tried contacting the OTO to find out more about it but I ended up getting in touch with a group called SOTO instead which I will share more about in the next cycle. The point is that I was beginning to reach out to magickal groups.

I wrote to a local Gardnerian Wicca group hoping to find some contacts. That led to an unwelcome visitation that I will share. A few days after I sent out the letter I awoke in the middle of the night with the heavy weight of a shadowy figure kneeling upon my chest…In fright I did what just about anyone would do if they  could. I thought, “What the hell!” and used all the energy of my newly created astral bodies to push/blast it away. My astral self followed this visitor back to its home and I had a satisfied vision of someone kneeling on their bed puking from the returned threefold blast.

As I moved down into working with the philosophical energies I need to add that I was also studying Neo-Tech which was the direct opposite of what I had learned in my mystical approach to life through the Rosicrucian teachings. This branch of philosophy was a derivative of Ayn Rand’s Objectivism Philosophy and took it to new levels. It represented an entirely new type of thought that came directly from my blind spot…I soaked it up…

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Some very interesting and crazy information is trying to break through into awareness. I’ve almost got my fingers on it, but not quite. So I will just try to talk it out and see what happens.

First some very interesting information about chakras and sexuality. This comes from personal experience so it is not theory. Everyone talks about the root chakra and Kundalini energy and how important it is to awaken it and cause it to rise up the spine to the crown chakra.

Well, I’ve got some news for everyone. The root chakra is not that important! There are two chakras below that which are even more important and they haven’t really been truly recognized for how important they are.

Now when a chakra is being awakened there is a feeling like electricity that buzzes around in the area of the chakra. This sensation of electricity can also move up and down the spine and move from one energy center to the other.

Now back in 1992 after I experienced a spontaneous activation of the Kundalini energies and it shot up my spine to my crown chakra with such force that I temporarily blacked out, sagged and almost fell to the floor, as I was doing a yoga side stretch something opened up an energetic pathway that never closed. (Wow! What a long sentence!) Ever since that day I have continuously felt that tingle of electricity somewhere in my body. Over the years the location of that activity has changed, but there has always been continuous activity.

These days there are four main areas where that electrical tingling may be taking place. These are my lower neck, right between my shoulder blades, at my root chakra/base of spine and in my testes. This activity goes on for days and days before moving to another location. I will also share that I have damage in my spine at my lower neck and between my shoulder blades from an old injury when I was breaking horses and got thrown. So there is blockage in those locations and the energy is working to open those pathways and heal my body.

What people don’t realize or hear about is that the testes and ovaries are actual chakra centers in their own right and that tingle of electricity can occur there for days as well. I experienced the electrical tingle at my tail bone or root chakra for many years before I ever experienced it in the testes themselves. This tells me that sexual energy is much lower than root chakra energy and much more powerful! For the last few years that activity has been mostly in the testes and not the tailbone/root chakra although the activity does move around as I’ve mentioned above.

Now changing the subject to the noble gas body of the mysterious element #118 or the etheric double brings up another point of interest and another even more powerful chakra center. As I’ve been doing this research, I’ve also been meditating and trying to get the feel for my own etheric double. What I discovered is that the etheric double exists where the feet touch the ground as I sit in my chair. A dark energy seems to pool around my feet and flow out into the room from the bottom of my feet! An opening also seems to open up beneath my feet that I instinctively know is the etheric world of deepest astral projections.

The implications of this are staggering! People sitting in the lotus position meditating on the root chakra are really also meditating on that point where the body touches the earth which is the point where the etheric double is accessed! It’s not the bottom of the feet, or the root chakra, but where the body touches the earth that is important!

In Wicca and other magical paths we see this in the importance of grounding to Gaia and to the earth! I’ve got to go now but will expand on this later.

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Happy New Year! Continuing the Book of Shadows material leads us back around to understanding just how powerful the central Healing and Prosperity Circle Meditation  is and how we can use it to accelerate our soul development. The reason I’m bringing this up again is that my current research shows just how important the role of the Spiritual Light plays in Organic Gnosticism.

Actually we need to go back even earlier to some of the preliminary-meditations to clarify an important point. I’m specifically talking about when we reach out as far as we can into Source and bring down/back the highest Spiritual Light and Love that we can connect with. We use that energy to create a ball of energy about two inches above our head and then we continue by visualizing and creating a second ball of energy in the middle of our heads and then join them together creating an energetic link with Source that is permanent.

This is not clearly done in the Healing and Prosperity Circle meditation because we are doing that meditation with others and the meditation has been modified. Originally this meditation was intended for one person as a way of moving awareness up and down the astral planes so that awareness could travel all levels without distortion. As the ball of energy moves up and down the spine like an elevator our awareness can also move up and down within that ball of awareness. By doing this we can use this type of meditation to cross The Great Abyss in full awareness and remain there for great periods of time if we choose. We can also use the ball of energy as an elevator for our awareness to move from noble gas body to noble gas body in smooth transitions.

I just did a Healing and Prosperity Circle meditation for the New Year. I listened to my own video and it worked fine for me. One of the things I realized was that as I did the meditation my own awareness began with Source and then continued down the spine to reside within each chakra center. The actual healing and prosperity work was done with my awareness stable and active at the lowest level, the level of the etheric double. So I was working consciously in my etheric double or Ka body or the one created out of the mysterious element #118. So this meditation causes the point of awareness to gradually shift downward to the most powerful level while maintaining the highest level of consciousness.

Working with tantric or sexual energies can only be safely done after the Spiritual Light is safely acquired and anchored permanently. First you work with the light, then you work to raise the Kundalini energy. I’m trying to make this clear. Sexuality is important but Spiritual Light is most important in these first stages.

After this integration of the Spiritual Light happens and one begins to work with sexual energies one will find that male sexual energy tends to rise by itself up through the physical body, activating repressed emotions as it goes and opening energy pathways on it’s own without direction or guidance.

The female will notice that she can move sexual or Kundalini energy up the spine or body by consciously focusing on it and willing it to go upward. But for her the energy will tend to drop to the lower levels when left to it’s own inclination.

Until permanently activated the male needs to focus with intent on the etheric double and the female needs to focus with intent on the Spiritual Light. This can be done individually as a solitary path.

However, Wicca shows us how the Priest draws down the Goddess into the High Priestess and the High Priestess in turns brings out the Horned One in the Priest. He helps her to rise and she in turn helps keep him grounded in the here and now. This is why “Drawing down the Moon” and the celebration of sexuality are so important within Wicca and other pagan paths. One helps lift up the females and the other helps ground the males.

The Magdalen Manuscript: The Alchemies of Horus & The Sex Magic of Isis by Tom Kenyon and Judi Sion seem to be sharing a very similar message to what I am trying to share with Organic Gnosticism and the importance of Source and the Spiritual Light. In this book “The Alchemies of Horus” is the path of the individual and “The Sex Magic of Isis” is the path of the joined couple.

Remember that the ultimate goal is the permanent activation and integration of the Ka (etheric body created by the mysterious noble gas #118 or Goddess) and the Ba (Unity or photon awareness as Source or God) or full spectrum ascension! This sacred union happens within the individual. We need to recognize the Divine that exists within each living thing and each living heart.

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