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Martha’s Cycle-Abstract Mental Energy Body

Posted in ascension, Divine Counterparts, earth changes, end times, fifth density, fourth density, light workers, Organic Gnosticism, shamanism, tantra, tantrism, Uncategorized on January 26, 2020| Leave a Comment »

Women, Light, Body, Young, Girl, Beautiful, Femininity

I was nearing my last three weeks in the Air Force and living in Phoenix. I continued my weekly Alanon meetings and support group activities where I met Martha. I was impressed with her during the meetings and loved chatting with her during the social period after the meetings. But I never really got to know her very well. It was just that out of a crowded room full of people she was the one that I was drawn to. That is how the energy works as it chooses whose energy is compatible with yours…

This was somewhat of a repeat of my cycle with Gail except that there was not as much power and the visions were not as graphic but more symbolic. For example, I never again had the vision of the baby being born with the umbilical cord still attached. But I had a vision of a baby. The vision of the created timeline or world was very symbolic as to include as much as possible but almost like an animated cartoon version of the circle of life. This cycle also went extremely fast and lasted only three weeks before it was done.

Again the vivid dreams of initial contact, astral sex, a new astral body and a created world or timeline. Again the sense of blended souls with the sense of her awareness poking around inside of me and me inside of her. Again the vision of the pretty colored stones that represented drugs…of energy surging through my body and blasting out engrams to clear energy channels. Again the sense of healing of old wounds and the illuminations as missing parts of the puzzle were added to my growing collection.

This new astral body had definite human features although it lacked color and the eyes were very dark. Of interest is that all of these bodies were visible to my “Watcher Self”. Also of interest is that this astral body was essentially genderless. While the form was in general male there were no sexual parts that I was aware of. My core self was able to observe these new astral bodies and at times animate them if it wanted to although I normally had a dual awareness of being in both at the same time.

In ascension terms this was the 6th density body created out of abstract mental energies or the noble gas body created out of Neon with eight sensory points of awareness. It was associated with the third eye chakra which had just been forcefully opened. The development of this astral body was the development of the third eye chakra after its initial opening.

I felt that my normal point of awareness was slipping down from the other side of the Great Abyss and moving into the mental levels. I felt despair that I was being pushed out of the Spiritual Light and that Source was pushing me away. In reality nothing could be further from the truth because my connection with Source was permanent and I was simply bringing the energy of Source back down to earth to assist in Gaia’s ascension. My task was to bring down the light and anchor it in the physical. I had become a light worker.

But my soul had changed polarity and an entire lifetime of striving upward toward Source had now changed to a striving back down to earth again…My focus changed from an interest in mystical and spiritual experiences to magical and occult experiences. I wanted to know more about my crossing of the Great Abyss and the only literature I could find on this subject was the Golden Dawn material and the writings of Aleister Crowley so I began reading that material. Remember this was back in 1991.

I also tried contacting the OTO to find out more about it but I ended up getting in touch with a group called SOTO instead which I will share more about in the next cycle. The point is that I was beginning to reach out to magickal groups.

I wrote to a local Gardnerian Wicca group hoping to find some contacts. That led to an unwelcome visitation that I will share. A few days after I sent out the letter I awoke in the middle of the night with the heavy weight of a shadowy figure kneeling upon my chest…In fright I did what just about anyone would do if they  could. I thought, “What the hell!” and used all the energy of my newly created astral bodies to push/blast it away. My astral self followed this visitor back to its home and I had a satisfied vision of someone kneeling on their bed puking from the returned threefold blast.

As I moved down into working with the philosophical energies I need to add that I was also studying Neo-Tech which was the direct opposite of what I had learned in my mystical approach to life through the Rosicrucian teachings. This branch of philosophy was a derivative of Ayn Rand’s Objectivism Philosophy and took it to new levels. It represented an entirely new type of thought that came directly from my blind spot…I soaked it up…

 

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Gail’s Cycle-The BA or Concrete Spiritual Body

Posted in ascension, Divine Counterparts, end times, fifth density, fourth density, light workers, Organic Gnosticism, shamanism, tantra, tantrism, Uncategorized on January 25, 2020| Leave a Comment »

Woman, Naked, Act, Skin, Art, Body, Female, Erotic

As I continue with my soulmate cycle experiences I will be not using actual names. I hope everyone will understand this…

These soulmate cycles have all seemed to have some things in common which I will try to identify. First, they were all propelled by my working twice daily with sexual orgasm energy as mentioned before.

The second requirement seems to have been my sharing of my emotional truth or story in a public setting. After enough people had taken in that energy and fed on it because it “spoke to them” I would then establish some form of contact with my soulmate for that chakra. In essence I would give of myself until the energy came back to me in the form of one person- my soulmate…

To be more specific, I received enough energy back from these people to activate a temporary astral body of collective energy. When this collective astral body became stable enough to become permanent I was led to contact with my chakra soulmate.

Typically this would be a dream in which I entered the home of my soulmate and the feeling would be of entering into another world or person’s world. Later there would be dreams of physical or sexual encounters, a touch, a kiss, actual astral sex. I might add that this is entirely natural and everyone experiences this within love relationships. In fact, I believe these cycles are totally natural and occur all the time. The difference is that for me they happened much faster and more forcefully because of the extreme energies which I was generating that drove the entire cycle.

At some point following astral sex an astral child would be born that would become my own permanently activated astral body of those particular chakra energies. The only way my soulmate could give birth to an astral child was if her own astral body was complete. So my energy always went to her until she was complete, then she would give birth to my new permanently activated astral body.

The final stage was the spontaneous creation of an entire new astral world or timeline in which she created this world from the essence of what I had given. So my soulmate not only gave birth to an astral body for me, but also created the new world in which we were both to live. The astral world or timeline that Gail created was beautiful beyond belief in which all things that existed were supportive aspects of all other things. We were all connected to all other living things. Where I was placed in this world and where she was placed within this world depended upon our individual karma. By this I mean that I wanted a physical relationship but she was already in a physical relationship that she was not willing to let go of. There was a sharp distinction between astral reality and physical reality.

This brings up a final point about the exclusiveness of these energies. Each of these soulmates were already in physical relationships that were missing something that was spiritual. That’s why they were attracted to me in the first place. For the duration of these cycles there was an intense magical duel as my own energy battled with and forcefully expelled this other male and his energies from the relationship until all that was left was my energy and hers. I will also add that each felt the physical relationship they were in was a soulmate relationship in the beginning but had become discontent and dissatisfied.

I mention this because it is important to understand the concept of magical celibacy. You don’t mix partners during these cycles. You don’t have physical sex but have astral sex. You don’t choose your soulmate, the energy itself brings you both together in it’s own way and creates bonds between the two of you that can’t be broken. It brings you both permanently activated astral bodies. You must let the energy find its own way and allow the natural conclusion of the cycle as well.

This is the true meaning behind the Holy Grail and witches magic cauldron and other mysteries of the divine feminine and the magical power of her womb.

I met Gail at a weekly Alanon support group in Phoenix as I was struggling with the things that were going on in my life. That first time I told my own story to the group it was extremely emotional and powerful and I was brought to tears as I shared my pain and suffering. I was also telling the story of many of the others as well and the entire group resonated powerfully to it. After the meeting they came up to shake my hand and give me a hug saying how moved they had been by what I had shared.

When Gail came up she offered her hand and before our fingers touched an electrical spark jumped about two inches between us and we both felt it. I chatted briefly with her during the social period after the meeting and hoped to see her at the next meeting. She had really made an impression on me and I wondered about the spark…

Gail was extremely intelligent, but also extremely flighty. She barely lived upon the earth plane and her conversation floated without focus from one topic to the next. It was pretty obvious that she had difficulty functioning in normal life and I was living in my own head as well. That was the real connection…She was only in Phoenix for a few days and taking part in some type of therapy for mental health. I never really got the details.

I dreamed about her that night and there were several dreams. The first was a sexual dream and the second was an extremely vivid dream of a baby being born which was still attached to her by an umbilical cord. I knew that I was that baby! I also knew that this was the second birth talked about in the Bible. I had been reborn! This was a sacred mystery…

From that point on I had a new astral body that was created out of pure energy or light. It was human shaped like a balloon without any features except two glowing eyes. This was my first permanently activated astral body. The ancient Egyptians called this body the BA…

I had been writing down all my insights in the development of the soul and the crossing of the Great Abyss as I’ve mentioned in other posts. The most sacred thing I had to share was the stages of soul development in the male and the opposite stages of soul development in the female which I had just discovered. I had used the degree format of the Golden Dawn to break each stage down into ten specific stages. I knew that if Gail would read this material it would help her to bring some structure to her own confused thoughts. So I brought my hand written copy to the next meeting for her to read.

I only met Gail three times and they were all at the weekly support group. She was fascinated with my outline of the stages of soul development and affirmed that what I had written about the female stages of soul development had resounded deeply for her, but that she felt some of the stages of male soul development seemed familiar to her as well. She felt that this material did help her place some structure to her mental environment and that it was very helpful. I never met her again.

I continued to have dream encounters in which her soul and my soul were merged in some fashion. In particular I remember a pile of beautiful colored pills which I understood to be medications that she was taking. I also re-experienced in dreams every time in my life that I had ever been beaten or high from drug use. These experiences had created engrams within my body and the energies were blowing through each and every one of these blockages at the soul level of my new astral body.

My Golden Dawn studies had also led me to the works of Aleister Crowley. He was the last Master of the Holy Kabbalah. I had a vivid dream of him leading me to a large book that was sitting closed on a pedestal. He motioned me to read it, so I grasped it firmly with both hands and opened it. He began to cackle and said that if I ever let go of the book I would die. I shouted “No!” and slammed the book closed. Immediately I felt my recently awakened connection to earth being destroyed by fire and this fire was consuming my astral cord. I felt that I would die if I couldn’t get away from the fire so I crossed the Great Abyss and hid in the embrace of Goddess as all that was left of me was destroyed…I was safe…That was my spiritual death and rebirth…

 

 

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It Begins

Posted in ascension, Divine Counterparts, fifth density, fourth density, light workers, Organic Gnosticism, shamanism, tantra, tantrism, Uncategorized on January 25, 2020| Leave a Comment »

Fantasy, Eyes, Forest, Aesthetic, Face, Portrait

There were several things that happened before the soul mate cycles started with the birth of my first permanently activated astral body. These things were very important and I don’t really remember in what order or relationship they stood to one another. But these things had an energy body of pure light that was shaped like a ball and not human shaped. My awareness was a point of light. Many mystics claim that after merging with Source they must plunge into hell…I feel this stage has been achieved by many in the past.

Shortly after my permanent shift of awareness across the Great Abyss my awareness seemed to be pulled down into a black hole or worm hole that led to the lowest level of the astral planes and existence. I saw that a new egregore was being established at the highest level of the astral planes and at the lowest levels. I also saw the old Kabbalah egregore which was not as high as the new one and not as deep as the new one. The new egregore consisted of Dewey Larson’s Reciprocal Systems theory about how all that exists is created from vibratory motion. It was also associated with Jakob Boehme’s “Throne of God” vision.

An interesting part of this vision was that I realized that I had overshot the mark by pushing my awareness much higher than this egregore. I could go higher, but others couldn’t and the egregore was for all life and all people. It needed to be reachable as a collective goal. I needed to adapt to this lower space and settle there in my awareness. It was still much higher than the Holy Kabbalah egregore and much lower than it as well.

Next was a spontaneous kundalini awakening that has never stopped its energy flow to this day. This happened shortly after I had begun working with sexual orgasm energy and felt it pooling in my pelvis area. I had been doing some yoga exercises to help circulate the energy and bent my body sideways to the left when an explosive force went up my spine and blew through the top of my head with such violence that I momentarily blacked out and my knees buckled, but I regained consciousness immediately and caught myself. This happened after I had successfully completed the energy ball meditation and had moved on to working with sexual orgasm energy as instructed by Mantak Chia in his book “Cultivating Male Sexual Energy”. These lower energies were intensely attracted to the higher energies and vice versa.

One day at work things went very badly and I was quite stressed when I went home at the end of the day. I felt a tight pressure around my forehead like an iron band. I felt a surge of anger and something “popped” in the middle of my forehead where my third eye was located. I sincerely thought I had burst a blood vessel and was frightened. But I could follow my own awareness as a point of energy and it shot outward to the far ends of the universe. I lay down on the sofa and continued “watching” this point of awareness as it circled back, entered into one testicle, moved up the entire right side of my body, exited the crown chakra and continued outward to the other side of the galaxy until it then came back, entered the left side of my body at the top of my head, spiraled through it completely and then exited through the left testicle where lost awareness of it. Energy flowing through one half of the body is common in stroke victims. I thought I might be having a stroke, but I wasn’t.

Later I was given a series of seven visions of the seven ages as my soul traveled back in time. These visions were of the evolution of life upon earth. One was a vision of the age of the dinosaurs and the violence that was life during those times. “The Way Of The Shaman” by Michael Harner mentions these series of visions as an important stage in the magical development of the Shaman. I was following the trail of my past lives through all the stages of life back to it’s original photon state as a divine spark.

For those paying attention to these posts my crown chakra and third eye chakra had both been forcefully opened…I had reclaimed my ancient past in the Shaman’s vision and had fully activated the Kundalini energy within my body…

 

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Beyond The Great Abyss

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Book, Manipulation, Nature, Fantasy, Old, Clouds

There are at least three known stations or Sephiroth above the Great Abyss and even though I hesitate to use the terminology of the Holy Kabbalah it is perhaps the most useful to get my point across. When my awareness first permanently crossed the Great Abyss it settled into a very stable state known as the archetypal planes or realities. It is well known that logic and reason can’t cross this Great Abyss and they don’t function there. The best way to describe this space is self-evident truth or direct perception of reality. You don’t figure things out. You simply become aware of them as they really exist. I call this the plane of the Concrete Spiritual after the famed occultist Dion Fortune.

Beyond this station is one that is known as Unity or Spiritual Light and it is the place where energy and matter become interchangeable. This is the ultimate place of tearing down and building up of all things. It was to this area that I kept pushing my awareness because I wanted to dissolve myself into the Light in an act of Spiritual suicide because I hurt so bad that I was done and wanted OUT! This is where awareness becomes one with all that exists and knows itself as such. This is termed the plane of the Abstract Spiritual.

The third known station is more like a worm hole through space and time than anything else. Awareness can’t remain there but simply passes through it from one destination to the next. One might call this the realm of rotating magnetic spirals or where the magical cone of power exists in both its fundamental aspects of attraction and repulsion. So this is a transitional place where awareness is in motion as it traverses the universe.

I wanted to go beyond all of these and even though I was able to pierce much more deeply into the Golden Sea of Bliss and Light, I would find myself pushed back out again as soon as I let up my effort. I was able to establish a fourth station however and it was significantly above the other three. This was the photon/electron state described in Dewey Larson’s Reciprocal Systems theory. It represented the building block of all that existed in the universe.

Once more I will use the terminology of the Kabbalah because others have also mapped out this path.

The Great Abyss- the death of logic and reason

Chesed= helium-archetypal worlds- concrete spiritual energies

Binah=hydrogen-abstract spiritual energies

Chokmah=rotating magnetic forces- worm holes through time and space-timelines

Kether=alchemical unity

Ain=bliss & love – the station of the photon/electron and Dewey Larson’s Reciprocal Systems Theory or Jakob Boehme’s Throne of God  Ultimate Source of all things…the center of each atom…each cell…zero point energy

Ain Soph=where I tried to go in awareness but couldn’t

Ain Soph Aur=that unknowable Source beyond our universe that created and still creates our universe by continuously inserting more light into it.

As my awareness settled into this new reality I received almost constant ah ha moments or illuminations that filled in the missing pieces of my own philosophical paradigm or reality matrix. I began writing these down so that they wouldn’t be lost or forgotten and they became the core of my book Magister Templi. Most important was an essay on the stages of soul development that followed the spiritual path of the mystery schools as I understood it. But then in a flash of insight I inverted that path to discover the true secret of Sexual Alchemy and the twin paths of the male and female through each stage of soul development. This was the true beginning of my experience with soulmate and divine counterpart cycles.

With the collapse of my marriage the dam broke inside of me and suddenly after many years I was feeling emotions once more and it hurt! I had brought the lion back to life! I was getting so many illuminations and experiencing so much healing that I feared for my own sanity and began to see a psychologist twice a week. I also completed the Viscott Method in which I did a thorough self discovery process which I can recommend to anyone.

In addition to those things I also went to support groups twice a week, began my energy ball meditation for the first time and spent my tax return on Dianetics processing and other Scientology classes which I will talk about in my next post.

My psychologist said that my personality was stable but fluid and she was amazed at how fast things were happening for me. I kept going to her so that she could keep an eye on me so that I didn’t go off the deep end. She said that she had never known anyone who struggled against so much repression and opposition, but also said that she never knew anyone with such a strong will. I had turned that will upon myself in an effort to heal and find peace and nothing could stop me.

I was experiencing a form of psychotic break, but a positive one, in which I was reuniting with my original self or ego. I was feeling emotions for the first time since I was a teenager, but the emotions I was feeling were those of a teenager. I had to pick up where I had left off…I even went so far as to write a letter to my vampiric sweetheart proving that sexual link still existed. She never responded…

 

 

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The Isolation Process

Posted in ascension, Divine Counterparts, end times, fifth density, fourth density, light workers, Organic Gnosticism, shamanism, Uncategorized on January 16, 2020| Leave a Comment »

Fantasy, Cave, Mystical, Rock, Stone, Caves Portal

As I continue with my personal story about soulmate cycles and divine counterparts there will be a few detours to make some things more clear. Please bear with me as all of this is important and you will understand more completely later as we deal with higher things.

I mentioned that my Rosicrucian studies were one of the factors leading to my early nervous breakdown in my early twenties. Since I didn’t know what to believe any more I decided to believe everything to the best of my ability if at all possible! I would let the still small voice of my conscience and my heart give the final verdict. Unknown to me at the time this was a major component of chaos theory: All inputs are valid!

But studying one monograph a week was way too slow for me and I devoured as many books on spirituality and the spiritual path as I could find. For many years I spent well over $500/year on books and resources in the area of new age metaphysics and cutting edge self empowerment.

I began with alternative Rosicrucian material by Manly Hall and Max Heindel not knowing what made them different from the Rosicrucian Order AMORC. From there I went on to study astrology and the works of the Theosophical Society with authors such as C.W. Leadbeater, Alice Bailey and H.P. Blavatsky. From there I moved on to Edgar Caycee, Ruth Montgomery and Jane Roberts and the Seth Material. Jane Roberts and the Seth Material was one of my greatest early influences and I still have Vols I&II of The Unknown Reality.

Soon I had graduated to the self hypnosis work of Dick Sutphen and was listening to self hypnosis tapes on past life regressions and positive programing techniques. I purchased the Hypnosis Training Seminar, a collection of twelve cassettes that were recorded during a three day Hypnosis Training Seminar and many other individual cassettes. I did attend a Dick Sutphen human potentials seminar later in Phoenix Arizona. Dick Sutphen was also an early major influence. From there I was led to NLP or Neuro Linguistic Programing which is a powerful derivation of hypnosis and altered state technology. I have six highly valued books on NLP on my library shelf. The problem I had with NLP and hypnosis is that if reprogramming can be so simple, it can also be undone just as simply! I was looking for something more permanent and stable…

A person shared his story of the graduation ceremony of becoming a NLP trainer. The entire group walked barefoot twenty feet through a glowing bed of hot coals without getting burned. When I asked if he thought he could repeat it, or if it was the belief of the entire group that made it possible, he thought that it had been the belief of the entire group that made it possible.

I mention hypnosis because I’ve discovered that much of what passed for magic was actually some form of hypnotic suggestion. But things get a little weird here and it is also obvious that we can do much more in altered states than we are led to believe. Consider that the stage hypnotist can create blisters on the skin of a subject by suggesting that it is a cigarette burn. The blister will actually appear and then later disappear when you tell the subject that it will go away. Walking through a bed of hot coals is obviously not simple suggestion, but something else entirely. We also have reports of medical miracles that can’t be explained such as sudden remission of cancer in certain people after a sudden healing. Dion Fortune talked about magical societies using hypnotic trance states and mediums to communicate over great distances with other lodges…

Remember that I was a head tripper after my nervous breakdown and no longer accessed my emotions for much of anything. I was obsessed with the spiritual and mystical path and wanted to commit spiritual suicide by merging with Source and disappearing forever…

Back tracking a bit…Everyone thought that I would go to college after I graduated from High School but my father told me in no uncertain terms that I would not go to college, but would go to some vocational school and learn a trade so that I could earn my living by the sweat of my brow like it said in the Bible. My self esteem and ego was not strong enough to stand up for myself and I went to vocational school to become an electrician. I went to vocational school for two years and worked as an electrician for five years. It was the hardest work I had ever done and I was treated as if I was an idiot because working with my hands didn’t come easily to me. I was treated so badly that I finally quit and resolved to go to college no matter what my father thought…

After getting an associate degree at the local community college I went to St. Cloud State University and enrolled in their Germany exchange program where I spent the best six months of my life in West Germany. More on that in my next post…

As my spiritual journey progressed I found myself isolating more and more from others and focusing almost entirely on Source.

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Soulmates And Secondary Personalities

Posted in ascension, Divine Counterparts, fifth density, fourth density, light workers, Organic Gnosticism, shamanism, tantra, tantrism, Uncategorized on January 13, 2020| 1 Comment »

Portrait, Wedding, Kiss, Photoshoot, Just Married

I think everyone will understand why I’ve chosen to share my personal story in this post. I will be bringing many things up that require a certain perspective and context that would be difficult to present in any other way.

Now soulmates share the same soul frequency and because of that there is a very intense attraction and spark between the two people. However, you can have several soulmates and that spark or attraction doesn’t guarantee that you can have a happy relationship with that person. What it does indicate is that you can possibly complete a soulmate cycle together and permanently activate astral bodies for each other. After that much depends upon the karma that each person has with other people in their lives. The soulmate cycle aside, karma with other people often prevents soulmates from having lasting relationships with each other. But there are lots of factors that can go into this.

In my last post I talked about my first love relationship that I felt was with my true soulmate, but instead it turned into a vampiric connection that drained my sexual energies for over thirty years…Let me share a bit more to make this clear…

When this girl broke up with me I was so devastated that I lost twenty pounds in two weeks and was not able to ask another girl out on a date for seven years! I felt that no one could be to me what she was to me. I was fixated on that soulmate or supposed soulmate connection. Or perhaps it was the vampiric connection that held me so tightly bound? To this day I don’t really know. I only know that later in life I’ve encountered other soulmates that shared the same soul frequency as I and actually completed soulmate cycles with them and mutually activating permanent astral bodies. I have called these chakra soulmates because the individual soulmate cycles permanently activated a particular astral body or noble gas body as I will share in future posts.

Now getting back to my story:

Three critical factors hit me at the same time in my early twenties and caused me to have a nervous breakdown in which I ended up creating and living inside a secondary personality for the next twenty-five or so years. But this was a good thing and I need to explain why and what was really happening because this is an important part of the occult/mystic path that  people don’t understand.

The first factor was the ending of this love relationship with this person I believed was my one and only soulmate.

The second factor was my mother getting into a car accident with a man that she was having an affair with and everything coming out into the open including her drug abuse. This was devastating to me and caused me to lose faith in the spiritual and religious principles that I was raised in and which I had accepted after my earlier spiritual crisis of conscience. I felt that it was all a lie and not true because it certainly was not true for my own parents!

The third factor was perhaps the greatest and the one that really caused my nervous breakdown. Shortly after highschool I joined the Rosicrucian Order AMORC and began to receive weekly monographs in the mail to study. These monographs introduced concepts that were very challenging to the religious beliefs that I had been taught. I will give a few examples:

The Rosicrucians taught the importance of an inner authority called the Master Within which was the Christ spirit within each human heart that spoke through the voice of conscience. It was the one and only true spiritual authority and individual to each person. The Bible was symbolic and not to be taken literally. God was in our hearts, in all things, and that’s where we needed to contact Him, not out there in heaven somewhere.

I was also taught the concept of reincarnation and karma for the first time. These were some of the early concepts that actively destroyed my faith in ordinary Christianity. But I was conflicted… I was so conflicted that one night I lay on the living room floor unmoving, locked in indecision, knowing that I needed to decide and knowing that my eternal life and soul was at risk depending on which path I chose. I finally chose to follow the path of conscience and my heart and if I was wrong I would accept the consequences.

That was when I had my nervous breakdown. That was when something split inside of me and I lost my connection to mother earth. I set my sights on a spiritual path and my emotions died. My emotions died because of the pain I felt from the things I’d experienced in my failed love relationship and what was going on with my mother. There was too much emotional pain…so I abandoned the emotions and set upon the spiritual path with an intensity that took over my entire being.

Luckily my weekly monograph studies were very powerful and actually helped me keep it together in a somewhat healthy way. They brought order, structure and something to believe in when I was my most vulnerable. I only realized much later in life that I had created a secondary personality and it was a positive thing. It helped me to develop and grow my sense of self and ego and this was vital to my emotional and mental health.

The reason that I bring this up is because it or something like it has always been an important part of the mystery school teachings in one way or another. You see, we are all broken in some way and the true path of a mystery school is to heal the soul, the emotions and the mind.

Magic work talks about assuming God forms and becoming the deity for brief moments while doing spells. The assumption of a God form is to temporarily place your awareness into a secondary personality that you have created. To assume a God form is much like deliberately creating a secondary personality…This is seen as a positive thing because it is more healthy than many of the ordinary personalities.

In alchemy one of the most important steps is to kill the lion, which means to kill the emotions just like I did…One of the later steps is to bring the lion back to life again…which is to reintegrate the emotions which I have done as well in these later years. I have reawakened my original self as I will share in later posts. The main point is that these phases of healing and mental and emotional health through the deliberate use of secondary personalities were known and used frequently in the development and growth of the soul.

My little talk about secondary personalities would not be complete without mentioning that both the Shadow and the Higher Self or Holy Guardian Angel are also secondary personalities and need to be integrated into the Self or Ego before true healing can take place.

The Shadow acts independent of the Self and consists of those things we feel are within us, but we deny them and don’t accept them. We need to find a way to accept them and love them for what they really are. They are those instincts that try to keep our physical body alive and healthy.

The Higher Self or Holy Guardian Angel also acts independent of the Self and consists of those things we admire and respect in others, but feel are missing within ourselves. We need to realize that those things we admire in others do exist inside us as well and do belong to us. They are not out of reach…

 

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Drum Showers

Posted in ascension, Divine Counterparts, fifth density, fourth density, light workers, Organic Gnosticism, shamanism, tantra, tantrism, Uncategorized on January 12, 2020| 2 Comments »

Shamanic, Drum, Magic

I participated in a full moon drumming circle last night that was very nice. One of the things we did was something called a drum shower which I had never done before. We would take turns and one person would stand in the center of the circle and the others would then hold their drums close to the person and begin drumming as they moved the drums from the top of the head down to the ground and back up again. This was repeated three times. It was very powerful and stimulating to the chakra centers. It was also very cleansing and energizing. It almost felt like going to a chiropractor and getting an adjustment. Coming on or near the full moon was an added treat as it allowed for making room for more of the incoming energy.

Continuing my personal story: A person’s conscience usually kicks in around the age of twelve but mine was a bit late and didn’t show up until I was fourteen. When it did show up it was with a vengeance! As time went on I found myself increasingly at odds with the religious expectations of how I was raised. While I was not a mean person my shoplifting continued and I began to swear and hang out with some questionable people. The end result was that when I was around my parents or other authority figures I was a totally different person than when I was around my friends. I was not able to be who I really was! I did things that I knew were wrong and didn’t feel good about myself. I was lying to others and to myself and it became increasingly harder. My conscience was beginning to bother me in a big way and I couldn’t ignore it…

This confrontation with my conscience led to a spiritual crisis at the age of fourteen. It didn’t matter if God forgave me because I couldn’t forgive myself! I finally realized that I needed to live in such a way that I could live with myself and that meant that I needed to follow the still small voice of my conscience. I vowed to myself and to God that I would try to follow my conscience in all things for the rest of my life and I have tried to do that. It was a profound realization and led to my embracing the religious values and teaching that I had been brought up with. I had been saved; or so I thought…

I was extremely shy and nervous around girls and very sensitive; too sensitive. My parents and family had not prepared me in any way for healthy romantic relationships and I soon fell into that dreaded category of the boy that girls liked to be friends with and talk to, but not to be romantically involved with. I was always the friend and not the boy friend. I had no idea how to break out of that cycle.

There was a girl that I really liked and I finally asked her out for a date. We went on three or four dates and then she dropped me because I was boring…I was devastated but couldn’t really blame her…I was boring and I didn’t have a very high opinion of myself. She was much higher than I was and I placed her upon that pedestal. But I couldn’t get her out of my mind and three years later, some two years after graduation I asked her out again. This time I was determined not to be boring…

Sparks flew! The sexual tension was so great between us that it was almost unbearable. Yet I always backed off at the last minute because I was afraid of that intensity and ultimately she was too. We could read each other’s minds and feel each other’s emotions and our body language didn’t lie…but it was too much…she didn’t want a relationship of that kind of intensity. She just wanted to have some fun and I didn’t understand. I wanted that relationship. I often dreamed of her and in one dream she walked past me and touched me on the tailbone at the root chakra. I felt a powerful electrical shock and didn’t know what it meant.

It was only some thirty years later that I understood what it meant and I will share it here. This girl was a flirt and radiated sexuality. She was fun and popular and she knew it. So was her mother. In ancient days they would have been considered witches even though they didn’t really know what they were doing on a conscious level. She was a sexual predator, an energy vampire. The connection made in that dream encounter lasted over thirty years, thirty years in which she drained my own sexual energy from me and from others as well. It is how she kept her etheric double alive and radiant.

I was unaware of that remaining connection until much later in life when I once more activated that lower chakra center and began working with it. I discovered that connection as an energy leak and severed it to permanently close it. The next day I found out that she had wrecked her car in an accident…

There is no doubt that she was a soulmate, and shared the same frequency as my own soul. I’ve known three other women that shared that same frequency and will speak of them later. Being the same frequency makes one a soulmate, not anything else. It doesn’t mean that you can get along or live together either. It just means there is a very powerful spark that exists between you which can be used in the process of soul development.

 

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Magical Special Forces Training

Posted in ascension, Divine Counterparts, end times, fifth density, fourth density, light workers, Organic Gnosticism, shamanism, tantra, tantrism, Uncategorized on January 10, 2020| Leave a Comment »

Fantasy, Angel, Mystical, Fantastic, Light, Magic

For several years now I’ve danced around this subject and it’s time to tackle it head on and damn the consequences. I appreciate those who have continued to support me over the years…and hope you continue to do so.

I’m going to use the term astral planes because it’s better understood that way, although I’ve got my own slant on what the astral planes really are. Energy flows within the astral planes and all things are connected together in a vast circuit. Depending upon which way the energy flows it will be favorable or unfavorable to you and your interests. The Bible tells of how Adam and Eve were kicked out of the Garden of Eden and even the stones were turned against them. That meant the energy was flowing the wrong way and so it has for many of us ever since. But it is time for that to change!

There are patterns within the astral planes and the astral resists change of any kind! It will attempt to retain the status quo in all situations, being totally indifferent to whether the flow of energy is for us or against us. Not only does the astral resist change, but it is also quite elastic and will snap back to it’s original position unless forced to break down and reassemble in a new way. To alter any astral circuit one need’s to apply 126% more energy than what it ordinarily carries. For an astral connection to sever it takes the flow of energy to drop to 74% of what normally flows through the circuit. This is a very large window of elasticity!

Normal efforts to change the astral patterns by generating energy simply do not create a large enough spike to do anything at all! Nothing succeeds like excess! The physical body generates these types of energies:

Unity/Spiritual Light/Photon/electron

Concrete Spiritual/ archetypal

Abstract Mental/Creative and philosophical thought/logic and reason

Concrete Mental/ objective perception of the world through the physical senses

Upper Emotional

Lower Emotional

Sexual energy

Sensual energies/Etheric

As you can see there are eight types of energies if one includes that of Unity or Source. To create a large enough energy spike to alter the astral circuitry you need to achieve the “2nd wind” in any of the above categories. The goal is to generate such a surge of energy that you will experience vivid and powerful dreams during the night as you sleep and the energy is discharged from your body into the astral planes. If you can’t achieve this surge of energy, the energy will simply be “digested” or absorbed by the astral circuitry without making any difference because of the elasticity of the astral itself.

Now the astral “resets” itself twice a day and that is the real reason between morning and evening prayers. Prayer sends a surge of energy into the astral in the morning and the astral “resets” itself during the day so that you can do it once more in the evening…a very powerful meditation or connection to Source can alter the astral circuitry and that is why it is done.

One can debate, participate in philosophical thinking, study several different subjects till going past the fatigue point to create the needed surge of energy.

One can become an adrenaline addict and a thrill seeker to charge the astral with emotional energies.

One can work out in the gym with discipline, hard work and will power to inject that rush of physical energy into the astral.

One can have two full body orgasms where the sexual pleasure is brought to the edge of orgasm and held for at least a half hour before allowing it to take place. If this is done twice in one evening the surge of energy is guaranteed to cause the astral to reset itself and give often violent and powerful dreams that are healing and empowering.

One can use sensual pleasures, pains and grounding techniques to use Gaia’s earth energy to provide the needed energy.

Technique is not important. Ritual is not important. Understanding is not important. Generating the energy spike is what is important! Causing the astral to rupture and reset itself is what is important!

Many years ago soon after crossing the Great Abyss and uniting with Source I did the equivalent of the Healing and Prosperity Circle meditation and opened the basic energy pathways inside my body. Then I started working with sexual energy as suggested by Mantak Chia. He said that one should learn to control the orgasm so that when I finally did find a partner it would be more enjoyable and pleasurable for both. Almost immediately I experiences an eruption of spontaneous kundalini energy that is still active within my body without stopping. I began an auto-erotic path of generating orgasm energy twice a day, every day for over seven years without a break! It was very difficult and very frustrating. But every night I had dreams that were so powerful they were almost violent in their intensity! It was also very healing and I was integrating parts of my soul in ways that I had never done before.

I soon discovered that this practice was activating emotional wounds and repressed energies which caused explosive outbreaks of emotional energies as they were released. But these energies were safely released because of the opened energy channels created by the previous meditation and connection to Source.

At first this generation of energy burst the weak places within my own aura and physical body. This can be summarized as destroying any and all illusions and weak areas in my own belief system. I needed to eliminate the energy leaks one by one in a slow process that took years. Over time I gained the ability to safely contain this pressurized energy and the breakage or rupture in the astral was not inside me, but outside of me.

This caused changes within the astral circuitry that affected other magic workers and I became subject to several years of almost daily magical attack. At first I had to rise above the attack to survive. Later as my astral body became stronger I even went down below the attack to over power it.

For many years now I have not experienced any serious magical attack or threat and have always won any magical battle or duel even though I have never willingly attacked others. I have only fought back in self-defense…but when attacked have learned to not hold back! I am the equivalent of special ops within the astral realms and this is what I intend to teach others, how to be the very best!

In this post I have shared what I did. In my next post I will share what happened in terms of soulmate cycles and love relationships. There is so much BS floated around on these subjects that I’m going to smash them with a sledge hammer! Anyone that doesn’t like it can take me on! Chuckle!

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Integrating The Etheric Double

Posted in ascension, Divine Counterparts, fifth density, fourth density, light workers, Organic Gnosticism, shamanism, tantra, tantrism, Uncategorized on January 8, 2020| Leave a Comment »

Fantasy, Portrait, Woman, Mystical, Girl, Face

I think I’ve said enough about the dangers of trying to activate the etheric double or the Ka, that mysterious non-physical body created out of the noble gas element #118 before establishing a solid connection to the Spiritual Light of Source. I’ve also shared how the Healing and Prosperity Circle meditation can do that for you. Now I’m going to move on to the actual process of integrating this non-physical body and becoming conscious of it.

Since it has 32 electrons or awareness points within its outer circle it takes a very long time to permanently activate it. Most likely it will take years…remember the dangers of vampirism and avoid becoming an energy vampire! Use your connection to Source or soulmate or divine counterpart as the means of empowering temporary activations of the etheric double. You can also use time honored methods such as dancing, chanting, drumming, as well as healthy physical and sexual activity. Think of Wicca and Shamanism as positive examples of this.

I remember one of the first meditations that I learned as a Rosicrucian. It was to sit in a chair with my feet on the ground and slowly visualize energy in the bottom of my feet, feel it go into my toes, my arches, my heels and gradually up my legs and body to eventually end up at the crown chakra and then back down the front of my body. Remember the etheric double is accessed where the physical body touches the ground, and if we are sitting in a chair it is where our feet touch the ground.

Think of all other types of grounding exercises and meditations such as hugging a tree or sitting with your back against a tree. Each and all of these work to integrate your normal awareness with your etheric double as much as possible. By doing these types of activities it is possible to activate several electrons or points of awareness at the level of the etheric double. Each activated point of awareness gives sensory input from this realm. Activating two points of awareness will give an archetypal awareness or black and white awareness which can sharpen your instincts of safety and danger…even if you don’t really understand why you feel at peace or threatened.

It’s also time to re-define the chakra levels and energies beginning with the lower emotional energies of the root chakra, beneath that the sexual energies of orgasm and beneath that the etheric energies of sensuality and the pleasures and pains of the flesh or skin…

Consider the similarities between some tantric practices and the sadist/masochist/dominance/submisive cultures and the immense sexual energies they generate. Consider also the Holy Grail/ witch’s cauldron/ horn of plenty which in reality is the merging of the magnetic energies of sex and orgasm on the astral planes and not the physical act of sex itself. You will begin to understand the deviant and why they act as they do to feed their lower astral bodies…

The main commonality is to raise the sexual tension to an incredible peak and draw it out for at least 30 minutes without releasing it. In many ways this means to flirt with danger and risk destroying the magical work by the act of physical sex itself. The fiction of Dion Fortune gives strong guidance on these concepts and how important such dynamic sexual tension really is to magical workings.

Also keep in mind that male energy first goes to the female until she is fulfilled and only then does she give birth to an astral/noble gas body for the male. It is much easier for the female to develop and integrate the Ka or etheric double than it is for a male. This is why females are often seen as witches. In fact, the entire practice of tantra is to teach the male  how to have full body orgasms like the female does without losing sperm energy. It is the magnetic waves of orgasm that pass through the body that act to build and strengthen the etheric double or any other noble gas body. This is easy for the female but extremely difficult for the male.

Lastly many of the strange sexual activities used in tantric and occult practices are simply ways to avoid pregnancy while achieving orgasm or near orgasm. Don’t over think it! Also consider how working with soulmate or divine counterpart crystalline energy is different from low level collective energy…consider the sacred and the profane…keep it sacred!

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Magical Grounding and the Etheric Double

Posted in ascension, Divine Counterparts, earth changes, fifth density, fourth density, light workers, Organic Gnosticism, shamanism, Uncategorized on January 4, 2020| Leave a Comment »

Fantasy, Forest, Creepy, Woman, Bird, Dark, Gloomy

Continuing our discussion of the importance and benefits of the Healing and Prosperity Circle meditation is to consider grounding and the etheric double from this new perspective. Now if the mysterious noble gas element #118 is indeed the Ka, the etheric double and the lowest possible level of our reality it is also where we ground during our meditations and magical work. That means the etheric realm is the world in which ghosts and spirits walk and it is in actuality beneath our normal perception of physical reality! This means it is more real than what we consider real physical reality! It is the opposite of imaginary and mental or spiritual creations and life forms which are above our ordinary awareness of physical reality.

In magical practice the meaning of “grounding” is to become anchored in the very core of the earth energies where we are completely safe and sane and anchored within our physical bodies. It is also the furthest away from the Source energies of Love and Light that come in through the crown chakra. It is only full spectrum ascension and Organic Gnosticism that actually connect these two extremes and draw the Spiritual energies of love and light down to the lowest levels as the ultimate form of magical empowerment. We use the connection between these two extremes to open our portal for the Healing and Prosperity meditation. That is why it is so powerful.

In magical practice when people ground themselves and ground the generated energies it means that these energies are absorbed and distributed at the etheric level in a balanced manner. The use of protective circles and rituals is because people are working with energies that are not in perfect balance and not at the etheric level! It means that there are many polarized energies that can disrupt and destroy magical workings if they are not protected. It means magical practitioners are introducing highly polarized energies into the environment in a way to provoke or invoke change and they produce extremely high voltages which can be dangerous if not handled correctly.

What seems to be happening is that perfect balance of energies and Unity only happens at the etheric level of the mysterious noble gas element #118 where the final outermost electron circle is complete and at the  spiritual photon/electron level of absolute Unity. We might also say that each noble gas represents areas of perfect balance and stability as well since each represents complete electron shells. So each fully activated astral body of Helium, Neon, Argon,Krypton, Xenon and Radon are also perfectly balanced and form their own type of grounding spaces within the full spectrum of life experience.

I’ve shared the basic Healing and Prosperity Circle meditation with occultists who have been horrified that there are no apparent protections in place and that I don’t ground the energies after the meditation itself. They don’t understand that it is perfectly grounded from the top down and that there has never been any form of “energy sickness” associated with it. It is also grounded from the bottom up and as stable a form of meditation as possible just the way it is without protections or rituals of any kind.

In fact, I’ve noticed that just like others working with Gaia’s ascension energies, I instinctively avoid the unbalanced energies of discord and negativity. This is why my personal progress has been from the top down and as each level becomes balanced my awareness becomes comfortable there and makes it my new home and my new center of activity. The etheric realm now seems to have become my new home and new center of activity and that is why I’m writing this Book of Shadows material.

When you consider that there are 32 sensory points of awareness or electrons in the etheric body and 32 sensory points of awareness in the noble gas body of Radon directly above that, it becomes clear how difficult it is to permanently activate these lower noble gas bodies. For most occultists they can only be accessed in a temporary manner through the generation or use of vital life force energy either through physical activity or some form of sacrifice. When permanently activated without the Source connection they create the need for vampirism to sustain themselves as I’ve indicated in other posts. This is why the Source connection is so vital in its ability and use of channeling Source energy to sustain these lower level astral bodies.

I’m going to say this another way. I have permanently activated all these astral bodies and have permanent awareness of what is going on around me at all the levels in a continuous manner. I live in a multi-dimensional way that is becoming normal for me. I don’t shift from one level to the other, but exist with awareness in all of them at the same time. My awareness does tend to settle at the lowest level that it is comfortable at since it has become rare for any activity to be a threat in the upper levels. The upper levels have become like blue sky without any clouds so there is not much to see there most of the time. It is the activity that attracts my attention and this activity is now on the etheric level.

I can enter a room like a cafe and just by glancing at the people inside sense what they are thinking or feeling. This is uncomfortable and I usually put up some type of shield to block their energy from entering my own space. So I deliberately choose to block many of the things within my environment. But I do these things naturally and in a balanced way that allows me to be “invisible” in the sense that no one really notices me. Remember that the strongest magical protection is a strong aura!

 

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