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Your Memory
Your loving clear eyes
Greet me from the far distance,
Softly shimmering across to me,
Like bright stars through the fog.
I think of you, so return again,
In fairytale brilliance and childhood dreams;
A wind whispers through my soul,
Like through the green trees in the forest.
-Mia Holm 1900
translation by Joe Bandel
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There are times in life when we need to stand fast, resolute, and invulnerable like a rock. In times of assault and trial we feel the need to stand true to our inner convictions, true to what we believe in, in the face of death itself.
At such times we are like a rock in our faith and it is a source of strength to us. This is a sound defensive strategy. It is easier to take a defensive position and resist all attacks rather than attack a superior force or opponent.
It is sound judgment to let the opposition work itself out and deplete its energy while we retain ours through a tight defensive position.
This concept of standing like a rock has a very solid foundation in physical reality and draws strength from physical reality. It also shows the wisdom of caution and non-aggression while remaining true to who we really are.
Due to the hierarchal nature of life, as we develop our own personal power we earn the right to a better position. A position in life that holds more options for us and more chances for fulfillment. This means we may eventually take over a position that someone else already holds.
All positions within the hierarchy are always filled. As soon as a position becomes vacant the proper person fills it. Our struggle to advance becomes a threat to those who currently hold the position we are striving for and they will fiercely resist, not out of malice toward us, but in the interests of self-preservation.
They wish to retain the position they currently hold. It is popular to believe that the advancement of our own interests and pursuit of happiness should not be a threat to anyone else. The truth is that nature is always filled to capacity and the finite world we live in will not grow any larger.
When we advance someone else somewhere loses a little space. The opposite is also true. When someone else somewhere loses a little bit there is an opening that we can advance into. This happens naturally as people in the workforce age and retire leaving empty positions to be filled by younger people. The difference between these two methods is profound. The first is aggression and open attack for power and position in life. The individual attempts to force his or her will upon others.
The second method is when a person stays at his or her current position slowly and gradually gaining personal power as little openings present themselves and at the proper moment in time when a person in a higher position retires or withdraws that newly vacated position is offered to us. In this method there is no fighting for position and power because it is naturally recognized which person is proper for the new position.
There is no need to attack people who hold positions we aspire to. In the fullness of time and when it is appropriate that position will become ours if it is meant to be. It is wise to be content with our own growth and personal evolution and not threaten people.
There is no need to attack them. They may even at some point attack us simply because our increased energy is becoming a threat to them. Let them draw the first blood.
Many times they feel trapped in positions that are becoming too much for them to handle and they want to find a way out. Attacking us is often a way to hasten their own retirement in an honorable way. Such people feel that it is better to die fighting for something then to be confined for the rest of their living years in an old folks home as they die from a degenerative disease.
When we desire personal growth in life our actions will often result in others attacking us at some point. Our efforts toward self-fulfillment are making it more difficult for others to achieve their own personal goals. At times there is a valid conflict of interest in even the most innocent of goals. We might want what others want and they might want what we want.
To believe otherwise is to bury one’s head in the sand and refuse to see the world as it exists. To admit the realities of life is to come to terms with them in a way that treats others with respect and dignity.
In taking a defensive position and asserting ourselves a little at a time as the opportunity presents we can advance without losing respect for human life and dignity. If others choose to fight us in battle we have the sacred trust and obligation to respect their right and choice and also the sacred trust and obligation to fight back with every ounce of power and energy available to us. We can respect those we battle with as fellow warriors who wish to die in battle or go down fighting.
When others attack it is vital we hold our own against them. We stand firm to what we believe in the face of death itself. Our position is rightfully earned through the honest development of personal power and the accumulated energy of physical work. We do not need to back down.
Often those who attack us are in the position that is right for us. They no longer have the right to that position because they have abused it or have become unfit for it in some manner. These people seek to hold their position through fear and intimidation and not through personal ability. It is a moral wrong to surrender to these people when it is within our power to advance into a position that is rightfully one that we have earned.
It may be morally wrong to aggressively force our way into positions of power and influence, but it is equally wrong to avoid those positions if they are offered to us either as a gift or through the aggressions of others. It is not morally wrong to take the power away from a bully who uses intimidation and terror to achieve his or her goals.
Life situations can take on the quality of opening a can of worms. An action that seems very simple and straightforward can entangle us in a hopeless mess that will drain away our energy reserves. Those in higher positions will attempt to draw us into situations that will entangle us. These people are adept at finding any weak spots that we may have and use them against us.
The key to dealing with these situations is to remain purely defensive. Establish a boundary and don’t let an opponent cross that boundary. Be true to our own interests and keep our efforts and energies away from entanglements and lost causes.
In this way even our weaknesses turn into strengths as we gain awareness of them and are forced to deal with them in an appropriate manner. Often our greatest weaknesses when honestly confronted and owned become our greatest strengths and assets.
Do not aggressively attack for positions of power and influence. Those in superior positions will hold the advantage and turn our own efforts against us. They have the ability to twist and distort our own efforts in a way that will advance their own position. When we refuse to attack they have no means of diverting us and drawing us into unprofitable activities. They can do nothing and we can quietly continue our efforts at personal growth in peace and tranquility.
By remaining in a tightly focused defensive position we can wait out any attack and weather the storm. When the storm is over we will be free to assume the positions in life that we have earned through our own hard effort. Our enemies will have destroyed themselves by bettering themselves against the solid rock of our defense. Openings for advancements will then appear when the timing is right.
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Have you ever fallen in love with the mystery and elusiveness of magic? Do the shadows make your pulse jump? Does energy work fill you with an intense pleasure?
I know that over the years it has done this for me and much more. What yearning can possess someone to seek initiations into secret societies and secret knowledge? There is a hunger in my soul that only magic can fill and this post is for those people like me.
In the subjective world of magic everyone perceives differently but there is one universal truth. Once you have experienced something magical you can recognize when other people talk about similar experiences, even when they use different words and concepts. This is such a broad subject and there are so many places where one could start.
I’ve chosen to begin with magic and its ties to physical reality. Contrary to what many believe, magic is for those seeking material manifestations and intense physical living. It is not an escape from reality, but an intense immersion into physical reality.
Magical energy is generated by the physical body. It stands to reason that anyone seriously interested in magic must take good care of their physical body and treat it as the temple which it truly is.
Extreme living is the norm for magical practitioners. Often excessive, compulsive behavior is needed to develop the magical powers of the soul. Think about it. An intense energy drives people who are serious about magic.
So what is magic? It makes me almost puke to to hear “change in conformity with will” or some other garbage.
Let me tell you what I’ve heard from sources I trust. The Rosicrucians claimed that H Spencer Lewis, former Imperator, was able to manifest gold through alchemy in a public demonstration. Joseph Weed mentions that a Rosicrucian master manifested physical roses that fell in an auditorium. These roses had stems that tapered into points. They were not natural flowers.
These statements clearly state physical manifestations are possible. As a Rosicrucian of over 20 years I’ve studied the techniques claimed to manifest these things. I have not had such impressive results. I hope to someday find conclusive proof of this one way or another. In the meantime I would like to share that the world is currently in a magical battle and that ordinary magical practices no longer apply.
What I have personally experienced is powerful transformative techniques that have changed my life. These have been magical in every way. I have also experienced precognitive dreams on a regular basis which proves that physical events must happen astrally before they manifest physically.
I have also experienced lucid dreaming in which the outcome of an event was altered through will and magical effort. There is no doubt that such dreams altered the potential outcome of real physical events which happened the next day.
Over the past twenty five years I have developed all astral bodies and their powers. I currently function in multiple realities. The astral planes are no longer theoretical, but actual and I experience them every moment of my day!
In summary, astral work or dream work can and does alter physical reality before it manifests. That is enough for me to believe in the value of magical workings and the validity of astral phenomenon.
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Whether you are generating sexual orgasm energy with an opposite sex partner, homosexually or auto erotically you will still experience the incubus or succubus. Sexual dreams are a normal part of a healthy dream life. By generating and sending sexual orgasm energy you’re actively provoking such experiences!
The act of generating sexual orgasm energy is a mechanical process. How the body stores that energy during the day and releases it into the astral at night through dreams is the magical part of the process.
Sexual orgasm energy is highly polarized as male or female and will attract suitable opposite sex energy within the dream environment. You will draw astral lovers to yourself or be drawn to them. This is all part of the process and is involuntary unless you deliberately choose to send the energy to someone in particular or go to them.
The incubus or succubus is a projection of the shadow self of your magical partner. The more distorted the incubus or succubus, the more distorted your magical partner’s belief in themselves. The same is true for angelic love encounters. These are projections of your partner’s higher self and not of their true nature. Only after you and your magical partner dissolve and integrate these two secondary personalities can you meet face-to-face within the dream/astral worlds. What this means is that in the beginning you will encounter the demonic side of your magical partner and they will encounter your demonic side. You’ll come face-to-face with their greatest fears and they will come face-to-face with yours. You will also come face-to-face with their greatest desires and they with yours. But neither are real. They are the sharing of not self; those things despised or those things desired but unattainable.
Coming face-to-face with the greatest fears of someone else is even more challenging than confronting your own greatest fears. The same is true for your greatest desires. These things are what makes this path so difficult. You need to integrate both the shadow and higher self of your magical partner as well as integrating your own shadow or higher self.
Fortunately this is an automatic process that unfolds gradually in its own time and in its own way as you continue to generate sexual orgasm energy twice a day.
There is an ancient wisdom within the physical body and that wisdom guides the entire process. First is the dissolving and integration of the shadow and higher self, then the giving and receiving of energy to the female to create her own Observer self, then the birth of an astral child that will house the male’s Observer self, then the creation of a personal timeline and lastly the astral creation of an entire world.
Throughout this process various other experiences will follow as the soul develops and begins to function magically within the astral worlds. You maintain an astral connection with your magical partner throughout the entire cycle and remain permanently linked at its conclusion even though you may each go separate ways.
It is likely that you will be drawn into various cycles with various magical partners as level after level of the astral is explored and layer after layer of the soul is developed. But there will only be one magical partner at a time. This is the concept known as magical celibacy. The incubus and succubus are personality fragments of actual people whom you are in energetic contact with in some manner, personally, or even over the Internet.
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We are going to talk about the connections between literacy and the soul. I mentioned that conscious awareness and life itself really depends upon having both some type of a physical body, along with a nonphysical body or energy body. Together they create what’s called a resonant circuit. Now it’s true that souls can exist without a physical body for quite a bit of time, up to thousands of years. But they will gradually fade back into light unless they find a physical body to strengthen themselves and renew themselves.
I mentioned three types of people that seemed to be emerging around 5000 BC in the same geographical area of the middle east. True mystics are actually original souls that were created along with Gaia or the earth and have evolved with her. I also talked about the appearance of the other two groups which I call rational atheists or the materialists and those I called the false prophets or social enforcers.
Both of these groups represent alien souls or foreign souls that have entered in physical life. They were not originally native here but their alien souls have become born into physical bodies. So their souls are in physical bodies and that’s why their soul characteristics are different than those with native souls.
The true mystics or organic Gnostics are the only original Gaia inhabitants and the only original souls that have evolved here along with Gaia. They’re the only ones with the creative, magical ability that both of the other groups are really dependent upon because they don’t have the organic genetic connection to their own souls. They can’t physically manifest things without the help of the organic Gnostics. So they have enslaved the organic Gnostics to do their work for them.
The souls and genetic connections of the organic Gnostics or true native inhabitants have some of the characteristics of the materialist or the rational atheist souls, because they can also be extremely rational but the rational atheists see only light and dark. Only the physical and material world exists for them and because there is no other nonphysical world for them their spirituality takes the shape of community existence.
They are the hive minded people that I’ve talked about. This collective oriented drive for a harmonious society or human collective becomes what is spiritual for them and what they live for.
In contrast the false prophets or social enforcers are very warlike and they have a deep awareness of the nonphysical astral realities and spiritual planes that they have experienced in the past.
The astral is actually showing the tracks of their past as a traditional destiny that needs to be repeated. So they are traditionalist because history does tend to repeat itself and they’re always trying to find that sacred pattern that repeats and repeats over and over again.
Now for literacy and how important a factor it played in the Paleolithic age of cavemen and women. They were able to create art, They were able to create beautiful art. So there was a process inside humanity that was developing a cognitive ability and that’s just the critical time when the other two groups came in.
These groups of alien souls came in at that time because humanity was at a critical and suggestible stage with individual awareness but not enough to develop their own sense of self. Their own sense of ego was not strong enough to really cut it on their own. So these other two groups of advanced alien souls came in and they had a war going on for who was able to take control of those native inhabitants that were just beginning to develop their own souls.
A soul is the sense of self and sense of ego awareness that dwells in the heart. How literacy comes into play here is how what was once art became hieroglyphics and what was once hieroglyphics became letters. Something happened inside the brains of the humans where they began to visualize inside their heads. They began to creatively visualize and imagine and dream. And once they developed a sense of self, or watcher self, they could actually imagine seeing themselves and see an imagined world inside their heads, inside their minds. That is when they began to think about immortality and life after death or the continuation of awareness after death because of this watcher self.
The watcher self or soul was created as an evolutionary byproduct of the invention of reading and writing. It became solidified inside as the ego, as the sense of self, and when the original Gaia inhabitants dreamed they had the ability of having a watcher self. This was a part of themselves that watched the movie screen of the dream where they might see another version of themselves acting out imagined events.
The mental evolution that created a watcher self or soul for the organic Gnostics didn’t happen to the rational atheists. That group of materialists doesn’t have the ability to develop a watcher self. But what they do have is a very sharp perception of physical reality and they rely almost exclusively upon logic and reason. You will not see them using spiritual concepts or nonphysical concepts because they think that’s a bunch of baloney. What they were really after is logic and reason and the collective mind and the collective good of humanity. That is why they insist that each person sacrifice themselves to the common good because that is what they do.
Now the other group, the traditionalists, the false prophets or social enforcers are warlike. They just want to dominate and they want to enslave the rest of the world. So they are basically trying to create a narrative in which they remain empowered and the natural original earth inhabitants are not empowered. So they are being kind of sneaky about it.
Once more you have this war for control over the souls of the original Gaia inhabitants, the organic Gnostics. Now, previous to this time there wasn’t really any anything going on because everything was goddess oriented, basically the native Gaia inhabitants were guided by the feminine life giving principle. They believed that the goddess brought life through birth and that she brought death and then she turned around and brought life again through rebirth. It was so obvious that they didn’t even doubt it.
But after the invention of reading and writing and after the beginnings of this first sense of self things began to change. This first ego. This first sense of awareness of self was a game changer. The two other groups were very patriarchal and anti-feminine and this was their chance to take control of the evolution of the human race.
This anti-feminine trait is another key characteristic because the original Gaia inhabitants were balanced and had balanced their male and female energy all the way down through the DNA. It was in balance all through their genetics and they were able to integrate their own shadow aspect and higher self.
None of the other groups could and that’s the difference. The organic Gnostics are the only group that can draw fire down from heaven. They are the only true Prometheus’s if you will. That is why they have been so chained and repressed. Like Prometheus they were chained because the rational atheists and social enforcers didn’t dare give them true freedom. It is only now after all these years that the organic Gnostics are taking their own power and their own freedom back into their own hands!
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Chapter 8
Rafe explained the best way to survive in the winter was to hunt the larger animals like the deer. Each kill would provide enough food for a week or more and in the winter it was very important to have some food set aside for emergencies and for when the weather really got bad. Winter was also the best time for trapping animals for their fur. He would need some winter clothing before it got really cold and this was as good a time to learn as any. He could make some things now while the furs were prime and keep them at Rafe’s camp until he needed them.
In the meantime it was spring and life was abundant. Flowers bloomed in the meadows and insects flew and crawled all over. Tobal learned to make containers and drinking cups out of the green bark of birch trees and boiled water in them. He used them to make teas and ointments that kept the deerflies and ticks away.
His skin became tanned and his muscles hard from the constant exposure and work. He could stay outside in any weather and walk the entire day without being exhausted. By the end of the second week Tobal was living completely on his own food. He was not only finding food but was providing food for Rafe to eat. He still had trouble cooking though. Nothing he cooked tasted as good as the mouth watering victuals that Rafe provided. Still Rafe never complained. Tobal learned the importance of keeping his knife razor sharp, both of them. He kept the one from his initiation on his belt and his old knife strapped to his right leg above his ankle just as Rafe did.
By the end of the second week he was getting bored with the monotony of the daily grind and the constant need to keep busy. He was looking forward to something new. They moved out from Rafe’s small valley and traveled in different directions meeting up at designated spots on the map every other day. Tobal became proficient with the map and with triangulating where he was at any given time.
He spent some evenings alone and others with Rafe. The evenings he spent with Rafe were spent creating different kinds of shelters and sleeping in them. He was amazed at how many things could be used for shelter. But they all had the bed made of soft fragrant pine boughs and he followed the first rule of never sleeping on the ground if it could be avoided.
Leaning trees that had fallen provided shelter when combined with the gray poncho material. Two trees and his walking stick lashed between them became an impromptu tent. Lean-to shelters were easily made and he also made a small teepee using the gray blanket material.
The need for water was always present and he never strayed too far from a good supply of it. He learned where to look for fresh water springs and waterholes. He also learned to collect rain water with his poncho or blanket and fill his canteens and other containers. Rain water was fresh and didn’t need to be boiled. Water from stagnant pools needed to be boiled before drinking.
He practiced continuously with the sling and his bow. He got his first deer at the end of the third week. He was really excited even though there was too much meat. They spent two days slicing and smoking it into jerky that could be stored away to eat later. It made his pack much heavier and he cached some carefully in a tree marking the spot on his map so he could return to it later.
Once in awhile they would see an air sled in the distance with a medic on it. They would wave and sometimes the medic would wave back. Medics were not allowed to interfere with the Apprentice degrees unless there was an emergency but they did keep an eye on things.
It was during the fourth and final week that Rafe asked Tobal to look at the map and decide where he was going to solo. He should also start thinking about where he was going to be training people. He recommended Tobal stay roughly within 60 miles of the gathering spot.
“Where are the others?” He asked Rafe curiously.
“We don’t move around too much unless we are training someone,” Rafe answered. “The Journeymen usually find a permanent spot and no one bothers them. Many of the older Apprentices do too. That’s why we haven’t seen anyone. Still, a lot of the nicer spots have been taken and it’s getting harder to find an area that someone has not at least passed through. We encourage the newbies to stay within 30 miles of the gathering spot so we can keep an eye on them. Since there are normally not more than seven or eight training at any given time there is lots of space and it’s easy to stay out of each other’s way.”
Tobal enjoyed the rugged outdoor lifestyle and the solitude. He felt a quiet confidence in his growing ability to survive and was looking forward to his own solo that was rapidly approaching.
The fourth week was different than the first three. It was travel, travel and more travel. Rafe knew where several people lived and they set out to visit them. The meaning was clear. Rafe wanted Tobal to be able to go for help and find someone if it was needed. He also wanted Tobal to know who his friends were.
Once when they were going through the woods Rafe stopped him and motioned him to be silent. He pointed at three figures in black that were going through the woods at a fast dog trot.
“There are some people, particularly in the Journeyman degree,” Rafe said later, “that have gone off the deep end and gone rogue. These Journeymen will ambush a person, destroy his or her belongings, take their supplies and leave them helpless. It is a real danger that must always be kept in mind.
Fortunately the rogues do not stay close to the gathering spot. They are not very good woodsmen and can barely survive on their own during the winter. That’s probably why they prey on others. Usually they prey on other Journeymen that have set up permanent camps and take their winter supplies.
It always pays to be careful. If possible, know whom you are visiting, some might make you welcome and some camps might be dangerous. I don’t think there is any danger of being killed”, Rafe said, “but there is always the possibility of being injured and put in the hospital or something. The medics might not be able to get there in time. If you ever run across something that is not yours, leave it alone. There is no need to get anyone pissed off because you messed with their stuff.”
With that final warning they headed back toward the gathering spot and the monthly circle celebration.
Circle was different this time around and Tobal whistled merrily as he traveled the path into camp. He didn’t see anyone on the trail and no one tried to stop him or Rafe. Rafe seemed amused at Tobal’s whistling but didn’t say anything about it. He only whistled a few short bars at two sharp turns in the trail and that was it.
People were setting up teepees and gathering wood for the fires. There was a lot of work to do and Tobal joined in with enthusiasm. He helped dig the roasting pits where the bigger animals were being prepared. It felt good to work along side other clansmen and joke with them. He was grateful to contribute and as evening came closer he wondered what the night would bring.
Everyone was changing into robes. All clan members at circle wore robes that they kept in one of the storage buildings. A black robed guard was handing them out. There was no reason to haul robes around all month when they were only used here. Tobal was given a long gray robe similar to the one he had gotten at sanctuary.
“Just bring it back tomorrow when you’re done with it.” Was all the guard told him.
It turned out only four newbies were being initiated that night. Tobal made some new friends and was hanging out with them. They were all Apprentices. Zee was a raven haired girl with shoulder length hair and a good sense of humor. She had been one of Rafe’s students and was training her first newbie. Nicky, the newbie had just arrived at sanctuary two weeks ago and was being initiated as Apprentice tonight, but would be waiting till next month before starting her solo.
Wayne was a stocky good natured fellow with sandy hair. He had been an Apprentice for two years and wasn’t in any hurry to make it to Journeyman. He didn’t have any student and hadn’t been training anyone for the past few months. He was more interested in being with his girl friend that was also an Apprentice. His girlfriend, Char, had curly brown hair and a ready smile. They were always seen together at circle. Tobal remembered both of them from last circle. It was easy to tell they were in love.
A tall, lanky, sandy haired kid was soloing the same time he was. They hit it off right away during last month’s initiation. In fact, all six that had been initiated last month were soloing this month. Kevin was more nervous about his solo than Tobal was. It made Tobal realize Rafe was a very uncommon teacher and extremely good at teaching others what they needed to know. Most soloists didn’t have the quality of training or the experience Rafe had given him. Kevin kept thinking about bad things that might happen in the woods, things that hadn’t occurred to Tobal since his first weeks of training. Many clansmen were excited about the six of them soloing and they were given lots of support and encouragement.
Nicky kept staring at Tobal’s face, finally she blurted out. “ What happened to your face anyway?”
Tobal was caught by surprise and off guard. “I was attacked by a wild animal that knocked me down. I fought it off and was really lucky.” He lied.
“I almost lost the sight in this eye,” and he fingered the long scar around his right eye.
Nicky said, “It makes you look kind of sexy and dangerous,” and it was her turn to blush. Rising to her feet, she crossed over to where Tobal was sitting and crouched down in front of him putting her arms around his neck.
“Very sexy,” she whispered and kissed him deeply and passionately on the lips pulling his hand against the top of her breasts where her robe lay casually open at the top. Then she stood back up and walked toward the kitchen to refill her mug of beer.
Tobal was stunned, then pleased. In this camp there were many scars and tattoos and each one had a story. In fact, the more scars or tattoo’s a person had, the more stories that went with them. Wayne was planning on getting matching tattoo’s with Char. They were debating what tattoos would look right and the best places to have them.
There was an awkward silence but it passed and everyone started talking again about the coming solo. After awhile one of the red cloaked figures came toward their group. She was a medic named Ellen. Tobal recognized her as the High Priestess that initiated him. She asked if everyone was ready for circle.
A few hours later Tobal and the others were at the circle entrance waiting and watching as it was cast and purified. The older members were gathered around. The central bonfire was piled high and the smaller fires at each of the quarters burned merrily. The High Priestess and High Priest cast the circle and Tobal watched with interest as they worked closely together.
They stood together before the stone altar that was set on the northern side of the central fire. The High Priestess handed the High Priest a bowl of water. As he held it she put the tip of her knife into it.
“I purify you spirit of water, banishing all impurities and illusion. May you be charged with the power, strength and love of the Lord and Lady. Blessed be!”
Then the High Priest put the bowl of water back on the altar and picked up a bowl of rock salt handing it to the High Priestess. She held the bowl as he put the tip of his knife into it.
“I purify you spirit of salt, banishing all impurities and evil. May you be charged with the power, strength and love of the Lord and Lady. Blessed Be!”
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Asphodels
The two of us walked
Across a meadow,
Annie Ventnor and I,
As we were climbing from
Mitromania up to Arco,
She had to rest there,
This slender English beauty,
She was thirty-four, hysterical
And badly, badly asthmatic.
Then we went up further
To Monte Tiberio
And then the two of us walked
Across a meadow of asphodels,
Lady Ventnor and I.
We walked over the meadow,
Walked toward the sea,
That surged deep below us,
Walked toward the sun,
The evening sun,
That was sinking there
Far behind Mallorca.
And we walked toward death,
Who had planted every where
His sacred perennial plants,
Asphodel plants,
—walked without speaking,
Silently toward death,
Annie Ventnor and I.
The outgoing evening sun
Sank into my eyes,
Sank into Annie Ventnor’s
Brown eyes,
Those tired, sick, pleading eyes.
And we felt:
—That now it might very well be!
Then I lifted her up in my arms
And jumped lightly
Down there,
Into the sea, into the sun,
Into the happiness they held!
A leap, a scream:
—Annie Ventnor and I!
And yet I knew:
That this evening
I would be down below
Sitting with the officers,
Would be playing Fly and Poker
And would be drinking absinthe,
Singing to the mandolin.
And would be laughing and
Dancing the tarantella
With the prostitutes—
And I also knew:
—This same Lady Annie Ventnor
Would be leaving for Naples
In the morning
To her lover.
He was a commissionaire
At the great
Clearing house of Mele,
And was an ugly Moor,
A dirty, stupid, ugly Moor,
That laughed over his hysterical
Countess . . .
And for new embraces
Always give her more
New, beautiful money.
I knew all that.
—And still the two of us walked,
Annie Ventnor and I,
In wonderful, Corinthian silence
Over asphodel meadows . . .
-Hanns Heinz Ewers
translated by Joe Bandel
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To be born into a physical body is to know that someday we must also face death. The cycle of life, death and rebirth is everywhere. Nothing in life is to be feared in the sense of becoming so paralyzed with fear that we are unable to function. Embrace the good with the bad and drink the cup of life in its fullness.
There is a bittersweet to life which brings vitality and vigor into our days. It is this bittersweet that teaches compassion and wisdom. I believe the nonphysical part leaves our physical body at death and upon the disintegration of our old physical body our soul is released to be reincarnated into a physical body more suited to our growing needs.
I also believe life requires both a capacitive physical body and an inductive nonphysical body. The combination of these two bodies working together forms a resonant circuit which brings life and awareness.
Put simply we have lived many lifetimes before our present one and a million years from now we will still require both a physical and a nonphysical body. With this understanding death has nothing to be afraid of.
We do have a responsibility to make our world of experience into the heaven it was intended to be and not into the hell it has at times become.
In the past people with highly developed souls and charisma often had physical bodies that resisted the decomposition process after death. This resistance to decomposition in a few cases extended for several years.
Egyptian mummies are examples of souls still tied to the physical corpses they once had. These souls are unable to break the link still holding them to their old physical bodies after thousands of years.
These souls exist in a type of purgatory existence neither alive nor dead. They simply take up space within the earth’s magnetic field where they wait for their mummies to slowly crumble into dust so that they can once more live. Christians call this afterlife heaven and believe there is no need to return to physical bodies. Others believing in reincarnation believe that a point is reached when the soul no longer needs to return into a physical body. My belief is that there will always be a need to return to a physical body. There will always be a need to create heaven here on earth. Once expanded awareness can never return to a smaller existence that what it is capable of.
We as living individuals can project our awareness out to those trapped between lives and make contact with them. This contact gives the illusion that these souls are alive and aware. The illusion is created by these trapped souls getting temporary access to our own physical bodies in the fashion of a parasite. They are only alive and aware through us and through the energetic contact which animates them..
If we are not protected these souls will attempt to possess our physical bodies and use them. As soon as the contact is dropped these trapped souls once more become inactive.
This illusion is the basis for much of the so-called contact with the dead. I personally feel it is wrong to establish contact with these trapped souls and allow them to feed on us in a parasite fashion. If possible they can be helped to move on and release from the lower levels. I have helped several lost souls return to the light and they were not pleasant experiences! It is sad work and dangerous work!
The appropriate solution is that the physical body be cremated after death and the ashes allowed to mingle back into the earth where they originally came from. This allows the soul the freedom to once more experience life in a more appropriate physical body through the process of rebirth as quickly as possible.
The current popular practice of embalming the physical corpse before burial is an abomination. It turns our love of life into a love of death. Our beautiful physical world is littered with the remains of corpses that refuse to return back to the elements they came from. Valuable property and money is invested in what amounts to a worship of the dead. This is necromancy of the foulest sort in my opinion.
Even worse, this worship of embalmed corpses traps souls within the Earth’s magnetic field and within a type of purgatory existence where they are unable to live and unable to die. These trapped souls are left with only the option of a parasite type of existence which feeds on living souls until the destruction of their own physical corpse allows them to move on into a new physical life of their own.
An even greater tragedy is that this nonliving existence clutters and impedes the flow of living energies within both the capacitive physical earth and the inductive nonphysical planes, the magnetic fields which surround the physical earth. We call these magnetic fields the astral planes.
It impedes the flow of living energies by diverting the flow of these living energies into ways long dead and forgotten. It is time to forget the wisdom of the ancients and discover an even greater new wisdom gained through living in the present living moment. It is time to find new ways of living!
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When we consider everything that exists is a photon driven energy systems which is evolving it means human awareness as well.
When we consider the organizing intelligence contained within the cell which remains unconnected to the physical matter that is passed into it and passed out of it we understand that life has evolved beyond the point of being completely dependent upon molecular compound energy. Something exists independently in the astral as life energy and guiding intelligence.
Entering the astral is at first dependent on the energy produced through the breaking of compound molecules through digestion and the stresses of physical existence. A point is reached where existence within the astral is sustained directly through a connection with the original photon driven energy system that first created it. This something exists within the astral in combination with a solid earth connection through our physical body and includes all 118 elements within the DNA.
When the evolutionary force reached the 118th element and couldn’t go any farther it began backing up and entered the astral as the life force. It is the life force that first organized as bion’s.
This cellular intelligence and organizing principle has been called the life force, the id, the shadow, the power animal, Gaia and Lucifer.
The evolutionary forces have formed this life force into a secondary personality which exists within each one of us as an alien entity. This life force and organizing intelligence passes from living organism to living organism if possible.
Consider that every living thing has been created from some other living thing. No living thing has been created out of something dead. The life force has adapted in many ways to ensure the continuity of life on planet Earth. Life begets life and so it must be!
The death of cellular life created memory traces within the astral or blueprints that created that recorded past life patterns through time. As those dying energy pulses returned to source they became free to enter life once more. This time they were able to choose the type of life they wanted to live and reexperience.
Reentering a previously lived life meant there was a preordained destiny to follow but all also meant the ability to improve upon that individual life and make it more successful. These astral memory traces formed around living organisms and species as group souls. They also formed around the entire earth as ecosystems creating a delicate balance within all living things.
These memory traces have been called destiny, the astral, egregores, the collective, our ancestors, the superego, the divine plan and the holy guardian angel. They represent how things will be in the future because they are the memories of how things have always been before.
We call this organizing intelligence our holy guardian angel and it forms a secondary personality within each one of us distinct from our shadow aspect. It is also alien to our normal ego and is archetypal in nature. It is the ghost future of our life as it exists before our own pulse of awareness encounters it. We only own the present moment!
The shadow aspect of life energy forms around the 118th element at our root chakra. The collective or higher self forms around the earth as the memory traces of previous living systems. History tries to repeat those patterns which existed in the past. We as pulses of awareness choose to reenter previous lifetimes and work within those conditions to bring about change in ourselves and in the expansion of our lives into the universe.
We call that pulse of awareness the normal human ego. With human life we find that our awareness is able to travel in three possible worlds. Ordinary consciousness is associated as our pulse of awareness radiates outward into the present moment. This is our awareness of physical reality.
In dreams or meditation we use energy generated during the day to enter into the underworld of the shadow or the spiritual worlds to explore the possible future as it currently exists. We call these the spiritual planes and the magical planes.
The spiritual planes and magical planes encircle the earth in 118 layers with the element hydrogen creating the outermost layer. Our awareness travels through astral cords or magnetic flux lines to explore these memory traces of what is meant to happen in the future.
At the earth’s core the element 118 has seven electron rings and 118 electrons. The astral planes above the equator have a north magnetic quality and are called the spiritual and the astral planes. The astral planes below the equator have a south pole magnetic quality and have been called the demonic or qlippothic planes. The molecules of element 118 within our DNA are linked to the earth’s core and our awareness at times travels the seven underworlds created within the astral plane of the118th element. These have been termed the magical planes, the underworld and the seven Hells. For something to physically exist it must exist in both the spiritual planes and the magical planes. It must have a balance of north and south pole magnetic energies to hold it stable and permanent.
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