He finds joy and peace in daydreaming about her. He lets his imagination run wild as he explores fantasy after fantasy. His daydreams about her become more real than she is. It is what she spiritually represents that he is in love with. He doesn’t really know who she is yet. He tries to draw his goddess down into her physical body with his imagination. When they have sex he is making love to the goddess and not to her.
She feels apprehension and sadness at her sudden exposure to the intensity of his emotions. He is now generating tangible psychic force and she needs to accept it and somehow transform it. This force at first seems hostile and threatening. It stirs her emotions wildly. This is her first eye-opening exposure to the tantric forces that can be generated this way.
It is both terrifying and exciting at the same time. How can he have so much energy? It is too much for her to handle so she tries to channel his energy upward to the goddess. Sex is not what she thought it would be and she instinctively feels that something is not right about the way he feels about her. He doesn’t really know her.
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