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The Strangling Hand
by Karl Hans Strobl
translated by Joe E. Bandel
Copyright Joe E. Bandel
The Strangling Hand Ch 1 pg 21-24

The mailman, who brought a single letter, looked at Frau Emma without attempting to say anything. What could he do other than share empty words of sympathy over the death of her husband? But hidden within the large envelope was a business card and a formal letter from a publisher, who had tried in vain to make an offer while her husband was living, and who was now once more inquiring after the estate of the dead. He had carefully prepared a contract to organize and publish the collected works of her husband. The widow was assured that she would receive enough in royalties to suffice for her needs.

Her joy at this unexpected development remained, but much stronger was the bitterness that this triumph came so late. Frau Emma decided to ask some friend of her husband for counsel, but she discarded every name that she called up, until she was only left with one, who had never known him while he was alive, yet had become a strong advocate now that he was dead, and in whom she had complete trust, Eleagabal Kuperus.

She was beginning to paint the particulars of her future, when Frau Fodermayr announced the arrival of a gentleman who wished to speak with her.

“Gracious Frau,” began the little, beardless man, who followed immediately behind the servant, as if he wanted to make a refusal impossible. “I already tried to search you out yesterday, but you were not at home, and that’s why I repeated my visit today. I am a press reporter.” He called out the name of a large magazine- “I’ve come to inquire about the sensational estate of your deceased husband. We would like to publish an article in the evening paper.”

Frau Emma stood silent and pale, and didn’t find it necessary at all to invite the questioner to sit. She sensed his forceful shamelessness, his words , which came from out of a large, nervous and smiling mouth, felt like blows. She felt how his own uncomfortableness, his hasty greed after sensational stories, endangered her own delicate balance. She was determined to throw this annoying fellow out, but would welcome the entry of anyone else that would spare her this difficulty.

In the meantime the journalist continued to press her with inquiries and his questions probed an open wound. Why had the deceased ordered that his head be preserved? How would the head be preserved? Had she already made arrangements to have it done? Did this strange desire of her husband originate from some disgusting reason or other form of weakness? Would she consider allowing a plaster cast to be made of the head?

Frau Emma looked solidly into the gray eyes of this short little man with the engaging smile who was leaning upon her husband’s writing table and everything else disappeared. She tried to meet his gaze with an unrelenting stare from across the room and force him to leave. It was like looking into a funnel, in which an ugly, confused life twisted.

The power, which this stranger served, arranged itself into a crowd of images before her, the bleak sound of stamping machines coming from out of subterranean rooms. This was where all the events of the times were painted into stories. All of the big stories were cut out from the forest of thoughts by the screaming saws of merciless midgets. The type sprang up like goblins, as black metal letters mixed together to chatter words of beauty, and staggered back down to form entire rows of sentences, which warped and arranged themselves to once more unite to form thoughts. Dirty hands with stubby fingers were visible between whirling wheels which grabbed after the fidgety letters and held them with a solid pressure to make them rigid, while endless rolls of paper were fed into them and disappeared. No stopping or pause interrupted the swarm of unending productivity. The columns of letters marched like armies of workers, one behind the other, ceaselessly spilling out from the surrounding machines, which pressed against the paper, imprinting the white masses with their own metallic lives.

The crazy hubbub became even more chaotic. Searching hands carefully folded the papers, grabbing at the tender and majestic words, tearing away the sense of the remote and giving it back to the crowd, driving the life out of the living, which was now confined on the paper as black on white. The machine spewed pressed sheets from out of its broad mouth, which piled into two mountains, two great pillars piling up, each containing thousands of repetitions of the same stock phrases and little reports, the same gossip and politically correct thoughts, the same murders and other unsolved crimes which threatened to choke the entire world. A crane reached down from above, whose iron claw clamped onto the bales and lifted them from out of the confused tunnel while the machines stamped on, and scarcely released from their iron framework, the letters were newly pressed into service like black spirits of the earth which a mighty sorcerer had made into slaves.

Her husband’s hatred of the industrious and busy body world of the newspaper burned in Frau Emma, who knew enough not to value or think of this interview as some kind of treasure. She suddenly turned away from the confused journalist in the middle of his questions and went into her bedroom, while she waved him away with a few jerking hand movements, like those she had so often seen her husband make.

In the easy chair she reflected over it, how it was that she had taken on the habits of her departed husband, like a shell that had been left behind and awaited a new core. Was it really true, as she had so often fantasized in the evening hours, that the deeds and actions of a person, all his words and little daily habits, remained behind after death, in a type of astral body, which remained behind and continued its life? It was invisible, like thoughts, woven from the astral substance of the soul, bodiless, yet with the finest nerves and tangible like magnetic lines of force or moonbeams, which remained in this world even after the crude form of the physical body had already gone away.

In the next room she heard the coughing of the journalist, who appeared determined to besiege her, until she gave in to his questions. But then in astonishment she heard words between him and another man’s voice. His words were soft and engaging. The other’s voice was muffled, yet hard and commanding at the same time. Just then a noisy truck rumbled past and rattled the front windows, so that the words were choked in the noise. But it seemed to Emma, as if the forceful commands of the other was forcing her beleaguer out of the room and after the truck had passed, the work room lay wrapped in silence.

Frau Emma stood up and walked over to the door. A strange man sat in front of her husband’s writing desk. He had one leg crossed over the other, with hands folded around one knee, and was observing the tip of his shoe as if there were nothing more interesting in this room than the round, immaculate top of his polished, shiny boot. The elegance of the English dandy, which extended from the difficult knot of his necktie down to the heavily creased suit, lay like a mask over his face. She knew that a far more dangerous opponent was sitting there, than the one which had just left.

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Spirit used to be the highest power and now it is being replaced with man made social morality. Social morality is becoming the highest goal for a struggling humanity. But what about the Christ Spirit within the human heart that speaks through the still small voice of conscience?

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The Hive Mind of collectivism is the old way that humanity has followed for thousands of years. Individualism is something new, an evolutionary leap into individuation! It is the next quantum leap for humanity!

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Going Crazy

 

Why is being politically correct so important in today’s world? I think its time we seriously investigated what it means to be politically correct and whether it is healthy or a type of brain washing.

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Never Good Enough

 

This was a hard day and this is a hard video, but I’ve tried to share from my heart even when it hurts because we are all hurting these days. But there is a need to realize that we are good enough, good enough to create this new world.

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We all want to be loved for who we really are inside and we want to love someone else with the same intensity or do we? Often our fear of getting to know someone else too deeply ruins our chances and truly rewarding relationships. What is more important, our mask or being vulnerable enough to really share ourselves with someone else?

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Seven of Pentacles

Symbol-She discovers him in bed with another woman.
Meaning- loss of innocence

As a couple they combine their energy of love and light and pour it out into the entire world. They proclaim their combined desires and wills throughout the entire Spirit planes. This is a mingling of bitter-sweet as each shares the pains and sorrows of the other.
She is now taking his lower level sexual and physical energy and using it to create the physical reality that she wants out of life. It soon is apparent that the relationship has serious problems.

They are both very different persons and want very different things out of life. He resists doing what she wants and she resists doing what he wants. The relationship turns into a massive power struggle that can have no winner.

There are some things that they each consider sacred and they will not part with those cherished dreams. Those dreams are not compatible with each other.

Since they both are freely generating all types of astral energy two separate versions of the future are generated, his and hers. As more and more energy is poured into these potential futures the power struggle becomes more and more intense. Neither one is satisfied with the relationship but neither one wants to leave it.

Ultimately, more suitable partners are drawn into their lives by the very intensity of their desires and the accumulation of energy within each created astral future. Affairs and separation are the result. At the very least they know they must separate and it is devastating for both of them.

He plunges into an abyss trying to find another source of female energy. At the same time he is trying to deal with the hostile energy she is sending toward him. She has been his only source of female sexual and physical energy, but now it is hostile energy and he has real difficulty trying to neutralize it. He is not sexually attracted to her any more.

He is trying to escape from her reality completely but is still dependent upon her for sexual and physical energy. There is probably a temporary separation.

She is sucked into an uncontrollable vortex and lost in terror and despair. She has been used. She gave the relationship everything she had and he deserted her. He is not interested in her any more.

It is only after she loses him she realizes how much he really means to her. It is a terrible thing not to be able to live with someone or to live without them. In all this the family suffers if they have children together.

Male experience:

The relationship is not working out and he is not at all satisfied. He is ready to look for someone outside the relationship to fulfill his needs. A separation is inevitable and brings a feeling of intense relief. It may be temporary or permanent. They need to think about the children.

Female experience:

She doesn’t realize how much she loves him until it is too late and he is gone. There is nothing but a huge gaping wound in her life where he once had been. She knows they were not good for each other but he was all she ever had. Having something is better than the loneliness and emptiness she is now experiencing. They need to think about the children.

To Be Ourselves

 

We all contain a divine spark of God within our hearts and we are divine  creators. What have we created today? We live in the present moment and if our present moment is not a heaven on earth, then we can choose amongst the infinite possibilities within our present moment to open a pathway to that heaven on earth! The time of action is now, because tomorrow will always be tomorrow and yesterday is already gone.

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The Strangling Hand
by Karl Hans Strobl
translated by Joe E. Bandel
Copyright Joe E. Bandel
The Strangling Hand Ch 1 pg 17-20

When she came back to her house, the night was almost over and in the lit basement window of the bakery she saw a young boy swinging his arms as he stood waiting while the stout Master Baker counted out rolls for the morning route. Already animated noises were beginning to arise here and there in the wide and ranging building in which she lived. There was the sleepy maid with her unwillingness to work and her outrage over everything that would not leave her alone and allow her to stay in bed. On the third floor she was frightened by the cobbler’s apprentice, who suddenly appeared from some maid’s chamber of forbidden pleasures.

Then she unlocked the door to her apartment and was greeted with the ostentatious odors of funeral wreaths, frankincense and laced with the terrible odor of beginning decomposition. She opened one of the bedroom windows and allowed some of the fog filled winter morning air inside along with the first soft sounds of street traffic. Sitting in the large easy chair, in which the deceased had rested, she once more relived the experiences of the past night. No longer protected by the closeness of Eleagabal Kuperus, it all seemed miraculous and terrifying. She thought back on little incidents, which had left behind impressions like those of a gruesome dream. The servant with the head of a wolf, whose stealthy step felt like a lurking danger behind her, the head of the negro, whose skin appeared like violet velvet in the red light, and the mummy with the crumbling yellow bandages and the wrinkled and blackened forehead.

And suddenly the bleak, wasted, monotonous melody was there, whose ceaseless and rising tone was like a murderous fear that could not be tolerated. She became determined to rid herself of it, and tried to think back upon where it came from. The words, the words… She couldn’t understand the words, they must be words in a strange language. Yes, they were Latin words, and now she recognized what it was. These were the words of the Psalm, which the stubby cheeked, pious priest had sung at the coffin of her spouse while he sprinkled the corpse with Holy water. These words were echoed in the Cathedral, this melody was the voice of the empty church, an endless litany of the terrors of the dead, which promised eternal life to the living soul. But no one was certain of it, didn’t know when their ears would suddenly hear this loud and threatening melody, when their mortal body would perish. They never knew when these melancholy words would arise, impress themselves upon the walls, permeate the furniture and clothing, and take over the entire room. When they would mix with the perfume of funeral wreathes and decay, as they proclaimed victory over life and diminished it through the incessant memories of the dead.

The tired arms of the Frau hung over the arms of the chair, in exactly the same posture, as those of her spouse had done. When she noticed this, she shuddered, leaned back and moved into a different position. Then she fell asleep. But outside the life in the streets kept growing louder, more penetrating and increased in the power of its demands.

When the servant rang, Emma was sleeping so heavily that she didn’t immediately wake up. Frau Fodermayr soon began to fear that perhaps the widow had done some harm to herself. Her imagination was filled with some fantasy from one of the illustrated magazines which she had read, filled with fearful family drama and a lot of blood. She finally opened the door. Frau Fodermayr, with a pale face and petrified fingers gripping the door, greeted Frau Emma like a loyal hound. The eyes of the widow were still shut from sleep, and her limbs had grown stiff from the uncomfortable position in the easy chair. But something warm entered into her. The genuine concern of her servant did Emma well. She stirred enough to answer questions about her condition. Then Frau Fodermayr offered the consolation of an old woman, that man can never know, when God will take up the heavy burdens of the dead and protect them. Today Emma found these words in strange agreement with those of Eleagabal Kuperus. Since her visit with him and her heavy sleep, her experience with him seemed much more distant, like a fairy tale or legend. It seemed totally unbelievable and at the same time so full of possibilities, and of wonder that she had really found the courage to bring her burden to him and that she had actually been in his house for one hour.

After that she washed herself, did up her hair, and then stepped out onto the wooden gallery, that went from door to door around the entire courtyard in the center of the massive quadrangle building in which she lived. In this quarter of the city rental houses were built like barracks and this was one of the largest and most beloved. A hundred and twenty renters each had their own apartments. There were all kinds of apartments here, from the studio apartments of the poor to the relatively common comfort of Emma’s apartment with its up scale trappings and comfort.

This building, four square and massive, had been built with the permission of the city, and enclosed in its courtyard was a noisy republic of children. In the summer the courtyard was never empty of drying laundry, hung out on long cords that stretched from one of the stunted little trees to the next. The tree trunks with their rough bark were marked with deep scars from the abrasive ropes. Today, the fog became entangled in the moist, untouched roofs high above and sank down to the plaster of the courtyard in layers, where the children played in the corners with the wet remains of the melting snow.

This house had been her home for such a long time and these people were her neighbors. Her husband, the creator of many beautiful words, had not been able to offer her a better world. But it had always been a home. What would it become in the future? She still hadn’t thought about it, about what would happen to it or to her. A heavy and rising fear climbed through the rubble of her happiness as she sought to dispel the superstitious words of Frau Fodermayr. Emma went into the workroom of her spouse and paced restlessly up and down, taking up a book from out of a broad, well used book shelf and then setting it back in its place without even looking at the title. She was surrounded by ruin and there was not a breath of new life anywhere.

 

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Six of Pentacles

symbol– He uses her energy to do things that he wants to
do. She gets him to do things for her. They have a child.
Meaning- exploitation

They are both generating high and low level sexual and physical energy at this point. She is able to generate an abundance of high level energy and combines it with his high level sexual energy. They encourage each other in their physical effort to achieve the things in life that are important. This combined physical energy is used to create physically the type of life that she wants for them both.

They have begun the process of creating a family together. The birth of a child brings new joys, responsibilities and sorrows. It is more than either one expected it to be.

The effect of this is that she gains control of the relationship and gets him to do things for her that she wants done. Everything must be done the way that she wants it and all that he says is “Yes dear!”

Even though she is becoming dominant at home he is still able to do the things that he wants to do when he is away from her. He is able to find time for his own interests too. In this way the relationship is a workable one in which each partner is using the other to fulfill their own physical needs.

The relationship does not meet their highest expectations and many compromises must be made but they do learn to love and respect each other in their own ways. They learn to become a family.

Male experience:

He learns to compromise with her and in general is content with the relationship. It becomes comfortable to be in. She demands things of him but he is also able to do many of the things that he wants to do. He learns about being a father.

Female experience:

She tries hard to make their life the type of one that she dreams of. It doesn’t really work out that way but things are not all that bad either. There is a steady progress that is being made. Being a mother changes her life in radical ways that she could never have imagined before.

If she could only get him to really try to do the things that she wants things would work out perfectly. He seems content to waste his time on things that are unimportant to her and even may try getting out of doing things that she asks of him.