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SOTO And The OTO

Posted in ascension, fifth density, Mensa, Radical Satanism, Satanism, Uncategorized on December 10, 2017| Leave a Comment »

This continues my story of the development of the OAK magical system. I had crossed the great abyss and merged with the godhead in bliss and joy. I had returned to Source! But it seemed that Source was now gently pushing me away!

I tried to understand what was happening to me and the only material available was by Aleister Crowley and the Golden Dawn materials. As soon as I began to study them I had a vivid dream where I encountered Aleister Crowley and he led me to a book and said that I should read it. As soon as I grabbed onto the edges of the book to read it he began to laugh and said that if I ever let go of it I would die! I shouted “No!” and slammed the book shut. Instantly my lower astral bodies caught on fire and were destroyed. This was the spiritual death. In horror I climbed higher and higher, back across the abyss and sheltered in the godhead. All my other astral bodies were gone, completely destroyed and only my awareness remained in this one bubble of light that remained safely across the great abyss. I had no astral body. I was simply a ball of light that was aware.

Once I realized that I was safe I began the slow tedious task of rebuilding all my astral bodies from the top down. I began with the OAK energy ball meditation which opened energetic channels and assisted the healing process. My life was a mess (as happens when one crosses the great abyss) with my marriage destroyed and being forced into bankruptcy while at the same time leaving the Airforce and moving back to Minnesota.

I had studied the works of Mantak Chia and began working with the development of sexual energies. It didn’t take long to realize that working with sexual energy twice a day led to powerful results and I continued pushing that process for the next seven years as intensely as I could. I knew that working with sexual energy was driving a massive healing process that I needed and I wanted it to be over as quickly as possible.

Twenty years later I can say that I never imagined the process would take so long or be so energy intensive. But I began to be drawn into what I have called soulmate cycles with other women that would result in the creation and development or birth of new astral bodies for both of us. At the conclusion of the process we would be forcibly split apart because of life conditions and not being able to continue the development of the relationship. The spark of love and energetic attraction that had fired the relationship died.

As I went through these cycles propelled by my working with sexual energies my astral bodies were recreated one after another from the top down. This was a slow and difficult process.

I continued to study the works of Aleister Crowley and read all of them as well as all the Golden Dawn material that I could find. I tried to contact the OTO so that I could join them and got SOTO instead. SOTO would accept me but demanded I tithe 10% of my income to them. Since I wasn’t working anyway I agreed. They told me to send two passport photos of myself, a front shot of my face and a side shot. I had the photos taken and sent them, but I sent three photos. The photo machine took two side shots, one from the right and one from the left. I sent both.

Suddenly I woke up one night in the deepest pain as if my throat had been slashed by a razor. It took some time for the pain to go away and in horror I realized that my astral bodies (I had recreated four of them at the time) had been attacked. My astral head was severed from my astral body on my left side, but my right side remained intact. That’s when I realized that the only thing that had saved me was sending that third photo! I told them that I was quitting. They said I couldn’t quit because I had already been initiated! I did anyway and a massive energy explosion attacked me which I sent back by tapping into Source energy. I know that someone felt that return of energy!

I finally got hold of the real OTO and corresponded briefly with Bill Heidrick. I shared what was going on and these “scarlet woman” cycles or “soulmate” cycles that I seemed to be going through. He affirmed that I had crossed the great abyss and could only offer his condolences as I was now exploring the mysteries of sorrow and the grade of magister templi. Through him I was able to connect with a valid OTO group several states away and began corresponding with them.

Bill Heidrick had shared with me that once my system of magic was complete (the Dewey Larson reciprocal theory) it needed to be harmonized and integrated into the Kabbalah. I needed to do this through the use of antimonies or opposites. So I began a serious study of the Kabbalah. I laid out all 120 layers of the astral planes and began superimposing the Kabbalah on top of it. It was pretty simple to place the sephiroth, but some of the other paths were not that easy. Then I took every other known magical system that I could find and placed it upon my growing chart as well. This included the angels, the four elements, the Golden Dawn material, the stages of alchemy, the lunar cycle, the solar cycle and even the i ching. I also placed the stages of ego and spiritual development and then reversed them as well to represent male and female experiences. These were all laid out as the 120 layers of the astral planes. I then took the Enochian system of elemental watch towers and created four new elemental watch towers using the 120 sparks of awareness.

Then I took this whole mess and began creating a deck of tarot cards out of it! That original master chart has long since disappeared but my version of the tarot deck remains. You might call it a higher octave of the old kabbalah. The old kabbalah no longer works because it has been shorted out. You might say that it still works, but not in the same manner as it did before. So the OAK Tarot Of Love And Romance remains the most complex and integrated system of magic that I have ever created. I did artwork for the trumps but not for the lower cards.

I felt that you could not truly understand the significance of the OAK Tarot cards until I shared this!

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Development Of The OAK Magical System

Posted in ascension, earth changes, end times, fifth density, light workers, Mensa, prophecy, Radical Satanism, rapture, Satanism, Uncategorized on December 10, 2017| Leave a Comment »

As I begin to post about the OAK Tarot Of Love And Romance I realize that I need to share some things so that people can understand what these cards really represent and how they were developed. That will require this post and the next one called “SOTO and the OTO”. So bear with me, this information is a little sensitive.

But first I would like to say that Organic Gnosticism has evolved out of the OAK magical system over the years and my understanding of things has simplified down to the point that I now believe the development of the soul and its powers is achieved simply through intense human and physical effort. The physical body generates energy and sends it out into the universe where it first connects with collective opposite sex energy and comes back to form a composite spark of awareness. Simply put you give and give until your energy starts coming back to you.

At some point this collective opposite sex energy is replaced by soul mate or divine counterpart energy which permanently seals and activates that individual spark of awareness and integrates it into your developing soul. This needs to be achieved for all 118 sparks of elemental awareness plus another spark of awareness for rotating magnetic field energies and another spark of awareness for the photon state itself. There is nothing to distinguish one spark of awareness from another and the process is entirely mechanical in nature.

To put my current understanding in one sentence, “All effort is cumulative!”

These 120 (118+2) sparks of awareness and energies also create Gaia’s new energy grid. In other words Gaia’s new energy grid consists of these same energies and these are the original blueprint that has always existed. So the old original blueprint is being restored in the new great cycle. This is a massive project that many light workers have been busy with.

Having said all that I can now return to my story of the development of the OAK magical system. The first part of my life was spent in a spiritual searching for mystical experiences and a merging of my soul with God. I joined the Rosicrucian Order AMORC at eighteen and remained a member for over twenty five years studying weekly monographs. While I lived in Phoenix I was able to attend lodge meetings and participate in initiations and demonstrations. At that time I had completed all 12 degrees and had restudied all of them at least three times, some as many as six times. I was thoroughly grounded in the material compared to other members that may have read them once. So that was twenty five years of mystical study, prayer and meditation. But I was doing much more than that during those twenty five years!

I devoured all the New Age material available at the time. I collected and read all the books of the Theosophical Society including the secret fourth book of the Secret Doctrine by Blavatsky. I became interested in astrology and studied that as well as any variant forms of Rosicrucianism that I could find. Other fantastic resources came out in the 80’s and I was heavily influenced by Jane Roberts and her Seth materials. I devoured her two volume “The Unknown Reality” as if it was candy. Dick Sutphen was exploring the outer edges of self empowerment and I spent hundreds of dollars on his materials. He in turn introduced me to NLP or Neuro Linguistic Programming. I still have over six books on my reference shelf that I will never give away. Channeling by Cosmic Awareness Communications further expanded my horizons and led me to the discovery of the Ra Material and through that to the Reciprocal field theory of Dewey Larson.

The Reciprocal field theory of Dewey Larson laid out the creation of the entire universe through the development of the photon, magnetic field energies and all 118 elements much as I have described them. It was his work that offered a physical space/time universe and a reciprocal non-physical or astral time/space universe that were connected together through the speed of light.

I instinctively knew that he was right and the illuminations and insights formed the bulk of the posts that you are now reading. These came from my first two books “Modern Survivalism” and “Magister Templi”.

The spiritual effort that I was putting out was immense and in 1990 my awareness plunged across the great abyss for the first time and my soul merged with the godhead in a feeling of bliss and rapture. This was the end of my spiritual journey because no matter how hard I tried to go further into the spiritual light and extinguish myself, I was always gently pushed back. With horror I found that my polarity had flipped and my insights and illuminations were returning back across the abyss and down into the mental levels. It’s not that I was being forced out of the spiritual levels, but that there was no more activity at those levels. The activity was working itself back down toward the earth.

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13th Century Courtly Love Part 1

Posted in Divine Counterparts, fifth density, light workers, Mensa, Radical Satanism, Satanism, tantra, tantrism, Uncategorized on December 9, 2017| Leave a Comment »

Today we are going to start talking about the 13th-century and courtly love. This will take probably two or three posts because the subject is quite intensive, so bear with me.

Courtly love or the age of chivalry ran historically from the 12th century to the late 16th century and is a notable time in the history of women and the beginning of feminism.

At the beginning, women were basically despised not only by men but by themselves. They were hardly treated like people.

I have to backtrack here, back before Christ and back before the invention of reading and writing. Over 4000 years ago, women ran the place with goddess based religions and these goddess based religions had females playing the prominent role. This was because it was the females that brought life into this world and they were also held responsible for death and rebirth.

So the whole focus way back then was around women and the important role they played in bringing life into this world. Gradually the male became more powerful and more empowered and it was around the time of the invention of reading and writing that the tide turned for the male.

Well, it was during this time, during the age of chivalry, that the tide began to turn back in favor of the female. Now the beginnings were small but they led to a lot of the things that are happening in the women’s movement today. At the end of the 16th century, women were respected and admired and this set the stage for the modern women’s movement.

Now back during the goddess religions of ancient times civilization was matriarchal and dominated by women. They failed to consider the males growing importance until it was too late.

In this time men were so obsessed about living in their heads that they indulged the women and let them do what they wanted. So women began taking over the running of things. This especially happened during the Crusades when a lot of the men were gone and the women were left home to take care of routine business. The women began to realize that they had a head for running things.

Now, one of the important consequences of the Crusades was a meeting of cultures. Europe was living in the dark ages compared to Persia, or compared to the Muslim countries who were highly civilized and had knowledge of Greek and Roman literature.

Suddenly these crude and uneducated Crusaders met up with this advanced civilization, and it was quite a shock. So they came back with a lot of eye-opening experiences which they wanted to share. But they came back to a world that women had kind of settled into while they were gone.

Courtly love is the great theme of late medieval literature. Europe was rediscovering the sciences and the wisdom of the classical world through the influence of Muslim scholars in the translations of Greek and Roman texts. So philosophy and the sciences were being reintroduced.

This was a golden opportunity for women of the upper class. At the same time, the cult of the Virgin Mary was brought back to Europe by the Crusaders.

Courtly love was class conscious, escapist and idealized. It was basically considered a harmless daydream by a lot of people. But it was very powerful in its own way as we shall see. Courtly love was the game of love. We’ve all heard about the game of love. This is where it started!

It was first thought to have been characteristic of the romantic German and Celtic peoples and included remnants of the Organic Gnostics through the influence of the Bogomils who came from the Caucasus area in eastern Europe. So courtly love still had traces of those early feminine goddess religions.

Now it was also considered a conspiracy of the Cathars to overturn the Church. But mostly courtly love was influenced by the Arabs because the Arabs treated their women differently than the Europeans did. The Arabs kept their women apart from everybody else. They segregated them and locked them up into harems. They made the women wear veils over their faces.

In Europe the female was always out in public and because she was out in public she was not considered special. The Arabs considered their women special and that trait also influenced this idea of courtly love.

Courtly love was sufficiently possible to be attractive to lovers, but improbable enough to be a challenge. It was like a hopeless case of soulmates never destined to join together in love and that’s probably the way to think of it in a in a metaphysical sense.

This was a meeting of souls, not a meeting of sexual pleasures. In fact, one of the phrases back then was that the union of souls was a thousand times more beautiful than that of bodies, so the whole concept of courtly love was Tantric.

It was talking about the mixing and the touching union of male and female souls. This is important because that’s part part of Organic Gnosticism. These tantric based teachings were spreading into every aristocratic family.

There was at least one person who could read and write, and they would snap up books because there were not very many to read. They in turn wanted to talk about what they read. They want to talk about new concepts and ideas just like we do today.

So the nobility began to permanently employ scholars. These scholars in turn would help with the business deals. They would write legal papers, keep the accounts and add some scholarly debate into the household and actually provide tutorship to the younger generation of children.

Things were different in the countryside for the superstitious common people. Sexuality was rampant with succubus and incubus attacks everywhere. These were vampires sucking up the energies of those with weaker blood. But the prevailing opinion of the common folk came from the Cathars. There was no sin from the belly button and below.

The aristocrats were talking about the soul. They were talking about the love of the soul and about soulmates. They were not talking about the physical consummation of sexuality.

The priests made generous use of this idea and the upper part of the body became so spiritual that it no longer knew what the lower half of the body was doing! If you can believe that!

Every act was holy and the priest was able to sanctify all women who sinned with him because sin was of the body and not of the soul. In Spain and France nuns were called the “consecrated ones” or mistresses of the priests. This was how pervasive sexuality was among the Church and among the common people.

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Learn Your False Responses

Posted in ascension, fifth density, light workers, Mensa, prophecy, Radical Satanism, Satanism, Uncategorized on December 9, 2017| Leave a Comment »

We all have false responses. That’s when we feel one way and act another way. Someone might ask if we are ok and we tell them we are when we really are not ok.

Other examples of false responses are never completing things we start; feeling the grass is always greener somewhere else; never asking someone out on a date because we fear rejection.

Over and over again our false responses get in our way and cause us to trip and fall right before we reach the finish line. False responses are rationalizations and lies that we tell ourselves to avoid confronting the things that need to be owned and accepted before we can move closer toward our goals.

In most cases our false responses are protection mechanisms created to avoid unpleasant situations. We live with someone we don’t love for the sake of the children or stay at a job where we are not treated like a human being because we fear unemployment.

We are all blessed with a wide range of sensory awareness and life experience. Our physical human bodies are fully integrated and functional. At least they try to be unless we frustrate and block them with our false responses.

What I’m trying to say here is that our false responses divide and separate who we are and what we feel. They make us feel divided and lead to stress and perhaps mental or emotional illness. When we want something and can’t get it there are two paths we can follow. The easiest option is to rationalize and lie to ourselves that someone or something is preventing us from the achievement of that goal. As long as the cause of our personal failure lies external to us we have no reason to change or try harder.

The second path is much harder. We have to own up to the fact that our own actions have brought us to our current situation and our own actions must carry us forward out of them. The reason we can’t achieve our goal is because we are either doing something wrong or are not ready yet. When we hit the brick wall we need to realize that it usually manifests when we are going in the wrong direction.

Rationalizations and lies are mental in nature. This means that mentally we can’t find a way that will reach our goal. It does no good to tell ourselves that our body is wrong or that our emotions are wrong. We sense what we sense and we feel what we feel. Those are true things. We just don’t fully understand them.

The mental nature needs to be in harmony with the physical body and the emotions. This is obvious but how can we do this? Research and exploration. Research the goal and study how others go about achieving it. An in depth study of any subject will show that it is not exactly what we imagined it to be. Being a writer is much more hard work than I ever imagined it to be. I had no idea that material needed to be re-written up to ten times before it was presentable as a book.

Having a loving and sexual relationship with a partner has been nothing at all like I thought it would be. It’s much more work than I ever dreamed but it is also much more satisfying.

When we first try to achieve a goal we don’t know what it takes to reach that goal. Our expectations are not realistic. We can either stop trying and rationalize why we can’t have what we want or we can research and learn to have more realistic expectations. False responses are when our mental nature gives up.

Learning by doing and having a gentle gradient are the most powerful ways of breaking through false responses. Taking things by baby steps and mastering each small step at a time will break through any false response and replace it with a true success. This is much better than wanting too much too fast and then crashing and burning.

At the completion of each baby step we learn more about our goal. Our expectations become more realistic and we might even find we only thought we wanted that goal. What we really want is something else entirely. We can’t even discover that deeper truth until our curiosity is satisfied about the first one.

Learning and satisfying our curiosity clear the way for advancement to what really matters. This does not mean to give in to every stray whim and fancy. That is what our mental natures are for. When fully integrated they recognize these physical and emotional impulses and understand them for what they are, sensory data and impressions.

Our mental natures discern harmful or negative possibilities and steer us around bad experiences while affirming those feelings and impressions. It’s ok to look as long as you don’t touch. You’ve got your own at home.

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Submission To The Shadow

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Submission to the Shadow or Etheric Double or Power Animal is very different than submission to your HGA. For one thing instead of the death of the ego you confront the loss of your humanity. You become a human animal for a time at least.

For me first contact came as an act of will. I willed the point of my awareness to plunge as deeply into the blackness as possible. It was like falling into a pit or being sucked into a black hole. There was fear of what I might encounter but not of loosing who I was.

We might say the first step in submission to the Shadow is the intentional act of falling into darkness. Like an air bubble in the water you can’t stay there and come back up. When you come back up you bring an attachment of dark energy with you and raise it up as high as you can to connect it with the light.

We might say the second step is raising the black energy up into us as high as possible in an effort to fill us with it.

I had a vivid dream over ten years ago of standing on the shore of a mighty ocean fishing. I caught this huge monster that was all teeth and pulled it up onto the shore. As it came onto the shore I realized that I could control it through the line that connected us together. I called it my “alligator puppy”. Somehow I knew that it was not my enemy but my friend and I would need it to fight my battles and to protect me from harm.

We might say the third step is the realization our Shadow is not a monster but a friend with the sacred task of protecting us from harm. My “alligator puppy” was not my Shadow but a shadow aspect that was integrated. I was learning to live and exist in the same astral world as my Shadow. This “alligator puppy” was in competition with my Shadow.

Our shadow is buried under our twisted fears and distorted thinking. Everything evil and unclean is thrown on top of it. Everything we hate and despise as not us is falsely thrust upon our Shadow. The shadow and the black energy is not evil. It is sacred and pure. It is the blackness of the womb before birth. It is the blackness of the earth that gives life. We might say the fourth step is the purification of our black energy.

As we begin to use our own black energy others send their black “shit” energy our way as well. We must learn to transmute and detoxify any type of black energy so we can use it as we wish. This means becoming immune to the toxic effects of other peoples black energy. We might say this period is one of attracting bad things and learning to cope with them.

Developing other astral bodies was a key part in the submission to the shadow. Every astral body I developed over several years was fought over astrally with a giant serpent or dragon. For a long time I thought the serpent was an alien life form. Later I came to realize it was my true Shadow. It was my task to control it and it didn’t want to be controlled.

Only after all seven astral bodies were fully developed would the final integration of the Shadow take place. I opened a portal where my feet touched the earth and a glowing yellow greenish light came forth. I lifted the greenish light and surrounded myself in it like a cocoon. It sealed me inside like an egg. It was tough and rubbery and pulled my astral bodies down into the earth and intensified my earth connection.

Many times I would raise energy out of the earth and surround myself in the blackness. More importantly I did Russian Kettlebell exercises. The Shadow is created out of physical energies not sexual or emotional energies. The only way to integrate the Shadow is to generate lots of physical energy through hard physical exertions.

When the integration finally happened I was intoxicated with the power I felt around me. My spirit was walking in the underworld of the Shaman. I was able to function in the world of Voodoo and reconnect with my ancestors. The mighty serpent had become my “soul mate” and was constantly at my side.

As time went on my Shadow or power animal appeared to be evolving to become more human. I can’t really say when the integration happened but I can say that I went a bit crazy. I gave away everything I owned and moved to Washington DC to live with a woman I had only met once. I knew that I was strong enough to start my life over from scratch and I did.

People around me felt the black earth energy and were afraid of me. They thought I had gone crazy or “evil”. Just as quickly my life normalized and I moved back to Minnesota to rebuild my life as a new person. The implications of integrating my Shadow are new and I’m still learning as things happen. What I can say is that the longing for an earth connection and the black energy has resulted in a polarity shift and my soul now seeks the light as it so recently craved the darkness.

I have become rooted in the energy of the earth as firmly as a giant OAK tree. I do not doubt the strength of this connection.

I feel the dark energy rising and bringing its own influence and insight into my life. For the first time in ten years I am reading philosophical literature and developing a modern magic paradigm. This is not head tripping but something much more real and immediate that works. It is connected to the earth.

My soul no longer attracts “black energy” and negative events. Good things are happening and my ability to draw positive things and manifest them physically is the strongest it has ever been in my life.

I feel the black swirl around me at times in a comforting way that is very hard to describe. I am learning to trust in its strength. I am feeling the magic.

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OAK Tarot Of Love And Romance The Suit Of Wands

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In the Tarot the suit of Wands represents spiritual energy and the element fire. Fire has always been a symbol of light and passion. This energy comes to us through inspiration and illumination.

It is an extremely abstract form of thought that is beyond the normal intellect but still valid. It is the energy of the God and Goddess that resides within each of us. Spiritual energy is extremely volatile and is the first energy that is exchanged normally between the male and the female. It has to do with the vague and general stereotypes that we have of the opposite sex. This is when we worship the person we fall in love with.

This is also called “Puppy Love”. We are in love with the idea of being in love and not really in love with our partner. We worship them but don’t really know them. This is also an important part of the chemistry or lack of it between individuals.

This sharing of energy follows a pattern that sets the tone for the other suits as well.

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Gaia Ascension Update Politics And Fifty Shades Of Gray

Posted in ascension, earth changes, end times, fifth density, light workers, Mensa, prophecy, Radical Satanism, Satanism, Uncategorized on December 9, 2017| Leave a Comment »

On the one hand I don’t have much to write about concerning Gaia’s ascension movement and on the other there is so much to write about! It’s really kind of strange. Most of it comes down to the ability or inability to integrate duality instead of insist upon a conflict of opposites. People refuse to see the shades of gray that exist and it’s causing them problems!

My first example is Trump’s formal recognition of Jerusalem and the capital of Israel. This is arguably the most powerful thing he has done as president. So many people are upset because they don’t see that nothing prevents Palestine from also having Jerusalem as it’s own capital! For the first time a true win-win possibility opens up if people could only see it.

Now let’s take a look at the Democrat’s idiotic anti-Trump reactive flailing around and hurting themselves. We are now in a new age with new energy dynamics and things don’t work the way they used to. Duality doesn’t work the way it used to. Anyone that gets caught up in conflict goes down. It’s that simple! Now Trump may be accused of bear baiting, but he’s not in a fight with anyone. He simply focuses on the goal and reaches it! Over and over again! The Democrats are so caught up in opposition that they can’t see what it happening.

Lastly the Divine Feminine is in full rise and once more the issue lies with the integration of duality and sexuality and not the conflict of opposites. Some people never learn. There are balanced win-win situations and shades of gray. The Democrats are eating their own by so viciously casting out Frankin and Conyers’ in the hopes that this will create a movement that will sweep Trump out of office. No, it won’t even come close. Why? Because there are fifty shades of gray! The true predators on both sides will be exposed. But this will happen in a fair and balanced way without the over reaction that the Democrats are trying to stir up!

This entire past year has shown that the general population of sane people refuses to get stirred up and carried away by the hysteria on the far left. When will people begin to learn that you can’t manipulate people any more the way that they used to be manipulated? The new energies support individualism, not collectivism.

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13th Century Missing Link The Bogomil’s

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The 13th century was critical. Everything was converging at that point and we are going to talk about some of them. What was going on with the Bogomil’s? Those mysterious people of the near East, that originated in the Caucasus region.

We saw that some moved into southern France and became part of the Cathar population. But they also settled into Bosnia and Herzegovina.

Bogomil is a word that means dear to God or close to God. They didn’t use the cross or build churches. In the 10th century some of them settled into the part of Bulgaria that is today Macedonia. They were opposed to the government and opposed to the Church. They were a form of Christianity that called for a return to the early spiritual teachings of Jesus and were dualists believing in duality and Gnostics as I have mentioned before.

I believe that the entire concept of Organic Gnosticism came from these people. That these people carried on the tradition of Organic Gnosticism that I have been trying to trace up through history. One of the things they believed was that there is a world within the body and there is a world outside the body. That sounds very much like the astral nonphysical world and the physical world.

They believed that their body was a temple, and I suspect very much that they taught tantric sexuality, the duality of male and female, and how the sharing of male and female energies created the soul.

Here are a few things we do know they believed in. They practiced fasting, celebrating and dancing. They were also called Messalians. That’s the name of a group that went way back to first century Christianity.

At the end of the 12th century the Bogomil’s settled in Bosnia and Dalmatia. Bogomilism was eradicated in Bulgaria and Byzantium in the 13th century. They were exterminated there, but they survived in Bosnia and Herzegovina until the 15th century. Both the Catholic Church and the Greek Orthodox church persecuted them as heretics.

They were first condemned as heretics in the Synod of 383 A.D. So they had been around a long time. They taught a variant of Christianity that was considered heretical but here is an interesting point. It was considered mystical materialism! That sounds a lot like Organic Gnosticism! So I think that I’m on the right track.

One of their beliefs was that the essence of the Trinity could be perceived through the carnal senses. In other words, sexuality played a part in the creation of the soul.

The threefold God transformed into a single substance, where the essence of the soul itself is balanced, with male and female male energy joining to create a third energy that creates the soul of the Perfecti. This sounds very tantric to me.

They also taught that God took different forms to reveal himself to the physical senses. So this was a religion that taught the full spectrum of human perception. It wasn’t just in the head. It wasn’t a head trippy thing or a spiritual thing. It involved the emotions and all the senses.

It was the communion of souls in a religious embrace of everything that existed. They also maintained that those revelations of God that could be perceived through the senses conferred perfection upon the Christian. In other words, you couldn’t just be in your head. It had to be the whole thing. It had to include the emotions. It had to include sexuality. It had to include everything for a person to attain the state of perfection.

All that was required was worship and prayer. The Church didn’t have anything to do with it. The sacraments didn’t have anything to do with it.

This also sounds very much like tantra because tantra is the practice of doing. They did not believe in ritual. They did not believe in Church. They did not believe in government. They believed that the original teachings of Jesus taught that salvation was attained through prayer and worship. Once a person experienced the essence of God, they became free from moral obligations. They became free from karma.

The last thing that identifies these people as the carriers of Organic Gnosticism is that they had both male and female teachers. That is very profound and places this type of dualism as both the blending and the embrace of male and female. It recognized the equality of men and women.

The other variants of Christianity that were forming or had formed did not have this equality and balance between males and females.

One last note on this. The Bogomil’s or the Messalians were accused of incest, cannibalism and debauchery. Think about the Church’s views on women and sexuality.

It really seems to me that this is the missing link for Organic Gnosticism that comes in from the east through the 12th-century and 13th-century into those critical areas.

By this time they’ve already been eradicated in southern France along with the Cathars.

But these beliefs are still deeply hidden in their hearts and what this is doing is setting up the stage for alchemy and the alchemists.

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You Cannot Change What You Don’t Recognize

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We are completely unaware of most of our self-defeating behaviors. If we knew what they were it would be easier to build defenses against them. Some of these come out or our blind spots. Several years ago I learned I had disabilities that were affecting my life. I went to Vocational Rehab and took some tests and evaluations to find out why I was over forty years old and still having trouble making my life work.

These evaluations showed that I had an auditory learning disability. I had trouble processing too much verbal material at one time. Once the material was learned I was fine but learning through listening did not work well for me.

Another issue was short-term memory loss due to a head injury as a teenager. It was not bad but where the normal person can hold five items in short term memory I struggle to hold four. As I get older I need to write things down even more than ever. My fine motor skills are also lower than average. I scored an 80%.

Why was I always attracted to jobs that needed nimble fingers? I was sinking my own ship. Now let’s combine this with a personality that has trouble with authority figures and a slight tendency toward passive aggressive behavior and see what we get.

Memories flash of an employer getting angry at me because I didn’t understand what I was supposed to do and I would forget things that I was told. I couldn’t remember them all. It also seemed like I was working too slowly even though I couldn’t work any faster. I wouldn’t ask for help or clarification because I didn’t want to appear stupid.

I am not stupid but I was appearing stupid and couldn’t understand why I kept having problems. Getting these evaluations were a lifesaver for me. They helped me understand why I was having troubles and also what my strengths were as well.

I have a genius IQ and a near photographic memory for visual things. I take tests well. I have very good communication skills and high mechanical aptitude. I am very good at outside the box thinking and administrative tasks. I have a good understanding of human nature and people trust me. Let’s take physical health as another example. Do you know just how healthy or unhealthy you are? Last year I discovered I have high blood pressure and sleep apnea. Both were fairly severe. I will need to be on blood pressure medication and a CPAP machine for sleeping the rest of my life.

I was not really aware of any of these things. I assumed other people had many of the same problems and issues. I thought it was just as hard for them as it was for me. I didn’t want to believe there was something wrong with me. I wanted to be just a good as the next person. I did not recognize my own limitations.

The trouble was that my life was not working and I was into middle age. What about your life? If it is working great! If it is not working it might be wise to take a few minutes and think about why. Take a few examinations, talk to some friends and experts. Get second opinions. Discover what your blind spots are. We all have them.

If you are running into a brick wall perhaps you are going in the wrong direction even if you feel it is the right direction. The biggest thing anyone can recognize is when they are putting out tremendous effort and it is not working. One of the great secrets in life is to take what works and turn it into the things you want. The things that don’t work will never turn into anything except more failures.

Let go of the things that don’t work and focus on the things that do work. When you are refreshed and full of successful energy tackle those old issues and interests from positions of strength and not weakness. In the area of relationships realize that no matter how much one person might want things to work out, both people need to want it. Both people need to work at it. If only one person is trying the relationship is already lost.

If you are not getting some type of reward or gain from the effort you put out something is wrong. This is a red flag that you need to recognize. When you continue doing what you are doing you will continue to get the results that you are getting. Evaluate the results you are getting and determine if they are enough.

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Submission To The Holy Guardian Angel

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As this new eon progresses both secondary personalities, the HGA and the Shadow will become increasingly active. A great increase in auditory and visual hallucinations can be expected. For the Holy Guardian Angel this means visions from God or Jesus or other religious figures.

If you can’t integrate the HGA expect to hear and see it more and more along with religious and spiritual experiences. This will act to polarize the world population even more along religious vs materialist lines. There is no way to forecast how one might experience contact with the HGA in their lives.

My own experience integrating my HGA started at age fourteen and continued gradually to the age of forty. Things will happen much more quickly in today’s world. At age fourteen I my conscience awoke. This was a religious experience for me since I reached a point where I could no longer stand myself and who I was becoming. What did it matter if God forgave me when I couldn’t forgive myself?

Aligning my life to be in harmony with my conscience was the first major step in submission to the HGA. “Not my will but Thy will be done”. We might say this is the first step in submission to the HGA.

This alignment was not complete because I still attempted to stay within the confines of my religious upbringing. I began Rosicrucian studies at age eighteen and was introduced to advanced philosophical concepts like reincarnation and the symbolic, not literal meaning of the bible. Truth came from the Christ Spirit within my heart. I needed to follow an inner path and not a “Christian” one.

The external church held no answers. We might say the second step in submission to the HGA is to forsake tradition and external guidance to listen only to the still small voice of the Master Within that speaks through our hearts.

Then followed twenty years of intense study and the formulation of a paradigm or complete belief system. My belief system was created out of “illuminations” or flashes of insight. These communications from the HGA gradually formed a comprehensible and complete paradigm or personal belief system. We might say the third step in submission to the HGA is “Illumination” and personal insight into the reality of nature and life. This is termed the knowledge and conversation with the HGA.

Then followed a period of forsaking the physical world and neglecting the realities of life. As the discrepancy between normal life and the inner vision became more pronounced there was a fear that I might be going insane. This mental turmoil has been termed the death of the ego. My mind was torn between a longing to surrender myself to the HGA and desperately trying to keep rational and deal with daily living. We might say the fourth step in submission to the HGA is going insane and believing in it and ignoring physical reality.

Total submission is a form of suicide. Things get so bad you don’t care anymore and simply want to dissolve yourself into the light until there is nothing left. There is a tremendous pull toward the light and it becomes everything as you try to extinguish self into nothingness.

There is a feeling of intense relief and love as the light embraces you and you merge for the first time. This has been called “Crossing the Great Abyss”. We might say the fifth step in submission to the HGA is dissolving yourself momentarily into the light and becoming one with the universe.

With practice it gets easier and easier to dissolve our awareness into nothingness and the light. We cross the Great Abyss with greater frequency and ease until one day there is a permanent change and our normal awareness merges with the light in a permanent manner. This is the point where we have integrated our HGA. We exist inside of our HGA and sense it surrounding us as an extension of who we are. We might say the sixth step in submission to the HGA is being absorbed fully by the HGA and a radical shift of awareness termed Cosmic Consciousness.

This is not enough for us and we continue striving for more light. We miss the feeling of being dissolved. It’s not happening anymore. As hard as we try it is not possible to stay dissolved. As soon as Will lets up we find ourselves outside of the Light once more. Our soul can not go any further in that direction.

We can experience momentary union when we strive for it but it is gone as soon as we let up. There is a polarity switch taking place and we can feel our thought processes dropping back down into the mental levels. We are experiencing the “Luciferian Fall” and plunging back toward the earth. One might say the seventh final step in submission to the HGA is this reversal of polarity and plunge back toward the earth.

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