Anarchistbanjo's World

Doing these pathworkings has stirred up things for me and I guess that is their purpose. But what I would like to touch upon today is the symbolism vs the reality of inner experience. Because going through something symbolically is much different that going through it as a very real experience. So I will be doing some posts describing in my own life experiences some of these symbolic markers beginning with this ancient Guardian of the Threshold.

The Guardian of the Threshold appears fairly soon after we begin our spiritual journey and is almost like the event horizon that encircles a black hole. Once we pass that barrier there is no going back, never! And this is not one single experience because we may cross such thresholds in almost every area of our daily lives. These could be things like committing to a relationship, going to a new job, or any other significant turning point in our lives.

This is important because even though many will try some of the meditations and portal work and be successful, they will not seriously pursue them. They will not seriously pursue them because of this Guardian of the Threshold.

It is always a choice forced upon us and one that requires giving up our old way of doing and being in favor of something that is unknown. So in a way this is the terror of the threshold.

But in a larger sense this takes on a more significant role in terms of our spiritual journey. While we are all sparks of the Divine Light, our souls began to develop with cellular consciousness as living beings. In one way or another we have gone through the evolutionary process gradually becoming the humans that we are today.

And the Source of our souls, the Foundation of our souls, lies not in the Divine Spark but The Womb of Creation within the Akashic Records deep within Gaia’s core. So the Akashic Records is an ultimate power source for our souls to tap into. It is the Akashic Records which is the foundation and Source of our etheric body which in turn is the source of our physical body and so on as I’ve mentioned before.

As such the Akashic records hold the memories and experiences of our most primal and primitive lifetimes which contain the most raw and crude instincts of survival and the continuation of life. It contains our reptilian selves as well as our lifetimes as other species before we became human.

In our spiritual journey as we approach the Akashic records we sense these things and fear them because we don’t understand that they are our own past lives and experiences. The recent pathworking shows that we can’t attain to the Akashic Records until we have confronted the Guardian of the Threshold because the Guardian of the Threshold might also be termed the “aura” of the Akashic Records itself.

At the age of fourteen I had a spiritual crisis in which I began to hate myself because of my own behaviors like lying and not having a conscience or not listening to it. During confirmation classes at church I took money out of the offering jar and bought candy which I ate during the classes. But something inside of me knew what I was doing was wrong and it got harder and harder to live with myself. Finally I reached a point of absolute crisis in which I turned to God and swore that I would live according to my conscience, so that my conscience would be clean. I have kept that promise to this very day, but that was my first encounter with the Guardian of the Threshold.

My second encounter came when I was nineteen after I had been studying the Rosicrucian monographs for around a year and was exposed for the first time to the concepts of the Christ Spirit as the still small voice of conscience within each human heart and those of reincarnation. These were in direct conflict with the External authority of the religion in which I was raised and created a spiritual crisis in which my very soul was at stake! I could not choose! My heart knew that I had to choose but I still could not choose! This crisis coupled with other crisis in my life led me to lying motionless on the basement floor unable to move in a psychotic break. Finally I chose what I needed to choose, to follow the inner voice of my conscience and the Christ spirit within my heart. But in doing so I left my emotional self behind… That was how violent this threshold crossing was to me.

And when I listen to the pathworking about the Guardian of the Threshold I think of these things and my understanding grows greater because they are not just symbolic journeys.

I will mention one other instance of a dream in which my feet were frozen to the ground and would not move. My force of Will was so great that I threw my body onto the ground and by grabbing clumps of grass pulled myself along until my feet once more functioned properly. This too is symbolically referred to in the pathworkings. I hope I have shown that it is our recognition of what the symbolism means that is important and not the pathworking itself.