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Changing what you do is much more powerful than changing how you feel! Can’t break out of the emotional rut? Get out and do something. Fake it till you make it!

Talk to the experts and public speakers about getting psyched up before performances. Some run up to the stage and podium because it jump-starts them. Physical action is the key to getting through tough emotional times. Time after time the military has proven that when the brain shuts down the body goes on autopilot. It does what it has been trained to do.

Even more exciting, physical activity can bring unruly emotions back under control. When you are angry chop wood or go for a run and use up that excess emotional energy. It is a fuel that your physical body can take advantage of. Turn emotions into actions.

Take that anger and say “I won’t let this stop me!” Turn anger into grit and determination. Don’t let it slide into depression and apathy.

I can’t stress enough the importance of training your body to do what you want it to. Let’s use the example of brushing your teeth daily until it becomes a habit. The point is reached when you will not feel right about going to sleep if you haven’t brushed your teeth.

Habit will get you through the tough spots if your habits are constructive and well established. Your mind and emotions can be completely elsewhere and your body will carry on and get you through.

Bad habits will have just the opposite effect and stall any progress bringing your life to a screeching standstill. That’s when you slide into crippling depression and passive inactivity. There are always struggles and barriers. The choice is to continue putting forth physical effort and break through those barriers to achieve the goal.

In my own life making daily posts on the Internet has become a habit so strong it is easier to do it than not do it. These posts have become a comforting routine of steady accumulative effort. I no longer feel the need for extreme bursts of energized activity to get through the posting material. In the beginning I did.

I look forward to the 1 ½ or 2 hours I spend as a time of relaxation and work that I love. The habit of work is a comfort to me in times of stress. It feels good to see progress at the end of a day where the only good thing that came out of it was posting a new episode! For me, even a bad day is a good day in that respect.

PS: I have started a Facebook discussion group called Organic Gnosticism. Feel free to join if interested.

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THESE ARE THE ELEMENTS WITH THREE ELECTRON SHELLS

Element #18 Argon
This element is an odorless gas and one of the noble gases. This element also has three complete electron shells. Because it’s outer shell is complete it serves as a natural barrier in it’s astral aspect. It resists attempts to pierce through it and is one of the veils mentioned in occult literature.
This barrier separates third “chakra” energies from fourth “chakra” energies. It also stabilizes third “chakra” energies.

Element #17 Chlorine
This poisonous yellow-green gas has a strong unpleasant odor. It is used to kill bacteria and reacts explosively with light, hydrogen, and water. One of its uses is in hydrochloric acid.
The poisonous aspect suggests death or pain and an explosive destruction of astral forms. This is the death of all emotions. Only pure thought is allowed at this level and at higher levels. Any emotional thought is painfully destroyed here.

Element #16 Sulfur
This yellow element burns easily and is used in bleaches, cleansers, and medicines. All plants and animals require it. These characteristics suggest the ability to “erase” or clean and heal imperfections in our thinking. At this level we can sort things out that are emotionally painful to us.
Here we can distance ourselves from the emotional pain and regain some objectivity that we badly need.

Element #15 Phosphorus
This element is found in every living cell and is needed for life as we know it. It helps us to store energy in our bodily tissues.
This level is a major source of energy for us and greatly increases our available life current or energy.

Element #14 Silicon
This hard dark gray element is a semi-conductor and is used in glass and insulators. The semi-conductor and insulator aspect suggest that energy flow here is largely one way and directed.
This is the beginning of directed thought and deliberate planning activities that are of an abstract nature and not directly relates to physical life and physical activities.
Here thought takes on a life of its own and you have thought for its own sake.

Element #13 Aluminum
This lightweight metal does not rust, resists wear, and is very plentiful. It is a good conductor of electricity. This is the realm of abstract thoughts that have no matching correspondence in physical life. Here are also archetypes and complex philosophies about life. These are purely thought “constructs”.

Element #12 Magnesium
This strong light metal is vital to plant and animal RNA & DNA because it activates many important enzymes. It burns with a brilliant light and combines easily with other elements.
This suggests the “light bulb” effect that happens when we are illuminated with a new and brilliant idea. This is a level where we find mental “illuminations”.

Element #11 Sodium
This soft metal is found in salt and small amounts are needed for life. It immediately combines with air and reacts violently with water producing heat that often ignites hydrogen.
This is a very intense “illumination” that gives the experience of “light” and leaves no memory or idea behind. It has “consumed” the thought processes and is considered a spiritual experience. It is the complete destruction of the mental thought processes.

In summary, this group of elements with three electron shell has eight significant divisions.

DIVISION XXXXVI

This is the barrier or veil that separates second “chakra” energy from third “chakra” energy. It “isolates” the “tank” current of this group of elements and tries to maintain the stability of this level of the earth’s astral layers.

DIVISION XXXXVII

Here is the painful agonizing death of the emotions and emotional thought.

DIVISION XXXXVIII

Here we have for the first time mental objectivity and the ability to distance ourselves from harmful emotions.

DIVISION XXXXIX

This is our primary source for mental energy and sustains our ability to think for long periods of time without fatigue.

DIVISION L

This is the level of directed thought and the ability for speculative planning of potential physical events.

DIVISION LI

This is the level of abstract thought that has no relationship with the physical world at all. Here we find thought for it’s own sake. This is the realm of philosophy and archetypal ideas.

DIVISION LII

Here is creative thought and mental “illumination”. New and innovative ideas are fashioned here to create new ways of perceiving reality.

DIVISION LIII

This is the level of “spiritual” illumination and the death of the intellect. Here we are at the edge of our minds.

PS: I have created a Facebook discussion group called Organic Gnosticism. Feel free to join if interested.

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Have you ever felt like there was an area in your life that was cursed? No matter what you did or how hard you tried nothing would go right for you. I know you have felt that way because we all have and we all do.

There is a dual quality to the magic universe. When energy flows in one direction something else comes in to take its place. Nature does not allow a vacuum.

I look around the house and see electrical outlets everywhere. The wires run inside the walls where I can’t see them. Guess what’s running inside the wires? Electricity? Much more than electricity! Magnetic fields radiate from the wires. There is a pulsing you can almost hear. It’s called the 60 cycle hum and if you’ve ever gotten a shock from it you will recognize the feeling.

But the biggest thing I want to point out is the type of electricity that runs through the walls and literally encases us in a magic magnetic web. I’m talking about alternating current! The current flows in both directions back and forth. First it’s positive, then it’s negative.

Alternating current is a form of vibratory energy and the entire physical universe as well as the magic universe consists largely of alternating current and magnetic force lines or astral cords.

Like the yin/yang symbol that is half male and half female the energy that flows through us is half outward expansive energy and half inward constricting energy. This is how nature keeps in balance. Life contains both and is bitter-sweet. Living a magic life is bitter-sweet.

No matter what we do there are certain things we can’t get because we repel them. Other things we don’t want are attracted to us. Is that our curse? To repel the things we want and attract the things we don’t want? Is that what life is about?

Magically speaking it is possible to attract the things we want and repel the things we don’t want but it is very hard work to reach that stage of magic development. It requires a complete reversal of the energy flow within us.

That means learning to see curses as blessings and blessings as curses.

Curses are opportunities to become aware of our weaknesses and work on them. They hit where we are the most vulnerable and not where we are strong. The only way to become strong is to develop our weak areas. This is what curses make us do. We struggle against them and learn from our mistakes. With trial and error we develop competency and then mastery. When that happens the curse is broken. It can’t harm us anymore. The weak link becomes just as strong as the rest of the chain.

Blessings attract things to us that we haven’t earned. They make life too easy and we take things for granted. Because things are so easy we don’t try very hard. The simple truth is magic development is about effort. If things are too easy we will not develop magically.

In all of this there is both bad news and good news.

The bad news is there will always be magic energy flowing against you. There will always be curses. The good news is there will always be energy flowing in your favor. There will always be blessings. This is the alternating current effect and it fills the entire universe. You can’t get away from it. Life is bitter-sweet. Get used to it. Learn to love it.

How can you enjoy prosperity when those you love and care about are going through hard times? This is only an example. What good is having fancy toys to play with if there is no one to share them with you?

When one goal is reached another will take it’s place. When one fear is confronted another will take its place as well. The answer lies not in the destination but in the quality of life along the way!

PS: I have started a Facebook discussion group called Organic Gnosticism. Feel free to join if interested.

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As more sexual energy is forced into the earth’s astral planes you will gain the ability to block and prevent harmful events in your physical life. This phase-locked energy still won’t become physical the way you want it to but it will prevent negative things from happening to you. It becomes a defensive magical energy that can resist anything at all.

This is the great turning point where your magical will is stronger than the earth’s astral current. It begins to accumulate in the Spirit astral layers and gain strength.

For the female this means that she can block out any unwanted influences in her physical life. She begins the process of expelling unwanted energies.

For the male he forces his astral creation against that of others and the others are destroyed or impelled into physical events. If destroyed they reform again above his astral creation helping to force his downward into the next level. In this manner society gradually comes to help these phase-locked energies to become physical events. Society gradually forces his energies into contact with those of his soul mate.

This is a long tedious process that takes place one astral contact at a time. Any possible obstacle or barrier will present itself to the male. This is because the female is trying to rid herself of unwanted energies and she places them directly in his path as he tries to reach her. In time she has no energies within herself except his and they will be drawn together to live the life that they both dreamed of living.

This entire process could take years of constant daily additions of sexual energy. While the process is very frustrating the final result is inevitable and a person’s attention should be drawn to other areas for maximum productivity in life.

For the male that has reached this point group magic workings may help him to get things in his life that would otherwise be repelled from him. He can work magic for others and they can work magic for him. What others astrally create for him can become physical reality.

In the same manner his phase-locked energy can be used as a catalyst to stimulate the development of others. If they are blocked he can open those blocks for them. He has the ability to pierce through all barriers, his or someone else’s. He can use this time to teach others.

For the female, she can give away excess female energy to other females and help them to block off unwanted energies. She becomes the guardian of other females lending them strength in times of need. This of course means that he must generate even more sexual energy before they are joined together.

The final result of this is that the entire world benefits from your efforts. Others confront and release “black” energy in a safe manner that prevents “psychotic” behaviors and learn to defend themselves against unwanted energies and harmful experiences.

You will develop an astral body that can function on all levels of the astral planes. This astral body will continue to gain in strength with each lunar cycle. It will allow you to work with your soul mate to create astrally the type of life that you both want to live.

These energies will become phase-locked together so no one else can alter them. This will also allow you to defend yourself against all unwanted persons or events and in time bring you and your soul mate together.

There is no need for ritual or spells or special equipment. The mind will create astrally what is desired and it will be forced to become a physical event. This is the most powerful type of magic that exists.

In reality what happens is that your personal beliefs will complicate and confuse the energy flows. If you believe in ritual and special equipment the sexual energy will flow into those “patterns” and find any weak spots that will allow it to escape. Experienced occultists will easily adapt the O.A.K. system to their own perfected system. This will bring a dramatic increase in power and in results.

The total beginner that has not read any books on magic will be able to achieve without any problems also. The ones that will have difficulty are those that have studied several traditions without mastering any of them.

This is not a serious difficulty because the energy will just flow into the earth’s astral planes until it is mastered. It is essentially the same thing as having a sex partner. Your development of the astral body will be delayed but it will eventually happen anyway.

It will happen because all phase-locked energy is accumulative. It does not mix with other astral energies. Since the earth’s astral plane will only hold a finite amount of energy at some point your phase-locked energy will be forced out of the astral planes if enough is accumulated.

At a critical point societies astral forces will aid your energy to become physical. This is because society needs more astral space and it tries to eject yours to make room for its own.

When astral contact is made with your soul mate a “resonant” circuit is created that has a tremendous “tank” current. With each astral contact the “tank” current becomes more powerful. Each lunar cycle brings a dramatic increase in the amount of power and sexual energy that is drawn into the astral planes. After this circuit is created a person would not need to daily add sexual energy into the astral. It would happen by itself during the lunar cycle. But it would take longer.

Once this process is begun it will continue until it is finished. In fact, this process will happen to every living thing on earth at some point because the astral energies at the highest and lowest points are being directed in such a way that soul mates will be drawn together and use each other as power sources.

The egregore of the new Eon is now active and supersedes all other egregores. At the highest and lowest levels it is no longer possible to tap into “non” soul mate energy. Magical traditions such as the Kabala will not work in the same manner as they once did because the egregore of the new Eon is now directing that energy before it reaches the kabalistic egregore. They will instead be drawing energy directly from soul mates. This will cause a dramatic activation of “black” energy throughout the world by a type of “instant” karma.

Efforts to help others will loosen the “black” energy and bring it into conscious awareness where it can be dealt with safely bringing increased positive energy to your soul mate.

Efforts to hurt others will instead hurt your soul mate and bring a like response in return. This means that in an ever increasing manner we will see increased violence among violent people and increased peace among peaceful people.

People will have the choice of confronting their repressed fears and anger by safely bringing them up into awareness or continue to repress them until they become physical reality. Either way a two-way flow of energy is beginning to flow between soul mates. This energy flow will gradually disentangle itself from everyone else’s energy and pull soul mates together by creating individual “resonant” circuits.

The O.A.K. system offers a safe and fast way to accomplish the purification of the mind and body and the reunion of true soul mates. It offers a way to greatly accelerate the inevitable changes that must take place as we enter into a new and glorious age.

PS: I have started a Facebook discussion group called Organic Gnosticism. Feel free to join if interested.

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Today we are going to talk about the emergence of Satanism as a rebellion against the Church. Now after the first millennium the Church was in trouble. The devastation of Rome by earthquake, fire, and famine made people doubt the religion itself. They even doubted that humanity could survive.

Life became of survival of the fittest where the most powerful people began to take advantage of the situation. In the feudal society land was sacred. It was the most sacred thing one could possess and it got passed down from father to the oldest son and never split up. That’s how it retained its power.

But what about the younger children of rich and powerful families? A lot of the younger children were granted key positions of power and authority within the Church. They were educated and part of the elite wealthy families. They got these spiritual positions within the Church as political positions of power and authority. Spirituality and religion didn’t have a lot to do with it.

Many of these people abused their positions and the common folk began to complain.

What kind of religion is this anyway? You expect all these things of us and then your own behavior is so evil! These are not the teachings of a love based religion! They rebelled and screamed out. “We’ve got to reform the church, get rid of this corruption and bring it back to the message of Jesus! A message of love and the heart. A message that the common people could understand.

At that time the Church was divided into monks and priests. Most of the priests were actually married. But Pope Gregory VII proclaimed celibacy for the priests and he incited the monks against the priests. Pope Gregory was a monk himself and there were horrible consequences to this.

In fury the people threw themselves upon the priests who refused to give up their wives. In reality the general population was just looking for an excuse to overthrow the corruption within the priesthood and they turned upon the priests. They drove them away from the altars, beat them, mutilated them, and even tore them to pieces inside the sanctuary of the church itself. They began to spit upon those things they had once revered as holy. They drank holy wine mixed with urine and desecrated the host.

The power of the priest was broken. Now only monks and the Pope ruled the world, no one believed in the priests anymore, and you could argue that this was really the beginning of Satanism. But it was actually because of the actions of the Church itself.

Other atrocities were permitted. Dunstan allowed the concubine of an English king to be mutilated. Pope Gregory VII rewarded an abbot with a bishopric after the abbot had a monk castrated. The theologian Manegeld openly taught that married priests should be killed. The church pushed women away as unclean animals, as servants of Satan and as eternal death and damnation incarnate.

Pietro Damiani roamed throughout Italy, preaching countless sermons and attacking women.

“I am talking to you scum of paradise, bait of Satan, poison of the soul, spear of the heart, all dressed up with jewels, you little chicks, she-wolves, insatiable bloodsuckers.”

Those were the kinds of things that the Church was preaching! The holy doctors declared that man should distance himself from woman. Peter of Lombardi professed that marriage was a sin, at least a venial sin.

The first thousand years of Christianity allowed a balance of sexuality and a balance between males and females. Priests were even allowed to be married. This all changed after the destruction of Rome and the Pope’s move to a new headquarters at Avignon.

That’s when the movement against the Church really started and it just got worse as time went on. This was not the nature loving religion of the simple folk. They instinctively knew within their hearts that love within balanced male and female relationships was powerful and empowering, and that it helped to develop the soul of both men and women.

They understood this instinctively, but they were being told the opposite by the authorities. They were being told by the elite within the powerful Church that what they believed was wrong and a lot of them rebelled.

But their rebellion became twisted and instead of being a healthy rebellion of pure Organic Gnosticism, which was in their roots, in their nature, it combined with a hateful rebellion against the Church. It became a rebellion against the priest, a rebellion against the mass, against the sacred host and communion. In their anger and hatred they reacted against all those things that the Church taught and what they believed became twisted.

It became a twisted religion and reaction against the Church and it became a very powerful force. When you take something that’s taboo or forbidden and you break that taboo there’s a powerful psychic force released. It’s very powerful because you’re no longer a slave of that taboo. By doing what is forbidden you have broken free from the chains of fear that held you enslaved.

This rise of Satanism happened because the Church not only allowed it, but created the hatred that fed into it.

PS: I have started a Facebook discussion group called Organic Gnosticism. Feel free to join if you are interested.

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Chapter 15

Several hours later the sun was coming up. There was a fire blazing in the fireplace of one of the log buildings at the gathering spot and two Masters were standing guard outside the door as Ellen finished questioning Tobal. She absent mindedly pushed his parent’s things toward him and indicated that he should pick them up.

“I don’t know what to do,” she murmured softly. “There is no doubt in my mind that these things truly belong to you and that you should have them. If they had belonged to my parents I know I would want to have them. I am now also inclined to believe the rogues were somehow able to follow you. Perhaps they do have monitors. That would explain why we rarely see any of them. They would know when we are in the area and would hide.”

She turned a puzzled expression toward Tobal, “But that would also mean they are not from the village to the west of here. That village is totally primitive and has no technology. These rogues must be coming from somewhere else and they are interested in what you found at the lake. This might be very dangerous and your life might be in danger, all our lives might be in danger and we don’t know from whom.

I suggest we keep this quiet for now and don’t talk to anyone else about it.”

“I need to talk with Rafe about it,” Tobal protested. “He already knows something is out there and so does Melanie. She was with me when we first found the gathering spot at the waterfall. I don’t want them to be in danger too!”

Ellen sighed, “Well, I will have to trust your judgement in this. Don’t talk to anyone unless you really trust them ok?”

Tobal nodded, “I wasn’t going to anyway” He chuckled. “I wasn’t even going to tell you until you cornered me about it.” He didn’t mention the slender silvery wand that was hidden safely in his pack.

Both Ellen and Tobal decided it would be a good idea for him to stay close to the gathering spot and around other people in case the rogues had specifically targeted him. So he spent most of the month helping Dirk and Rafe working up wood for circle.

They were trying to get wood ahead so there would be an ample supply during a snowstorm or blizzard. There was already over one foot of snow and travel was getting difficult.

With Tobal’s help Rafe and Dirk got a lot of wood brought into camp. Rafe was becoming more confident and sure of himself. He was also growing taller and filling out. The constant back breaking work of chopping wood with stone axes seemed to be putting muscle on him too. The Chevrons on his sleeve proclaimed he had won three fights and he was learning how to take care of himself.

Tobal wore the jet and amber necklace around his neck and kept the ceremonial dagger in the sheath strapped to his ankle. Each day he took them out and looked at them. They were the only things he had that came from his parents. He wanted to go back to the cave but knew it was more dangerous than ever. He put the two plastic hospital bracelets in his medicine bag and carried it on a leather thong around his neck.

It was the wand that he didn’t know what to do with. It was about a foot long and one inch in diameter. He had examined it more completely and still didn’t know much about it. There were five buttons on the thing. He had tried the first and second buttons in the cave. Out doors they worked much the same. The first button made the wand act as a light. When he activated the second button it melted a circle of snow about fifteen feet in front of where he was pointing. It seemed to have a range of about fifteen feet and the heat kept increasing as long as he held the button down.

The third button caused a blade of light to extend out of the wand about two inches. This was some type of laser used for cutting. He tried it on a few rocks and cut deeply into them without melting the rock. The fourth button acted as a sighting device shining a point of red light on anything it was pointed at without apparent harm to the object. The fifth button however, would flash a pulse of light burning a hole through whatever it hit. The fifth button could only be pushed at the same time the fourth one was pushed and needed to be re-pushed for each new pulse of light.

It apparently acted as some type of safety device limiting the damage that could be done with the wand. He tried it once killing a deer at twice normal bow range. The deer dropped without a sound. Close examination showed a hole that went completely through the deer.

As he butchered the deer and brought it back into camp he reflected on the nature of the wand itself. It was obviously a tool or a weapon using pulsed energy of some type he had never heard about. That meant it was probably part of some secret military technology his parents had been involved in. In any case it was extremely dangerous and even more dangerous to be caught with. On the other hand he didn’t want to loose it or have it stolen. He guessed he might have to talk with Ellen about it sometime. In the meantime he made a sheath for it on his other ankle and kept it on his person.

Rafe asked him about his trip and was very interested but Dirk was always around and Tobal felt he needed to talk with Ellen first so he told Rafe to wait till circle. Rafe’s eyes narrowed a bit eyeing the amber and jade necklace. He didn’t say anything more about the trip.

Samhain was a major festival and Tobal was surprised at how many showed up for it. It started as the other celebrations did with proclaiming newbies ready to solo. Nikki and Char both proclaimed their newbies ready to solo. There were several initiations scheduled.

Wayne’s newbie wasn’t ready yet but was going to be initiated. The Same thing happened with Zee’s newbie and Kevin’s newbie. They were going to be initiated into the clan but they needed another month of training. With the advent of cold weather the training was taken seriously by all clan members.

Most clansmen had already partnered up for the winter and would not be doing anymore training till next spring or they would partner up at this circle. He thought about Tara and Zee. They had both asked him about partnering up for the winter. Now they both had partners selected even if Zee and Kevin still had one more month of training till their newbies soloed.

Soon there would be no one to ask or partner up with unless it was a newbie. Was he really being so different in not partnering up with anyone? Rafe had trained newbies all winter long. He caught Char a bit later and talked with her about it.

“I notice your newbie is soloing this month,” he congratulated her. “What are you going to do now?”

“Well, I was going to see if Wayne wanted to partner back up for the winter,” she said bitterly. “But he is not speaking to me and in the middle of training his newbie. If he is training her like he trained me, she will probably be spending the winter with him. I hate that man!” She started crying and Tobal put an arm around her shoulder to comfort her. He felt her shoulders shaking against him.

“He’s just training newbies like you are Char, what are you mad at him for?”

“He’s not talking to me or looking at me, that’s why,” she snapped at him. “All he does is spend time with her.”

Tobal sighed and wished he were anywhere else. “You sound just like he did last month when I was talking to him.

Don’t you remember how jealous he was? You were afraid he was going to pick a fight with Rory. Look, this will make one chevron for you and two for him. What are you going to do now? Try training another newbie or wait out the winter? You can’t control what he does. You can only control what you do. What is it that you really want to do?”

“Become a citizen and get a real life.”

“Ok, so what do you need to do?”

“I guess I’m going to train one more newbie this winter. Thanks Tobal,” she told him. “I know that I need to move ahead but it’s hard sometimes. These old habits are so hard to break. It’s easy to get depressed about things.”

“Let me know if you need any help,” he told her. “I’m planning on training newbies all winter myself. It’s kind of strange but I’m a little afraid of partnering up with anyone for the entire winter.”

“Why would you feel that way Tobal?” She asked curiously.

“Well partnering up with a girl for the winter kind of implies a sexual relationship,” he flustered.

“What’s wrong with a sexual relationship?” She asked. “You do want sex with girls don’t you?”

Now he was red and embarrassed, “ Wanting sex and having sex are two different things Char. At least for me they are. I don’t want to hurt anyone and what if it doesn’t work out between us. What if she gets pregnant or something.”

Char laughed. “You are taking this much too seriously Tobal. For one thing, no one is going to get pregnant out here. Once a year we get birth control shots that last the entire year. In fact, we get them during Samhain, which is this month. The medics will make sure we get our shots if we want to continue in the Apprentice program. I thought you knew that.”

Tobal looked confused.

She continued, “It might not be a good idea for two Apprentices to get together like Wayne and I did. It is really hard having a permanent love relationship with someone when you need to train and live with other people like Wayne and I need to do. But it is normal to be sexual with others. Having sex is a form of sharing and a way of deepening a relationship. It is no big deal really. None of us are experts at love. We all need to have experiences and learn from those experiences. Our love partners help us and we teach each other about what pleases us.”

“Tobal,” she looked at him intently and unfastened her robe. “Do you want to have sex with me?”

He found himself staring at her body. Her soft breasts and the mound of blonde pubic hair stirred something inside him. Tobal found himself uncomfortable with the subject and with his own feelings. She had a good looking body.

“I think I will wait until I get to Journeyman before I worry about it too much,” he said awkwardly.

She laughed. “Well at least give me a hug and a kiss then.” She moved closer so her bare body was against him as they hugged. It was a long hug and a long kiss.

It took a while to recover and Tobal wandered around the gathering spot trying to collect his wits together. He thought about what Char had said and wondered if she was right. Maybe he was making too big of a thing about it. Maybe sex could be as casual as shaking hands for some people but he knew it was not that way for him. For one thing there were a lot of attractive girls around the camp and only one or two had ever really drawn his eye.

He thought of Melanie, yes, he was sexually attracted to Melanie. Then Becca came unbidden into his mind and he hastily pushed her back out. He didn’t know what was going on between him and Becca but it was more like electric shock therapy than sexual attraction.

Sarah, Mike and Butch had all completed their solos and were talking together when he came up to them. They were going to take this month off and work on their own base camps getting prepared for winter. It seemed most clansmen were either doing that or had already done that. None of them were talking about partnering up for the winter but they were thinking about working together setting up winter camps. Once their winter camps were set up they would decide if they were going to do any training or not.

Melanie, Becca, Nikki and he were the only ones interested in newbies this month. They each received a new chevron except Nikki. Her first newbie was going to solo that month. That made three for him, and one each for Becca and Melanie.

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It Sways the Battle

The breath falls to the ground,
As a winter storm comes from the north,
Covering everything with frigid cold,
Blustering with pitiless death.

Yet against it, mighty spring,
Takes up life’s joy in its course,
Where ever it steps, springs up many shapes,
A brilliant confusion of beauty,

It is a race, a wager, a dare,
An exchange of sinking, of resurrection,
It sways the battle, undefeated,
Yet how will it go at the end?

-Mia Holm
translated by Joe Bandel

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Emotions are intensely personal and not under conscious control. They are like having extra senses. Feeling can be rational or irrational but they can never be “right” or “wrong” in the sense that it is “right” to feel this way and it is “wrong” to feel this way. No body should ever feel guilty or ashamed about how they feel emotionally.

Only personal actions can be taken into account. There is nothing wrong with feeling like you want to kill somebody. That is an emotion you feel. It is wrong for you to act upon that emotion and physically go out and kill someone. We are responsible for our actions, we are not responsible for our emotions.

Instead listen to our emotions and try to determine why we feel the way we do. In many cases our emotions are trying to tell us that something is wrong or that something is right. That is a signal for us to be alert and cautious in what we are doing.

In magic and in physical life emotional energy must be directed and controlled by conscious intent or it will turn destructive. Emotional energy must be channeled and directed in a way that will bring positive results. In magical practice mental energy “contains” emotional energy and directs it to the appropriate target. It is very important that our conscious mind rules physical actions and that our emotions do not rule physical actions.

This is a hard concept to understand because our conscious awareness must be very sensitive to our emotions and work with them in a supportive and positive way. Often our “inner voice” or “inner authority” speaks to us through our emotions. In learning to follow our “inner authority” we need to understand our emotions.

When I work extra hard at the gym and don’t feel like getting up the next morning it is important for me to realize why I don’t feel like getting up and then consciously make the decision to get up anyway. Emotions have extra sensory ability, they do not have reasoning ability.

Above all else emotions do not have reasoning ability and we can not trust our physical actions to guided by our emotions. We can use our emotions as extra-sensory input to assist us in consciously deciding what physical actions to take. There is a big difference.

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This is also true with organizational or group Magical workings. The collective force of the group may think that it is shielding itself from this negative aspect but a cancer will start growing in the heart of the group itself even as it gets those physical things that it wants through Magical workings. Everything will outwardly appear as very positive and dynamic but inwardly the self-destructive seeds will be sown with inevitable results.

Typically, an established organization has a leader that as a Magus has perfected the causal link with physical reality and established an egregore for the organization. It is this person’s influence that allows the entire group or organization to think that it’s Magical workings are effective.

The leader is given Magical energy by the others and gains power and through the causal link gets physical results. As the others learn and master the leader’s technique their energy is returned to them and they personalize the leader’s technique to fit themselves as individuals.

Within these organizations all Magical energy is combined with Spirit energy within the egregore of the organization. This confines all of the energies so that none may escape and allows them to build up past the chaotic phase and become new types of energy. Still the dual nature of Magical energy remains and the student will be required to master many things that he or she would normally not do. They will also learn to give time and energy freely to create a void that will bring even greater things in return. These organizations will follow the positive methods of working with Magical energy.

To state this clearly, Magical work will always be dual in nature when performed by itself. Any physical event created in this manner will also create an opposite effect to balance it.

In contrast any Magical work combined with Spirit energies will resist becoming physical events until the Magus perfects a causal link between the Magical planes and physical reality. This type of Magical work without the causal link to physical reality is a type of inner work that can be very important to the process of spiritual development. Pure Magical work may create the illusion of working without the dual aspect but in reality it increases self-destructive potential.

Those that practice Magic in combination with Spirit energy often feel that true Magic is about personal inner growth and not about getting physical results. They feel that it is a spiritual thing and deals with helping others.

Pure “black” Magical work can best be seen in people that lie, cheat, steal, and harm others for personal gain. They think such measures work but lose their humanity in the process.

The best method is to become a Magus as quickly as possible and perfect the causal link with physical reality. In this way any rituals, spells, and charms will work as they are intended to. The methods given in this book will help anyone to achieve this. This achievement is not easily done and requires several years to accomplish. In the meantime much progress can be made directly through the three positive methods of working with Magical energy.

Magical energy is a combination of male and female astral energy. Too much male energy creates a destructive magical energy. Too much female energy creates a blockage or restriction. When the mix is perfectly half male and half female energy the magical energy can be molded easily into any shape or form desired.

Group magical energy shares the characteristics of all the people contributing to its formation. This means that you can shape it the way that you want but someone else from the group can go behind you and alter it the way that they want. Minor adjustments will be made by all group members until a common compromise shape is formed. This will then be the final shape the energy will take. It will have a dual aspect to it or a compromise quality.

Any astral creation or event that is not phase-locked with soul mate energy can be altered by someone else. Phase-locked magical energy can’t be tampered with by anyone else. This makes this type of magical energy highly desirable. Once astral events have been created by this phase-locked energy they will happen sometime in the future. They will happen to you and not any one else.

Unfortunately, sometime in the future means in your next future life! Phase-locked energies create events for your next life and not for this life. Opposites attract and like repels. These phase-locked energies repel from you and your soul mate because they are like you. They are you! The type of life’s events that you will attract are those that you don’t want because they are not like you.

Mystical and spiritual types recognize this and they “accept” the things that happen to them as past karma. They hope that living a “spiritual” life will create good karma for them in their next life. “Accept today’s blessings and be thankful for them. Live a good life and love each other. You will get your reward in heaven or in your next life!”

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ELEMENTS WITH TWO ELECTRON SHELLS

Element #10 Neon
This element is an odorless gas and one of the noble gases. This element also has two complete electron shells. Because it’s outer shell is complete it serves as a natural barrier in it’s astral aspect. It resists attempts to pierce through it and is one of the veils mentioned in occult literature.
This barrier separates second “chakra” energies from third “chakra” energies. It also stabilizes second “chakra” energies.

Element #9 Fluorine
This is a pale yellow gas that combines easily with other elements. This level signals our entry into the spiritual levels and the development of our “spiritual” awareness or our higher self.
At this level we can easily combine and “harmonize” with other astral events and beings that before opposed us.

Element #8 Oxygen
This is a life supporting gas that makes most fuels burn. The consuming element can easily eliminate obstacles and frustrations giving us a “spiritual” tolerance of others and of life’s difficulties.
Our problems no longer exist.

Element #7 Nitrogen
This colorless, odorless gas is a part of all amino acids and the building block of proteins. It does not combine easily with other elements.
This is the level of our “soul” body and the seat of our individuality. Here we make the final determination of where we begin and others end. This is who we really truly are.

Element #6 Carbon
This is one of the most important elements since all living things are based on carbon. Here we are a part of the entire living universe. There is no sense of self at this point. Only a sense of oneness with all things.

Element #5 Boron
This is an extremely hard element essential to plant growth. The hardness indicates a barrier aspect associated with plant life. Here is the “group soul” or guiding aspect of plant life in nature that protects plants and ensures the long term survival of them.

Element #4 Beryllium
This brittle light weight element has a high melting point and it absorbs and conducts heat. The brittleness suggests that this is an astral barrier as well as an energy sink.

Element #3 Lithium
This is the lightest known metal and it is used in high temperature compounds. It reacts with water to form hydrogen but does not ignite. It is used in batteries. Here we find the “collective soul” of humanity and its guiding forces.

In summary this level is divided into six distinct sections.

DIVISION LIV

This is the barrier or veil that separates first “chakra” energy from second “chakra” energy. It “isolates” the “tank” current of this group of elements and tries to maintain the stability of this level of the earth’s astral layers.

DIVISION LV

This is the level of the higher self or “Christ” consciousness. From this level we glimpse higher “truths” about life and the universe and return back to the mental levels with these insights.

DIVISION LVI

Here is our “soul” body. That part of us that is the immortal essence of who we really are. Beyond this level the concept of ego is meaningless. This is our soul personality developed over many lifetimes. It is also known as the reincarnating ego.

DIVISION LVII

Here is the experience of “cosmic awareness” where we experience being a part of all living things. We are all part of the same “soul”.

DIVISION LVIII

This is where we find the group soul of plants, their protective and guiding intelligence.

DIVISION LIX

This is where we find the group soul of humanity and it’s protective and guiding intelligence as well as the group souls of other animals.

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