Anarchistbanjo's World

There comes a point in any relationship when she has to decide what she is going to do. She is riding an emotional wave which she has no control over at all. Manipulation and control games are things of the past. She is at the crisis point of no return. She has to give herself away!

She becomes uninhibited and careless of ideals. She experiences pure desire, emotion, and gets caught up in the intensity of the present moment. But she remains bound by her karmic chains. Instead of acting responsibly and confronting the consequences of her actions, she may refuse and do anything to escape reality including drug and alcohol abuse. She is desperate to escape the dull monotony and stress of the present moment regardless of consequences. She needs excitement! She is blinded by her own ego. This is when the most harmful karma is generated.

There is no escape from the consequences of her actions and there comes a time when she needs to give in and accept the consequences that are coming to her. In owning her own responsibility for what is happening an important shift of awareness takes place. She grows up! She believes that she alone is real, she is a manifestation of the goddess. She experiences the physical realms in their entirety and has an elemental and emotional awareness of things. This is her peak in life. She is forced to confront the karmic chains of her body and becomes a slave to it. She is sucked into the karma she has created and then works to become free. This is an important period of service. She learns to reach out to others by forgetting about herself as she works out her karma. She becomes a mother.

She forsakes the material world and tries to plunge into spiritual salvation by living for others. To her horror the spiritual planes are forbidden to her. She becomes dependent upon others to lift her up spiritually. She struggles to escape her karmic bonds. Physical sensuality now takes the form of intense sorrow and physical agony as she suffers under her burden. Life is seen as a great sorrow that brings only death. The intense disharmony is not tollerable and she fears for her sanity. She becomes depressed.

In one way this may be seen as the burdens and demands of motherhood and child nurturing. There is a balance of both good and bad things happening and she is changed forever.