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The weather and shelter were going to be serious problems during below zero weather. He realized it would be important to hunt the larger animals like the deer and elk. They would migrate with the weather and he needed to know where they liked to go in the winter time so he could find them when he needed to. The cold weather would allow fresh meat to keep longer and he would only have to hunt once a week or so to keep two people in fresh meat.

With that in mind he spent the next two weeks teaching Sarah how to hunt with a bow. He taught how to set dead falls and other traps for larger animals. These were things he realized the others needed to know also.

At nights they worked on the hides and talked. Sarah’s father had told her quite a bit about claiming sanctuary and she had known pretty much what to expect. Still it was a lot harder than she had imagined and it took a while to get her toughened in to the daily grind. She was used to a much softer lifestyle. They joked about how different this was from the day she had taken him into the big city for a visit.

The bright side was she had been used to handling the items in her father’s store and came up with interesting ways to use leather and how to make tools that Tobal never even thought of making. He asked her about where his father got all those items and she said she didn’t really know. She only knew he would leave on trips from time to time and bring them back with him. He used to tell her there was no other store in the world like the one they had and that she should be very proud of it.

Sarah spoke of her mother and wanting to visit her grave. Tobal asked if she knew where it was and she didn’t. It was by some waterfall and shouldn’t be too hard to find. She was a little put off that it would be several years before she would finish training though.

Tobal felt a chill at the base of his spine as she talked about this and something deep inside him was screaming that Sarah’s mother had died at the lake like his parents and she was buried in that mass grave at the abandoned gathering spot. He didn’t know how to bring this up to Sarah yet, especially since they were so closely watched. He felt he would go back there himself first and check things out before talking to her about it.

The month went by quickly and all too soon it was time to go to the gathering spot. He didn’t think Sarah was quite ready to solo and wanted to work with the others in preparing them for the coming winter months.

The days were getting shorter by early September and there was a chill in the air at night and frost in the mornings. The first major snowstorm could come any time and they could be snowed in for weeks. He talked with Sarah and she thought spending another month on winter preparation was a good idea. She needed more winter training and he thought the others did too.

The morning of circle Zee, Nikki, Kevin and Ox all proclaimed their newbies ready to solo. They were all interviewed and questioned by the elders and approved for soloing. Each of them had winter gear they had to show the elders. It was very clear the elders were concerned about the training newbies were getting now that a sudden storm could snow a person in for weeks at a time. Tobal made a point of congratulating the two girls and Kevin. He didn’t care about Ox and avoided him as much as possible.

Zee was a little cool toward him but returned his congratulatory hug and started talking a little.

“I was mad at you for awhile,” she said. “I didn’t really think you meant it about training all winter. I thought you were just rejecting me and no woman likes that.” She put her hands on her hips and wiggled them a little with a grin. “ Then I remembered Rafe and how last year he trained at least two newbies and I wasn’t so sure anymore.”.

“Zee,” I really am training newbies this winter. If I weren’t, you would be a good partner. We’ve always gotten along pretty good. Have you found anyone to partner up with yet?”

She sighed, “You are serious aren’t you. I have a few people in mind but I haven’t really made a decision yet. I want to take this month off and work on my winter base camp first.”

He noticed she hadn’t specifically mentioned Kevin and decided to ask him, but first he wanted to congratulate Nikki on training her first newbie and wandered off to find her after wishing Zee well on her base camp project.

Nikki was getting her robe from Angel as he got his. They went to the teepee where they had left their packs and were changing into the robes..

“How did you like training you first newbie?” He asked casually.

“It was great! I’m training another this month.” she looked at him. “I really want to train another one before winter sets in. Do you think I can?”

“I don’t know,” he told her. “I’ve already decided I need to go back and help Melanie and Sarah get better prepared for winter. Their newbies could use a little extra training too.”

She thought about that a bit. “Zee did a really good job of getting me prepared for winter weather and my newbie is well prepared too. I don’t think we will have any trouble. I know it’s a sore spot, but perhaps two months of training is needed. Have you ever thought about it?”

He bit back an angry retort and instead simply said. “I do think training newbies during the winter should take two months. There is too much to learn about winter gear like snowshoes and working with furs for winter clothing. Anyone that I train this winter will get two months of training.”

Nikki beamed, “I’m so glad to hear that Tobal. We all worry about the newbies and how hard it must be for them in the winter. I haven’t spent a winter here yet but I’m pretty confident things will go well. That’s why I want one more newbie. I will probably end up spending the winter with them unless they decide to solo and go out on their own.”

Nikki’s plan sounded uncomfortably like his own. He still planned to train through the winter but didn’t really have any idea if it would work out or not. What if his newbie didn’t want to solo or move out and build a base camp on their own in the middle of the winter?

He was still thinking about these things as he wandered over to see how Kevin was doing. Kevin was helping set up some of the teepee shelters for the night. Tobal joined in until all the teepees were set up and fires laid in them.

Kevin didn’t know what he was going to do.

“I’m still hoping Zee will partner up with me for the winter,” he told Tobal with a blush. “She hasn’t said yes and she hasn’t said no. It’s driving me crazy because I really need some sort of plan. I don’t want to work on my own base camp if I’m not going to be living there.”

“Say, that’s an idea,” Tobal reflected. “Zee says she wants to spend this month getting her camp ready for winter. Perhaps you can offer to help and it will allow each of you to see how you get along together. That way she won’t need to commit to anything until she gets to know you better.”

Kevin brightened, “I’m going to try,” he said. “I’ll talk to her about it later tonight.”

“Good Luck!”

During circle he noticed Ellen was training Misty to be High Priestess. He had forgotten that Misty was a Master now. He was going to miss Ellen and wondered what she would be doing next. It was strange to see people he knew advance on to different positions.

He noticed earlier that Rafe had been put on wood crew along with Dirk. That meant they were responsible for there being enough fire wood at the gathering spot for circle. Everyone was encouraged to help, but only a few Journeymen were actually tasked to ensure there was enough wood. Angel would be given new duties next month as well. He noticed this morning that she now had four chevrons and seemed to be moving up the ranks more quickly than Rafe was.

Since Journeymen didn’t spend all of their time training newbies, they were each assigned duties that normally lasted two or at the most three months before being assigned to the next duty. The wood supply for the Circle was usually gathered well in advance and there was little work to be done during circle itself except tending fires as needed. That’s what Rafe was doing when Tobal spied him between initiations.

“Hey stranger,” he teased. “Who did you kill to get that?”

Rafe grinned as he turned in surprise. He postured and showed off his first chevron.

“One of the girls challenged me. She thought she could beat me. Bad mistake! She almost did too.” He admitted ruefully but then brightened. His mischievous smile was still the same. “Now I’ve got all the girls fighting over me. I must be the most popular Journeyman ever.”

Tobal looked at his friend. Rafe was filling out, getting taller and stronger.

“I think you will be winning quite a few fights soon,” he said. “You’re not so little any more. Pretty soon you might have to start picking on the girls instead of having them pick on you.”

“You really think so?” Rafe laughed. “Guess I can give up on the idea of fighting babies then. So what have you been up too? Is Sarah ready to solo yet? I’ve been hearing some good things about how you taught Nick and Melanie.”

“Well, I’ve run into a bit of a snag,” he confessed. Sarah isn’t ready to solo yet and I’m thinking about having Melanie, Nick, Becca, Mike, Butch and Sarah all over to my place this month. We can all make our winter gear together. None of us is really that good at it and maybe helping each other out will work.”

“That’s a terrific idea,” Rafe said. “I wish I had thought of it when I was training newbies. I guess we really didn’t do that much training for winter did we? There was only about one week of snow in your training before it melted away. Is there anything I can help with that you don’t remember?”

“I remember how to do most of it,” he replied. “But I will need to go back to your base camp and get some of my things if that is all right?”

“Sure, take anything you need. I probably won’t be around there very much this winter. I’ll be hanging around the Journeyman area most of the time. Either that or be out here getting wood or doing some other duty. Being a Journeyman is nothing at all like being an Apprentice.”

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Come

Come
 
Come to the forest! Butterflies flutter
In the green glow of twilight.
Loving thoughts fly,
And the birds burst out in song.
I want to lie by the spring,
Your hand my little cup,
And my arm shall snuggle up to you,
And my eyes shall be your mirror.
Come, oh come! We shall listen
To what the forest says about love.
There was a rustling—an exchange of kisses,
That was us in the twilight.

Mia Holm
translated by Joe Bandel

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We can carve our own destiny. The point of power is in the present moment but not in the way some might suppose. To live and act in the present moment is to reap the full benefits of past actions and make choices affecting our future in a positive way. Too many people dwell on the past and spend their energy wishing things were different or like they used to be. This is a waste of precious time.

Others say, “I will write my book next year” or start exercising after the holidays. They have plan after plan but never get started because a new plan comes along and takes its place. The net result is nothing substantial ever gets done.

Even more interesting, most people live for immediate gratification and won’t put effort out for long range goals. Long range goals are simply too unreal for them. A long-range goal is like an abstract thought that is too difficult to take seriously.

It is a balancing act to learn from our past and make choices affecting our future. We do this by living fully in the present moment. It might help to realize the major events of our lives are locked into place a year ahead of time. This is a metaphysical truth. The main events of our lives are preordained, not before we were born but at least a year ahead of time.

The Akashic records are etheric in nature. They reflect things that will happen in the future and things that have happened in the past. It is possible to dream about future events that will come true. Each year new events enter into the akashic records. They are potential events ready to manifest physically. The end point for putting new events into the akashic records is the autumn equinox of each year.

This means the main events we experience were placed into the akashic record some time during the last year. There is lag time between when they enter and when they physically manifest.

Minor alterations in our physical life can be filled using the lunar cycle as well. It is important to live in harmony with both the solar and lunar cycles of nature. Our physical body lives in the (physical) universe and our soul lives in the (astral) universe. Each universe has different rules. As physical matter gravitates toward each other in the physical universe, events gravitate toward each other in the astral universe. There are critical time periods where everything happens at once and long periods where nothing significant happens.

This is a natural phenomenon that astrology has tried to understand and master. The important point is there are periods of time that are more important than others and we must take advantage of them to be successful in life. Proper timing is the key to everything in life.

By the same token, don’t attempt something when the time is wrong because the entire effort might be put at risk. Our “inner authority” will guide us into action at the proper time when we learn to listen to it. We can learn to recognize the natural closing points and opportunities that surround us by living in the present moment.

Paying attention to the natural closure points and opportunity points as they occur is what mastery of life is all about. Trying to force things at the wrong time leads to nothing but pain and heartache. If we try the entire universe works against us. If the timing is right the entire universe works with us and supports our efforts.

PS: I have just started a Facebook group called Organic Gnosticism. Join us if interested!

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Our “inner child” knows how to live a balanced life. We can recapture the excitement, the adventure and the energy we had as children. This will help us live a balanced life.

There are some important differences between the child and the adult we can explore. The excess energy children have comes into this life with them from past lives. It is energy they have earned and brought to use as they wish.

This surplus energy is used up by puberty and its absence triggers the need for the body to produce its own energy. There is a reversal of energy flow as the child hits adolescence and the free energy is no longer available.

This produces the stress and angst teenagers experience. Producing our own energy is difficult at first and instead we get energy from other people, especially as teenagers. We hang out with people that give us the energy we require. In like manner, they get energy from us. This is mutually beneficial.

At first most of the energy comes from our parents through our genetic link. This link is an etheric link that exists throughout our lives. That is why the relationship between us and our parents is so important in modern psychology.

Of the seven types of shared energies, the chances are at least one type of energy comes naturally and easy to us. Other types comes very hard. We use our “friends” as crutches to balance our lives and provide us with those hard to get energies. The energy cycle of relationships is like this:

1- Union- we have enough energy as children and freely give it away to others.

2- Movement-We sense our lack and move toward energy we can’t produce ourselves. Not knowing where to turn, we begin to explore our environment.

3- Attraction-We are increasingly drawn toward another person and have identified our energy goals.

4- Seduction- The other person invites us into their sphere of energy and gives us the energy we crave.

5- Entrapment-We realize the other person is feeding off our energies the same way we are feeding off theirs. We are locked in co-dependency.

6- Exploitation- We are taken for granted as the other person gets their own energy needs met. We get less energy than we are giving out. We give less in return and take them for granted or turn to others and exploit them.

7- Loss of innocence-We have trapped ourselves in a relationship that is not healthy and we can’t get out of it. Energy we can’t spare is being taken from us and we are emotionally drained. At the same time we drain energy from others in a vicious cycle.

8- Join forces-We use cooperative communication and supportive effort to move toward mutual goals and needs even though the spark and the attraction are gone. We realize mutually using each other can achieve positive results even if it is not exactly what we would like.

9- The spark-A new type of attraction is born out of competency as we become successful. We no longer need the other person or their energy but choose to be with them out of friendship. We have earned the respect of our partner and in turn we respect them.

10- Realization-We understand each other as true equal partners in the giving and receiving of energy within the relationship. We realize our own strengths and weaknesses as well as those of our partner and value our relationship with each other.

Through work we train ourselves to generate the energy we need. We develop the ability to generate each energy easily and once more have a surplus of it. This is important because most of the things we lack in life are the result of not having enough energy to go out and get them. This surplus energy allows us to reclaim our “inner child”.

PS: I have started an Organic Gnosticism Facebook group. Join us if interested.

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The third method is to become a Magus! This is by far the most difficult and time consuming, but it is also the only way to really get the things that you want in this lifetime. This is the method that the O.A.K. system uses. In general you force energy into the astral planes and rack them until your astral creations are forced into the “fixed” Akashic records to become physical realities. This is the Great Work.

Obviously this is not easily done because all other conflicting astral events must be forced out of the fixed etheric planes first. This means a direct conflict of wills between what society wants and what you want. The task will at times seem almost impossible. All of your energy will be diverted into anything but what you want.

What happens is that you must give energy to the earth’s astral levels until it can’t take anymore. When it is full to the maximum with your energy it will have no choice except moving out of the way and allowing your energy to become physical reality.

This will happen automatically through the action of the solar and lunar cycles and no additional action is required. The entire process can be speeded up to a degree by forcibly injecting energy into the astral on a daily basis. Basically, you are attempting to lift the entire collective of humanity to a higher level where it will accept and grant you the things you want. Not an easy task but in some ways preferable to leaving the collective where it is at and waiting for it to accept you and your goals. If you do that you might not achieve your goals until your next lifetime.

The only thing needed for this method to work is an “unlimited” power source and a certain amount of time. Sexual energy is ideal for this purpose because it contains within it all types of astral energies and is extremely powerful. It is also readily available. Physical energy is more powerful but more limited to corresponding physical actions.

To make use of physical energy this way will require a training program similar to Olympic athletes or professional sports players and martial artists. It also requires an extreme focus on a specific goal. For those of us fortunate enough to know exactly what we must do, this is the ideal method. In fact, at some point this is what we must do to achieve the final causal connection that links our desires to physical reality.

We must inject large amounts of raw physical energy from our labors into the earth’s astral planes before our wishes can become reality. We must physically work for those things that we want in life.

There are no shortcuts in this. But we don’t need to do things that work against our true purpose in life! Often we don’t know what it is that we really want in life and must clarify it and bring it into focus. Other times we don’t know how to achieve the things we want and must learn how to achieve them before we can start physically working toward them.

Perhaps in most cases we have in addition to these problems active resistance against us in the form of our unresolved karma and/or expectations forced upon us as social obligations. We are so entangled in where we are that we can’t get to where we want to be. In cases like this increased physical activity may be in the wrong direction and work against our true desires by creating additional complications.

The use of sexual energy has the effect of being neutral and at the same time very powerful. Instead of anchoring to physical reality it goes into the etheric/astral levels and accumulates as growing personal power. It strengthens and integrates our various astral bodies and neutralizes or destroys opposition within the fixed etheric planes. Physical activity and energy brings our astral creations into reality but sexual energy can destroy or alter anything that is in our way.

Sexual energy enters the astral and expands and accumulates until it encounters resistance. When it encounters resistance it pushes back until whatever the resistance was becomes a physical event or weakens and withdraws. If needed it will transmute and rise up the planes until the conflict is resolved. This increases personal power at the lower levels and brings greater awareness into these lower levels so we can better know what to do physically.

The process works like this. Sexual energy is pumped into the astral planes once or twice a day. This astral energy accumulates in the astral planes and causes it to expand slightly more than it would normally. During the lunar cycle the moon’s gravity causes the astral planes to expand and contract forcing excess astral energy to become physical events or forcing them to self-destruct.

At first your energy will be used to propel other astral events into physical reality. Physical events around the world will take place at a faster rate than normal. Your sexual energy is being used to complete other astral events. This happens because your sexual energy is mixed with everyone else’s. As you tap into your soul mates sexual energy your own sexual energy will gradually purify itself and “phase-lock” with your soul mate’s energy.

There are two different types of development going on at this point, the “soul mate” activity involving spiritual energy and the buildup of lower level energy involving collective sexual energy.

The development involving spiritual energy and the “soul mate” cycles will continue on its own through the action of solar and lunar influences.

The addition of sexual energy is that of a mixed opposite sex energy drawn from the collective. As this happens you will slowly force your way through layer after layer of fixed etheric obstacles gaining freedom from them. It is a gradual freeing yourself of karmic entanglements. The energy flow between you and your soul mate will gradually increase and purify until it is continuous.

It will also involve more types of energy as it works its way downward through all the levels. With each lunar cycle progress will slowly be made until the two of you are forced together, at first astrally and then physically. This does not mean sexual physical contact but simply physical contact of a very platonic nature. Sexual physical contact with this spiritual soul mate can’t happen until a permanent causal link has been established and the entire astral planes have been mastered.

PS: I have started an Organic Gnosticism Facebook group. Join us if interested.

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Today we are going to be talking about the emerging caste system and what it means for the future of humanity. It’s taken me a while to wrap my head around what’s really happening here and I’m just going to share how I feel. There are four soul groups that are in the process of forming and these four soul groups each have individual purposes.

They are defined basically by their individual souls and they each have important functions. Organic Gnostics are the first group. Rational atheists are the second group. Social Enforcers are the third group and Survivalists are the fourth group.

The organic Gnostics are those individuals that identify themselves as former fallen angels that have been here on earth for a long time and are going through the evolutionary ascension process. They have a strong genetic link to Gaia and mother Earth and they are here now as spiritual leaders and spiritual teachers. They are trying to share in the soul development of the human race and share the things that they have learned to bring light to the human race.

The second group, the rational atheist group, is a group of collectivists. They believe very strongly in logic and reason, science and technology. They do not believe in the afterlife. They do not believe in the soul, or anything metaphysical. But they do believe in the human race. They do believe in social advancement and globalist efforts and trying to make the world a better place.

Now the social enforcers are the people that are interested in social control of the general population. In one way or another. The most common way they function is to pass laws so that everybody’s got to obey. But they also include the bankers and other social controllers. These are the people that create social controls so that everybody can get along together.

That’s if you put things in a positive spin. It’s too easy to put things in a negative spin and I’ll just leave it at that for now.

The final fourth group is the survivalists. These are the original Gaia souls. They started out with Gaia and they are just in the process of developing their souls. So in a way they are people of the heart. The heart is the most important part of them and they’ve just graduated through this great cycle that’s just finished. They are emerging as major players in this new great cycle. They have the deepest bond with Gaia of all living things because their souls have never known anything else.

They have the deepest bond with nature and with other species. In a lot of ways they have more in common with nature than they do with other humans. This group is interested in the soul development of other species, other species of plants, other species of animals. They are not just about humans. For them this is about Gaia. This is about all living creatures and as survivalists they are going to be the dropouts from what the other three groups come up with because they want to go back to nature. They don’t want to live in a technologically advanced society.

So there you have the four groups that seem to be developing in our world today. I personally identify with the fallen Angel group. This is basically another term for the light bringers or Lucifer. Lucifer and Prometheus both brought down fire or light from heaven for mankind.

It’s time to connect up with other people like us because we can mutually offer each other support. We can offer understanding and we can consolidate the things that we know so that we can be more effective in our purposes.

We are also going to be seeing a lot of changes because of the rational atheists. There will be changes in the sciences. Artificial intelligence will end up working very closely with us because this second group in combination with our group, the organic Gnostics, are going to determine the direction that this world is going to be taking.

It is very important to understand that the extremists are very dangerous and they are demanding laws to be passed. They are demanding social changes and demanding the imprisonment of anyone that doesn’t agree. They are trying to force everybody else to be like them and that is very dangerous.

The survivalists are being pushed into a corner and if they are pushed into a corner strongly enough and they’re not given a little bit of slack they will become like cornered animals. They can be extremely violent and extremely vicious.

we need to be thinking about these things and finding solutions that work for everybody. Now this is only in the beginning stages. We will see how things work themselves out!

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Chapter 12

Circle that month was eventful, Tobal had never seen eight people get initiated at the same time. The initiations started early and they continued late into the night. Everyone was tired and the party didn’t get going until well after midnight. After the initiations the drum circle began and it was party time. In all it was a good time and the night went by very fast. It was early August and the sight of naked bodies dancing wildly around the central fire was as intoxicating as the home brewed beer.

One of the wilder dancers was Zee. She beckoned him to join in the dance and on impulse he threw his robe to the ground and leapt into the circle of cavorting bodies, giving himself away to the driving rhythm. The energy in the circle was intense and the drummers never seemed to tire or stop.

Later during a break she was leaning on him with her arm around his shoulder and he felt her breast against him. She told him she was sitting out the winter and wondering if he would like to partner up with her. He was flattered and she was an inviting partner. Regretfully he squeezed one of her cheeks.

“I’m sorry Zee, I’m going to be training newbies all winter. Otherwise I would, really.”

“Fine then,” she pouted and abruptly turned back to the dance.

Kevin had been watching and came over casually asking how things were going.

“She’s really something, isn’t she?” Kevin watched her retreating rear move in time to the drums as her braided raven hair flew about like a whip.

“I think she’s looking for a winter partner,” Tobal volunteered.

Kevin shot a quick look at him, “Are you interested?”

“No, I’m training newbies this winter.”

“That’s really hard they say,” Kevin glanced once more at Zee. “I’m not even thinking about it myself. I might have to go over and introduce myself.”

Kevin chuckled and drained his mug of beer. He set it down beside his robe and disappeared into the dance slowly working his way over to Zee and cavorting his lanky muscular body in front of her.

Tired of the dance Tobal donned his robe and headed to the keg for another refill of beer. He noticed Melanie and Becca sitting off to the side. Neither of them had joined in the dance or partied much. It seemed they preferred each other’s company to that of the group. As he approached Melanie looked up.

“Hey Tobal, is it alright if Becca goes with us. We can all travel together and get to know each other better.

He muttered something about it being all right with him and made an excuse to go look for Nikki and ask how things were going with her newbie. There was a lot of tension between him and Becca and he didn’t know how to make things better, hell, he didn’t know if he wanted to make things better. He was irritated at how close Melanie had gotten with her though. It looked like they were best friends or something.

Tobal avoided Ox who was drunk, belligerent and telling stories about training his last newbie. Ox was complaining how no one could get newbies any more because some people were taking them all and not training them properly. Everyone knew that newbies needed more than a month to train before they could solo. He didn’t think the elders should have let Nick solo and he was letting everyone in camp know about it too.

The next day it was more fun travelling with the two girls than alone Tobal reflected. Even if they did tease him a lot. They seemed to have boundless energy and a sense of fun that made the trip go by quickly. He found himself laughing with them in spite of his normal taciturn self. They were both surprised when he told his first joke and pinched each other to see if they were awake or not.

Winter was going to hit the mountains and it was a pleasant surprise to find eight newbies at sanctuary. This was the last chance to get training in good weather before the winter months hit. Most Apprentices didn’t like training during the winter because it was hard enough to survive alone without trying to teach someone else He figured that was why both Tara and Zee had asked him about partnering up for the winter. He was even considering asking Melanie if she wanted to partner up with him for a month or two. The timing just never seemed right.

Two other Apprentices were already there. They had missed circle to get newbies and it was just dumb luck there were enough newbies to go around.

Early August had blasts of cold that reminded Tobal of the bitter winter months ahead. He needed to be thinking about his own permanent winter camp. During the winter travel and temporary camps were both dangerous. Winter clothing was essential and food critical to replace the heat given off by the body.

In addition the nights were longer and there was less sunlight. The chance of getting caught in mountain storms was very real and likely. Rafe had talked some about winter survival but there had not been any need to do much preparation then. Now it was time to do some serious thinking and integrate it into his training.

Tobal found himself with his third trainee. To his delight it was Sarah. He had forgotten she would be claiming sanctuary in the late summer. When she saw him, she raised a scene by running over and hugging him. She refused to go with anyone else and there were a few tense moments. Since there were enough newbies things were soon straightened out and everyone was happy.

The days were getting shorter and travel would soon be getting harder. The leaves were turning and there was not as much ready vegetation for fresh salads. They relied on dried fruit and meat. They scavenged for herbs and nuts that would be impossible to find after the snows came and began collecting and drying them. They stayed on the lookout for Hazelnuts, acorns, walnuts and chestnuts.

Acorns needed to be roasted but any nuts were good protein for the winter months and kept well in storage. Some tubers and inner bark of trees were collected to be made into flour later on. Tobal was hoping to make some bread this winter if he could figure out how to do it.

Trapping became the most important thing since they needed furs to make clothing for the coming winter. The easiest fur bearing animals were the beaver and muskrats. They spent much time near the streams during that first week living off fish and small animals they snared. They even tried eating beaver and muskrat. Tobal decided he could eat it if needed but used most of the meat for baiting traps and snares for more pleasant tasting game.

The skinned pelts needed to be fleshed by scraping off every bit of fat, flesh and membrane from the back of the hide and then stretching it on a stretching board with the fur on the inside leaving it to dry. It was hard nasty work that dulled knives and took up most of the day.

The muskrat pelts were stretched over specially whittled and sized boards but the beaver pelts were stretched in circular wood hoops and laced into place tightly. The wooden hoops were made by steaming the wood and gently bending it into the desired shape and then lashing the wood tightly into place. This was also the way snowshoes would be made later when they had more time.

After the pelts had dried a few days they were tanned with a cooked smelly mixture of brains, bone marrow, and liver spread liberally over the hides, worked into them and left for a few days. The foul mixture was then washed off and the process of “pulling” the leather began. Enzymes in the bad smelling mixture softened the leather enough to tan it.

Pulling the leather was a process of bending it sharply and making it pliable. This was done by pulling the pelt across the sharp edge of a stone or around a small smooth wooden pole set in the ground. After the pelt was soft and pliable the last step was for the tanned side to be smoked so the leather would not become stiff after it had gotten wet. It was only then the pelts could be cut and sewn into winter clothing.

Making the stretching boards and the stretching frames took several days and Tobal knew Sarah would not be ready to solo at the next circle. There was too much to be done. By the end of the 2nd week they had trapped enough beaver and muskrat for their own use and were busy tanning and smoking the pelts. What worried him was they hadn’t had time to do much else and the weather was getting colder. They were running out of time.

He worried about Melanie and Nick. He had not taught them much about tanning leather and making winter clothing because it had been the middle of summer. Rafe had not spent much time on it because the weather had been getting warmer. But he had shown Tobal the basics of tanning leather and making winter equipment. Rafe had also shown Tobal his own finished products at his base camp. Tobal still had things stored away at Rafe’s camp and he needed to get them.

Rafe was no longer available and busy with Journeyman things. It was Tobal’s responsibility to make sure those he trained were able to survive the harsh mountain winters. Most Apprentices would simply hole up in their base camps and wait the winter out.

Rafe had told him the entire purpose and spirit of being an Apprentice was to learn and train people to survive during any time of the year, not just the good months. In fact, the reason Rafe trained six people so quickly was because he trained them in the winter when few people were willing to train. Last winter medics on air sleds twice sought out Rafe and told him there was a newbie waiting at sanctuary that needed training and they asked if he would do it. They only asked this of the best and most experienced teachers. Rafe had even talked them into giving him an air sled ride to sanctuary so he didn’t have to travel in the bitter weather any more than was needed.

In the snow travel would be almost impossible unless snowshoes were made and now was the time to be making them. The green wood needed to be steamed until it could be bent into the snowshoe shapes and then lashed together for drying. They would be laced later.

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Passion Flowers
 
They stand on the table,
Creeping around from out of a green vase,
Twisting, rambling, over here, over there,
Pale and wan, like consumptive lips.
Passion flowers!
Like a dying, torturous last gasp,
Like the scream of a drowning boy,
Passion flowers!
And they tremble and perfume,
Painfully and abusively,
Weak and diseased, pathetically coughing,
They tremble and look at me in hesitation,
Half complaining in pain and half vengefully,
Like the sundering eyes of the gallows birds!
—Oh, I know you, pretend flower,
Know you and your entire proud relatives,
I know Genoveva, and poor Heinrich,
Know the suffering fool on the cross
And all the chosen knights
With pale cheeks and gaping maws!
Know all of you! And hate all of you!
—hello, pale flower, voluptuously soft,
Just waft your Nazarene poison here:
I am immune and I grab you
And crinkle and tear tendrils and blossoms,
And with a healthy curse
Throw everything
Out through the window,
Into the dirty, stinking street!
—Passion flowers!

-Hanns Heinz Ewers
translated by Joe Bandel

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Defining terms is important in communicating with others. The following concept is about “actuality Vs reality”. Actuality is what exists in the universe. We might never know it because it is so complex and based in chaos theory. What exists might be so complex the human mind might not be able to perceive or understand it.

Consider that animals are able to smell scents we are not aware of. The honeybee can see colors we are not aware of. There are many life forms living in our world that sense things we do not. It is almost as if they are living in a different world. We are limited by what our outer and inner “senses” tell us and we call that “reality”.

The scents we can’t smell and the colors we can’t see are not “real” to us and are not part of our “reality”. It is our subjective view of “Reality” that we live and act in.

There is also a “collective reality” we agree on most of the time. For example we agree to drive on the right side of the road if we live in the United States. There is a paradoxical element about actuality and reality.

The closer our “reality” approximates “actuality”, the more successful our efforts will be. If we believe in a fantasy that is make believe it will never manifest results in physical life. If it works use it. If it does not work…throw it away. We are interested in results and in fulfillment of our needs. We are not interested in perpetuating illusion and superstition.

Another aspect of this issue is that a “close minded” person will achieve much more than an “open minded” person. The close minded person has no doubt about what is right and what is wrong. He or she does not hesitate to do what he or she feels is needed. For personal empowerment we need to be “close minded”. This will grant us certainty and keep us tightly focused on our goal.

The trick is to be “close minded” in a healthy way. We do this by perfecting our personal view of reality or our “paradigm”. In following our “inner authority” we get flashes of insight and personal “truths” that gradually become our “reality”. When we find our “true path” and “True Will” we know what is real for us. We become “close minded” in confidence that we are doing what is best for both ourselves and we are also helping the entire human race.

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The dream interaction with your “soul mate” in the first soul mate cycle marks the beginning of the grade of Magus and the struggle to complete the Great Work. These soul mate interactions create phase-locked astral energy that is extremely powerful.

When this contact is made a new “resonant” circuit is formed between you and your soul mate that nothing can interfere with. At this point you can begin living the life that you truly want to live in that the fixed etheric levels have been purged of oppositional and negative influences.

It means that you can hold these negative influences at bay indefinitely because you are stronger than they are. It’s marked by a dormant period in physical life where everything seems to be at a stalemate. You can’t get ahead but you won’t back down to the opposition either. All of your energy is spent in holding these oppositional forces at bay. With each lunar cycle you make slow gains and increases in self-empowerment. The opposition becomes less and you become stronger.

The entire process is completely automatic and requires only a regular input of all types of energy to ensure total success by anyone. In fact, this process will also work with the spiritual energies and the “soul mate” cycle without the addition of the sexual energies but it will take a lot longer because spiritual energy is not as dense and heavy as sexual energy.

There is a real problem with “phase-locked” astral creations that must be clearly understood. They will resist every possible effort to become physical events and objects. This is why this is called the Great Work. To bring these astral creations into physical existence requires an unlimited source of energy and the will to go against the will of the entire world. It involves forcing and racking the astral planes until they have no choice but to give you the things that you want.

Opposites attract each other and you will automatically attract astral events to you that you don’t want and you will repel the events that you do want. The astral events that you don’t want will be attracted to the “fixed” Akashic records to become physical events in this lifetime.

The astral events that you want will repel themselves from the “fixed” Akashic records and form the basics of your next lifetime, the one after this one! You can have these things in your next life after you die! This is the way the process works unless the system is forced into giving you the things you want now in this lifetime.

This is why it is easier to prevent something negative from happening by forcing it out of the fixed etheric planes than it is to impel a created astral event into physical reality. It is easier to destroy than it is to create!

In the same manner the good life experiences that you now enjoy were earned and placed into the “fixed” Akashic records only after the death of your past life. That is the only reason that anything good is happening in your life at all!

Obviously this is not acceptable to us because we do not want to wait until our next lifetime for the things that we want now! There are three things that we can do to get the things that we want in this lifetime.

The first is known as “black” magic because we take the astral creations that someone else has made and make them our own. Because these astral creations are not made from our own energy they are not repelled and will enter into the “fixed” Akashic record to become physical reality during this life time for us.

There are important limitations to this type of magic. Because these astral creations are not our own they will never truly satisfy us. We will never be able to get what we really want out of life. In addition, we are causing pain and injury to the ones that are victimized by us and we are neglecting our future lifetime.

This path will cause our next lifetime to be without any of the things that we really want. Instead it will be an entire lifetime of tremendous hardship and suffering. For these reasons alone it is unacceptable to follow this path.

The second possibility is that of “group” magic. This type of magic is very effective in bringing astral events into physical reality but it also has its limitations. The way it works is that the other members of the group will energize and create things astrally for you that you desire to have. Since it was created by others it will not repel from you and will enter into the “fixed” Akashic records to become a physical event. If you do what society wants you to do, then society will reward you in many ways. It is the path of the conformer to the demands of the collective.

In the same manner you will energize and create astral events for others that they desire and help them to become physical reality. This is most common in prayer and healing circles where the group gives its energies to other members of the group.

While this method does bring good positive things into your life they will never really be just exactly what you wanted. It will always involve the compromise between what you wish and what the collective wants of you. Your true wish and true desire will never be fulfilled in the way that you want it to. You must always settle for second best and for less than you really wanted. For this reason this method is best left for emergencies and for a general willingness to help others with good will. It can’t hurt anything.

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