Anarchistbanjo's World

It was bound to happen sooner or later…each soulmate cycle activated a deeper or lower astral body that was closer to physical manifestation. My cycle with Annie turned into a real physical relationship with it’s own highs and lows which I may share later. Right now I want to speak of the dynamics of these cycles and what is actually happening within them as one searches for that elusive Holy Grail…

I want to remind everyone that these cycles are normal, and everyone experiences them to some degree within love relationships, but not as rapidly as I was moving through them and not so many of them. This was number seven and involved the root chakra energies and the permanent activation of the etheric body. It took seven years of steadfast daily working with these energies until a true physical relationship finally manifested. One may think of that as a long time or not, but many never achieve the permanent activation of all seven astral bodies as I did. As a male I can only speak of the male experience although several women have shared dreams of astral babies…apparently this is one of the gifts of that most magickal of all things, the female womb or Holy Grail…

In our youth we are told not to fall in love with the very first one that we are attracted to. My experience with these cycles is in agreement with the opinion of occultist Dion Fortune who insists that souls should be mated upon the astral planes before the consummation of a physical sexual relationship. This is the path of the dove and not the path of the serpent. We need to fall in love several times to build our soul and it’s capacity for having a true full spectrum relationship with another person.

We have several soulmates or persons who can fulfill that role for us as we develop the astral body out of the energies of each of the seven chakra centers…a soulmate is someone of the opposite sex that is of the same frequency as we are at that particular level. They are automatically drawn to us and we are drawn to them through the working out of these cycles.

It is also true that one must work directly with sexual orgasm energies and human sexuality to really propel these cycles and draw the proper magickal partners to us. As we work downward through these levels we will reach the point where we draw a physical partner to us and form a true physical relationship. But first we need to develop our capacity to have such a relationship or it will fail…as so often happens…and this needs to take place on all the levels for a successful mating of souls.

As I write this I still don’t know the end result of it all:

It is not the end of personal growth and empowerment. Our modern world is in a process of major transformation and new energetics are being formed even as I write this. For example, only now do I realize that my cycle with Annie involved the birth of my etheric astral body…the energies involved were of such a high vibration that they couldn’t participate within the etheric regions as they then existed because of those being of such low vibration that they would forcibly try to expel me from them. It was all that I could do to anchor myself there as a light bringer. We are now entering a time when my etheric body is much more welcome in the etheric regions of the astral planes…

Both Annie and I had severe karma involving others that also needed to be dealt with and these challenges ultimately destroyed our chances of really having a good relationship with each other. I was married to Annie for seven years and struggled to pay back my child support obligation which made my relationship with her much more difficult. As a consequence she often provided more in terms of financial support than I did to the relationship. This was bitter for both of us and we gradually grew apart from each other. My own children and legal issues got in the way…We had so much going for us, but the things that were against us were powerful indeed…we became toxic to each other…

We separated, got divorced, and I briefly moved to Washington DC where I lived for three months with another soulmate named Diana. In a way it seemed like the beginning of a new soulmate cycle and she was a pagan, but she also believed in polyamory and I couldn’t reconcile my own soulmate cycles with the concept of polyamory. It was the purity of the soulmate cycle with it’s magickal celibacy and exclusiveness that gave birth to permanently activated astral bodies! Indiscriminate sex and collective sexuality was not a part of my path!

In the end I went back to Annie, married her again and this time the challenges of the next seven years were not those of my children, but of her children. In the end my children helped to destroy the first seven years of marriage with Annie and her children helped to destroy the second seven years of marriage. Without those challenges we would have done much better…but we did as well as we could….

After twenty years of rocky marriage we had both moved so far in opposite directions that we could no longer be supportive of each other even though we loved each other…sometimes you can love someone and still not stand to live with them because the relationship has become toxic…

You see, the energy dynamic of my relationship with Annie stirred up all the black shit within me and within her and brought it to our awareness where we could deal with it and transmute it into harmless energy and that was the strength of our relationship. It was healing and ultimately brought out the best in both of us…but we were moving in opposite directions and there was no longer any catalytic effect…we had reached a dead end…we had become dead to each other…

That was when someone else entered my dreams and a totally different cycle began, the Divine Counterpart cycle…