Anarchistbanjo's World

When I left the Air Force I intended to get some type of job in the computer industry and used my VA benefits for a one year correspondence course in computers and microprocessors. One of the enticements of this course was that I was able to build my own computer from a kit! I learned a lot about computers and programming, but what I really wanted was that computer! Of course there was no internet yet out in the country where I lived.

After about two years internet did become available through dial-up on the phone lines. Although in 1994 there was not a lot that you could do on the internet! I was able to join a Rosicrucian Forum where I could share with other Rosicrucians even though it was all through email…daily digests of the current posts. This was nothing like what is available today and taken for granted…

So I met other Rosicrucians online and Helen was one of them…yes, these cycles worked through the internet lines at extreme distances…Helen lived in New Zealand. In my twenty odd years of membership I had completed all of the degree studies and was an elder so to speak. When people wanted to discuss the Rosicrucian teachings I had pretty solid knowledge of them…but what I really wanted to talk about was the importance of healing the soul and the emotions. Remember that the Rosicrucian teachings were aimed directly toward achieving union with Source…they were mystical and led from out of the emotions into the higher realms. I was heading in the opposite direction!

Needless to say the internet forum was cutting edge and very exciting for all who participated in it. There were traditionalists and radicals such as myself that wanted to go beyond the teachings into other areas. The forum community became deeply divided between progressives and traditionalists and I was the voice of the progressives. Helen was another of the progressives that really supported me and my message.

Soon she entered into my dreams as another soulmate cycle began and we began emailing each other about our strange experiences. Helen was the first soulmate cycle in which I could really talk to her about how she was experiencing things in the cycle and it was quite interesting. I was having dreams about her and she was having dreams about me, but we didn’t share the same dreams. It seemed that I was in contact with her shadow self or higher self and not her ordinary dream self. The same was true for her. She would share a dream in which I was there and I didn’t have any memory of it.

It was only toward the end of the cycle that we began to meet each other in dreams in which we could both remember the experience. It was from Helen that I learned the cycle was healing for her as well as it was for me and that she was developing and integrating her permanent astral body as well as I was. This cycle dealt with the heart chakra and quite suitable for a Rosicrucian connection because the Rosy Cross is about the heart as the meeting place where male and female souls meet in harmony. It is the meeting place of horizontal soul development and vertical soul development.

I got in magical disputes with others on the forum that reached the intensity that I would quickly post something I knew would set off a flame war and then turn my computer off so that I was protected from the repercussions. I can definitely affirm that magic does flow through the internet as do soul connections. The internet is a magical place.

All out magical warfare erupted on the forum as things became more and more polarized between the traditionalists and the progressives. There were calls to censor and moderate all posts to limit them only to material dealing with the monograph studies, even though we were forbidden to discuss the monographs themselves…

AMORC eventually created a second moderated forum and on an Easter Sunday without warning they killed the original forum in what can only be considered a form of black magick in which the vital life force of the original forum was sacrificed and supposed to enter into the moderated forum to empower it. We were traumatized, yet somehow we all managed to connect on our own to say our good byes to each other…That was when I dropped my active membership in AMORC and considered it a black lodge.

I find it interesting that this was around the same time period that the Rosicrucian Order AMORC was having it’s own inner troubles. It had kicked out former Imperator Gary Stewart and installed new Imperator Christian Bernard. I also find it interesting that many others left the order at the same time. There was a definite crisis in AMORC … I also find it interesting that now over thirty years later I have once more become an active member of AMORC three months after Christian Bernard was replaced with the new Imperator Claudio Mazzucco whom I resonate with…

I also made contact with the real OTO and shared a few letters with Bill Heidrick describing some of my experiences in crossing the Great Abyss and in what now was my fourth soulmate cycle. He essentially confirmed that I had indeed crossed the Great Abyss and extended his deepest sympathy…(Magister Templi=master of all sorrows). Even more importantly he told me what was needed next. I needed to build a bridge between my construct or paradigm and that of the OTO which was the Holy Kabbalah. To do this I needed to destroy all antimonies or disharmony between the two systems. I needed to integrate both systems into one. So I began to study the Holy Kabbalah and other magickal systems.

There is a curious convergence between my own Rosicrucian AMORC and the OTO of Aleister Crowley in that both H. Spencer Lewis and Aleister Crowley shared the high grades of the Freemasonry Rites of Memphis and Mizraim which were connected through John Yarker. They were also connected through the legendary occultist Papus. The OTO through the Gnostic Catholic Church and AMORC through the Traditional Martinist Order. These links prompted me to begin study of Freemasonry as well.

Eventually I was initiated into the Blue Lodge of Craft Masonry and also initiated as Minerval into the OTO. I began taking all this material and creating a chart of correspondences with it. I took a map of all 120 levels of the astral planes (118 elements plus the photon/electron and rotating north/south magnetic fields) and placed all other magickal systems over it. Amazingly they all fit perfectly! I had built my bridge between the OAK system (my system created partially of Dewey Larson’s Reciprocal Systems Theory) and that of the Holy Kabbalah. But it was only one way!

My system was compatible with that system and others, but they were not compatible with mine! This is partly because the Holy Kabbalah is only an associative system which creates magickal associations or links between one thing and another. I was able to create associative links with this system thus proving the validity of my own system…But my system was progressive and based upon the scientific periodic table of elements where each element progressed in a natural manner through the addition of one electron and one proton. There was nothing associative about it at all!