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OD by Karl Hans Strobl and translated by Joe E Bandel

Chapter 14

Reichenbach wrote to Schuh: “Now it’s enough; you must come. You must convince yourself of the significance of my discoveries. It would be a betrayal of science if you didn’t come. Since you don’t want to meet Hermine, come today—Hermine is busy at the Schönbrunn Palm House and will be absent all day. I’m sending Severin with the carriage.”

The carriage stood at the door. Schuh’s longing allied with Reichenbach’s wish—oh, just to be in the rooms Hermine inhabited once more, to follow the traces of her quiet, eccentric, shy life, and to speak with Ottane, to hear about Hermine.

Reichenbach received Schuh with open arms like the prodigal son. “And no more foolishness!” he said. “Let’s leave the womanizing aside. Whenever science stumbles, it’s always womanizing that trips it up.”

He paused, reconsidered, and cleared his throat awkwardly. It was good that Schuh didn’t know how little right he had to preach such things.

First, Schuh had to report. Yes, he had made great progress with his light images; now he could make two images transition into each other—he first showed one, then veiled it with a mist from which the other emerged. He had achieved far more than his predecessors, but it still wasn’t the right or final result; it depended on the optics of his device, and Schuh was in negotiations with Voigtländer for new, especially sharp, light-strong, and achromatic lenses. But there he was stuck. Such lenses cost a sum Schuh couldn’t currently raise. Yes, to realize all his plans required far greater means than he had at his disposal. In the autumn, he wanted to re-emerge with his work and then leave Vienna, perhaps to bring back some money.

Reichenbach listened thoughtfully. “How much do you need?”

“Pardon?”

“It would be a pity,” said the Freiherr, “if you couldn’t perfect your device. Money shouldn’t be an obstacle. Your cause is good; I know it, I believe in it. So, how much do you need?”

Schuh still isn’t sure if he heard correctly. It seems Reichenbach has offered him money. For now, he just stares at the Freiherr, unable to fit this novelty into his mind.

“I’ve considered it,” the Freiherr continues, “I consider it my duty to enable you to continue your work. Moreover, I am indebted to you in many ways. You’ve assisted me with my galvanoplastic and optical experiments, and besides, it’s just a favor in return.”

“I will, of course, involve you in the profits,” Schuh believes he should suggest, “if you could give me… say, three thousand gulden…”

Reichenbach dismisses this magnanimously. “Dear friend, no talk of profit-sharing! Do I want to do business with you? If you insist, you can repay me with five percent interest—I think that’s fair. And now, let’s go to dinner.”

There are only three at the table: the Freiherr, Schuh, and Reinhold, who grumpily and sullenly forces down his food. Ottane is absent, and Schuh misses her greatly. Is Reinhold supposed to tell him about Hermine now? Isn’t that mainly why he came—to get news about Hermine? But he doesn’t dare inquire about her whereabouts; he has the impression that Reichenbach, who offers no explanation for Ottane’s absence, might be uncomfortably affected by such questions. And Reichenbach himself now appears to Schuh in a different light. He is a forceful man, certainly, with his quirks—fine, he opposes an unsuitable match for his daughter and has God-knows-what ambitious plans for her, but there’s nothing to be done about that; he’s a real man, that much must be granted. This offer to Schuh is generous, showing trust and truly elevated sentiment.

After dinner, as Reichenbach and Schuh sit on the terrace in front of the garden hall with coffee, Schuh sees the Freiherr’s yellow carriage with Severin on the box beside the coachman arrive. Three ladies step out.

“My three sensitives are here,” said Reichenbach, “yes, dear friend, now you must also let yourself be shown how far I’ve come. You must give your opinion.”

Frau Hofrat Reißnagel almost didn’t recognize Schuh; she looked very ill, her eyes darting restlessly, her pale lips trembling as if shaken by inner storms. Schuh learned that the tall, lanky blonde was the wife of Police Commissioner Kowats and the short, freckled one was the schoolteacher’s wife, Pfeinreich, from Gutenbrunn.

“Let’s go to the darkroom right away,” Reichenbach suggests, “otherwise it’ll get too late.”

Schuh assumes they will now climb to Reichenbach’s study on the second floor, but no—Reichenbach leads them a few steps cellarward, then down a long, gloomy corridor to the opposite wing of the castle. A door opens silently; the Freiherr pulls back a thick loden curtain, opens a second door, parts another curtain, and pushes Schuh through a third door into complete darkness.

“Hold on to me,” Reichenbach instructs Schuh, “and follow me; the ladies are familiar here and will hold onto you. We’re only in the anteroom of the darkroom; it’s not dark enough yet.”

Schuh finds the darkness quite sufficient, but he reaches behind him, grabs a woman’s hand adorned with rings—likely the Hofrätin—and is pulled along with the entire chain pulled forward. Two doors squeak on their hinges; the heavy folds of two curtains slap him in the face.

“We’re here,” announces Reichenbach, and his voice echoes louder, as in a large room. “This is the darkroom. We have a sofa here and a table in front of it. Take a seat, Schuh; the ladies know the routine. But stay seated; you might bump into various objects standing around. What I want to show you today are light phenomena—it’s the Od light. But first, the effects of daylight must be completely erased from your eyes so you can perceive the infinitely weaker influences of the Od light. You’ll need four hours of patience.”

“Four hours!” says Schuh meekly, without implying he’s being a bit rude to the ladies.

Reichenbach immediately notices: “Aren’t you delighted to be condemned to four hours of darkness with three such charming companions? Many young people would love nothing more. Yes, I was once in a cave where the great light wonders only dawned on me after the external light had faded. See you in four hours!”

Schuh hears the door close and is alone with his three fellow captives.

“See you,” he jokes, “that’s a bit exaggerated in this darkness.” There’s nothing else to do; Schuh feels obliged to entertain the ladies.

“The soul gathers itself in such darkness,” says the police commissioner’s wife, “it reflects on its own self.” No one told Schuh that Frau Kowats is a secret poetess, but he knows it now. He thinks it might be fitting to discuss literature and brings up Bauernfeld and the theater.

After a while, he hears a suppressed yawn from his other side. “It’s really a terrible waste of time,” someone says, and it can only be Schuh’s other sofa neighbor, the schoolteacher’s wife, Pfeinreich, “if only one could darn stockings.”

Oh, Schuh can also talk about household matters—the servants, aren’t there any decent ones anymore? He enjoys switching the conversation topics and thought circles abruptly, a jack-of-all-trades in that too, soaring high with beautiful souls one moment, then grounding himself with opinions on new stoves, petroleum lamps, and the favorite dishes of the Viennese.

The Hofrätin remains silent. She sits beyond the teacher’s wife in a sofa corner and says nothing.

But then the conversation falters, and Schuh’s mental energy wanes. Four hours are long—hard to believe how long four hours can be. Schuh stands up, navigates around the table, and gropes through the room: “I’ll take a look around,” he says with a final attempt at humor.

Even in the pitch-blackest night, one can see their hand before their eyes; some glimmer of light falls even in the darkest dungeon, but here every darknesses of the world and underworld combined. Schuh feels along a wall shelf; various objects lie around—something that feels like a violin but is strung with only one string. His fingertips have become eyes; they find test tubes, plants in a corner, then his hand dips into water where something moves.

That’s the aquarium with the goldfish, he’s told. A small object slips between his fingers—a short tube with a mouthpiece, perhaps an ark pipe. Schuh puts it to his mouth and blows hard; an ear-piercing, shrill howl erupts.

“That’s the siren,” says the poetess.

“Did you see it?” asks the teacher’s wife.

“Yes, do you see something?” Schuh asks, baffled.

“Not clearly enough yet,” assures the poetess, “we still have too much external light in our eyes. But it’s like a blue flame emerging from the siren… from the moving air.”

Schuh shakes his head, though no one can see him; he must at least shake it for himself.

“My fingers are starting to glow,” says the poetess.

“Mine too,” joins the teacher’s wife.

Then the Hofrätin finally speaks. She says: “You had a birthday yesterday. You took a glass of wine in hand, and it broke on its own. It’s a bad omen.”

Who is the woman suddenly speaking about? Who took a wine glass in hand?

“No, no, don’t say such things,” the teacher’s wife exclaims. “You shouldn’t always dwell on such thoughts; you’re young and in the midst of life.” And only now does Schuh realize the Hofrätin seems to have the odd habit of speaking of herself in the third person.

Schuh has a sudden idea. He’s had enough; he sees no reason to sit in the dark with these three eccentric women for hours. He feels along the wall until his fingers find the doorframe. He gropes the entire door in vain; they are locked in the darkroom—the door has no handle on the inside.


After four hours, which stretch into four days for Schuh, Reichenbach returns. He arrives just in time to save Schuh from a fit of rage. Schuh had been considering wringing the necks of the three geese, but now, with Reichenbach’s arrival, he regains his cheerful composure.

“How are you?” asks Reichenbach.

“Honestly, terribly hungry… I don’t know if that’s an odic phenomenon too?”

Reichenbach offers no reply to this jest; he rummages in the dark and says mildly, like a disciple of Buddha: “I’d like to preface this for you, dear friend, that it’s the nobler, inner organs and the nervous system of humans that generate Od, whose manifold effects include the emission of light. But all other living beings, yes, even the lifeless things—metals, stones, wood, water—become luminous under certain conditions.” He continues rummaging and asks, “Can you see me, ladies?”

“Yes, very well,” replies the police commissioner’s wife.

“What do you see?”

“Head and chest are surrounded by a halo.”

“I also see arms and legs,” adds the teacher’s wife, “though less distinctly.”

“What color?”

“Yellowish, as always, perhaps more yellow than usual.”

“You must know, Schuh,” says Reichenbach, “that the Od light of men differs from that of women. Women glow more pea-green.”

Schuh grins in the dark; he can do so without offending Reichenbach—it’s dark enough for that. The women have it easy, making claims that can’t be verified. The agreement between them and the Freiherr is secured by many prior experiments.

“Do you also see Herr Schuh? Can you tell me what he’s doing?”

“I believe,” chirps the poetess, “I believe Herr Schuh is laughing. His Od glow trembles.”

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Chapter 12: Whispers of Division

Wayne and Char were still working on their base camp elsewhere and making good progress, their efforts filtering back through clan chatter. They invited Tobal to stop by if he was ever in the neighborhood and gave him directions, their warmth a welcome contrast. At least they were not mad at him. Tara was still looking for someone to partner up with for the winter and wasn’t doing so well with the construction of her own base camp out in the wilds, her frustration evident in her tales of uneven logs. It was pretty obvious she was looking for a man, her glances lingering on passing clansmen whenever she visited.

Tobal saw some of his other friends gathered by the kitchen and waved. “Hey, good to see you!” he called out. Only a couple waved back, while a few looked the other direction and moved away, their silence a cold shoulder. He shrugged it off, the sting lingering as he wandered toward the circle area.

Ellen approached him later, her expression stern. “Tobal, there’s a lot of talk about the newbie shortage. People are upset—Zee, Kevin, and others waited at Sanctuary after the storm, worried about you, while you trained the only one available. There could be hard feelings unless more newbies start coming.” He nodded, the weight of their resentment settling in.

Seeking clarity, Tobal requested a private word with Ellen later that day. They stepped aside near a quiet grove, the rustle of leaves overhead. “Ellen, can’t we reduce the newbie requirement from six to four? It’d ease the strain on everyone.” She shook her head, her voice firm. “The Federation would never allow it. Most trainees who complete the Sanctuary Program are recruited by them, especially those with a strong link to the Lord and Lady. Six is needed to anchor mastery deeply at the soul level, forging a soul-deep bond.” She paused, then added, “Will you join the small meditation group tomorrow morning? We’re focusing on a special realm.” He agreed, curiosity piqued despite the tension.

The initiation ceremony began that evening under a rare blue moon, a second full moon gracing the month—a phenomenon occurring once a year. Tobal stood in the circle, waiting for the ritual to unfold, the air thick with anticipation over Fiona’s quick prep. As the hoodwink was placed, she tensed, her hand twitching toward her knife, a reflex from her past. Rafe, newly minted as a Journeyman, stepped forward, his calm voice steadying her. “Easy now, you’re safe here.” The drums beat a deep rhythm, and Tobal felt the power grow, sensing the Lord and Lady’s presence with his inner eye. Their energy carried an angry tinge, unlike his own initiation, a discord that unsettled him. Fiona stood proudly through the jostling dancers, her tunic cut high, revealing glimpses in the firelight, and Tobal watched from the circle, his responsibility a quiet focus.

After the ceremony, as the clan mingled under the blue moon’s glow, Becca approached Tobal near the fire, her red hair catching the light. She stood silently, head bowed, tears in her eyes. “I’m sorry,” she said. “Please forgive me. I didn’t mean to hurt you.” His nerves snapped. “Get away from me! Get away from me!” he screamed. She stumbled away, crying into the night. Tobal retreated to the shadows, fighting tears, a flashback of her claws raking his face flooding his mind, bitterness choking him.

Later, Rafe found him in the shadows, asking, “What was that? Do you know her? Have you met before?” Tobal touched his scars, choking, “She did this to me.” Rafe gasped, “Oh, God!” and left, the humiliation burning as Tobal stayed there, the party’s noise a distant hum. The night wore on with raucous laughter and drumming, the clan celebrating Fiona’s initiation.

Toward evening, Fiona found Tobal in the shadows, her eyes puffed from crying over the night’s events. She held him, and he returned the embrace, her warmth easing his pain. “Thank you, Tobal,” she whispered. “This is sanctuary, the safest place I’ve known, and you’re my closest friend.” She kissed him deeply, a fierce embrace. She then invited him to travel with her to Sanctuary for some more newbies, but he demurred, needing to stay for the meditation group meeting.

The next morning, Tobal joined the small meditation group, the air thick with incense and a charged silence. Ellen led, her voice resonant. “The Lord and Lady guide us through Yggdrasil, the great tree of realms. Midgard is our earthly home, where we toil, and Vanaheim is a realm of harmony and growth, a place of spiritual freedom. Today, we’ll reach for Vanaheim.” They closed their eyes, and Tobal’s spirit surged upward, the air crackling with intensity. In Vanaheim’s golden light, the Lord and Lady appeared, their forms radiant, stirring memories deep within him—of a warm hearth, a lullaby’s echo, a father’s steady hand, a mother’s gentle touch. Instinctively, he felt a bond, a connection he couldn’t name, their presence a silent strength that enveloped him in a wave of warmth and longing. The air pulsed with their energy, a subtle yet deeply moving force, yet he knew his body remained a prisoner in the cell of flesh, a deep knowledge that stirred his soul.

A few days later at Sanctuary, Tobal met Nick, who fumbled with a heavy pack. “Need a hand?” Tobal offered. Nick grunted, “I’ll figure it out,” his stubbornness clear, setting their challenging dynamic. August brought eight newbies, a summer first, and Tobal lucked into Nick as the eighth.

They went to Tobal’s main camp, spending the first week completing winter shelters and crafting stone axes, the reversed methods from Rafe’s teachings tripping them up. Nick, strong but clumsy, excelled at chipping flint, though hunting eluded him until repetition clicked. It was a hard month, Tobal’s patience tested, but Nick was ready to solo by the time of the gathering, his progress a steady climb.

Tobal spent the evening mingling, chatting with Wayne about his jealousy and offering to mediate, then with Char about her training hopes. He spoke with Tara about Nick’s solo prep, noting her interest, and learned from Rafe about two Apprentices quitting for New Seattle. Rafe mentioned Dirk’s recovery, easing Tobal’s guilt, while Misty’s challenge loomed, the clan’s mood warming under the moonlit gathering.

The second circle convened that night, the chevron ceremony under the full moon. Tobal earned his first chevron, the stitch a badge of pride, while Fiona and Becca were recognized for their solos. As they headed for robes, Fiona caught up. “My solo was great—I found a spot east of your lake, past the stream. Started my camp—stop by!” She marked his map, ten miles in rough terrain. “Show me the way?” he asked. She smiled, “Anytime, but I’m training a newbie before winter.” They hugged, and she once more asked if he wanted to travel with them to Sanctuary, but he said he needed to stay for the meditation group meeting.

After the second circle Rafe caught up to him, his black Journeyman outfit crisp. They exchanged stories, and Tobal said, “My camp was torched—three people did it. Then Fiona and I found a village, an old camp with a mass grave. Air sleds buzzed us, no waves. It felt… haunted.” Rafe nodded, “I’ll ask around—seen others mention non-medic air sleds lately. Might be something.” He then shared clan news: fewer at circle, romantic splits, a new gathering spot rumor. Ox had complained about the knife threat, leading to first-come, first-served at Sanctuary, but Fiona’s under-28-day training raised eyebrows—her case was the exception, a concern among some. Rafe added, “Fiona can handle herself, though!”

The next morning, Tobal attended the second meditation group, the air heavy with anticipation. Ellen guided them again, her voice steady. “We return to Vanaheim, seeking its harmony to strengthen our spirits.” They closed their eyes, and a powerful surge lifted Tobal’s spirit, the air thrumming with energy. In Vanaheim’s golden expanse, the Lord and Lady appeared, their presence vast and luminous. Tobal felt a pull, his spirit soaring alongside the group in an astral projection—ethereal forms gliding over fields of light, the realm’s peace contrasting their earthly bonds. The Lord and Lady’s silent gaze seemed to guide them, a shared strength flowing through the group. Returning, Tobal’s body trembled, the experience vivid. Afterward, Ellen asked, “What did you feel?” Tobal murmured, “A freedom like we’re more than our physical bodies,” sparking a discussion on how Vanaheim’s energy could aid their training, their voices blending awe and resolve.

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Homo Sapiens: Overboard by Stanislaw Przybyszewski and translated by Joe E Bandel

VII.

“No, no, my child, let it be said that all scholars are fools.” 

Iltis sat among a group of young people, preaching his worldly wisdom. 

Strange that he hadn’t yet brought up his forty-five years. 

Falk couldn’t forget his cynical remark from yesterday. He’d been watching all evening for a chance to put Iltis in his place a bit. 

“All of them! I don’t know a single sensible one. Look, this is typical of those professors. I was once with a geology lecturer who wanted to take measurements. But the compass needle wouldn’t settle. 

‘Aha!’ says the clever lecturer, ‘I have a magnet in my pocket.’ ‘Fine, throw it away,’ I said. The magnet flew far away. But the needle was still restless. ‘You probably have a pocketknife on you?’ Yes, indeed, the clever man had a pocketknife. The pocketknife flew far away. But the needle was bewitched. ‘You’re probably standing on an iron ore layer,’ I ventured timidly. ‘Can’t you throw the layer away?’ No, the clever man couldn’t do that. 

That’s how measurements are made, and of course, God knows what theories are built on the results.” 

“But are you sure the iron ore was the cause?” Falk asked. 

Iltis looked at him in surprise. “Of course!” 

“Well, you know, causes are a tricky business. You can hardly ever name a cause without it being wrong. Can you, to touch on your favorite topic, give causes for the inferiority of women?” 

“You just need to open a physiology textbook.” 

“Breathing? Those proofs are simply ridiculous. Children of both sexes breathe with their stomachs until the age of ten, and so do all women who don’t wear corsets, like Chinese women and Yuma women. The costal breathing type is artificially induced, as you can see with the women of the Chickasaw Indians…” 

“Those are claims by scholars, dear Falk, that say exactly the opposite.” 

“Oh no, those claims are made by unbiased people, but the second proof, that women are on a lower developmental stage because they resemble children in form and proportions, is completely invalid. On the contrary, it speaks to women’s higher standing. The childlike type particularly shows the essential traits of the human species, whereas the male type, morphologically speaking, signifies a growth into senility.” 

“That’s metaphysics, dear Erik. You’re far too much of a metaphysician.” 

“Possibly. But the fact is, you only reached your conclusions through a confusion of morphological concepts of higher and lower development.” 

Iltis looked at him blankly. “I don’t understand.” 

“That’s not necessary.” Falk searched for Isa with his eyes. Why talk at all? If he came here, it wasn’t to discuss morphology. He wanted to dance… 

“And let’s make peace, shall we?” Falk toasted Iltis amiably. 

Someone began playing a waltz. 

Falk approached Isa. She stood in the back of the large studio. She smiled at him. No! That smile couldn’t be analyzed, that absorbing smile, as if the half-darkness she stood in had smiled mysteriously. 

“Do you dance, Fräulein?” 

A streak of light flashed across her face. “Shall we dance?” Falk asked, trembling. 

His blood surged to his head with a sudden jolt as he pressed her slender body to his. 

He was caught in a whirl that pulled him down. He felt them merging, her becoming a part of him, and he spun around himself, with himself, into an endless intoxication. 

He didn’t see her, for she was within him. And he drew into himself the rhythm and line and flow of her movements, feeling it all as a surging and ebbing in his soul, softer and stronger… 

And then, suddenly: yes, a feeling of something infinitely smooth, cooling, a soft mirror surface. He felt her. She pressed her cheek to his. 

A jubilation rose in him, and he held her tightly. She was his! 

He forgot everything around him. The faces of those around blurred into a flesh-red streak, circling him like a ring of sun. He felt only himself and the woman who was his. 

He didn’t hear the music; the music was in him, the whole world resounded and rejoiced in him and shrieked with hot desire, and he carried her through all the world, and he was grand and proud because he could carry her so. 

Who was Isa, who was Mikita? 

Only he, he alone was there, and she a piece of him that he held in his hands. 

Exhausted, they collapsed onto a sofa. 

It was loud around them. Excited, incoherent voices reached his ears, which he didn’t understand, and still he saw the flesh-red ring of sun circling him. 

He recovered. The red mist faded; he saw long, narrow wisps of cigar smoke. 

She lay half on the sofa, breathing heavily, her eyes closed. He gently took her hand. They sat alone; no one could observe them. 

She returned his grip. 

And they held each other’s hands tighter and tighter. 

She was so close to him—closer—closer still; their heads almost touched. 

She didn’t resist; he felt her surrender, felt her lay herself in his heart, in the warm blood-bed of his heart. 

She suddenly pulled away. 

“Mr. Falk, allow me to introduce the first German patron of the arts—” Schermer grinned maliciously—“the patron of German race, pure and true… Mr. Buchenzweig.” 

Mr. Buchenzweig bowed deeply. 

“Mr. Schermer introduces me with a bit too much aplomb into your esteemed company, but I may say I have a great interest in art.” 

Mr. Buchenzweig sat down and paused. 

He looked odd. Beardless, his face somewhat bloated, with browless eyes. 

“Look, Mr. Falk, your book interested and delighted me to the highest degree.” 

“That pleases me.” 

“Do you know why?” 

“Mr. Buchenzweig is immensely interested in art—” Schermer tried to hide his drunkenness. 

“Is that so…” 

Mr. Buchenzweig spoke melancholically, puffing out his lower lip. “Do you know why? After many disappointments, I’ve come to seek solace in art…” The Infant approached. 

“Well, Mr. Falk, have you discovered another new genius?” 

“Well, you don’t seem to have discovered yourself yet, or have you already been discovered?” 

Isa grew restless. She listened distractedly. How did this come over her so suddenly? How could she let herself surrender to Falk like that… It was ridiculous to allow a stranger, whom she’d only met yesterday, to get so close. She felt shame and unease because she felt that this man was closer to her than she wanted to admit. 

“You know, Mr. Buchenzweig,” Schermer mocked, “are you really the man interested in art—yes, you’re always talking about German art and other nonsense—so do something for German art! Yes, do something, lend a poor German artist, like me for example, two hundred marks. Yes, do that…” 

Mr. Buchenzweig puffed out his lower lip and stuck his index fingers in his pockets. He seemed to have ignored everything and glanced at Isa. 

How unpleasant that man was to her. But why doesn’t Mikita come; it’s already late. 

“Do you even have two hundred marks?” Schermer laughed with open scorn. “How many marks does your million-mark fortune amount to…” 

That the man wasn’t offended. Isa suddenly found the company repulsive. 

Why doesn’t he come? What does he want from her again? 

She felt tired. This constant jealousy… But he had only her, no one else. Of course, he won’t come. Now he’s sitting in his studio, tormenting himself, raging, pacing… 

She perked up. Falk spoke with such an irritated tone. 

“Leave me alone with this endless literary gossip! We have better things to do than argue over who holds first rank in German literature, Hauptmann or Sudermann.” 

“Now, now,” the Infant was very indignant. “There’s a colossal difference between the two…” 

“But it doesn’t occur to me to doubt that. I’m an admirer of Hauptmann myself. I particularly value his lyrical work. Have you read the prologue he wrote for the opening of the German Theater? No? It’s the most precious pearl of our contemporary poetry. Listen: 

*And as we, the old ones, succeeded in this house, 

We will hold the flag high 

Above the market clamor of the street…* 

“The best part you forgot,” Schermer mocked. “What’s it called? That bit with the ninety-nine onion pieces and the shimmer of the wonder-flame and that thing… oh, whatever—it’s a pearl, isn’t it…” 

The Infant threw Schermer a contemptuous glance and spoke with meaningful emphasis: 

“I don’t know, Mr. Falk, if that’s your earnestness or mockery, but consider what it takes to write *The Weavers*…” 

Schermer interrupted him sharply. 

“That doesn’t impress anymore. We’re used to revolts and killings—from the *Lokal-Anzeiger*.” 

The Infant found it unpleasant to be in the company of a drunken man, whereupon he heard a slew of unflattering remarks. The group dispersed. Only Isa and Falk remained seated. 

He suddenly felt her so foreign, so far away. He was very irritated. Of course, she’s sitting on pins and needles, waiting for Mikita. He felt a sharp pain. 

“No, Mr. Falk, Mikita won’t come tonight,” she said suddenly. 

“Stay a bit longer. He could come any moment.” 

“No, no! He’s not coming. I have to go home now. I’m so tired. The company bores me. I don’t want to stay here any longer.” 

“May I escort you?” “As you wish…” 

Falk bit his lip. He saw her restless agitation. “Perhaps you don’t wish me to escort you?” 

“No, no… yes, but—I have to go home now…”

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OD by Karl Hans Strobl and translated by Joe E Bandel

Chapter 13

All this would certainly have moved and drawn Reichenbach in more deeply if he hadn’t been entirely absorbed by his momentous discovery. What were shootings, revolution, and constitution—here it wasn’t about things of yesterday, today, or tomorrow, but about decisive questions of humanity, beside which even Semmelweis’s new knowledge shrank to a trifle.

Reichenbach went hunting for people of the kind he called sensitive.

He hosted gatherings, solely to approach his subjects, drumming up his entire extensive circle of acquaintances, cornering individuals, and bombarding them with the most surprising questions. He had them place their fingertips on the room wall, gave them water to drink from two different glasses, led them before a mirror, pulled crystals from his pocket—tourmalines, feldspar, rock crystals, directed the pointed end toward one of their hands, and asked how they perceived it—coolly pleasant or lukewarmly repulsive. His system had since been expanded and significantly refined; he brought in all of physics and chemistry to relate them to the newly discovered natural force and to test the unknown against the known.

When he first found someone whose responses confirmed the experiments with Frau Hofrätin Reißnagel, he fell into an indescribable rapture. It was the wife of Police Commissioner Kowats, who stated that the pointed end of a rock crystal felt cool, while the blunt end felt lukewarm on her left hand. Yes, a clear cool breeze blew from the crystal’s tip over her hand. Reichenbach pressed his questions further into the police commissioner’s wife, and her statements aligned entirely with his preliminary assumptions.

The Freiherr breathed a sigh of relief; a weight was lifted from him—by God, the Hofrätin was not an isolated case; it was proven that other people felt the same or at least similar sensations. Now no one could reproach him for lacking the necessary scientific caution. If something still wasn’t quite right, it wasn’t due to the matter itself but to his still imperfect understanding.

Still, the police commissioner’s wife was a tall, lanky blonde with languishing eyes, and it was said she secretly wrote poetry, which always carried a slight suspicion of clouded intellect. Perhaps a malicious person could have argued that neither the Hofrätin nor the would-be poetess were entirely reliable as test subjects. It was necessary to continue searching, to expand the circle of sensitives.

And it was as if a spell had been broken; fortune favored Reichenbach. The wife of schoolteacher Pfeinreich on Reichenbach’s estate Gutenbrunn joined on a rainy day, which Reichenbach spent at the teacher’s house. Then came the wife of the smelter official Ebermann, then Anna Müller, the wife of the innkeeper on Reichenbach’s property Krapfenwaldl near Kobenzl, and then one after another.

The gift of sensitivity was tied to no class, no education level, no social stratum; it was found in all layers, from the Hofrätin to the kitchen maid. It was a universal human trait, more pronounced in some, vaguer in others, and in some seemingly overlaid by a layer of insensitivity.

So far, however, it had been exclusively women through whom Reichenbach saw his theory confirmed; he wanted to take a step further—it must be proven that this gift was not gender-specific but also present in men.

Reichenbach conducted his first experiments with Ruf. But there was nothing to be done with Ruf. Ruf was hardly ever sober; he grinned, eager to please the Freiherr, but gave the most incorrect answers imaginable, which couldn’t have been less suited to the system. He might have been useful for managing the estate, but he was utterly useless for science. Moreover, it seemed to Reichenbach that things in the estate management were no longer running smoothly, but the Freiherr had no time to deal with it now—greater matters were at stake. At any rate, Reichenbach snapped at his steward: “It’s getting to be too much, the way you carry on, Ruf. Don’t think that you may get drunk every day just because you came from Prince Salm to me. That must come to an end.”

Ruf placed his hand on his heart and protested: “But in service, Herr Baron, in service… no one can…”

“Enough,” Reichenbach waved him off, “sleep off your drunkenness now. And the womanizing must stop too, understood!” For a moment, he thought of Friederike’s pale, sad face and her sorrow, but he had no time to deal with these minor matters—though he wanted to issue a warning to Ruf anyway.

Ruf proved useless, but soon after, as if in compensation, Reichenbach encountered a clerk from the imperial and royal war accounting office, then a factory owner from Transylvania, then the Swiss ambassador, and a carpenter working in the house, and even some professors, thus growing the convincing power of his discovery to full scientific completion. Yes, men also passed his tests, though there were certain differences between their odic behavior and that of women. The circle was closed.

Initially, people had watched the Freiherr’s oddity with an almost pitying smile, but when news of what it was about spread, many came of their own accord to be tested.

“Have you been to Baron Reichenbach yet? You must go there! It’s certainly peculiar; one can’t explain everything. There’s surely something to it.”

Reichenbach’s new natural force was on the verge of becoming popular; people wanted to have been part of it, to be able to speak about it. There was certainly some force, a dynamis! What did he call it? Od? That was easy to remember: Od! The odic flame! One was charged with odic flame, positive and negative; once made aware, one could feel the Od themselves. One only needed to stretch out a hand and felt it crawling and tingling in the fingertips.

There was eager coming and going in the house on Bäckergasse all winter, and all summer on Kobenzl, and then again the following winter in Bäckergasse. Only in the October days was there a brief interruption when the streets of Vienna fought for young freedom and the city was besieged.

Reichenbach was still on Kobenzl then. He heard the cannons and gunfire, but it didn’t disturb him further; now, with no visitors able to come, he finally had the leisure to organize the wealth of material he had amassed and begin his book on the sensitive human.

He would have loved to discuss everything with Schuh. He knew Schuh would have resisted to the utmost, but that very resistance would have spurred Reichenbach more than he could say to convince this skeptic. It would have been a success that would have satisfied Reichenbach.

Schuh remained stubborn and didn’t come. But Doctor Eisenstein came and fawned around the Freiherr and Hermine, gladly spreading himself in the field Schuh had vacated. Oh, he could also play a little piano—not as virtuosically as Herr Schuh, of course, since one had a profession—but it sufficed for household use, perhaps. It would have been an honor for him to play music with Hermine or accompany her singing. Hermine regretted not having time now; she had to set music aside for a while, not wanting to be distracted while working on her treatise on the thylli.

She was still working on her treatise on the thylli; it was a difficult task with no end in sight. The father didn’t push her or stop her from singing; he was consumed by his Od, allowing Hermine to work undisturbed and with care for once.

She persisted, and it seemed endless. When Ottane looked at her sister and thought of the thylli, it always reminded her of Penelope, her loom, and the suitors. Perhaps Hermine feared that Doctor Eisenstein, now acting so at home in the house, was very much to the father’s liking, and the thylli were something like Penelope’s garment.

Eisenstein was truly at home in Bäckergasse and on Kobenzl, making himself indispensable as best he could. He was always there, obliging, obsessive, like chives on every soup. He always brought something—a new piece of music, a bag of candies, or at least some news. Had they heard that Herr Schuh, who was no longer seen, had held several performances of his so-called light paintings at the Josefstädter Theater? A new gimmick, various images projected onto a screen, entertainment for the audience, but it hadn’t quite met Schuh’s expectations—the audience stayed away; he played to empty houses. And had they heard how people spoke of Hofrat Reißnagel’s official duties? He was in the administration of state properties, and his office was called the state domain squandering bureau—yes, forests were indeed being sold at giveaway prices to favored individuals, and it was said that if this continued, Herr Moritz Hirschel would soon have the entire Vienna Woods logged. And had they heard that Therese Dommeyer and the painter Max Heiland, who were known to be very close, had now completely fallen out, and it was said the reason was a beautiful Spaniard, the wife of Colonel Arroquia, who had let Heiland paint her in a, well, rather mythological style?

With such stories, Eisenstein thought to make himself agreeable, but Hermine and Ottane listened with impassive faces and hinted that the affairs of Schuh, the squandering of state properties, and Max Heiland’s adventures were of no concern to them. They guarded against showing when an arrow struck their hearts; Eisenstein was not the man to let suspicions arise in, least of all Eisenstein.

As for the Freiherr, odically speaking, Eisenstein was neither lukewarmly repulsive nor coolly pleasant to him.

He also fawned around the Freiherr, danced about, praised, and admired in the highest tones, found everything astonishing, agreed with everything—but Reichenbach didn’t know what to do with him. He couldn’t use such yes-men. He had completely forgotten that it was Eisenstein who had set him on the path to his discovery; Reichenbach was fully convinced that everything was due to his own mind and observational skill. When the Freiherr conducted his experiments with the Hofrätin, who remained the most sensitive of his sensitives, he simply brushed Eisenstein aside. Perhaps precisely because something whispered to him that Eisenstein did have some merit in the matter. Reichenbach didn’t want to hear about it—why did Eisenstein impose himself so much, what did Eisenstein really have to do with it?

What Reichenbach needed were people like Schuh. But just the people he needed didn’t come. Schuh didn’t come, and neither did someone else who was also needed.


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Homo Sapiens by Stanislaw Przybyszewski and translated by Joe E Bandel

But then difficulties arose in the further comparison. Children are pure and innocent; women are malicious, deceitful, coquettish, the pure handmaidens of the devil. 

So the comparison only held formally.” Falk grew more animated. 

“But one day—it was early in the morning again, and in such cases, I usually had to escort Iltis home. 

Suddenly, Iltis stops at a bridge and loses himself completely in the sight of swans emerging in a great flock from under the bridge. 

Iltis gets into a fantastic frenzy. ‘Erik, do you see?’ 

‘Yes, I see.’ 

‘What do you see?’ ‘Swans.’ 

‘Isn’t that so?’ 

‘Yes…’ 

Iltis turns nervously. 

At that moment, the roll-seller of Jericho comes by…” Falk laughed nervously. 

“Wonderful, this roll-seller of Jericho! You don’t know the splendid Lilienkron?” 

“No.” Isa looked at Falk in surprise. 

“Well, Lilienkron wrote a poem: the Crucifixion—no: ‘Rabbi Jeshua.’ In the procession… 

‘But what about Iltis?’ 

‘Yes, right, right… So, in the procession moving toward Golgotha, there are the lawyers, the lieutenants, the pickpockets, naturally also the psychologists and the representatives of the experimental novel, and finally the roll-seller of Jericho. 

‘But there weren’t any roll-sellers back then,’ one of his friends remarked. 

Lilienkron got very agitated. The roll-seller was the best part of the poem! He wrote the whole poem just for the roll-seller!” 

She laughed. Yes, she laughed like a comrade. There was something of comradely sincerity in her laugh. He wanted to always see her like this; then they could be friends, nothing more. 

“When the roll-seller of Jericho passes by, Iltis grabs a handful of rolls from her basket and throws them onto the water. 

Now he’s happy. ‘Do you see?’ 

‘Yes, I see.’ 

‘What do you see?’ ‘Swans.’ 

‘Ridiculous. I see that too. But the other thing, what I grasp with my intuition, you don’t see: swans and children are on the same level. Children don’t eat crusts, and neither do swans.’ 

Isa laughed somewhat forcedly. 

Falk grew very nervous. That was ridiculous! How could he think he could entertain her with these childish stories? It was too absurd. 

“Was he serious?” Now he burst out. 

“No, not a jot of truth in the whole story. I invented it very badly, but when I started telling it, I thought something better would come out… Yes, it’s infinitely stupid and ridiculous… You mustn’t hold it against me if I say it outright, but I told the story only so you’d enjoy my company… I have this urge to keep you from being bored with me, I want to be very entertaining, and that’s why I tell it so clumsily and come up with idiotic stories.” 

Isa became very embarrassed. 

“You don’t hold it against me, do you?” “No.” 

It grew dark; an awkward pause followed. In Falk’s mind, things began to blur. A thousand feelings and thoughts crossed and paralyzed each other. 

“Was Mikita with you today?” He asked just to ask, but was surprised why he asked. 

“Yes, he was here.” 

“He was so strange today, what was wrong with him?” 

“He’s probably a bit nervous. The exhibition is giving him a lot of headaches.” 

“He still seems the same old Mikita. We loved each other immensely, but sometimes it got a bit heavy. In one hour, he could have a hundred different moods.” 

Isa searched for a new topic. Falk noticed it in a nervous hand gesture. 

“And I’ll be your escort at the wedding?” “Yes, of course.” She looked at him firmly. 

Why so firmly? A vague smile played around his mouth. 

Isa felt very uncomfortable. What did that smile mean? 

“Yes, in three weeks, you’ll have the honor of being my wedding escort.” 

“I’m delighted.” Falk smiled politely. Another pause followed. 

She stood up. 

“I have to show you something that will interest you.” Falk looked closely at the Japanese vase. 

“Absolutely wonderful! Remarkable artists, the Japanese! They see things like in a snapshot photograph. Don’t they? They must perceive things that don’t enter our consciousness. In a thousandth of a second, you understand?” 

“What do you mean?” 

“Well, I mean they’re able to capture an impression that’s too brief for our consciousness, or, as the professional psychologists so elegantly put it: the physiological time is too short for such an impression to enter consciousness…” 

He held the vase in his hands and looked at Isa firmly. 

“Sometimes I manage it too, though rarely. But today, for example, when I saw you in the corridor. A look of joy passed over your face and vanished in an instant.” 

“Oh? You saw that?” she asked mockingly. 

“Yes; it was like a momentary flash of magnesium light, but I saw it. Didn’t you? You were happy when I came, and I was so infinitely happy when I saw that.” 

It sounded so honest, so heartfelt, what he said. She felt herself blush. 

“Now we should probably go,” she said. 

“No, let’s wait a bit; it’s still too early… And you know, I may be a bit too open, but I have to tell you that I feel so infinitely comfortable here. I’ve never, no—nowhere have I felt anything like this.” 

Twilight could bring people strangely close. 

“Everything is so strange. It’s strange that Mikita is my friend, that you’re his fiancée; strange is the feeling, as if I’ve known you for a thousand years…” 

Isa stood up and lit the lamp. 

Light creates distance. Yes, she wanted to create distance. “It’s a pity that Mikita can only come later.” 

“Yes, that’s a great pity.” He was irritated. Now he had to think of Mikita again. Ridiculous that Mikita should have an exclusive monopoly on a person. Well, there was nothing to be done about it. 

He looked at his watch. 

“Now it’s time. Now we have to go.”

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OD by Karl Hans Strobl and translated by Joe E Bandel

But now she turns around, and it’s quite strange to see the change that comes over her. It’s as if a picture comes to life, as if the rigidity of a statue melts into hesitantly probing life. The woman looks around; there’s a room she doesn’t know—a simple room with a round table before a rep-covered sofa, a lithograph of the good Emperor Ferdinand on the wall, and a bed and a nightstand behind a half-drawn floral, printed cotton curtain. And there stands young Reinhold at the door, looking bewildered, with one arm in a sling and the sleeve of his coat hanging loosely over it.

“For God’s sake,” the woman groans, “what has happened to me?”

But then she suddenly understands what has happened; that, that horrible thing has happened again—the darkness has overtaken her again. The woman realizes she is delivered up to it and that it will keep returning, and she sinks onto the rep sofa with a small, quiet sob, covering her face with her hands.

Reinhold stands there, not knowing what to do. There sits the Hofrätin, evidently utterly miserable on the sofa, sobbing—and truly, tears well up between her fingers—good heavens, she’s crying, and Reinhold is completely clueless as to why. What should one do, what should one do at all? And Reinhold sinks to his knees before the sofa, touching the weeping woman’s hip with a tender, caressing hand, stammering only: “But gracious lady… but gracious lady…!” and a gentle warmth enters his lovesick, yearning heart. A kind of happiness comes over him at being able to offer comfort.

On that spring-like yet stormy March 13, something astonishing also occurred in the house of Freiherr von Reichenbach for him. Of his children, only Hermine had appeared at the midday table.

Chaos reigned in the city, and Hermine was beside herself with worry about her siblings. The Freiherr was also agitated, but his anger outweighed paternal fear—at least he showed none of it and only raged about the recklessness of these wayward children. The afternoon passed, and evening came, and as they were about to sit down for dinner, Ottane suddenly appeared. Hermine, who had been wrestling with the most dreadful imaginings and found it cruel to sit down to eat as if nothing had happened, jumped up and threw herself around Ottane’s neck with a joyful cry.

Reichenbach merely looked up from his plate and asked: “Where have you been, Ottane?”

Ottane was very pale and frightened. Where had she been? Oh, she had been at a friend’s house, making a visit, and then suddenly the uprising broke out; there was shooting, the streets full of people—it had been impossible to get through. She had tried several times, but by God, it was impossible. She had to wait. Now the citizens’ guard had marched out, and strong patrols roamed the streets, and it was said the students would be armed to restore order. And it was even said Metternich had resigned or would resign…

“Why don’t you let Severin or one of the others accompany you?” asked Reichenbach, ignoring the political events. “You know I can’t stand it when you wander the city alone. Which friend were you with?”

“At Frau von Riva’s,” said Ottane without batting an eye. She had prepared what she had to say; she had gone through her friends one by one and finally settled on Frau Josephine von Rivo, the young widow of an imperial official, a solitary woman without family ties, so no one could easily inquire further. But there was no other way; at least Frau von Rivo had to be brought in, and Max had also seen that the secret now had a confidante, leaving Ottane paralyzed by the thought of having to profane it.

To Hermine’s surprise, Reichenbach made no reproaches to Ottane; he only asked further: “And where is Reinhold?”

Where Reinhold was, Ottane couldn’t say; she knew nothing of him and guarded herself from admitting she had spotted him among the students.

“I can’t always be running after you,” said Reichenbach, standing up, “but it seems it’s necessary for someone to come into the house and take the reins in hand.”

Ottane’s heart cried out. No, she already knew what her father meant—no, not that, that mustn’t happen. She spoke about it with Hermine; they agreed on this, though Hermine assented shyly and reservedly—how could they rebel against the father’s will? The sisters lay in bed and talked about it, then grew anxious again about Reinhold. He had been among the students—where had he ended up?

They lay awake, listening to see if they could hear him come. Reinhold didn’t come; he didn’t come. Finally, it was perhaps ten o’clock, they heard the house bell, and then Severin spoke with someone downstairs in the hall. Someone climbed the stairs quickly. Ottane opened a crack in the door; the steps passed by, faded in the direction of Reichenbach’s study.

“It’s Hofrat Reißnagel,” said Ottane, disappointed, and closed the door.

Yes, the nighttime visitor was Hofrat Reißnagel, and he stood panting from the quick walk before Reichenbach, asking: “Is my wife here? Severin says she isn’t, but perhaps…?” He meant perhaps Paulme was there to conduct experiments with Reichenbach, and Severin might not know.

No, Frau Hofrätin was not there!

“She’s been out of the house since morning, and with this tumult… You know my wife sometimes has such states… but she’s never been gone this long.”

“It seems the whole world has gone mad,” said Reichenbach angrily, striking the notebook before him with his strong hand. “Ottane has only just returned. Ruf was summoned for a settlement; I waited for him all day in vain; finally, in the evening, he staggers in, drunk as a lord, spouting nonsense about freedom of the press and a constitution. One can’t get a sensible word out of him. And Reinhold isn’t home at all.”

“Yes… but… my wife… my wife!” The Hofrat shook his head; perhaps the Freiherr was right—the world had gone mad, even imperial Vienna had been outraged; it was heard that Metternich had left; as a Hofrat, one had to press along the walls of the street—it was certainly unpleasant to be recognized as a Hofrat now, all bonds were loosened.

That was the collapse, and Paulme was gone, and there was nothing to do but hide.

Reinhold didn’t come all night; he arrived only the next morning at nine, when the gates to the suburbs were reopened. He was exhausted but composed, with his right arm in a sling and the sleeve hanging empty over it.

“So the wandering lord is back?” said Reichenbach mockingly, ignoring the bandage and empty sleeve. “The freedom fighter honors the paternal home with his return? Does the politician not plan to head the Austrian government?”

Reinhold could have mentioned the Hofrätin, and in moments of discouragement, he had considered it. But now he grew entirely defiant and stubborn, offering no form of apology.

It wouldn’t have helped him anyway. The father didn’t mince words with him; he locked him in his room, and while his comrades donned the armbands of the academic legion, while the national guard was formed and finally the proclamation of the constitution was celebrated, Reinhold sat in his room with water and bread. But Ottane provided meat, dumplings, and wine; she lowered a well-filled basket from the floor above Reinhold’s prison, and when Reinhold’s healthy arm grabbed the basket and pulled it through the window, she could smile a little for the first time in days.

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Homo Sapiens by Stanislaw Przybyszewski and translated by Joe E Bandel

V.

He must not see her again. That was clear to him now. No! Never again. 

Fear, painful fear rose within him. 

What would happen? How could he stifle this compelling desire? In one hour, that woman had sunk deep roots into him. Her tendrils ensnared his soul. Tighter and tighter, the mesh of this root-network constricted. He clearly felt himself splitting into two people: one cool and clear, trying to control his will, while the other suddenly flung thoughts into his mind that destroyed the conscious self, burrowing deeper with a longing and desire that tossed him restlessly to and fro, unable to find peace. 

What had happened? 

Oh, you psychologists! Explain to me with all your psychophysical laws what has gone on in my soul? Please, explain it! 

He sat up abruptly. What was wrong with Mikita? 

Did he sense it, feel it coming? But nothing had happened… Why was he so taciturn today? 

He must love her immensely. Suffering twitched around his mouth. 

Yes, Mikita feels across distances; yes, Mikita sees the grass grow… The tone with which he asked him to escort Isa to Iltis’s today. He had so much to do, and Isa was so eager to go. 

Why didn’t he take her himself? 

Yes, he might come later… But couldn’t he postpone his business until tomorrow? 

Falk stood up. 

No! He won’t escort her. He must not see her again. Now he might still be able to forget her. She could still become a glorious experience, yes, an experience he could use literarily. Literarily! Falk laughed scornfully. 

He’ll stay home and be literarily active. Ha, ha… He felt disgust. 

This stupid, idiotic writing! Why isn’t he aristocratic enough not to prostitute his most personal, finest, most shameful feelings? Why does he throw it all before the masses? Those gentlemen who wander the heights of humanity, along with the “Ferschten.” Yes, the “Ferschten,” like those in *Fliegende Blätter*, half poodle, half ape, with rolled-up trousers… Disgusting! 

No! Now he’ll decide. Yes! It’s settled. He’ll stay home. 

The firm resolution felt good. He sat at his desk and began to read. 

He read a page and understood nothing. 

Then he looked up. He couldn’t help thinking of a servant in a Gogol novel who took pleasure in purely mechanical reading without understanding a single word. 

He pulled himself together and read on. What was it about her movements? 

It was no longer movement; it was language, the most perfect expression of his own highest artistic ideal—and her hand, her hand… 

He started. 

How could he forget that! 

He had to write to Mikita that he was prevented from escorting Isa. 

He sat down and wrote a pneumatic post card. 

How nice it would be to send someone with the card! Now he had to run to the post himself! 

He stepped onto the street. It urged him to go to her, to see her just once more, to brush against her presence—to breathe her just once more. 

But he mustn’t. Surely he could still control himself?! 

Yes, control! Control, just like one of his friends whose greatest desire was to see Rome. And he went to Rome, but a mile before Rome, he told himself that a man must be able to control himself, and turned back. When he returned home, he went mad. 

Yes, it all comes from the ridiculous idea that you can control yourself, and especially that which is strongest in you, because it’s been there from eternity. 

And he thought of Heine’s words—what was it? If I could control myself, it would be nice; if I couldn’t, it would be even nicer. Something like that. 

But the cynical undertone embarrassed him. He felt as if he had sullied Isa. 

Why? In what way should Isa be connected to this undertone? 

And he walked, brooding over the secret associations that take place somewhere in the hidden depths and then suddenly enter the mind without any apparent connection. 

Yes, seemingly unconnected. The treacherous unknown knows exactly what it links together. 

It amused him to puzzle over this strange riddle. Of course, he was only doing it to keep other thoughts from surfacing—how beautiful was the narrowness of consciousness… But the thought of Mikita broke through. 

He didn’t want to think of him. 

It was as if he had a heart cramp each time. His blood pooled in his heart for moments. It hurt unspeakably. 

Why should Mikita have rights over a person, exclusive rights, some kind of monopoly? 

He suddenly felt ashamed, but clearly felt a hot surge of—yes, truly, it was a distinct feeling of hate—no—displeasure… 

For Mikita’s sake, he mustn’t go! For Mikita’s sake?! He laughed scornfully. Erik Falk thinks himself irresistible! With some pre-established harmony, he must make every man a cuckold, every fiancée of another must fall for him with compelling force. 

That was endlessly ridiculous! 

If he could just say to himself: Don’t go, you’ll only fall in love where you can’t hope for reciprocation, since she… 

He faltered. 

He had such a ridiculously certain feeling that she was closer to him than to Mikita, he felt so clearly—yes, Mikita seemed to feel it too, that Isa… 

No, no! 

But one thing he could do with a clear conscience: be near her physically, just across the street—in the restaurant, there he’d sit and mechanically get drunk to make himself incapable of going to Isa. 

Yes, that’s what he must do, what he will do. 

He stopped in front of the house where Isa lived. 

Now it was too late! Now he couldn’t notify Mikita in time. 

What was he to do? 

Good Lord, in the end, he’d have to go up. 

His heart pounded fiercely as he climbed the stairs. He rang the bell. 

Now he was badly startled. It felt as if the ringing would throw the whole house into uproar. 

Flee! Flee! it screamed within him. 

The door opened. Isa stood in the corridor. 

He saw a hot joy light up in her eyes, spreading over her entire face. 

She squeezed his hand warmly, very warmly. Was she trying to say something with that? 

“You know that Mikita can only come later?” “Yes, he was at my place today.” 

“Then you must escort me there. It’s not unpleasant for you, is it?” 

“For you, I’d do anything!” It came out so brashly. 

They both grew embarrassed. Yes, he had to stay vigilant not to lose himself again. 

How did it happen so suddenly, without him being able to stop it?

They sat down, looked into each other’s eyes, and smiled. He sensed that she, too, was restless. 

He forced himself to be cheerful. “So, how did you enjoy yesterday?” “It was a very interesting evening.” 

“Iltis is a peculiar man, isn’t he?” She smiled. 

“No, no; I mean it in all seriousness. I take the man absolutely seriously…” 

Isa looked at him doubtfully.  “Yes, Iltis is downright a dilettantish genius. He knows everything, has investigated everything, read everything. His mind works absolutely logically, but it reaches such odd conclusions that always ruin his entire work. Recently, for instance, he tormented himself with the problem of where to place children on the developmental scale. That naturally caused a lot of headaches. First: a comparison with women. All children are larvae of women, or rather, women are developmentally stunted children. Children and women have round shapes and delicate bones. Children and women can’t think logically and are unable to master their emotions with their minds

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OD by Karl Hans Strobl and translated by Joe E Bandel

Chapter 12

What’s happening in the city isn’t really clear.

One is fed with rumors. Terrible massacres are said to have taken place. It’s heard that fighting broke out at Am Hof. It’s heard that the people are being held under siege by soldiers at Michaelerplatz and that two cannons stand at the great gate to Franzensplatz, with gunners holding burning fuses beside them. But it’s also heard that the chief fireworker there refused to shoot when Archduke Maximilian d’Este gave the order. It’s even heard that the citizens’ militia has marched out and joined forces with the people.

One hears all this and a hundred other things, and the excitement among the masses locked out of the city grows ever greater. They want to do something; they don’t want to remain idle, whether the people inside are being slaughtered or Metternich is getting his comeuppance.

Above all, it’s the workers from the Gloggnitzer Railway machine factory, it’s the masses of the unemployed who say something must be done.

“The machines are to blame for everything,” the unemployed shout, “the machines take our bread.”

Primeval forces awaken, howling for destruction. Factory gates crash open; they go for the machines—wheels, boilers, pumps, ovens burst under axe blows; drive belts are cut to pieces. “We want soles for our shoes!”

“It’s the consumption tax,” the unemployed cry, “the consumption tax makes our bread more expensive.”

Toward evening, a vast crowd rolls toward the consumption tax office on Mariahilferlinie. They have beams, stones, and clubs. What can the handful of tax guards do against this roaring human wave? The gate splinters under the beam strikes, the windows shatter under stone throws, the clubs smash the office equipment to bits. They overturn cabinets and desks; paper flutters out—paper, paper, consumption tax slips, files, files. The tax guards have long fled, except for one who didn’t escape in time and is now hiding in the cellar.

On the street, a fire blazes, well-fed by files and debris from the furnishings. It grows dark, but the fire shoots higher and higher, and then a second splendid torch joins it—the burning roof truss of the tax office.

Some bakeries and butcher shops have been looted, providing bread and meat for a victory feast. A nearby wine cellar fills the tin mugs, washbasins, and tubs of the tax officials with hearty drinking.

It’s quite cozy; they’re among themselves.

No, they’re not entirely among themselves. A worker woman, who has taken on the role of cook for a group and is searching for wood for the fire, discovers a woman in the shadow of one of the tax office gate’s pillars, standing completely still as if she doesn’t want to be noticed. She’s a woman in a light, layered lace dress with a green silk mantilla and a bonnet adorned with green foliage. A lady, then—and does a lady belong here? The worker woman finds this immediately suspicious; what’s a lady in a green silk mantilla and bonnet doing now at Mariahilferlinie, where the working people are asserting themselves in the name of freedom? She grabs the stranger’s arm with a rough grip, drags her into the fire’s light circle, plants herself in front of her, and plants her hands on her hips: “What’s this fine lady looking for here with us? Does she think this is a theater?”

The woman in the green silk mantilla gives no answer. She has a strange look—motionless eye axes, reflections of the flames in her pupils—but one can’t tell if she sees anything of what’s happening around her. At any rate, she gives no response, and this disregard drives the woman into a rage. She shakes the lady by the shoulder, jostles her back and forth, shouts in her face: “Has the fine lady lost her tongue? Is our kind too low for her to answer? What brings this noble lady here then?”

The men by the fire take notice. A ragamuffin with a multiply stitched coat looks up, sticks his hands in his pockets, hitches up his trousers, and approaches swaying like a wrestler. “Well, well, who do we have here?” He ducks under the brim of the bonnet; a pale face meets him in silence, strange eyes float spacelessly—yes, it’s a fine lady, no doubt! Just the brooch on the front of the mantilla alone is worth a pretty penny, and the cross on the gold chain too. She’s one of those who have no idea what need is, one of the well-fed who are quite content if everything stays the same. It’s really incomprehensible what she wants here, where the working people are about to break the chains of their servitude.

But she gives the man standing before her no answer either. What’s one to make of that? The women surround the stranger; they berate her—yes, that’s how one of them could never dress; they must run around in rags so such ladies can wear lace and silk; they and their children must go hungry so the ladies can stuff themselves. These ladies bathe in milk—yes, it’s been heard before, they bathe in milk to keep their skin fine and white; naturally, then the children have no milk; one can’t buy milk when this lady needs it all for bathing.

“It’s a police spy!” someone shrieks; an old man with a broad-brimmed hat and a coat too long, so he wears the sleeves turned up.

“Most obedient servant, Frau von Metternich!” the man shrieks in a high, old-womanish voice. He tips his hat, dirty yellow hair falls out, and he makes a mocking bow.

It’s nonsense, sheer nonsense, but dangerous nonsense. It sears through their minds, clenching their hands into claws.

Somewhere comes a deafening whoop, a shrill outcry from a single voice against the roar of hundreds; the men around the unknown woman crane their necks. What’s happening? Oh, something hugely amusing is afoot—a great hunt! The people rummaging through the burning tax office have made a catch. They’ve discovered a trembling man in the cellar—the unfortunate tax guard—dragging him out, driving him with prods, beating him over the head with sticks.

“Into the fire with him!” “Throw him into the fire!”

The tax guard writhes, ducks under the blows, screams from his wide-open mouth, “Mercy, mercy!”

“So, mercy! Did you have mercy, you dog? Aren’t you to blame for our hunger?”

For the moment, everything else is forgotten—the bubbling cauldron over the fire, the strange lady—all press forward to see the tax guard roasted.

A hand grabs the woman’s arm; a voice whispers breathlessly: “Come! Come quickly!”

Meanwhile, four men have thrown the tax official to the ground, seize his arms and legs, swing him rhythmically back and forth, and hurl his body into the flames of the collapsing building. Ah yes, that’s justice, that’s finally an equalizing for all—hunger, need, servitude, and the shot ones inside the city—oh, that feels good. Let it happen to all, all oppressors of the people!

When they remember the strange woman again—the Frau von Metternich, haha, the police spy—she’s no longer there. She’s gone, walking beside Reinhold through dark, quiet side alleys.

“Gracious lady!” he says, “what possessed you? What madness to mix with the excited crowd?”

But Frau Hofrätin Reißnagel gives him no answer, just as she gave none to the woman or the big man with the stitched coat. She walks beside Reinhold, quite obediently, but if he dared to look under her hat, he would encounter the same motionless, almost fixed stare in her eyes as the woman or Ferdl Latschacher.

“They’re out of control,” Reinhold continues, “and there are bad characters among them.”

It doesn’t truly occur to Reinhold to receive special thanks and be praised as a knight and savior. But still, he believes he deserves a word of recognition—aren’t they witnesses to the horrific fate the mob prepared for the poor tax official? She should shudderingly realize the danger she herself escaped.

Sometimes small groups of hecklers come toward them, seeming intent on stopping them.

“Long live freedom!” Reinhold calls to them, showing his bandage. The people reply: “Long live freedom!” and let the like-minded pass.

It could be a beautiful and proud feeling to be the guide of this woman, adored from afar, through the uproar and people’s fury—if it weren’t all so strange and inexplicable. Reinhold doesn’t understand at all how the Hofrätin ended up among the crowd, and no matter how much he presses her with questions, he can’t get her to utter even a word of explanation. She should say something, for God’s sake—an excuse, if she doesn’t want to share her secret with him.

“We can’t return to the city,” he begins again, “the gates are locked. We must spend the night out here.” He hesitates and stammers: “Gracious lady, we must spend the night in an inn.”

The Hofrätin offers no reply to this either, and this time Reinhold can interpret her silence as consent. He stands before the inn “Zum blauen Hund,” where he’s often had gatherings with his comrades. It lies silent, dark, and unwelcoming, having shut itself against the street’s tumult. Prolonged knocking finally forces light and a gruff inquiry about their business. Then, after the innkeeper recognizes the friendly voice and assures himself of proper intent and urgent need, the fortress creaks open. They climb the stairs.

“One room? Two rooms?” asks the innkeeper, already somewhat back in the mindset of his trade.

Reinhold wards off, startled: “Two!” It’s a sweet shock after so many gruesome and crushing events of the day and night.

“This is the room for the lady!” says the innkeeper and opens a door.

Reinhold is accommodated on the same hallway, three doors down. He waits a while, but then feels he must check on Frau Reißnagel once more—he couldn’t even say good night.

Is it permissible to enter after knocking five times without a response? Reinhold dares it; he cautiously pushes himself into the room. In the middle stands the Hofrätin, still as she was when Reinhold left her—the mantilla around her shoulders, the hat on her head.

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Homo Sapiens by Stanislaw Przybyszewski and translated by Joe E Bandel

IV.

When Falk stepped onto the street, he became very restless. 

He began to walk quickly. Perhaps it would pass with physical exhaustion. 

But it was as if something whipped him forward ever faster, until he almost started running. 

It only got worse. 

He clearly felt a wave of unease coiling deeper and deeper into his body; he felt something spinning faster and faster within him, pressing into every pore, every nerve with growing fury. 

What was it? 

He stopped abruptly. 

Was it coming back? Danger?! He stood still. 

It must be some primal animal instinct in him, the ancient warning voice of a foreign soul. 

He felt a violent jolt. 

Flee, yes—flee, it screamed within him. And suddenly, he saw himself as a fourteen-year-old boy, high up on the fourth floor. Two windows facing the courtyard. Below, the endless hammering of the coopers’ apprentices. 

He had to memorize a large assignment, or a harsh punishment awaited him. 

And he sat and studied, studied until hot tears rolled down his cheeks like peas. 

But his mind was dull. No sooner had he memorized one verse than he forgot another. 

And outside, yes, outside beyond the fortress walls, his friends were playing, and Jahns was there, of course, Jahns, whom he loved so much. 

And the day drew to a close. He threw himself to his knees, gripped by a nameless fear, pleading to the Holy Spirit for the grace of enlightenment. 

But nothing, nothing could he retain. 

He grew dizzy with fear. He had to. He had to. And he beat his fists against his head; he repeated each word a hundred times; but it was no use. 

He knew no way out. Then, suddenly, all at once: now he knew. He had to flee, far, far away to his mother… 

He ran out into the night, ran, panted, fell. Every sound crept paralyzing through his limbs, every flash ignited a sea of light in his eyes, then he picked himself up and ran again, relentlessly, until he collapsed breathless in the forest. 

And now he heard it again, that strong, commanding voice: Flee! Flee! 

He reflected and smiled.  

The beast had awakened. As if a conscious person had no other defense than cowardly flight? Why should he suddenly flee? 

Then a longing rose in him, spreading like a cloud of steam over his mind, stifling all his brooding. He felt her hand on his lips. He felt her physical warmth seeping into his blood, the tone of her voice trickling along his nerves… 

He shot upright. “No!” he shouted aloud. 

That wonderful Mikita! How he must love her… He saw Mikita, trembling, watchful, constantly observing them both. 

Was he not certain of her love? Then, suddenly: 

Her?! Could she even love Mikita? No, ridiculous! I mean, just whether such a refined being… no, no… just whether this woman could find Mikita’s movements pleasing… Hmm, Mikita was a bit comical today with his hurried speech and fidgety… 

No! No! Falk felt ashamed. 

Of course, one must love Mikita. Yes, beyond question… she loved him, she had to love him. 

Perhaps only his art? 

Really? Or did it just seem that way? But didn’t he clearly see a hint of displeasure glide across her face when Mikita spoke of his love’s happiness? And didn’t she try to make up for it when she stroked his hand so unprompted? 

With a jolt, he grew angry. Hadn’t he just caught himself feeling that Mikita’s love was unpleasant to him? Didn’t he clearly wish his doubts were true? No, that was despicable, that was ugly… 

Ugly? From whom was it ugly? Ha, ha, ha; as if he could do anything about the foolish animal instincts awakening in him. 

He stepped into a tree-lined avenue. He was astonished. He had never seen such magnificent trees. He studied them closely. He saw the mighty branches like gnarled spokes encircling the trunk, strangely branched, woven into nets… And he saw the network of branches outlined against the sky, a vast web of veins spanning the heavens, the sacred womb of light and seed-blessing. 

How beautiful it was! And the March breeze so mild… He had to forget her. Yes, he had to. 

And again, drowning out all his thinking and brooding, came that ancient cry: Flee! Flee! … 

No, he didn’t need to flee. From what? 

But the unease rose higher and higher within him. He braced himself against the growing torment that made his heart falter. 

Who was this woman? What was she to him? 

He had never felt anything like this before? No! Never! He examined himself, searched, but no! Never… 

Was it love? He felt fear. 

How was it that in one hour a woman had entered into a relationship with him, invaded his mind like a foreign body, around which his thoughts, his entire feeling now gathered, into which his blood poured… 

No! He shouldn’t, he mustn’t think of her anymore. 

Thou shalt not covet thy neighbor’s wife! No! He certainly didn’t want that. She was Mikita’s entire happiness. God, how that man glowed when he spoke of his love… 

It was wonderful that Mikita should find this great happiness! How it would enhance his artistic potency, to create for and through this woman. 

But again, he felt her slender, hot hand on his lips. She didn’t resist him. He saw her veiled smile and the swelling glow and radiance around her eyes… And with infinite delight, he felt a trembling warmth within him; his eyes burned. It became so hot, so oppressive. 

He longed for someone to be near, someone to whom he could be very, very tender. 

Janina! 

Like a bolt, the thought shot through his mind. 

She was so good to him. She loved him so much. It was, God knows, wonderful to be loved like that. 

He cared for her too, more than he was willing to admit to himself. 

He saw her clearly. Yes, years ago, when *Brand* still haunted his mind. He had kissed her, and she became so happy. He walked away but watched her secretly. He saw her searching fervently, eagerly. Then he saw her take a neighbor’s little girl into her arms and press her tightly. 

Her love suddenly seemed so beautiful, so mysteriously beautiful to him. She gave him everything, thought of nothing, had no reservations, she was wholly, wholly his… 

Strange that he was so near her now. What had brought him here? 

Yes, just one more street… 

The night watchman opened the gate for him. He flew up the stairs and knocked softly on her door. 

“Erik, you?!” 

She trembled violently and stammered with joy. 

“Quietly… yes, it’s me… I was longing for you…” He groped his way into her room. 

She clung passionately to his neck. How dear her passion was to him now. 

“Yes, I was longing for you.” 

And he kissed her and caressed her and spoke to her until she was dizzy with happiness. 

“This happiness, this happiness…” she stammered incessantly.

He pressed her closer and closer to him, listening inward, and cried out to his conscience: Mikita! Mikita! 

Yes, now forget—forget everything for Mikita’s sake… “Yes, Janina, I’m with you; I’ll stay with you…”

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OD by Karl Hans Strobl and translated by Joe E Bandel

“Look here,” calls a woman with a small child in her arms, “this one’s wounded too!”

Reinhold looks down at himself in surprise; his right hand is covered in blood, blood drips from his fingertips onto the pavement; now he feels a dull pain in his armpit, a sticky warmth along the entire sleeve.

So, so! he thinks, now I’m wounded. I’m wounded, and now I’ll have to admit I was there. He slows his step; he’s suddenly very tired and wants to sit, but he keeps going. I should see a doctor, he tells himself, but to whom can I turn? To whom could I confide without the father finding out?

And then he suddenly stops before the wide gate of a long building; people go in and out; the caretaker stands amid a group of excited people, and Reinhold overhears him negotiating with them about stretchers and doctors. Yes, I’m at the right door, thinks Reinhold; here at the General Hospital, I can find Doctor Semmelweis—he’s an obstetrician, but surely he can also dress a wound. He stuffs his handkerchief into his sleeve to avoid leaving blood traces; no one pays attention to him, no one stops him. The way is familiar; often enough, his father sent him with messages to Semmelweis, and Reinhold has found in the doctor a deeply soulful, admirable humanity, a man passionately devoted to his task. The wish to open up to this man has come close, and only the “Pöbel, do you want to make common cause? Do you want to let bad people incite you?”

“Get rid of the military!”

A club swings; the blow knocks the old man’s feathered hat down, strikes his temple; beneath the white hair, dark blood wells up, dripping onto the white uniform coat.

Reinhold throws himself back into the crowd, works his way through, reaches the mouth of a side alley. He just sees a battalion of pioneers marching in from Freyung into Herrengasse, rank upon rank, filling the entire street width with leveled bayonets. It stamps the crowd into the street’s narrowness, crushing bodies to pulp; pain and rage howl. Reinhold stands as stones and wooden debris rise, and then a salvo roars.

Reinhold runs; behind him, a scattering crowd; behind the crowd, pioneers with leveled bayonets. Now and then, one of the soldiers stops and fires.

Reinhold runs; a blow hits his shoulder. He turns while running, but no one is close enough to have struck him. A few screaming women, groups of men, then the soldiers behind.

Reinhold runs, makes a sharp turn, reaches Schottentor. There’s no intent behind it; he has no definite plan; he just wants to escape the cauldron there and the father’s fixed stare. Through Schottentor, from the suburbs, more crowds of workers still approach. Fleeing people come toward them: “They’re shooting at us!” — “We’re being murdered!” — “Blood has been shed!”

“Look here,” calls a woman with a small child in her arms, “this one’s wounded too!”

Reinhold looks down at himself in surprise; his right hand is covered in blood, blood drips from his fingertips onto the pavement; now he feels a dull pain in his armpit, a sticky warmth along the entire sleeve.

So, so! he thinks, now I’m wounded. I’m wounded, and now I’ll have to admit I was there. He slows his step; he’s suddenly very tired and wants to sit, but he keeps going. I should see a doctor, he tells himself, but to whom can I turn? To whom could I confide without the father finding out?

And then he suddenly stops before the wide gate of a long building; people go in and out; the caretaker stands amid a group of excited people, and Reinhold overhears him negotiating with them about stretchers and doctors. Yes, I’m at the right door, thinks Reinhold; here at the General Hospital, I can find Doctor Semmelweis—he’s an obstetrician, but surely he can also dress a wound. He stuffs his handkerchief into his sleeve to avoid leaving blood traces; no one pays attention to him, no one stops him. The way is familiar; often enough, his father sent him with messages to Semmelweis, and Reinhold has found in the doctor a deeply soulful, admirable humanity, a man passionately devoted to his task. The wish to open up to this man has come close, and only the The fear of revealing his timid self has so far made it impossible for him.

Now he heads straight down the familiar path to the maternity ward, turns from the shared anteroom of the two departments into the first, along the long corridor where many doors open. From one of them comes a groaning and moaning, and two nurses stand there with outstretched necks and intently listening expressions. But they seem to be listening not to the moaning from the sickroom but to a noise at the end of the corridor.

Reinhold hides his bloody hand behind his back. “Can I speak to Assistant Semmelweis?”

One of the nurses points to the end of the corridor where the noise comes from. “He’s in his room, but—”

The noise indeed comes from Semmelweis’s room; it’s Semmelweis’s voice roaring: “You despicable, vile person, have you no conscience at all?”

A murmur responds, and Semmelweis interjects: “Don’t talk so stupidly. You know the linen must be changed; I’ve said it a hundred thousand times. Now the woman has a fever and won’t pull through. It’s outrageous.”

One of the two nurses approaches Reinhold cautiously as he hesitates at the door: “Go in, I beg you; otherwise, he might kill her.”

Reinhold knocks; he knocks again, but how can he be heard over this thunderstorm? So he opens the door and steps in. But if the nurse outside hoped that the presence of a stranger would end the distress of her colleague, she was mistaken.

Semmelweis doesn’t even see Reinhold; he stands before the nurse, tall and broad, with a contorted face, his fleshy hands balled into fists and raised as if to strike the woman: “What you’ve done is a crime, a murder—worse than any other murder, for you kill people not out of passion, love, or hatred, or greed, but out of sloppiness, laziness, and consciencelessness. You hear from me: cleanliness, cleanliness, cleanliness! And you give the poor woman dirty bed linen, with blood and filth and all sorts of things, so she must get infected with the mess.”

The nurse is a stout woman with a broad face where prominent cheekbones, swollen lips, and small, glittering pig-like eyes combine into an uninviting overall impression. One can imagine she handles her patients roughly and doesn’t fuss over them. She darts a sidelong glance at Reinhold and, drawing courage from the presence of a witness, tries to assert herself.

“Don’t you dare do anything to me, Herr Doctor,” says the nurse boldly, “everyone agrees that with your tricks, you annoy people. The other doctors say that too.”

Semmelweis turns pale; his fists sink. Yes, there grins at him again the unveiled envy and malice of his colleagues, the incomprehension and obstinacy of the staff against him; they form a closed battle line, undermining his reputation with jokes; the doctors’ smiles turn his orders into a mockery among the nurses. Yes, in this they are united, all united, that one must defend against these exaggerations. He rolls, like Sisyphus, an enormous boulder called the inertia of thought; he battles a superior enemy called convenience. And from inertia and convenience, young mothers die.

Semmelweis lets his hands drop. He says: “You can go. If you won’t follow my orders, you can go. You are dismissed. Immediately.”

Frau Rosine Knall laughs scornfully. Her insolence puffs up: “I’ll go! I’m glad to get out of this madhouse. If this keeps up, everyone will go crazy, and you first of all.” She turns away—oh no, this man shouldn’t think he’s subdued her; she must leave, fine, but she knows everyone is on her side, a satisfaction that turns her exit into a victory.

Semmelweis doesn’t look like he’s won a victory; on the contrary, as if he’s suffered a defeat. Only now does he notice Reinhold—the blood-soaked handkerchief around his wrist, the blood-crusted fingers. “What do you want here?” he asks irritably.

“There’s an uprising in the city. The soldiers shot at us.”

“So!” Semmelweis knows nothing of the uprising. It’s possible someone mentioned it, but Semmelweis has forgotten—what do revolutions and shootings matter to him? He had to perform an operation; his task is to prevent death. And he says gruffly, something seemingly unrelated: “Do you think because of your shootings, women will stop giving birth when their time comes?”

Then he adds: “You’re wounded?”

“Yes!”

“And I’m supposed to bandage you? Come here!”

It’s only a graze, leaving a flesh wound. After a quarter of an hour, Reinhold is washed and bandaged and can go. He had actually wanted to ask Semmelweis to keep quiet to his father; whatever troubles him, he’ll try to arrange it so it stays hidden at home. That’s what Reinhold wanted to say, but he couldn’t bring himself to do it. How could he confess to this man—yes, I was there, but I don’t want my father to know? He feels small and pitiful.

As he’s about to leave through the gateway, some stretchers are brought in. On one, Reinhold sees the bloodied face of a very young student; on another, that of an ancient little man, shriveled and wrinkled, nestled in a gray beard.

Someone says: “That’s the old Esterházy Prince, who brings Easter to the houses. He had nothing to do with it.”

Something in Reinhold cries out. There are the victims—God knows how many still lie on the street. And I ran away; my courage didn’t suffice; I’m like a coward who ran away. I am bent, crumpled; I can’t straighten up. What did that man at the country house say? ‘Whoever lacks courage on this day belongs in the nursery!’ I belong in the nursery; I’ve been cheated of everything that drives and inspires the others; I’ve never been young.

And a foaming, raging hatred rises in him against those clear, cold eyes that have made his youth geriatric.

At Schottentor stands a raging crowd of men. They demand entry, but the gate has just been closed. No influx from the suburbs is allowed; those outside are to stay outside. Good, thinks Reinhold, I can’t go home; let the father find out I was there. One must go straight ahead, straight like Semmelweis, without looking left or right.

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