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The Rebirth of Melchior Dronte by Paul Busson and translated by Joe E Bandel

I went back again. Dark yellow light fell out from the
chamber; a coffin stood on black-covered trestles, on which
was a cross of silver, and a high funeral crown, with flitters,
colored glass and mirrors. The wax ran and dripped, the
candles flickered. The flowers smelled of earth. Muhme knelt
by the coffin.
“O my Aglajele! My Aglajele!” she cried. That her little
face is never to be known! – Is it raining already?” she asked,
turning her puffy eyes toward me.
“I don’t know.”
And then I cried out and cried so wildly that Muhme put
her arms around my shoulders and spoke to me.
“You must not, boy, you must not – the people are
coming!”
One could hear feet trampling. People were coming,
murmuring. The finch in the hallway jumped from rung to rung
in its cage and kept shouting:
“Look – look – look – the travel gear!”
I stood up.
The priest came. He had the sniffles and often pulled out
his handkerchief. He had baptized Aglaja and blessed her.
Carriages drove up: the Sassens came, the Zochte, the
Merentheim, the cuirassiers from the city, Doctor Zeidlow, the
old Countess Trettin, the Hohentrapps.
A bell rang in the village, tolled; bing – bong – bing –
bong. Schoolchildren.
Muhme waved to the teacher. I heard how she said,
sobbing:
“He makes me sing the same song as he did with my
blessed little Hans, even though she was already blessed. But
she is in white innocence, as it were like a newborn child – God,
oh God!”
Ursula Sassen and Gisbrechte Hohentrapp embraced her
and led her. Then the servants picked up the coffin and carried
it out into the rain.
It was not far to the cemetery. Crows were sitting in the
weeping willows. Crooked old crosses leaned on both sides of
the gravel-strewn path. The iron gate of the hereditary burial
ground stood open with rust-red insides. Above it was a marble
skull with two crossed bones. In its open yawning mouth birds
had built a nest. It stood empty and abandoned. On top of the
head grew moss like woolly hair. I saw everything.
They put the coffin on the ground, and the school sang
again. As Muhme had wanted it, a song that is usually only
sung for very young children. My cousin Hans was two years
old when he died.
When little heirs to heaven
Die in their innocence,
So you don’t forfeit them.
They are only there
Lifted up by the Father,
So that they may not be lost.
Then the priest blew his nose and spoke. The old man
cried. The eighty-year-old Countess Trettin raised her lace
shawl upwards.
“Dust to dust -,” said the priest.
They carried the coffin down. The footsteps sounded
hollow, there was a terrible echo. Voices came from the depths.
Something fell with a thud down there in the darkness.
The rain rushed harder and harder. The carriages drove in
puddles of water. The men tied red handkerchiefs over their
hats, and the women put their skirts over their heads when they
were outside.
My father looked sternly on all sides. The sexton brought
him the key to the crypt.
“There – now have a drink!” said my father, and the
sexton, wet and chattering with his teeth, bowed low. He made
a face and ran his hand to his shoulder. He suffered from acute
Rheumatism.
“Aglaja is freezing -” said a disconsolate voice inside me.
“Aglaja-“
The big house was empty when I got home, the corridors
silent. There was a whispering in the corners, and the clocks
ticked. The stairs creaked in the night, and the wind cried in the
chimney. It was a very strange house. So big and so empty.
On the dark corridor of the second floor was a Dutch
clock with a polished face, on which the moon, sun and stars
moved. Above it, the ornate hands went their way. The
pendulum swung back and forth with a muffled, wham – wham.
After every quarter of an hour, the striking work let its three-
note sound be heard as if from far away:
Gling-glang-glong. At the end of each hour chimes
announced their number. Then a door above the dial opened,
and a small brown rooster slid out of it, moving its wooden
wings with a groaning sound. His voice was lost. Always an
invisible force took him back and closed the door again. At
noon, however, an angel with a blue, gold-edged robe appeared
instead of the cock and in three stiff jerks lifted a green palm
branch.
At twelve o’clock at night, however, a dead little girl
would appear in place of the angel. So we were told when
Aglaja was still alive.

I was standing in this corridor one night. It smelled of
apples and the strange wood of the wide linen cupboards on the
wall. Deer heads carved from wood hung there. They held
white turnips in their mouths and wore antlers that father and
grandfather had captured. Certainly a hundred such deer heads
were distributed throughout the entire house. One of the deer
had been kept tame, held in a fenced area and then released.
Later it had killed a fodder servant and the maids said that the
blood of the servant still stuck to the antlers. The paint had
peeled off the eyeballs of the wooden head, and so he looked
down on me with a ghastly white and blind glare.
Old Margaret, shuffling through the corridors with her
cane and enjoying the bread of mercy, had told me that at the
midnight hour of the day the dead walked in the house where
they had liked to be during their lifetime. I held in my hand a
candelabrum with one of the wax candles that had burned at
Aglaja’s coffin a year ago, and waited for her to come.
The cupboards cracked, there was a throbbing in the wall,
and then it was like a sigh. The wind went over the roof, so that
the shingles rattled. When the hour strike was about to begin,
the door above the clock face opened, and sure enough out
came out a little dead man with hourglass and scythe, turned
his skeleton once to the right and once to the left and raised the
tiny scythe to strike.
“Wham – wham -,” went the pendulum in the pauses of
the hoarse chime of the bell.
“Aglaja” I called softly and peered down the corridor.
Then silently the door of the closet opened, I was
standing nearby, and in the uncertain light of the candle I
thought I saw an ancient woman with a wrinkled brown face
and a large white hood. I staggered to the wall, but when I
forced myself with all my courage to look once more I could
not see anything but the closed door.
Then there was a cough and shuffling footsteps.
Something gray and stooped. The candlestick rattled in my
hand. But it was only old Margaret who was worried about me
and came to see if I was really up there. I held on to her sleeve
like a child and told her what I had encountered. She giggled
and nodded.
“It was the old woman- The great-grandmother of Aglaja
Starke, the daughter of the mayor, who had twisted the family
tree – on the Krämer side. You have seen rightly, my Melchior,
quite rightly. It’s just that she came instead of the young one.
She grabbed me by the jacket. I tore myself loose and stumbled
down the stairs.
In the afternoon Heiner Fessl was executed. He had
overheard the magistrate harass his wife, and since he noticed
that his wife had given in to the powerful man, he had run from
the workshop into the room and had shoved a red-hot iron that
was lying in the fire, through the body of the magistrate, so that
the strong man had to perish and die miserably. He had cruelly
beaten him and likewise the woman. She was dying, people
said. – Powerful helpers, who would have taken care of him-
were not there, and so they broke the staff for him.
At dawn, the man of fear had gone out into the field and
had announced it to the ravens, that the flesh of the sinner
would be available before sunset. So the executioner’s pigeons
were sitting on all the roofs and waiting.
Father told me to put on the silk, lavender-grey coat and
go with him.
“You’re a wimp and a whiner, but you’re no Dronte,” he
said. “I’m going to take you to the spa, boy!”
I felt sick with fear when I heard from a distance the
muffled beat of the drum and the roar of the crowd. All the
alleys were full. They had all travelled to see Fessl on the
executioner’s cart, and now he was to return. To my comfort,
we had to stop quite a distance from the scaffolding, because
the crowd did not move and did not take into consideration the
rank of my father.
“There you see how bold the scoundrels are when there
are many of them together,” said my father loudly and angrily.
He was appeased, however, when the baker, who had his store
there, hurriedly brought us two chairs, so that we could rest for
the time being.
“What you see will be very wholesome for you,” my
father said after a while. “Justice does not work with rose water
and sugar cookies. If it did, we noble folk could pound gravel
on the roads and give our belongings to the rabble.”
In the trees that stood in front of us and lined the square,
many people were sitting. Just in front of us squatted an
abominable fellow, dressed in the manner of Hessian cattle
dealers, in the crown of a linden tree. The sight of him was so
repulsive to me, that I had to look again and again.

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Alraune by Hanns Heinz Ewers and translated by Joe E Bandel

Chapter Sixteen
Proclaims how Alraune came to an end.

HE slowly went up to his room, washed his wound,
bandaged it and laughed at the girl’s shooting ability.
“She will learn soon enough,” he thought. “We just
need a little target practice.”
Then he remembered her look as she ran away. She was all
broken up, full of wild despair, as if she had committed a crime. And
it had only been an unlucky coincidence–which fortunately had turned
out all right–He hesitated–A coincidence? Ah, that was it. She didn’t
take it as a coincidence–took it as–fate.
He considered–
That was certainly it. That was why she was frightened–that was
why she ran away–When she looked into his eyes she saw her own
image there. That’s what she was afraid of–death, who scattered his
flowers where ever her feet trod–
The little attorney had warned him, “Now it is your turn.” Hadn’t
Alraune herself told him the same thing when she asked him to leave?
Wasn’t the old magick working on him just like it had on all the
others? His uncle had left him worthless paper–Now they were
digging gold out of the rocks! Alraune brought riches–and she
brought death.
Suddenly he was frightened–now for the first time. He bared his
wound once again–Oh yes, there it was. His heart beat right under the
tear. It had only been the little movement of his body as he turned, as
he pointed to the squirrel with his arm that had saved him. Otherwise–
otherwise–
No, he didn’t want to die, especially right now because of his
mother, he thought. Yes, because of her–but even if she wasn’t there,
he wanted to live for himself as well. It had taken many long years to
learn how to live, but now he had mastered that great art, which now
gave him more than many thousands of others. He lived fully and
strongly, stood on the summit and really enjoyed the world and all of
its delights.
“Fate loves me,” he thought. “It’s pointing with its finger–much
more clearly than the words of the attorney. There is still time.”
He pulled out his suitcase, tore the lid open and began to pack–
How had Uncle Jakob ended his leather bound volume?
“Try your luck! It’s too bad that I won’t be there when your turn
comes. I would have dearly loved to see it.”
He shook his head.
“No, Uncle Jakob,” he murmured. “You will get no satisfaction
out of me this time, not this time.”
He threw his boots together, grabbed a pair of stockings, and laid
out a shirt and suit that he wanted to wear. His glance fell on the deep
blue kimono that hung over the back of a chair. He picked it up,
contemplated the scorched hole that the bullet had made.
“I should leave it here,” he said. “A momento for Alraune. She
can put it with the other momentos.”
A deep sigh sounded behind him. He turned around–She stood in
the middle of the room, in a thin silk negligee, looking at him with
large open eyes.
“You are packing?” she whispered. “You are leaving–I thought
so.”
A lump rose in his throat but he choked it back down and pulled
himself together.
“Yes, Alraune, I’m going on a journey,” he said.
She threw herself down onto a chair, didn’t answer, just looked
at him quietly. He went to the wash basin, took up one thing after
another, comb, brush, soap and sponge. Finally he threw the lid shut
and locked the suitcase.
“Well,” he said forcefully. “Now I’m ready.”
He stepped up to her, reached out his hand. She didn’t move,
didn’t raise her arm and her pale lips remained shut. Only her eyes
spoke.
“Don’t go,” they pleaded. “Don’t leave me. Stay with me.”
“Alraune,” he murmured and it sounded like a reproach, like a
plea even, to let him go.
But she didn’t let him go, held him solidly with her eyes, “Don’t
leave me.”
It felt like his will was melting and he forcefully turned his eyes
away from her. But then her lips moved.
“Don’t go,” she insisted. “Stay with me.”
“No,” he screamed. “I don’t want to. You will put me in the
ground like all the others!”
He turned his back on her, went to the table, and tore a couple
pieces of cotton from the bandage wadding that he had brought for his
wound. He moistened them with oil and plugged them solidly into his
ears.
“Now you can talk,” he cried. “If you like. I can’t hear you. I
can’t see you–I must go and you know it. Let me go.”
She softly said, “Then you will feel me.”
She stepped up to him, lightly laid her hand on his arm and her
fingers trembled and spoke – “Stay with me!–Don’t abandon me.”
The light kiss of her little hands was so sweet, so sweet.
“I will tear myself loose,” he thought, “soon, just one second
longer.”
He closed his eyes, and with a deep breath savored the caressing
touch of her fingers. Then she raised her hands and his cheeks
trembled under their gentle touch. She slowly brought her arms
around his neck, bent his head down, raised herself up and brought
her moist lips to his mouth.
“How strange it is,” he thought. “Her nerves speak and mine
understand their language.”
She pulled him one step to the side, pressed him down onto the
bed, sat on his knees and wrapped him in a cloak of tender caresses.
With slender fingers she pulled the cotton out of his ears and
whispered sultry, loving words to him. He didn’t understand because
she spoke so softly, but he sensed the meaning, felt that she was no
longer saying, “Stay!”–That now she was saying, “I’m so glad that
you are staying.”
He kept his eyelids tightly shut over his eyes, yet now he only
heard her lips whisper sweet nothings, only felt the tips of her little
fingers as they ran across his breast and his face. She didn’t pull him,
didn’t urge him–and yet he felt the streaming of her nerves pulling
him down onto the bed. Slowly, slowly, he let himself sink.
Then suddenly she sprang up. He opened his eyes, saw her run to
the door and shut it, then to the window and tightly close the heavy
curtains. A dim twilight still flowed through the room. He wanted to
rise, to stand up, but she was back before he could move a single
limb. She threw off the black negligee and came to him, shut his
eyelids again with gentle fingers and pressed her lips on his.
He felt her little breast in his hand, felt her toe nails play against
the flesh of his legs, felt her hair falling over his cheeks–and he didn’t
resist, gave himself to her, just as she wanted–
“Are you staying?” she asked.
But he sensed it wasn’t a question any more, she only wanted to
hear it from his own lips.
“Yes,” he said softly.
Her kisses fell like the rain in May. Her caresses dropped like a
shower of almond blossoms in the evening wind and her loving words
sprang like the shimmering pearls of the cascade in the park pool.
“You taught me!” she breathed. “You–you showed me what love
is–Now you must stay for my love, which you created!”
She lightly traced her fingers over his wound, kissed it with her
tongue, raised her head and looked at him with crazy, confused eyes.
“I hurt you–”she whispered. “I struck you–right over your heart–
Do you want to beat me? Should I get the whip? Do what you want!–
Tear wounds in me with your teeth–take a knife even. Drink my
blood–Do whatever you want–Anything, anything–I am your slave.”
He closed his eyes again and sighed deeply.
“You are the Mistress,” he thought. “The winner!”

Sometimes when he entered the library it seemed as if a laugh
came from out of the corners somewhere. The first time he heard it he
thought it was Alraune, even though it didn’t sound like her voice. He
searched around and found nothing. When he heard it again he
became frightened.
“That’s Uncle Jakob’s hoarse voice,” he thought. “He is laughing
at me.”
Then he took hold of himself, pulled himself together.
“A hallucination,” he muttered. “And no wonder–my nerves are
over stimulated.”
He moved about as if in a dream, slouching and staggering, with
hanging, drooping movements and listless eyes. But every nerve was
taut and overloaded when he was with her–Then his blood raced,
where before it had been sickly and barely crawled.
He had been her teacher, that was true. He had opened her eyes,
taught her every Persian mystery from the land of the morning, every
game of the ancients that had made love into a fine art. But it was as if
he said nothing strange to her at all, only reawakened her long lost
memories from some other time. Often her swift desire flamed and
broke out like a forest fire in the summer time before he could even
speak. He threw the torch and yet shuddered at the rutting fire that
scorched his flesh, engulfed him in feverish passion, left him withered
and curdled the blood in his veins.
Once as he slunk over the courtyard he met Froitsheim.
“You don’t ride any more, young Master?” asked the old
coachman.
He quickly said, “No, not any more.”
Then his gaze met the old man’s and he saw how the dry lips
opened.
“Don’t speak, old man!” he said quickly. “I know what you want
to say to me! But I can’t–I can’t.”

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The Rebirth of Melchior Dronte by Paul Busson and translated by Joe E Bandel

“Mean -, that’s what they call the fifth container in the
salt ponds into which the sea water flows for the extraction of
the salt.”
“Good,” nodded the teacher, smiling mischievously. “He
himself knows it, but as an appendage of the Noblesse in this
school I call him sot, paresseux et criminel! Get him out of the
seat, so that he gets what he deserves as the representative of
the ignorant noblesse!”
I turned pale with rage. This excess of injustice against
the poor boy, the only one who knew the rare and hardly used
word, seemed to me outrageous. I nudged Sassen, but he only
shrugged his shoulders, and Phoebus looked up in the air as if
it were none of his business.
Hesitantly, Klaus Jägerle emerged from the bench. Thick
tears stood in his eyes. Glowing red with shame, he fiddled
with his waistband….
“Faster! Expose his derriere!” screeched the school fox
and bobbed with the square ruler, “so that in place of nobility
he gets his proper Schilling!”
Horrified, I saw Klaus drop his trousers. Two poor,
skinny legs appeared beneath a gray, frayed shirt. The teacher
grabbed him with a splayed claw.
That’s when I jumped out of my bench.
“You’re not going to hit Jägerle, Monsieur!” I shouted. “I
won’t permit it…”
“Ei, ei!” laughed the man, “this will immediately show
you…”
He pressed down the willing head of the poor boy and
struck a blow.
Then I jumped at the teacher’s throat. He cried out with a
gasp and kicked at me with his feet. We fell to the floor. The
bench toppled over, and ink flowed over us. The other students
whooped with joy and stomped their feet. I suddenly felt a
sharp pain in my right hand. He had bitten me, with his ugly,
black tooth stumps. I hit him in the face with my fist. Blood
and saliva spurted from his mouth.
A hand grabbed me by the collar and pulled me up into
the air. I looked into a coarse, good-natured face under a
chubby gray wig.
The principal.
“Have you gone mad, Domine? – Rise, Herr!” he shouted
at the bleeding teacher.
“He wants to kill me!” screeched the latter.
“Baron Dronte, you will leave the school immediately!”
The principal said, pointing to the door.
Klaus Jägerle still stood humbly with his head bowed and
his thin, trembling legs, not daring to pull up his pants without
permission.

It went badly for me when father kicked the groom with
his foot and hit him, who was writhing and whimpering on the
ground. In pity, I tore the whip out of my father’s hand and
flung it far away. Instead, I was now sitting in an attic of our
house with water and bread. In the chamber was nothing but a
pile of straw in the corner and a stool on which I could sit.
Every day my father came, slapped me hard across the face and
forced me to speak a Bible verse in a loud voice:
“For the wrath of man strives and spares not in the time
of vengeance. And look to no person to make reconciliation, or
to receive it, even if you want to give it.”
When I had spoken the verse, I received a second slap in
the face. I let it all wash over me and was full of hatred. Today
was the fifth and last day of punishment.
Quietly a key turned in the door lock. I knew that it could
not be my father.
It was Aglaja. My defiance against the world prevented
me from giving in to the sweet joy that I felt at the sight of her.
Lovely and blushing, she stepped in her white, blue-flowered
dress over the threshold of the gloomy and dusty attic room.
Her face was childlike and of indescribable charm. Her spotless
skin shone milky white, lifted by the copper red of her hair. I
knew well how dearly she loved me, and in my solitude and
distress I too thought only of her, day and night. But there was
enough evil in me to make me want to plunge her into suffering,
too.
“What do you want here?” I growled. “Why don’t you go
to my Lord father – make yourself a dear child with him! You
can just beat it, go away, you!”
Her eyelashes trembled, and her little mouth began to
quiver.
“I just wanted to bring you my cake…” she said softly,
holding out a large piece of cake to me.
I snatched it out of her hand, threw it on the ground and
stepped on it with my foot.
“So!” I said. “Go and tell Frau Muhme, or my father, if
you like!”
She stood quite motionless, and I saw how slowly two
tears ran from her beautiful gray eyes. Then she went to the
corner, sat down on the straw bed and wept bitterly.
I let her cry, while my own heart wanted to burst in my
chest. But then I could not stand it any longer. I knelt down to
her and stroked her hair.
“Dear, dear Aglaja…” I stammered, “forgive me – you are
the only one here whom I love…”
Then she smiled through her tears, took my right hand in
hers and brought it to her young breast. And I thought of how
once at night, in a dark, fearful urge, I had crept into her room
and, by the light of the night lamp, I had lifted her blankets to
see her body just once. She had awakened and had looked at
me fixedly until I had crept out of the room, seized by remorse
and fear.
As if she had guessed what I was thinking about, she
suddenly looked at me and whispered:
“You must never do that again, Melchior!”
I nodded silently, still holding one of her small breasts.
My blood surged in pounding waves.
“I want to kiss you with pleasure -” she said then and
held out her sweet, soft lips to me.
I kissed her clumsily and hotly, and my hands strayed.
“Don’t – oh don’t -” she stammered, and yet she nestled
tightly in my arms.
Then somewhere in the house a door opened and
slammed shut with a bang. Spurs clanked. We moved apart.
“Will you always love me, Aglaja?” I begged.
“Always,” she said, looking me straight in the eyes.
And suddenly she began to cry again.
“Why are you crying?” I urged her.
“I don’t know – maybe it’s because of the cake -” she said,
smiling to herself.
I picked up the trampled and soiled pastry from the floor
and ate it.
“Maybe it’s also because I won’t be with you for long.”
The words came out of her mouth like a breath. I looked
at her in dismay. I did not understand her.
“Don’t pay any attention to me,” she laughed suddenly.
“Even if it’s true, I’ll always come back to you!”
She pressed a quick kiss on my mouth, smoothed her
clothes and quickly ran out of the attic room.
“Aglaja! Stay with me!” I cried in sudden fear.
I was suddenly so afraid. But I heard only the hard clatter
of her high heels on the stairs.
An autumn fly buzzed on the small, cobweb-covered
window restlessly. In the sooty, torn nets hung decomposed
beetles, empty butterflies, and insect corpses of all kinds. – The
fly wriggled. The buzzing sound became high. Slowly, out of a
dark hole crawled a hairy spider with long legs, grasped the fly,
and lowered its poisonous jaws into its soft body. – The
buzzing became very high – the death cry of a small creature.
Suddenly I saw that the spider had a terrible face.
I ran to the door and banged on the wood with both fists.
“Aglaja!,” I screamed. “Aglaja!”
No one heard me.

We had been working under the blue sky, in the warm,
deep sunshine; we had been helping to harvest the fruit from
the big field behind the house. The plums were dripping with
sweetness. They tasted like wine. We could not get enough.
The greengage that we touched were even more delicious.
They melted in the mouth.
In the evening Aglaja cried out in pain.
At midnight she was dead.
The house was filled with cries of lamentation. Father
locked himself in his study. The maids were wailing in their
aprons.
Aglaja was dead.
I was just walking back and forth, picking up things
without knowing what I had picked up; I leaned for a long time,
without thinking about anything, with my head against a carved
doorpost until the pain woke me up, drank water from a
watering can.
The days, the days went by. Without beginning or end.
Crying everywhere. I watched them clearing out the chamber
in the corridor and bring out the black cloths. How they cut
asters and autumn roses and made wreaths, sobbing and
smearing their wet faces with their earthy hands. I stroked the
handle of the chamber, a handle that had been worn thin from
much use, and you hurt yourself on it if you were careless. But
when they were inside nailing the cloths to the walls and
brought the candlesticks from out of the silver chamber, as the
footsteps of people carrying something heavy, came down the
stairs, I ran in the fallen leaves of the garden.
Mists were drifting and it was dripping. The beautiful
time was gone. The last day was over. I saw a blue ground
beetle and stepped on it. Yellowish intestines spilled out of its
small body, the legs twitched, contracted silently and stiffly. So
I did no differently than my father did when he beat people. I
had to cry, all alone on a bench of cold stone. Once in the
summer the stone had been so hot that Aglaja and I had tried to
see who could keep their hand on it longer. Her white hand had
been so delicate that she got a blister. – A cold drop fell from
the sky onto my forehead.

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Alraune by Hanns Heinz Ewers and translated by Joe E Bandel

They swam around–Then he went into the house, brought her a
cloak. And when they turned to go back, hand in hand, under the
copper beeches she said:
“I thank you, my love!”
They lay naked in the red afterglow. Their bodies, that had been
one through the hot afternoon hours, fell apart–Broken and crushed by
their caresses, their fondling and sweet words, like the flowers, like
the tender grass, over which their love storm had broken. The
firebrand lay dead, had devoured itself with greedy teeth. Out of the
ashes grew a cruel, steel hard hatred.
They looked at each other–now they knew that they were mortal
enemies. The long red lines on her thighs now seemed disgusting and
unseemly to him, the spittle ran in his mouth as if he had sucked a
bitter poison out of her lips. The little wounds that her teeth and her
nails had torn hurt and burned, swelling up–
“She has poisoned me,” he thought. “Like she once did Dr.
Petersen.”
Her green gaze smiled over at him, provoking, mocking and
impudent. He closed his eyes, bit his lips together, and curled his
fingers into fists. Then she stood up, turned around and kicked him
with her foot, carelessly and contemptuously.
He sprang up at that, stood in front of her, their glances crossed–
Not one word came out of her mouth, but she pouted her lips, raised
her arm, spit at him, slapped him in the face with her hand.
Then he threw himself at her, shook her body, whirled her
around by her hair, flung her to the ground, kicked her, beat her,
choked her tightly by the neck. She defended herself well. Her nails
shredded his face, her teeth bit into his arm and his chest. And with
blood foaming at their mouths, their lips searched and found each
other, took each other in a rutting frenzy of burning desire and pain–
Then he seized her, flung her several meters away, so that she
fainted, sinking down onto the lawn. He staggered a few steps further,
sank down and stared up into the blue heavens, without desire,
without will–listening to his temples pound–until his eyelids sank–
When he awoke, she was kneeling at his feet, drying the blood
out of his wounds with her hair, ripping her shift into long strips,
bandaging him skillfully–
“Let’s go, my love,” she said. “Evening falls.”
Little blue eggshells lay on the path. He searched in the bushes,
found the plundered nest of a crossbill.
“Those pesky squirrels,” he cried. “There are far too many in the
park. They will drive out all of our song birds.”
“What should we do?” she asked.
He said, “Shoot a few.”
She clapped her hands.
“Yes, yes,” she laughed. “We will go on a hunt!”
“Do you have some kind of a gun?” he asked.
She considered, “No, –I believe there are none, at least none that
we can use–We must buy one–But wait,” she interrupted herself,
“The old coachman has one. Sometimes he shoots the stray cats when
they poach.”
He went to the stables.
“Hello Froitsheim,” he cried. “Do you have a gun?”
“Yes,” replied the old man. “Should I go get it?”
He nodded, then he asked, “Tell me old man. Do you still want
to let your great-grandchildren ride on Bianca? They were here last
Sunday–but I didn’t see you setting them on the donkey.”
The old man growled, went into his room, took a rifle down from
the wall, came back, sat down quietly, cleaning it and getting it ready.
“Well?” he asked. “Aren’t you going to answer me?”
Froitsheim chewed with dry lips.
“I don’t want to,” he grumbled.
Frank Braun laid a hand on his shoulder, “Be reasonable old
man, say what is on your heart. I think you can speak freely with me!”
Then the coachman said, “I will accept nothing from the
Fräulein–don’t want any gifts from her. I receive my bread and
wages–for that I work. I don’t want any more than that.”
Frank Braun felt that no persuasion would help getting through
his hard skull. Then he hit upon an idea, threw in a little bait that the
old man could chew on–
“If the Fräulein asked something special of you, would you do
it?”
“No,” said the stubborn old man. “No more than my duty.”
“But if she paid you extra,” he continued. “Then would you do
it?”
The coachman still didn’t want to agree.
“That would depend–” he chewed.
“Don’t be pig headed, Froitsheim!” laughed Frank Braun. “The
Fräulein–not I–wants to borrow your gun to shoot squirrels–That has
absolutely nothing to do with your duty, and because of that–do you
understand, in return–she will allow you to let the children ride on the
donkey–It is a trade. Will you do it?”
“Yes,” said the old man grinning. “I will.”
He handed the rifle over to him, took a box of cartridges out of a
drawer.
“I will throw these in as well!” he spoke. “That way I’ve paid
well and am not in her debt–Are you going out riding this afternoon,
young Master?” he continued.
“Good, the horses will be ready around five-o’clock.”–Then he
called the stable boy, sent him running out to the cobbler’s wife, his
granddaughter, to let her know that she should send the children up
that evening–
Early the next morning Frank Braun stood under the acacia that
kissed the Fräulein’s window, gave his short whistle. She opened,
called down that she would be right there. Her light steps rang clearly
on the flagstones, with a leap she was down from the terrace, over the
steps, into the garden and standing in front of him.
“Look at you!” she cried. “In a kimono? Do people go hunting
like that?”
He laughed, “Well, it will do just fine for squirrels– But look at
you!”
She was dressed as a Wallenstein hunter.
“Holk Regiment!” she cried. “Do you like it?”
She wore high yellow riding boots, a green jerkin and an
enormous grayish green hat with waving plumes. An old pistol was
stuck into her belt and a long sabre beat against her leg.
“Take that off,” he said. “The game will be terrified of you if you
go hunting like that.”
She pouted her lips.
“Aren’t I pretty,” she asked.
He took her into his arms, quickly kissed her lips.“You are
charming, you vain little monkey,” he laughed. “And your Holk
hunting outfit will do just as well as my kimono for squirrels.”
He unbuckled the sabre and the long spurs, laid her flintlock
pistol aside and took up the coachman’s rifle.
“Now come, comrade,” he cried. “Tally ho!”
They went through the garden walking softly, peering through
the bushes and into the tops of the trees. He pushed a cartridge into
the rifle and cocked it.
“Have you ever shot a gun before?” he asked.
“Oh yes,” she nodded. “Wőlfchen and I went together to the big
church fair in Pützchen. We practiced there in the shooting gallery.”
“Good,” he said. “Then you know how you must hold it and aim
it.”
There was a rustling over them in the branches.
“Shoot,” she whispered. “Shoot! There is one above us!”
He raised the rifle and looked up, but then let it down again.
“No, not that one,” he declared. “That is a young one, scarcely a
year old. We will let it live for a while longer.”
They followed the brook until it came out of the birch trees into
the meadow. Fat June bugs buzzed in the sun, yellow butterflies
swung over the daisies. Whispering sounds were everywhere, crickets
chirping, bees buzzing, grasshoppers jumped at their feet in giant
leaps. Frogs croaked in the water and above–a little lark rejoiced.
They walked across the meadow to the copper beeches. There, right
on the border, they heard a frightened chirping, saw a little hen flutter
out of the bushes.
Frank Braun crept quietly ahead, looking sharply.
“There is the robber,” he murmured.
“Where?” she asked. “Where?”
But his shot already cracked–a heavy squirrel fell down from the
tree trunk. He raised it up by the tail, showed her where the bullet had
hit.
“It won’t plunder any more nests!” he said.
They hunted further through the large park. He shot a second
squirrel in the honeysuckle leaves and a third gray squirrel in the top
of a pear tree.
“You always shoot!” she cried. “Let me have the gun once!”
He gave it to her, showed her how to carry it, let her shoot into a
tree trunk a few times.
“Now come!” he cried. “Let’s see what you can do!”
He pushed the gun barrel down.
“Like this,” he instructed. “The muzzle always points toward the
ground and not into the air.”
Near the pool he saw a young animal playing in the path. She
wanted to shoot right away, but he called for her to sneak up a few
more steps.
“Now you’re close enough, let him have it.”
She shot–the squirrel looked around in astonishment, then
quickly sprang up a tree trunk and disappeared into the thick
branches. A second time didn’t go much better–She was much too far
away. But when she tried to get closer, the animals fled before she
could get a shot off.
“The stupid beasts,” she complained. “Why do they stand still for
you?”
She appeared charming to him in her childish anger.
“Apparently because they think I am their friend,” he laughed.
“You make too much noise in your leather riding boots, that’s what it
is! Just wait, we will get closer.”
Right by the mansion, where the hazel bushes pressed against the
acacias, he saw another squirrel.
“Stay here,” he whispered. “I will drive it out to you. Only look
there into those bushes and when you see it, whistle so I will know. It
will turn when you whistle–then shoot!”
He went around in a wide arc, sneaking through the bushes.
Finally he discovered the animal on a low acacia, drove it down, and
chased it into a hazel thicket. He saw that it was going in the right
direction toward Alraune so he backed up a little and waited for her
whistle. But he didn’t hear it. Then he went back in the same arc and
came out on the wide path behind her. There she stood, gun in hand,
staring intently into the bushes and a little off to her left–scarcely
three meters away, the squirrel merrily played in the hazel thicket.
“It’s over there,” he called out softly. “Over there, up a little and
to the left!”
She heard his voice, turned quickly around toward him. He saw
how her lips opened to speak, heard a shot at the same time and felt a
light pain in his side. Then he heard her shrill despairing scream, saw
how she threw the gun away and rushed toward him. She tore open
his kimono, grabbed at the wound with both hands.
He bowed his head, looked down. It was a long, but very light
surface wound that was scarcely bleeding. The skin was only burned,
showing a broad black line.
“Get the hangman!” he laughed. “That was close!–Right over the
heart.”
She stood in front of him, trembling, all of her limbs shaking,
scarcely able to stand up. He supported her, talked to her.
“It’s nothing, child. Nothing at all! We will wash it out with
something, then moisten it with oil–Think nothing of it!”
He pulled the kimono still further back, showed her his naked
chest. With straying fingers she felt the surface wound.
“Right over the heart,” she murmured. “Right over the heart!”
Then suddenly she grabbed her head with both hands. A sudden
fear seized her, she looked at him with a horrified gaze, tore herself
out of his arms, ran to the house, sprang up the stairs–

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Alraune by Hanns Heinz Ewers and translated by Joe E Bandel

“How do you like it?” she asked him.
“Why should the little man be there?” he retorted.
She said, “He belongs there!–I didn’t like the golden Cupid–That
is for all the other people–I want to have Galeotto, my root manikin.”
“Why do you call it that?” he asked.
“Galeotto!” she replied. “Wasn’t it him that brought us
together?–Now I want him to hang there, to watch over us through the
night.”
Sometimes they went out riding in the evenings or also during
the night if the moon was shining. They rode through the Sieben
Gerberge mountain range or to Rolandseck and into the wilderness
beyond.
Once they found a she-donkey at the foot of Dragon’s Rock in
the Sieben Geberge mountain range. People there used the animal for
riding up to the castle at the top. He bought her. She was a young
animal, well cared for and glistened like fresh snow. Her name was
Bianca. They took her with them, behind the horses on a long rope,
but the animal just stood there, planting her forelegs like a stubborn
mule, allowing herself to be choked and dragged along. Finally they
found a way to persuade her. In Kőnigswinter he bought a large bag
full of sugar, took the rope off Bianca and let her run free. He threw
her one piece of sugar after the other from out of the saddle. Soon the
she-donkey ran after them, keeping itself tight to his stirrup, snuffling
at his boots.
Old Froitsheim took the pipe out of his mouth as they came up,
spit thoughtfully and grinned agreeably.
“An ass,” he chewed. “A young ass! It’s been almost thirty years
since we’ve had one here in the stable. You know, young Master, how
I used to let you ride old gray Jonathan?” He got a bunch of carrots
and gave them to the animal, stroking her shaggy fur.
“What’s her name, young Master?” he asked.
Frank Braun told him her name.
“Come Bianca,” spoke the old man. “You will have it good here
with me. We will be friends.”
Then he turned again to Frank Braun.
“Young Master,” he continued. “I have three great-grandchildren
in the village, two little girls and a boy. They are the cobbler’s
children, on the road to Godesberg. They often come to visit me on
Sunday afternoons. May I let them ride the ass?–Just here in the
yard?”
He nodded, but before he could answer the Fräulein cried out:
“Why don’t you ask me, old man? It is my animal. He gave it to
me!–Now I want to tell you–you are permitted to ride her–even in the
gardens, when we are not home.”
Frank Braun’s glance thanked her–but not the old coachman. He
looked at her, half mistrusting and half surprised, grumbled something
incomprehensible and enticed the donkey into the stable with the
juicy carrots.
He called the stable boy, presented him to Bianca, then the
horses, one after the other–led her around behind the farmyard,
showed her the cow barn with the heavy Hollander cows and the
young calf of black and white Liese. He showed her the hounds, both
sharp pointers, the old guard dog and the cheeky fox terrier that was
sleeping in the stable. Brought her to the pigs, where the enormous
Yorkshire sow suckled her piglets, to the goats and the chicken coop.
Bianca ate carrots and followed him. It appeared that she liked it at
the Brinken’s.
Often in the afternoons the Fräulein’s clear voice rang out from
the garden.
“Bianca!” she cried. “Bianca!”
Then the old coachman opened her stall; swung the door open
wide and the little donkey came into the garden at an easy trot. She
would stop a few times, eat the green juicy leaves, indulge in the high
clover or wander around some more until the enticing call rang out
again, “Bianca!” Then she would search for her mistress.

They lay on the lawn under the ash trees. No table–only a large
platter lay on the grass covered with a white Damascus cloth. There
were many fruits, assorted tid-bits, dainties and sweets among the
roses. The wine stood to the side.
Bianca snuffled, scorned the caviar and no less the oysters,
turned away from the pies. But she took some cake and a piece of ice
out of the cooler, ate a couple of roses in between–
“Undress me!” said Alraune.
Then he loosened the eyes and hooks and opened the snaps.
When she was naked he lifted her onto the donkey. She sat astride on
the white animal’s back and held on lightly to the shaggy mane.
Slowly, step by step, she rode over the meadow. He walked by her
side, lying his right hand on the animal’s head. Bianca was clever,
proud of the slender boy whom she carried, didn’t stop once, but went
lightly with velvet hoofs.
There, where the dahlia bed ended, a narrow path led past the
little brook that fed the marble pool. She didn’t go over the wooden
bridge. Carefully, one foot after the other, Bianca waded through the
clear water. She looked curiously to the side when a green frog
jumped from the bank into the stream. He led the animal over to a
raspberry patch, picked the red berries and divided them with
Alraune, continued through the thick laurel bushes.
There, surrounded by thick elms, lay a large field of carnations.
His grandfather had laid it out for his good friend, Gottfried Kinkel,
who loved these flowers. Every week he had sent the poet a large
bouquet for as long as he lived. There were little feathery carnations,
tens of thousands of them, as far as the eye could see. All the flowers
glowed silver-white and their leaves glowed silvery green. They
gleamed far, far into the evening sun, a silver ground.
Bianca carried the pale girl diagonally across the field and then
back around. The white donkey stepped deeply through the silver
ocean; the wind made light waves that kissed her hoofs.
He stood on the border and watched her, drank in the sweet
colors until he was sated. Then she rode up to him.
“Isn’t it beautiful, my love?” she asked.
And he said sincerely, “–It is very beautiful–ride some more.”
She answered, “I am happy.”
Lightly she laid her hand behind the clever animal’s ears and it
stepped out, slowly, slowly, through shining silver–

“Why are you laughing?” she asked.
They sat on the terrace at the breakfast table and he was reading
his mail. There was a letter from Herr Manasse, who wrote him about
the Burberger mining shares.
“You have read in the newspapers about the gold strike in the
Hocheifel,” said the attorney. For the greatest part the gold has been
found on territory owned by the Burberger Association. It appears
very doubtful to me that these small veins of ore will be worth the
very considerable cost of refining it. Nevertheless, your shares that
were completely worthless four weeks ago, now, with the help of the
Association’s skillful press release have rapidly climbed in value and
have been at par for a week already.
Today, I heard through bank director Baller that they are
prepared to quote them at two hundred fourteen. Therefore I have
given your stocks over to my friend and asked him to sell them
immediately. That will happen tomorrow, perhaps they will obtain an
even higher rate of exchange.”
He handed the letter over to Alraune.
“Uncle Jakob himself, would have never dreamed of that,” he
laughed. “Otherwise he would have certainly left my mother and me
some different shares!”
She took the letter, carefully read it through to the end. Then she
let it sink, stared straight ahead into space. Her face was wax pale.
“What’s wrong?” he asked.
“Yes he did–He did know it,” she said slowly. “He knew exactly
what he was doing!”
Then she turned to him.
“If you want to make money–don’t sell the shares,” she
continued and her voice rang with conviction.
“They will find still more gold–Your shares will climb still
higher–much higher.”
“It’s too late,” he said lightly. “By this hour the shares have
probably already been sold! Besides, are you all that certain?”
“Certain?” she repeated. “Certain? Who could be more certain
that I?”
She let her head sink down onto the table, sobbed out loud, “So it
begins–so–”
He stood up, laid his arm around her shoulder.
“Nonsense,” he said. “Beat that depression out of your brain!–
Come Alraune, we will go swimming. The fresh water will wash the
foolish cobwebs away. Chat with your mermaid sisters–they will
confirm that Melusine can bring no more harm once she has kissed
her lover.”
She pushed him away, sprang up, stood facing him, and looked
him straight in the eyes.
“I love you,” she cried. “Yes, I do–But it is not true–the magic
does not go away! I am no Melusine, am not the fresh water’s child! I
come out of the earth–and the night created me.”
Shrill tones rang from her lips–and he didn’t know if it was a sob
or a laugh–
He grabbed her in his strong arms, paid no attention to her
struggling and hitting. He held her like a wild child, carried her down
the steps and into the garden, carried her screaming over to the pool,
threw her in, as far as he could with all her clothes on.
She got up and stood for a moment in amazement, dazed and
confused. Then he let the cascades play and a splashing rain
surrounded her. She laughed loudly at that.
“Come,” she cried. “Come in too!”
She undressed and in high spirits threw her wet clothes at his
head.
“Aren’t you ready yet?” she urged. “Hurry up!”
When he was standing beside her she saw that he was bleeding.
The drops fell from his cheek, from his neck and left ear.
“I bit you,” she whispered.
He nodded. Then she raised herself up high, encircled his neck,
and drank the red blood with ardent lips.
“Now it is better,” she said.

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The Rebirth of Melchior Dronte by Paul Busson and translated by Joe E Bandel

Then I screamed so loudly that my father let go of him.
“The toad can’t stand it, if I chastise the scoundrel,” he
said angrily, he will never be a right fellow in his day!”
Spurs clanking he went out. I was more afraid of this
clink than of anything else.
Then they gave me sweets and stroked me.
A young maid kissed my bare calves.
“Sweet boy!” she said.
In a mirror they showed me how a piece of glass had hit
me on the root of my nose and tore a small cut between my
eyebrows.
A scar remained from it.


I was playing in the garden with my little cousin Aglaja,
whom I loved very much. I had woven a wreath from black,
shiny ball berries, which I placed in her copper-colored hair,
which shone golden in the sun. She was the king’s daughter,
enchanted in thorny hedges, and I set out to save her. The
dragon that guarded her had to be played by black Diana. With
clever eyes the dog waited for the new game.
Then, accompanied by a maid, the barber came hurriedly
through the garden with a brass basin, and a servant appeared
at the door of the house, it was Stephan, who shouted at him to
hurry.
Aglaja threw her wreath of berries to the ground, and the
two of us both ran behind her to grandfather’s room,
which we were usually only allowed to enter with his special
permission. Such visits were always very solemn and only took
place on the big holidays of the year or on birthdays, when we
had to recite little poems and were given sweets in return.
It seemed to both of us a great dare, to go uninvited into
the room of the stern old man, but curiosity drove us forward.
Grandfather was sitting quietly in his sleeping chair. He
wore, as always, a gray-silk sleeve vest with embroidered
bouquets of roses, black pants, white stockings and shoes with
wide silver buckles. On his watch chain hung a bundle of
golden, colored and glittering things, cut things, cut gemstones,
corals and seals, which I had sometimes been allowed to play
with.
In front of him stood my father with bowed head and he
did not notice us children at all. When the gaunt barber, dressed
in a patched jacket stepped closer, he grabbed him by the arm,
his face turned red and he said half aloud:
“Next time run faster, damned Kujon, when you do him
the honor!”
The miserable barber stammered a little, and with his
hands flying grabbed his red bandages and switchblade, and
pushed grandfather’s sleeve up into the air, touched the eyelids
of the upturned eyes with his finger, then felt around on the
arm, while he held the basin under it. Thus he waited a while,
and then he said shyly:
“It is of no use, free- glorious graces – the blood will
never flow again!”
Then father turned around and stood with his face to the
wall. Stephan gently pushed Aglaja and me out the door and
whispered, “His Grace has gone to his fathers.”
And when we looked at him questioningly, since we
could not understand this, he said, “Your grandfather is dead.”
We went back into the garden and listened to the noise
that soon started in the house. To the right of the hallway was a
spacious room in which, as a very small child I remembered
seeing my mother being laid out between many candles. This
chamber, in which otherwise all sorts of equipment stood, they
now cleared out and dragged in large bales of black cloth,
which smelled nasty.
Grandfather had preferred Aglaja to me, and had given
her treats and candy more often than he had given to me. He
had kept these good things in a turtle box, which smelled of
cinnamon and nutmeg. She cried a little, Aglaja, because she
was thinking that it would all be over now, when grandfather
would go away. But then we both remembered the other box he
had, which we were only allowed to look at very rarely. That
was his golden snuff box, given to him by the Duke of
Brunswick. But on this beautiful, sparkling box, on its lid, there
was a second little lid and when this popped open, a very small
bird appeared, flashing with green, red and violet stones, which
bobbed with the wings and trilled like a nightingale. We could
hardly get enough of seeing and hearing it, but grandfather
slipped it into his pocket as soon as, after a short while, the lid
closed by itself, and told us to be satisfied.
I said to Aglaja that now we could look closely at the bird
and even feel it, since grandfather was dead. She was afraid to
go up, but I took her by the hand and pulled her behind me.
No one was in the corridor, and the room was empty.
Empty stood the wide armchair in which grandfather had spent
his last nights. On the little table next to it were still the bottles
with the long notes.
We knew that grandfather had always taken the can from
the middle drawer. This drawer was made of colored wood
decorated with ships, cities and warriors from the old times and
on the drawer, which we tried to open, there were two fat
Dutchmen who were smoking pipes and being served by
kneeling Moors. I pulled at the rings; but not until Aglaja
helped me, did we manage to open the drawer.
There lay Grandfather’s lace jabots and handkerchiefs, a
roll of gold ducats, a large pistol inlaid with gold, and many
letters in bundles, shoe buckles and razors, and also the box
with the bird.
I took it out, and we tried to make the lid jump. But we
did not succeed. But while we were working around, the big lid
came off, and a thin plate detached itself from it, which
concealed something. It was a small picture, which was painted
in fine enamel colors. A picture which made us forget the little
bird completely.
On a small sofa lay a lady with her skirts pushed up, and
right next to her was a gentleman with sword and wig, whose
clothes were also in strange disorder. They were doing
something that seemed to us as strange as it was weird. In
addition, the man was being attacked by a little spotted dog,
and the lady lying down seemed to laugh. We also laughed. But
then we argued very excitedly about what this was.
“They are married,” said Aglaja, blushing.
“How do you know?” I asked, my heart pounding hard.
“I think they are gods…” whispered Aglaja.
“I saw a picture, where the gods were like that. But they
didn’t have any clothes on.”
All of a sudden it was as if in the next room where our
dead grandfather lay, the floorboard creaked. We shrunk back,
and Aglaja cried out. Then I quickly threw the can into the
drawer, pushed it closed and pulled my cousin out of the room.
We slid into the garden.
“Aglaja…” I said, grabbing her hand. “Are we going to
get married like that…?”
She looked at me, startled, tore herself away and ran back
into the house. Confused and bewildered I went to Stephan,
who was cutting roses from the stalks and gathering them in a
basket.
“Yes, young Herr!” he said. “So it goes with all of us!”

Next to me sat Phöbus Merentheim and Thilo Sassen. We
three were the most distinguished. Behind us squatted Klaus
Jägerle, the whipping boy. He was allowed to study with us,
was given food, and if we didn’t know something, punishment
was carried out on him. His mother was a washerwoman and
his father wove baskets, although he only had one arm. The
other arm was cut by an enemy horseman, when he was
protecting Thilo’s severely wounded father with his body. In
return Klaus was allowed to study with us and to come to the
table at noon. Klaus was very industrious, shy and depressed,
and had to put up with everything that his classmates cooked
up when they were in an exuberant mood. He was almost
worse off than the hunchback son of the grocer Isaaksohn, they
had once put him at the door and spat in his face one after the
other, so that the disgusting juice, mixed with his tears, ran
down his new gentleman’s sport coat.
I was in great fear because I had learned nothing. For
before me stood the small, poisonous teacher of French in his
inky, tobacco-colored jacket with the bent lead buttons, the
goose quill behind his ear, talking through his Spaniol-filled
nose. His pale face was full of freckles and twitched incessantly.
In his left hand he held a book, and he waved the black-rimmed
knotted index finger of his right hand in front of my face.
He always did it that way. All of a sudden, after he had
studied our faces maliciously for a while, he would go after one
of the students like a vulture and always found the most
insecure out. It was his habit, to vocabulaire at the beginning of
the lesson, that is to say, he threw a few French words in the
victim’s face, which had to be translated immediately.
This time he had chosen me.
“Allons, monsieur-,” he hissed. “Emouchoir-. Tonte-
Mean. – At once! Quickly!”
I was startled and stammered:
“Emouchoir – the fly tonguing, tonte – the Sheep shearing – mean… mean, that is – that is -“
He neighed with delight.
“Ah – you don’t know, Cher Baron?”
“Mean -, that is –“
“Assez! Sit down!”
He bleated, and his little black eyes sparkled with
amusement. Slowly he took a pinch from his round horn can,
ran back and forth with two fingers under his pointed nose and
then poked the can at my neighbor.
“Herr Sassen! – Not either? – Merentheim? Also not? –
Jägerle, stand up and say it!”
Poor Klaus jumped up as if like a feather and said in a thin
voice:

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The Rebirth of Melchior Dronte by Paul Busson and translated by Joe E Bandel


The magician: “O Sheikh, I am going to the other world;
procure for me a right in the hereafter!”
The Sheikh: “I can give you one piece of advice; If you
follow it, it will be for your salvation.”
Turkish legend
“When the angel of death touches your heart, the soul
leaves its narrow house, faster than lightning. If it can take its
memory along with it, it remains aware of its sins. This is the
path to purity and that of the entrance to God.”
Secret Doctrine of the Beklashi

What I am writing down here, hoping that it will fall into
the right hands according to the will of God I, Sennon Vorauf,
have experienced in that physical existence which preceded my
present life. These memories have come to me by a special
grace beyond that transformation which is called death.
Before I realized this, I suffered from them and thought
they were inexplicable, agonizing kinds of dreams. Besides,
however, I also had to go through all kinds of shocks of an
unusual kind. It happened, for example, that the striking of an
old clock, the sight of a landscape, a fragrance, the melodies of
a song, or even a mere association of words would assail me
most violently with the thought, that I would have quite
certainly already once heard, seen, breathed in, or somehow
experienced it before. I was in this or that place, which I saw in
my present life for the first time, and already had once been
there. Yes, often enough, in conversation with new
acquaintances, I was struck by the idea that I had already been
in very special relations with them. Since it was impossible for
me to understand before the onset of this realization, it was also
impossible for me to provide explanations for the indescribably
exciting movements of my mind and emotions, much to the
grief of my parents, which often led into hours of brooding, the
unknown cause of which disturbed them not a little. But
through frequent repetition and the ever sharper imagery of the
story I became aware, even as a boy, that they were nothing
more than reflections of fates which my soul had suffered in
another body, namely before the birth of my present body;
moreover, these “Dreams” represented experiences that were
completely alien to my current circle of experiences and
frighteningly distant from my present circle of thoughts. I had
never heard of such things or even read about them somewhere
or otherwise experienced them. I began to record these
“dreams” of my own accord and thereby achieved that from
then on in certain favorable moments I had the so-called
wakefulness to remember such memories with extraordinary
accuracy.
More and more clearly and coherently from these “lucid
dreams” (as I called them in my case) the overall picture of a
life emerged that I had lived before this under the name of a
German nobleman (I will call him here Baron Melchior von
Dronte), had lived and ended, when his body fell to the
transformation of death and then became free to be my soul as
Sennon Vorauf.
In the peaceful and blessed life filled with inner peace,
which I lead, the retrospective view of the wild and
adventurous existence of Melchior von Dronte broke through in
a disturbing, confusing and frightening way. What he was
guilty of was my guilt and if he atoned, he atoned for the soul
that came back, for his and therefore my soul.
I am fully aware that many people will read this book
with incredulous smiles, and perhaps in some places at times
with disgust and revulsion. But at the same time I hope that the
number of people of deeper feeling will be large enough not to
let this writing perish. To those who are able to remember
details from previous forms of existence, who are conscious of
a previous life, I would like to dedicate this book to them; I
would like to make this book their own.
Just as I have replaced the real name I had with “Dronte”,
I have replaced those of various persons, whose descendants
are still alive, with invented names. Moreover I touch here the
fact that I have called people “Dronte” in this life, whom I
knew from the time before my death. Most of them were not at
all aware of a previous existence. Nevertheless, there were
moments and occasions with them, in which clearly
recognizable flashes of memory flared up in them in a flash of
recognition, without them having succeeded in determining the
source of such disturbing feelings or having the ability to hold
on to them. I am certainly not saying anything new to those
who, like me, have brought parts of an earlier consciousness
into the new life.
The raw, crude and often coarse nature of the following
biography of a life, I could not in truth love, as unpleasant and
hurtful some of it may seem. I was not to embellish and smooth
out the terrible clarity with which the memories surfaced in me,
and thus to write a pleasantly readable book. Everything had to
remain the way it was as it formed from a time whose spirit
was different from ours.
However, from the deepest, most personal feeling this
book should speak to the immortality of the soul, and this
confession is to possibly awaken this confession in others.
Above all, I am inspired by the hope that those who believe in
the wandering of the soul after the death of the body will not be
given completely worthless indications in this book. Others
who have not yet progressed on the path that I have walked,
may still at least read it for the sake of its colorful content.
I remember very clearly an incident from my fifth year of
life.
I had been undressed, as always, and lay in my pink
lacquered, shell-shaped child’s bed. The warm summer evening
wind carried the chirping of many insects into the room, and
the wax candle in a silver candelabra flickered. It stood on a
low cabinet next to the glass lintel, under which the “Man from
the East”, or the “Ewli”, as he was also called, was located.
This was a span-high, very beautifully formed figure,
which a relative, who was in the service of a Venetian, had
brought from there as a gift from the nobility.
It was the figure in wax of a Mohammedan monk or
dervish, as an old servant often told me. The face had the
sweetest expression for me. It was completely wrinkle-free,
light brownish and with gentle features. Two beautiful dark
eyes shone under a jet-black turban, and around the softly
curved lips a small black beard could be seen. The body was in
a brown-red robe with long sleeves, and around the neck the
dervish wore a necklace of tiny amber beads. The two fine wax
hands were on arms hanging down with the palms turned
forward, equal-ready to receive and welcome anyone who
should approach. This immensely delicate and artistically
executed piece in wax and fabrics was highly valued in my
family, and for that reason alone, it had been placed under a
glass dome to protect it from dust and unskilled hands.
I often sat for hours in front of this expensive figurine for
unknown reasons, and more than once I had the feeling as if
the dark eyes were animated by being alone with me, as if there
was a faint trace of a gentle, kind smile around its lips.
That evening I could not fall asleep. From the fountain in
the courtyard came the sound of water splashing and the
laughter of the maids washing and splashing each other and
with similar shenanigans teasing each other. Also the cicadas
and crickets in the meadows surrounding the mansion were
making noise. Between all that sounded the muffled sounds of
a French horn, on which one of the forest boys was practicing a
call.
I climbed out of bed and walked around the room. But
then I began to be afraid of the moment when old Margaret
came into my room every night to put out the light in case I fell
asleep with it on, and I went back to my bed. Just as I was
about to climb over the edge of the bed shell with my bare legs,
it was as if a voice softly called my name. I looked around
frightened. My eyes fell on the man from the Orient. I saw very
clearly how he raised one arm under the glass bell and
beckoned to me.
I began to cry with fright, looking steadfastly at the little
figure.
Then I saw it very clearly for the second time: he waved
his hand at me very hastily and commandingly.
Trembling with fear, I obeyed; in the process tears
streamed unstoppably down my face.
I would have loved to scream out loud. But I didn’t dare,
for fear of frightening the little man, who was now very much
alive and waving more and more fiercely, in anger, such as my
father, whose short one-time wave was not only for me, but for
all the inhabitants of the house, an order that had to be obeyed.
So I went, crying silently, towards the cabinet on which
the waving dervish stood. I had almost reached him, despite my
anxious hesitant steps, when something terrible happened. With
a horrible roar and in a cloud of dust, debris and splinters, the
ceiling of the room collapsed over my shell bed.
I fell to the floor and screamed. Something flew whizzing
through the air and smashed the glass dome and the waving
man made of wax into a thousand shards and pieces. A brick
that had flown over me.
I screamed at the top of my lungs. But there was
screaming all over the house, outside at the well and
everywhere, and the dogs in the kennel howled.
Arms grabbed me, pulled me up from the earth. Blood
was running into my eyes, and I felt a cloth being pressed
against my forehead. I heard the scolding, agitated voice of my
father, the wailing of old Margaret and the moaning of a
servant. My father hit him with a with a stick and shouted:
“You donkey, why didn’t you report that there were
cracks in the ceiling? I’ll beat you crooked and lame…!”

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Alraune by Hanns Heinz Ewers and translated by Joe E Bandel

Chapter Fifteen
Tells how Alraune lived in the park.

HE didn’t write his mother on that day, or the next, pushed it
off for another week and further–for months. He lived in
the large garden of the Brinkens, like he had done when he
was a boy, when he had spent his school vacations there.
They sat in the warm green houses or under the mighty cedars,
whose young sprouts had been brought from Lebanon by some pious
ancestor, or strolled under the Mulberry trees, past a small pool that
was deeply overshadowed by hanging willows.
The garden belonged to them that summer, to them alone,
Alraune and him. The Fräulein had given strict orders that none of the
servants were permitted to enter, not by day or by night. Not once
were the gardeners called for. They were sent away into the city,
charged with the maintenance of her gardens at her villas in Coblenz.
The renters were very happy and amazed at the Fräulein’s
attentiveness.
Only Frieda Gontram used the path. She never spoke a word
about what she suspected but didn’t know. But her pinched lips and
her evasive glance spoke loudly enough. She avoided meeting him on
the path and yet was always there as soon as he was together with
Alraune.
“What the blazes,” he grumbled. “I wish she was on top of
mount Blocksberg!”
“Is she bothering you?” asked Alraune.
“Doesn’t she bother you?” he retorted.
She replied, “I haven’t noticed. I scarcely pay any attention to
her.”
That evening he encountered Frieda Gontram by the blossoming
blackthorns. She stood up from her bench and turned to go. Her gaze
held a hot hatred.
He went up to her, “What is it Frieda?”
She said, “Nothing!–You can be satisfied now. You will soon be
free of me.”
“Why is that?” he asked.
Her voice trembled, “I must go–tomorrow! Alraune told me that
you didn’t want me here.”
An infinite misery spoke out of her glance.
“You wait here, Frieda. I will speak with her.”
He hurried into the house and came back after a short time.
“We have thought it over,” he began, “Alraune and I. It is not
necessary that you go away–forever. Frieda, it’s only that I make you
nervous with my presence–and you do the same for me, excuse me for
saying it. That’s why it would be better if you go on a journey–only
for awhile. Travel to Davos to visit your brother. Come back in two
months.”
She stood up, looked at him with questioning eyes that were still
full of fear.
“Is that the truth?” she whispered. “Only for two months?”
He answered, “Certainly it’s true. Why should I lie Frieda?”
She gripped his hand; a great joy made her face glow.
“I am very grateful to you!” she said. “Everything is alright
then–as long as I am permitted to come back!”
She said, “Goodbye,” and headed for the house, stopped
suddenly and came back to him.
“There is something else, Herr Doctor,” she said. “Alraune gave
me a check this morning but I tore it up, because–because–in short, I
tore it up. Now I will need some money. I don’t want to go to her–she
would ask–and I don’t want her to ask. For that reason–will you give
me the money?”
He nodded, “Naturally I will–Am I permitted to ask why you
tore the check up?”
She looked at him, shrugged her shoulders.
“I wouldn’t have needed the money any more if I had to leave
her forever–”
“Frieda,” he pressed, “where would you have gone?”
“Where?” A bitter laugh rang out from her thin lips. “Where?
The same place Olga went! Only, believe me, doctor. I would have
achieved my goal!”
She nodded lightly to him, walked away and disappeared
between the birch trees.
Early, when the young sun woke him, he came out of his room in
his kimono, went into the garden along the path that led past the trellis
and into the rose bed. He cut white Boule de Neige roses, Queen
Catharine roses, Victoria roses, Snow Queen roses and Merveille de
Lyon roses. Then he turned left where the larches and the silver fir
trees stood.
Alraune sat on the edge of the pool in a black silk robe, breaking
breadcrumbs, throwing them to the goldfish. When he came she
twined a wreath out of the pale roses, quickly and skillfully making a
crown for her hair.
She threw off her robe, sat in her lace negligee and splashed in
the cool water with her naked feet–She scarcely spoke, but she
trembled as his fingers lightly caressed her neck, when his soft breath
caressed her cheek. Slowly she took off the negligee and laid it on the
bronze mermaid beside her.
Six water nymphs sat around the marble edge of the pool pouring
water out of jugs and urns, spraying thin streams out of their breasts.
Various animals crept around them, giant lobsters, spiny lobsters,
turtles, fish, eels and other reptiles. In the middle of the pool Triton
blew his horn as chubby faced merfolk blew mighty streams of water
high into the air around him.
“Come, my friend,” she said.
Then they both climbed into the water. It was very cold and he
shivered, his lips became blue and goose bumps quickly appeared on
his arms. He had to swim vigorously, beat his arms and tread water to
warm his blood and get accustomed to the unusual temperature.
But she didn’t even notice, was in her element in an instant and
laughing at him. She swam around like a little frog.
“Turn the faucet on!” she cried.
He did it. There, near the pool’s edge, by the statue of Galatea,
light waves came from the water as well as three other places in the
pool. They boiled up a little, growing stronger and higher, climbing
higher and higher, until they became enormous sparkling cascades of
silvery rain, higher than the spouting streams of the mermen.
There she stood between all four, in the middle of a shimmering
rain, like a sweet boy, slender and delicate. His long glance kissed
her. There was no blemish in the symmetry of her limbs, not the
slightest defect in this sweet work of art. Her color was in proportion
as well, like white marble with a light breath of yellow. Only the
insides of her thighs showed two curious rose colored lines.
“That’s where Dr. Petersen perished,” he thought.
He bent down, kneeled and kissed the rosy places.
“What are you thinking about?” she asked.
He said, “ I’m thinking that you are the fairy Melusine!–See the
little mermaids around us–they have no legs, only long, scaly fish
tails. They have no souls, these nymphs, but it is said that sometimes
they love a human, some fisherman or wandering knight.
They love him so much that they come out of the water at high
tide, out onto the land. Then they go to an old witch or shaman–that
brews some nasty potion they have to drink. Then the shaman takes a
sharp knife and begins to cut into the fish tail. It is very painful–very
painful, but Melusine suppresses her pain. Her love is so great that
she doesn’t complain, doesn’t cry out, until the pain becomes so great
she loses consciousness. But when she awakes–her little tail is gone
and she goes about on two beautiful legs–like a human–only the scars
where the shaman cut are still visible.”
“But wasn’t she always still a nymph?” she asked. “Even with
human legs?–And the sorcerer could never create a soul for her.”
“No,” he said. “He couldn’t do that, but there is something else
they say of nymphs.”
“What do they say?” she asked.
He explained, “She only has her strange power as long as she is
untouched. When she drowns in the kisses of her lover, when she
looses her maidenhood in her knight’s embrace–then she looses her
magic as well. She can no longer bring river gold and treasures but
the black sorrow that followed her can no longer cross her threshold
either. From then on she is like any other child of man–”
“If it only was!” she whispered.
She tore the white crown from her head, swam over to the
mermen and Triton, to the water nymphs and threw the rose blossoms
into their laps–
“Take them, sisters–take them!” she laughed. “I am a child of
man–”
An enormous canopy bed stood in Alraune’s bedroom on low,
baroque columns. Two pillars grew out of the foot and bore shelves
that shown with golden flames. The engraved sides showed Omphale
with Hercules in a woman’s dress as he waited on her, Perseus kissing
Andromeda, Hephaestus catching Ares and Aphrodite in his net–
Many tendrils of vines wove themselves in between and doves played
in them–along with winged cherubs. The magnificent ancient bed,
heavily gilt with gold, had been brought out of Lyons by Fräulein
Hortense de Monthy when she became his great-grandfather’s wife.
He saw Alraune standing on a chair at the head of the bed, a
heavy pliers in her hand.
“What are you doing with that?” he asked.
She laughed, “Just wait. I will soon be finished.”
She pounded and tore, carefully enough, at the golden figurine of
Amor that hovered at the head of the bed with his bow and arrow. She
pulled one nail out, then another, seized the little god, twisted him this
way and that–until he came loose. She grabbed him, jumped down,
laid him on top of the wardrobe, took out the Alraune manikin,
clambered back up onto the chair again with it and fastened it to the
head of the bed with wire and twine. Then she came back down and
looked critically at her work.

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Madame Bluebeard by Karl Hans Strobl and translated by Joe E Bandel

Taking leave of his mother the evening before
departure—he planned to stay at a hotel to avoid
disturbing her at night—she looked into his eyes.
“What’s wrong, Ernst?” she asked. “I think you’re
deeply in love…”
“Nonsense, Mother,” he replied.
She shook her head. “No, dear, you can’t deny
it… I see it. You’re changed. Why tell me nothing?”
Ernst Hugo felt it might’ve been better to confide
in her about his doom. But it was too late. He denied
it and tore himself away. On the journey, his unrest
grew worse. This passion had seized him like fate,
roaring through him, tearing him along, gnawing his
core with a vulture’s greedy beak. He yearned for
something good, wise, calm, but knew it was a land
he’d never reach. The train’s rattling rhythm fused
with him; he felt one with this raging beast, yet it
seemed they didn’t move, trapped in an endless
screw.
He traveled half the night.
Early morning brought him to Sankt Pölten. The
summer sun had risen, peering over the station’s
shoulder. Ernst Hugo paced, shivering. He glanced at
the officials’ apartment windows. A curtain stirred. A
hand with a watering can appeared, tending
flowerpots by an open window. He pictured a
bedroom filled with fresh night air, a bed of white
linen and lace, a blue silk coverlet. He clenched his
teeth, fists balled.
The express to Salzburg–Munich pulled in,
panting on the tracks. Doors clattered open and shut;
conductors scurried; sleepy waiters carried breakfast
coffee along the cars. Ernst Hugo ignored the bustle,
ensnared in his thoughts, wrestling them, unable to
break free. They attacked like wolves.
The station’s tumult ebbed. Conductors closed
doors, signaling each other… then three people burst
from the first-class waiting room, racing across the
tracks to the train. A broad-shouldered giant led,
carrying two bags, followed by a lady and a
gentleman… Ernst Hugo caught a fleeting glimpse.
An eternity later, a jolt: it was Helmina… Lorenz
ahead… and the man beside her, Fritz Gegely,
dressed as an Englishman in proper travel attire.
Later, studying psychology, Ernst Hugo saw this
moment as a case of delayed action between decision
and execution.
He lunged too late. A conductor had opened a
carriage door; the three boarded in frantic haste, and
the train began to move. It glided past Ernst Hugo, a
gray, blurring ribbon… a vast emptiness remained
where he stood. It heated from within, radiating
white-hot fury… seeping into him, swelling into
boundless rage.
So, Frau Helmina had run off with Herr Gegely,
poet of Marie Antoinette, the Heidelberg manuscript
thief. Splendid. What else could he think? They’d
boarded at the last moment to avoid interception.
Good that he’d seen them; he could at least tell
Ruprecht Helmina looked lively and eager. That was
all left for him to do.
Soon, his train departed. Ernst Hugo sat in his
corner, brimming with hate, fury, outrage, and
despair. Like a Leyden jar charged with electricity,
sparking at the slightest touch.
At Gars station, he asked two men who’d wired
for a carriage to let him ride to Vorderschluder. They
were taciturn, silently smoking, watching blue smoke
trails flutter into the kind summer morning. Ernst
Hugo squeezed into the opposite corner, hat over his
eyes, pretending to sleep.
At the Kamp bridge, he alighted, thanked them
hastily, and raced up the castle hill. He hurled his
question like a stone at the first person he met. Yes,
of course… the mistress had left… the Baron was in
the village. Ernst Hugo laughed scornfully and ran
back down. He kept seeing a bedroom filled with
fresh night air… Now he must find Frau Gegely,
fling his news in her face. Someone should writhe…
The Red Ox’s plump landlady filled the doorway
pleasantly. Nearby, three men conversed quietly.
Ernst Hugo recognized his carriage companions
and the Celt scholar he’d seen with Ruprecht. He
charged at the landlady.
“Is Frau Gegely upstairs?” he asked.
“Yes!” she replied, not budging from the door, as
if planted to guard.
“I must speak with her. I have to tell her
something.” He moved to rush past.
Schiereisen approached with a polite greeting. “I’d
ask you, Herr Secretary, not to go up now. The poor
woman…” That was the spark nearing the Leyden
jar. The discharge followed.
“I know… I know,” Hugo screamed, “but I must
tell you I saw them together. I saw them, understand?
It’ll please her when I tell them.”
Schiereisen gripped Hugo’s wrist firmly.
“Where?” he asked urgently.
“Where? Sankt Pölten… Salzburg express… and
so on… who knows… they’re off into the world.”
Ten clear chimes rang from the church tower.
Schiereisen released Hugo’s wrist and turned to his
companions. “Let’s go… to the telegraph office…”
His blue eyes gleamed like iron; his face, every
muscle, pulsed with resolve. “Now we’ll show what
we can do.”
As the three hurried off, Ernst Hugo collapsed,
shrinking… his fingers fumbled beside him; then he
turned, drifting slowly through a fog.
Ten days later, Schiereisen returned from his hunt
to Vorderschluder. His first stop was the castle. He
found Ruprecht with Hedwig in the garden. Her
wheelchair stood under a wild vine arbor.
Maurerwenzel slept in the arbor’s shade. Frau
Hedwig walked, leaning on Ruprecht’s arm and a
cane, slowly in bright sunlight. Two rose hedges
lined their path.
A miracle had occurred.
Schiereisen honored it by not mentioning it. He
doffed his hat, waiting until they turned and saw him.
Hedwig started… Schiereisen saw her grip
Ruprecht’s arm tighter.
“Herr Schiereisen is back,” Ruprecht murmured.
“Herr Schiereisen… will you hear him, Hedwig? …
It’s better…”
“No… no… I’ll hear him now. I must know.
Mustn’t I?” She put on a brave, resolute face.
“Well, then… if she wishes… You can speak,
Schiereisen. I’ve told her everything; she knows all.”
Schiereisen still held his hat. His broad skull
arched powerfully, eyes shadowed under strong
brows.
“Have you found a trace…?” Ruprecht asked, as
Schiereisen didn’t speak at once.
“They’re not yet caught, but they’re ours. They’re
still on the Atlantic.”
“And how did you…? Speak. See, we’re prepared
and can hear it all.”
“It wasn’t entirely easy… though they clearly
didn’t expect pursuit. They’d have been more
cautious otherwise. Why bore you with details? They
headed to Le Havre, after various zigzags that cost us
some effort.”
“And then they boarded a ship?”
“Yes… we arrived too late to stop them. But it’s
hard to hide today… wireless telegraphy, you know?
We sent a Marconi telegram at once, and they’ll
return on the next steamer.”
“Him too? Have you had him arrested as well?”
Schiereisen donned his Panama hat, his face now
shadowed. “No…” he said hesitantly, “not him…
why? We… please, stay calm, gracious lady. We
were too late… for your husband. It’s not our fault.”
“My God… what are you saying… he’s…”
“Yes… he met with misfortune, gracious lady. In
his hotel… they weren’t staying together, and
Helmina… likely to mislead any pursuers, if
followed… he took his own life in his room…
poisoned.”
Hedwig let out a soft cry and closed her eyes. So
this was the end.
“You don’t believe it, Schiereisen!” Ruprecht said
after a pause. He’d reflected, feeling unvarnished
truth would heal more than this notion, which he saw
spawning subtle torments of conscience for Hedwig.
“Tell us honestly what you think.”
“You’re right, Herr Baron! I don’t believe it. It
was all cleverly done. But Fritz Gegely had no reason
to kill himself. And… we know he withdrew nearly
his entire fortune from his Vienna bank. He carried it,
not wanting to transfer it to America and betray
himself. Well… all the money’s gone…”
Hedwig, shuddering with horror, threw herself
against Ruprecht’s chest. He stood still, his arms
gently, protectively around her neck. A freeing sob
rose from her depths, a releasing weep… her
trembling fingers calmed, nestling trustingly against
his shoulders. He looked straight ahead… gravely
into the future.
“Now we must face the trial…” he said softly,
“the trial and all that. We must…” He turned his gaze
to Schiereisen. “Tell Herr von Zaugg I’m ready to
vacate the castle anytime. Anytime! His claims are
sacred to me. I’ve always seen myself as a steward
here. I’ll stay as long as he wishes… to hand over the
estate in good order. Meanwhile, I’ll find something
in my homeland… ground that’s mine…” He bent to
Hedwig again.
She raised her head. Fear and horror lingered on
her pale face, but Schiereisen saw a timid tenderness
in Ruprecht’s gaze soften it all.
He turned and walked slowly from the castle
garden, past where Jana was found, through the gate
Helmina had fled. A certainty flowed in him like a
broad, calm river: these two were good and tightly
bound; no turmoil or pain, no upheaval ahead, could
shake their happiness, radiant with the future.
He paused on the bridge beside the stone John,
gazing into the water. And smiled…
One could forgo the bit of thanks perhaps earned.

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Alraune by Hanns Heinz Ewers and translated by Joe E Bandel

He nodded, but she fell silent again.
“So,” he began, “did you read the leather bound volume?”
“Yes,” she said.
She took a deep breath, looked at him.
“So, am I only a joke that you once made, Frank Braun?”
“A joke?” he returned. “–An–idea, if you will–”
“And I suppose it was funny enough,” she laughed out loud. But
that’s not why I waited here for you. I want to know something
entirely different. Tell me. Do you believe it?”
“Do I believe what?” he answered. “If everything happened like
Uncle relates in the leather bound volume? Yes, I believe that.”
She shook her head impatiently. “No, that’s not what I mean.
Naturally that is true–why would he lie in his book?–I want to know
whether you also believe–like my–my–that is–your uncle did–That I
am a different type of creature, different from other people, that I–am
now, that I am, what my name implies?”
“How shall I reply to your question?” he said. “Ask any medical
doctor–he will certainly say that you are just as good a human being
as anyone else in the world, even if your first appearance was a little
unusual–He would add, that all the other details are pure coincidence
and unimportant, the–”
“That means nothing to me,” she interrupted.
“For your uncle these little details were most important.
Basically it doesn’t matter if they are or not. I want to know if you
share his opinion? Do you believe as well that I am a strange
creature?”
He remained silent, searched for a reply, didn’t know how he
should respond. He did believe it–and then again he didn’t–
“You see–” he began finally.
“Speak,” she urged. “Do you believe that I am your insolent
joke–that took form? Your idea, which the old Privy Councilor threw
into his crucible, which he cooked and distilled, until something came
out that now sits before you?”
This time he didn’t hesitate, “If you put it that way, yes, that’s
what I believe.”
She laughed softly, “I thought so–and that’s why I waited up for
you tonight, to cure you of this vanity as soon as possible. No, cousin,
you didn’t throw this idea into the world, not you–not any more than
the old Privy Councilor did.”
He didn’t understand her.
“Then who did?” he asked.
She reached under the pillow with her hand.
“This did!” she cried.
She lightly tossed the little alraune into the air and caught it
again, caressed it lovingly with nervous fingers.
“That there? Why that?” he asked.
She gave back, “Did you think about it earlier–before the day the
Legal Councilor celebrated the communion of the two children?”
“No,” he replied. “Certainly not.”
But then this thing fell down from the wall, that was when the
idea came to you! Isn’t that true?”
“Yes,” he confessed. “That is how it was.”
“Now then,” she continued, “so the idea came from outside
somewhere and entered into you. It was when Attorney Manasse gave
his lecture, when he recited like a school book and explained to all of
you what this little alraune was and what it meant–That’s when the
idea grew in your brain. It became so large and so strong that you
found the strength to suggest it to your uncle, to persuade him to carry
it out, to create me.
Then, if I am only an idea that came into the world and took on
human form, it is also true that you, Frank Braun, were only an agent,
an instrument–no more than the Privy Councilor or his assistant
doctor. No different than–”
She hesitated, fell silent, but only for a moment. Then she
continued–
“than the prostitute, Alma and the rapist-murderer whom you all
coupled–you and Death!”
She laid the little alraune on the silk cushions, looked at it with
an almost loving glance and said,” You are my father: You are my
mother. You are what created me.”
He looked at her.
“Perhaps it was so,” he thought.
Ideas whirl through the air, like the pollen from flowers and play
around before finally sinking into someone’s brain. Often they waste
away there, spoil and die–Only a few find good rich soil–
“Perhaps she is right,” he thought.
His brain had always been a fertile planting place for all kinds of
foolishness and abstruse fantasies. It seemed the same to him, whether
he was the one that once threw the seed of this idea into the world–or
whether he was the fertile earth that had received it.
But he remained silent, left her with her thought. He glanced
over at her, a child, playing with her doll. She slowly stood up, not
letting the little manikin out of her hands.
“There is something else I want to tell you,” she spoke softly.
“But first I want to thank you for it, for giving me the leather bound
volume and not burning it.”
“What is it?” he asked.
She interrupted herself.
“Should I kiss you?” she asked. “I could kiss–”
“Was that all you wanted to say, Alraune?” he said.
She replied, “No, not that!–I only thought I would like to kiss
you once. Just in case–But first I want to tell you this, why I waited.
Go away!”
He bit his lips, “Why?”
“Because–because it would be better,” she answered, “for you–
perhaps for me as well. But it doesn’t depend on that–I now know
how things are–am now enlightened, and I think that things will
continue to go as they have–only, I will not be running around blindly
anymore–Now I see everything. Soon–soon it will be your turn, and
that’s why it would be better if you left.”
“Are you so certain of this?” he asked.
“Don’t I need to be?”
He shrugged his shoulders, “Perhaps, I don’t know. But tell me,
why do you want to do this for me?”
“I like you,” she said quietly. “You have been good to me.”
He laughed, “Weren’t the others as well?”
“Yes,” she answered. “They all were. But I didn’t see it. And
they–all of them–they loved me–you don’t–not yet.”
She went to the writing desk, took a postcard and gave it to him.
“Here is a postcard from your mother. It came earlier this
evening; the servant brought it up with my mail by mistake. I read it.
Your mother is ill–She very much begs you to come back to her.”
He took the postcard, stared in front of him undecided. He knew
that they were right, both of them, could feel it, that it was foolishness
to remain here. Then a boyish defiance seized him that screamed out,
“No! No!”
“Will you go?” she asked.
He forced himself, spoke with a determined voice, “Yes,
cousin!”
He looked at her sharply, watched every line of her face
searching for some movement, a little tug at the corners of her mouth,
a little sigh would have been enough, some something that showed
him her regret. But she remained quiet and serious. No breath moved
on her inflexible mask.
That vexed him, wounded him, seemed like an affront and an
insult to him. He pressed his lips solidly together.
“Not like this,” he thought. “I won’t go like this.”
She came up to him, reached out her hand to him.
“Good,” she said. “Good–Now I will go. I can give you a
goodbye kiss if you want.”
A sudden fire flickered in his eyes at that.
Without even wanting to, he said, “Don’t do it Alraune. Don’t do
it!”
And his voice took on her own tone.
She raised her head and quickly asked, “Why not?”
Again he used her words, but she sensed that it was on purpose.
“I like you, Alraune,” he said. “You have been good to me
today–many red lips have kissed my mouth–and they became very
pale. Now–now, it would be your turn. That is why it would be better
if you didn’t kiss me!”
They stood facing each other; their eyes glowed hard as steel.
Unnoticed, a smile played on his lips. His weapon was bright and
sharp. Now she could choose. Her “No” would be his victory and her
defeat–then he could go with a light heart. But her “Yes” would mean
war and she felt it–the same way he did. It was like that very first
evening, exactly the same, only that time was the beginning and
opening round. There had still been hope for several other rounds in
the duel. But now–it was the end. He was the one that had thrown the
glove–
She took him up on it.
“I am not afraid,” she spoke.
He fell silent and the smile died on his lips–Now it was serious.
“I want to kiss you,” she repeated.
He said, “Be careful! I will kiss you back.”
She held his gaze–“Yes,” she said–Then she smiled.
“Sit down, you are a little too tall for me!”
“No,” he cried out loudly. “Not like that.”
He went to the wide divan, laid down on it, buried his head in the
cushions, stretched his arms out wide on both sides, closed his eyes.
“Now, come Alraune!” he cried.
She stepped closer, kneeled by his hips, hesitated, looked at him,
then suddenly threw herself down onto him, seized his head, pressed
her lips on his. He didn’t embrace her, didn’t move his arms. But his
fingers tightened into fists. He felt her tongue, the light bite of her
teeth.
“Kiss harder,” he whispered. “Kiss harder.”
Red fog lay before his eyes. He heard the Privy Councilor’s
repulsive laugh, saw the large piercing eyes of Frau Gontram, how
she begged little Manasse to explain the little alraune to her. He heard
the giggling of the two celebrants, Olga and Frieda, and the broken,
yet still beautiful voice of Madame de Vére singing “Les Papillons”,
saw the small Hussar Lieutenant listening eagerly to the attorney, saw
Karl Mohnen, as he wiped the little alraune with the large napkin–
“Kiss harder!” he murmured.
And Alma–her mother, red like a burning torch, snow-white
breasts with tiny blue veins, and the execution of her father–as Uncle
Jakob had described it in his leather bound volume–Out of the mouth
of the princess–And the hour, in which the old man created her–and
the other, in which his doctor brought her into this world–
“Kiss me,” he moaned, “Kiss me.”
He drank her kisses, sucked the hot blood from his lips, which
her teeth had torn, and he became intoxicated, knowingly and
intentionally, as if from champagne or his oriental narcotics–
“Enough,” he said suddenly, “enough, you don’t know what you
are doing.”
At that she pressed her curls more tightly against his forehead,
her kisses became hotter and more wild. Now the clear thoughts of
day lay shattered, now came the dreams, swelling on a blood red
ocean, now the Maenad swung her thyrsos and he frothed in the holy
frenzy of Dionysus.
“Kiss me,” he screamed.
But she released him, let her arms sink. He opened his eyes,
looked at her.
“Kiss me!” he repeated softly.
Her eyes glazed over, her breath came in short pants. Slowly she
shook her head. At that he sprang up.
“Then I will kiss you,” he cried.
He lifted her up in his arms, threw her down struggling onto the
divan, knelt down–there, right where she had knelt.
“Close your eyes,” he whispered and he bent down–
Good, his kisses were good–caressing and soft, like a harp
played on a summer night, wild too, yes, and raw, like a storm wind
blowing over the North sea. They burned red-hot like the fiery breath
out of mount Aetna, ravishing and consuming like the vortex of a
maelstrom–
“It’s pulling me under,” she felt, “pulling me into it.”
But then the spark struck and burning flames shot high into the
heavens, the burning torch flew, ignited the altar, and with bloody
jowls the wolf sprang into the sanctuary.
She embraced him, pressed herself tightly to his breast–I’m
burning–she exalted–I’m burning–at that, he tore the clothes from her
body.
The sun that woke her was high in the sky. She saw that she was
lying there completely naked, but didn’t cover herself. She turned her
head, saw him sitting up right next to her–naked like she was.
She asked, “Will you be leaving today?”
“Is that what you want, that I should leave?” he gave back.
“Stay,” she whispered. “Stay!”

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