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Duality-The Female
Now the fun begins! Let’s take the information in chapter one and
replace it with its natural opposite. Where death is mentioned use
birth instead. Where spiritual is mentioned use material instead. In
short, create a document that reflects the opposite type of ego and
personality development than described in chapter one.
As a theory suppose this “opposite” type of ego development
reflects the normal developmental process for females. Let’s see if this
is feasible and of interest. Remember, the feminine nature exists
within all of us, male and female.
As a study of duality we will presume “Duality-The Male” reflects
the normal process of personality development in males. This is just
an exercise to see what happens and is not to be taken too seriously.
“Duality-The Male” does represent the known stages of ego and
personality development known through mystery schools of the past.
Trying to create an “unknown” or “hidden” opposite type of ego and
personality development is a study in the concept of duality. “If
something is true, it’s opposite must also be true.”
No offense is intended. It is hoped additional insight into the
dynamics of male/female interactions may be discovered. It is also
intended as an aid in the perception of duality and the energy
dynamics within male/female relationships and love in general. With
this viewpoint the female is born with Goddess awareness having an
intuitive perception of all things. She is born “psychic”.
Neophyte Degree
As a child she has the ability to easily express herself with words.
Everyone is struck by her innocence and perceptiveness and they
listen to what she has to say. She wants to share her Goddess
perspective with others. Her words sting with truth. She is a Goddess
within a child’s body and understands all things are possible. Good
things can happen to everyone. She is optimistic and has the ability to
do what ever she wants.
Intuitively she knows all karma resolves itself in the end. She can
be carefree. As a teenager it is easy and natural to rebel against
socially acceptable behavior. Her parents become alarmed and36
restrain her unmercifully to no avail. She learns to manipulate people
and pull their strings to get what she wants.
Emotionally she has no strongly focused personal desires. She flits
from one thing to the next in seconds and has everything she really
wants. She feels joy and happiness as each wish is fulfilled. Life is
good and she knows her desires will come true. It is hard to wait.
There is no strong concept of time and the days blur together.
She dreams about her future life and what she will be when she
grows up. She wants to be a bride and marry a prince. She has total
control over her destiny at this point. With her Goddess awareness she
can create the life she chooses. She is in control. Her intuition is
highly developed and she can see how long term goals will work out.
It is important she has a dream to inspire her to greater things.
Intuitively she knows there is no right or wrong. All things are
potentials for exploration. She goes against her parents and gets others
in trouble. She keeps secrets. There is apathy and depression because
of an inability to choose only one direction out of the many that are
pulling her in different ways. She might have trouble getting started
but still she finds great joy and pride in the accomplishments of
others.
Culture, religion, and philosophical concepts are very confusing.
She appears very naive. Everything seems to go against her inner
nature and is not harmonious. She is told how to think and how to act
and she resents it. She rebels and rejects authority. The elders are
blind, they don’t understand what she sees with her Goddess
perception.
People are born, animals are born, plants grow from seeds. She is
fascinated that one day she will be able to give birth. What will it be
like? Where does the baby come from? How can the miracle of birth
be? It seems unreal. Will it hurt her?
Her parents and society tell her sex is bad but how can it be bad if it
produces babies? She intuits that sex is a need for a full life. With the
beginning of her periods sex becomes a portion of her life that can not
be ignored. The same is true for the mood swings that surge like
waves through her.
Zelator Degree37
She discovers that by appealing to others she can achieve physical
goals easily. Everyone wants to please her. All nature appears
bountiful and cooperative. There is enough for everyone. All she can
do is good and she is impersonal love. She has light feelings of
innocence and worthiness.
She is naive and tries weakly to enter into physical life. She is in
her early teens, the Goddess awareness is withdrawing. She reacts to
physical and emotional stimulus. She is turning her back on the
Goddess within and facing an exciting and unknown world with
mental awareness.
She notices others are fascinated by her body. She can wrap them
around her finger by teasing them and flirting. She admires her body
and seeks to be more beautiful. She spends her days in joy,
experimentation, and curiosity loving herself. She is becoming more
of a Goddess.
Nature and the world surround her with life, vitality, and sensuality.
She identifys with it. She rejects her spiritual nature and accepts
physical life. She has to live. Life is a joy and a reward. She can do
anything. All things are possible. She identifies with a physical
sensual body and a sharp inquisitive mind.
Mind and body are highly integrated. Her connection with the
Goddess awareness is mental. She doesn’t need to think about it
anymore. There is a sense of belonging and companionship in social
activities. Her intellect is brilliant. As she withdraws from her
Goddess awareness she looses her source of spiritual energy. Spiritual
growth can no longer be done alone.
She doesn’t always get her way in things and gets into trouble. As
her spiritual energy leaves, she becomes increasingly involved in wild
emotional currents. Her mental clarity suffers and her intellect and
reasoning ability gradually drop as they are overwhelmed by the
emotions.
She will seek company, laugh with good companions, and enjoy
the delights of the world. As she begins to deliberately use people she
has less compassion, becomes cold hearted and lonelier.
Practicus Degree
In spite of all efforts she looses contact with her spiritual Goddess38
awareness as she grows older. At the end of this cycle there is not
even an intuition connection. What she is left with is her intellect.
At the beginning of this cycle she mentally identifies with the
spiritual Goddess, but opens herself to embrace all things. This is true
Goddess love. She acts through instinct.
With the beginning of her periods she begins to recognize the
physical nature in herself. All options are explored to the fullest. She
loves herself and the whole world. Her body rejoices with eagerness.
Everything is right. She has entered the physical realm and the
Goddess is still supreme as an ideal although unreachable.
The body obeys the mind. She has all the answers and understands
all things or thinks that she does. All is self-evident. There is stability
and peace. She has no expectations. Everything is new and fresh. All
is fulfillment. This is the first half of this degree.
The second half is more difficult. She moves from a position of
empowerment to a position of weakness. As sensuality and the
emotions become stronger, her spiritual Goddess nature is dismissed
carelessly. There is great joy in freedom. Everything is fresh and
clear. No intellectual fog. She identifies more and more with her body
and her physical environment.
Her body can’t be wrong. It knows what is good for it or not good
for it. Everything is clear. The body can deal with anything that
comes along. She trusts her body over reason. Her body can get her
things that her reason can’t.
This birth of body consciousness alters her thought processes.
Abstract symbols become difficult and unimportant. She uses words,
emotions and body language. Her new body awareness is strange and
she feels timid and shy, uncertain.
The physical self becomes unhindered in its attempts at self
expression. It rushes forward in total control. She feels weak and
powerless. All is against her. There is no power. She has a great
desire to accomplish great things and become somebody at any cost.
She plunges recklessly and joyously down the steep incline into
sensual materialism totally forsaking all spiritual values.
Philosophus Degree
Having broken her connection with Goddess she feels apprehension39
and sorrow at her sudden exposure to a hostile and threatening world.
She does not feel safe and secure anymore.
This begins the birth of the lower human ego because the physical
world and the emotional world are more real than the spiritual one.
There is a sense that all is chaotic and she is beset with cares and
worries that are all too real and clear. Everything is too real and too
physical. There is no escape from the present moment. This is the first
eye opening exposure to the true terrors and delights of the material
world. There is no more innocence, only awakening.
This is a totally new experience and a great sense of apprehension
and sadness is felt in the fear of loosing one’s self completely in
sensuality and materialism. There is the lure of becoming lost in the
pleasures and sorrows of the present moment.
She is hesitant in using her imagination since she has so little
spiritual and mental energy of her own. It is much harder than before
and no longer comes naturally. Even though she carefully chooses her
experiences she just seems to get in deeper and deeper and can’t
escape. She might use drugs to escape from the pressures of
unrelenting reality.
The physical, sensual life seductively lures her with promises of
great treasures and rewards. More and more time is spent in physical
pursuits until all of her energy and free time is caught up in physical
life and in the present moment. She controls others like puppets.
Mentally she identifies herself as a physical Goddess. Sensual
pursuits are fun and she explores the mystery of toil and virtue of
labor. Her earth energies are turned toward relaxation, social life, and
enjoyment. Total hedonism is the only way to truly experience all of
life.
She is in a process of devolution and stagnation and so is
everything else. She does one thing after another and nothing seems
to satisfy. She is becoming jaded and seeks meaning in life. Little by
little she learns about the world through experience and sensation.
There is no spot for her to fill or path to follow. Everything becomes
meaningless.
At some point she has a dramatic change of viewpoint. She is
loosing the ability to be a co-creator. Her personal energy is almost
used up. Unless she receives energy from someone else she will
retreat into a life of dull drudgery. If she is not married she begins
looking. The biological clock is ticking. She can’t do this alone. She
needs a partner.
Her whole attitude remains self centered. She thinks of herself and40
how to get the things she wants in life. Others come second. This is a
time of total selfishness. Mental abilities are at an all-time low and
she is ruled by emotions and instincts. She will use people ruthlessly
to get the objects of her desire. She will find a suitable partner
through cold calculation if need be.
Adeptus Minor Degree
The entire world spreads out before her in richness and splendor. She
can carve out of it what she will. For the first time in her life she feels
like she can reach out and make a life for herself, an empire or a
family.
She is ready to act and knows what to do. She can use people as she
wishes to achieve what she wants. It is her dream, her empire that is
important now. Her self-centeredness is absolute and her discipline is
tremendous. She can accomplish great things. There is no mental
hesitation or uncertainty. She can see with clarity exactly what needs
to be done to get what she wants. She is a master and creator.
Her body can create life. She is surrounded with life and vitality.
All seems familiar and safe. The world is an ecstasy of joy, color,
sound and beautiful forms. All is sacred. There is nothing to think
about. It is all here right now. Life is self-evident.
She is the Goddess-a force of nature-unstoppable. She understands
the karmic need for excitement, thrills, and life vitality. Also she
understands the need for ruthlessness and violence.
When harmony becomes too dull and monotonous she livens things
up. She gives inspiration to others. She takes what she needs and
others let her have it. She controls people like puppets. She is
intoxicated with power and is on fire for more and more. She is
especially given control over the men in her life and able to direct
them and use them to achieve her goals. They are willing to give her
what she needs and she is willing to accept. She lives entirely in the
present moment.
Adeptus Major Degree
At this point she must confront and balance out any karma she41
created in previous years. This is a final harvest and accounting where
results come back to her. Her motive power is gone completely. If she
has good karma coming, this time will be a blessing as others come
through for her. They now repay her kindness in full and give her
energy and vitality.
If she has bad karma she must pay it back, loosing all she holds
dear leaving only pain and sorrow. She identifys with the emotional
and astral worlds of sense and feeling. She is riding a wave she has no
control over. There is no reason for manipulation and control games.
Those were in the past. She is living the results of past actions and she
knows it.
She becomes uninhibited and careless of ideals. She experiences
pure desire, emotion, and thought getting caught up in the intensity of
the present moment, but she remains bound by her karmic chains.
Instead of confronting her karmic chains, she may refuse and do
anything to escape reality including drug and alcohol abuse. She is
desperate to get relief from the stress of the moment regardless of
consequences. She is blinded by her ego. This is where the most
harmful karma is generated.
There is no escape and there comes a time when she gives in and
accepts the consequences that are coming to her. In owning her
responsibility for what is happening an important shift of awareness
takes place.
She believes she alone is real, she is the Goddess. She experiences
the physical realms in their entirety and has an elemental awareness of
things. This is her peak in life. She is forced to confront her karmic
chains and becomes a slave to it. She is sucked into the karma she
created and works to become free. This is an important period of
service. She learns to reach out to others forgetting about herself as
she works out her karma. She has become a mother.
She forsakes the material world and tries to plunge into spiritual
salvation through living for others. To her horror the spiritual planes
are denied to her unless others give her their energy. She becomes
dependent on others. She struggles to escape her karmic bonds.
Physical sensuality takes the form of intense sorrow and physical
agony as she suffers under her burden. Life is seen as a great sorrow
that brings only death. The intense disharmony is not tolerable and
she fears for her sanity.
In one way this may be seen as the burdens and demands of
motherhood and child nurturing. There is a balance of both good and42
bad things happening and she is changed forever.
Adeptus Exemptus Degree
If giving birth is an initiation motherhood is an even greater initiation.
Watching your children grow up and being there for them is very
powerful. The Adeptus Exemptus has mastered being a good mother
to her children.
Here she offers material things to her family without thought of self
or personal gain. She is fulfilling her karma. She is compassion and
feeling for those she loves, nothing else. She is reaching out to all
things within her home with no thought of self. She sees everything,
hears everything, and talks constantly. She is totally consumed by this
role of being a mother.
She longs for the spiritual life and rebirth of the Goddess ego but
this time in the mother aspect. She is drawn uncontrollably toward the
spiritual levels. As the last of her karma resolves itself, her longing
flings her toward total union with spiritual Goddess awareness once
more. This is full realization of what being a mother really means.
She becomes a matriarch. There is an interesting distinction between
this level as a male and this level as a female. Most females attain to
motherhood and to this grade of ego development. Few males ever
reach their corresponding level of development.
Magister Templi Degree
It has been said there are three great stages in a woman’s life. These
are the three faces of the Goddess, Maid,Mother and Crone. For the
male the Magister Templi Degree involves crossing the Great Abyss
and the destruction of the false ego. For the female the Great Abyss is
entering the Crone stage. Her child bearing years are done and she is
known for her great wisdom.
It is in entering this stage that she is able to develop a strong ego
for herself and finally turn toward her own needs and dreams. She has
lived so long for other people that living for herself can be a strange
and uncomfortable change. It is new and not comfortable.43
She remembers being a maid and being a mother. Now she is once
more developing a global perspective. She understands fully what it is
to be a woman and is able to help those younger than her get through
tough times. She is Mother Nature.
She becomes a great spiritual sea that embraces all the tiny drops
that are others. She is the empty space that supports the stars. She is
an illusion, only real through the actions of others. She is illusion and
all else is real. She supports the entire cosmos. She seeks harmony
and stability. She is inseparable from life. Life is action, she is
reaction. She is order, Life is chaos, together they create all things.
Magus Degree
It is in this degree the female reconnects with her Goddess and
spiritual nature. She regains the wisdom and insight she had as a small
child. She does this by once more being around small children. Her
children have grown and left the nest. But she has grandchildren.
She feels the emptiness and comes to terms with it. This is not only
a death but a rebirth for her. She lets go of her children and embraces
her own inner child once more. She watches her children become
parents and struggle just as she has struggled. As painful as it is to
watch others suffer she knows they must be allowed to find their own
way.
When asked she has much valuable knowledge to share. The
children really love her and feel close to her. The circle of life is
complete and she understands. Her own children need to be allowed
to experience and learn through their own mistakes and efforts.
Perhaps for the first time she can understand the need for tough
love as she interacts with her grandchildren. The female finds
spirituality through the biology of life and love. It is not an abstract
spiritual light found in a church or through prayer. Spirituality comes
through the love that is shared with friends and family. It comes and
is given through a hug or through service to others. It is warm and it
bleeds when it is hurt. That is what spirituality is.44
Ipsissimus Degree
Spiritual light is only accessible through the physical worlds and
physical man. She must journey back to the Priestess- to become a
child before she finds fulfillment. The Ipsissimus Degree completes
the journey of ego development for the female. The circle is complete
and once more she has regained her Goddess nature and her spiritual
power.
In this chapter we explored an alternate version of ego development
and spirituality much different than what is commonly accepted. This
path is the path of biology and physicality.
It is the path of life giving birth to life with the challenges and the
joys such a path brings. The spiritual path for the female lies through
the physical world as maid, mother, crone and leading to death.
This is a path of family and a path of service to humanity. The path
of parenthood is not as natural for the male but it is just as important.
One of the things the female can do in this degree is understand and
help the males in her life to understand this path and learn to value it.
At the same time having traveled her own path she becomes free to
gain an understanding of the male path and grow in that type of
spirituality as well.
In summary we might consider the male path of development as the
path of creating something out of nothing. The male takes an idea and
manifests it in the physical world. This is also called creating heaven
on earth. Doing this makes him a creator or God.
The female path of development is to bring Gods and Goddesses
into physical life and to become a Goddess herself. Her body has the
wisdom and ability to do this.
The irony is that very few males successfully reach the highest
stages of ego development and spirituality. They become stuck at
some lower level and can’t continue. Many are not able to bring their
dreams into physical manifestation. Not many males can become
Gods or creators.
All most all females can achieve the roles of maid, mother and
crone. They can feel the power of mother’s love and the sorrows that
come with it. All females can become Goddesses. Some just do it
better than others. Some are able to achieve this without giving birth
to children. They will give birth to family.