Forest, Ghost, Gothic, Horror, Scary, Fear, Spooky

There was a huge stumbling block that I had to get over before admitting to myself the reality of non-physical entities. I was convinced that non-physical bodies could exist while also having a living physical body. I had permanently activated my own! I just couldn’t accept the idea of their being able to exist and be aware without having a physical body of some type. That changed when I realized that they could have physical bodies created out of the noble gases. It would explain a lot! It also explained how I could have so many experiences dealing with ghosts or the spirits of people no longer living. I didn’t want to go there, but I have no choice.

But such elemental bodies still needed to be sustained in some way and I had already stumbled upon that. They could be sustained by a connection to the spiritual light or solar energies; they could be sustained by the belief of followers as in the great religions and the charismatic public idols of politics or Hollywood; and they could be sustained through a predatory type of vampirism.

Again in my recent Aurum Solis work where I was daily working to harmonize myself with the solar energies a line from some text struck me. It spoke of the solar deity as being in conflict with the evil serpent and I was reminded of the Star Wars type channeled material telling of the ongoing battle over Gaia by the Galactic Federation or forces of light and the Orion group or reptilians or forces of evil.

I will say that over the years I have had astral encounters with both groups and neither one has the best interests of Gaia in mind as far as I’m concerned. The Galactic Federation types apparently sustained their higher level non-physical bodies through the spiritual light and solar energies as well as followers or celebrities. The Orion groups apparently sustained their lower level non-physical bodies through either followers and celebrities or some type of predatory vampirism. Both used celebrities and politics to sway the public mind and manipulate the masses.

Members of the Orion group incarnated in physical bodies are Rational Atheists. Members of the Galactic Federation incarnated in physical bodies are Social Enforcers. Both types of souls are not native to Gaia and lack the foundational root connection to physically manifest things. They lack common sense and the bond to the vital life force of all living things on Gaia. So both groups need the original humans or Organic Gnostics to do the dirty work for them. The problem is that the original humans, the Organic Gnostics, have now evolved to the point of demanding their own freedom to create their own lives. They demand to follow their own dreams and their own consciences.

Organic Gnostics are now in a position to experience full spectrum life for the first time and neither the Orion Group nor the Galactic Federation appear able to wrap their heads around this. The Orion group has been forced out of the lower levels which they controlled for so long because the vibrations there have risen so high, and the Galactic Federation has been forced into the mental energies because of their inability to integrate the Shadow aspect of their own souls. Let me say this another way. The Orion group can’t vampire low level energies any more and the Galactic Federation is caught in a paradox fighting their own Shadows, which is a battle they can never win.

The Soul Machine

Face, Ghost, Forest, Mystical, Mysterious, Spirit

Sometimes I am amazed at how trapped I have become in my own beliefs or those beliefs that I have been poisoned with through society. It is only by breaking out of the box that some self evident truths manage to sink into my thick skull!

I’ve just finished reading two very comprehensive and fascinating books by Cornell University professor George Makari, “Soul Machine” and “Revolution in Mind”. These two books have given me an excellent overview of the historical foundations of modern thought on both sides of the mind/soul debate. In addition I’ve been going back over my Rosicrucian studies from the very beginning to try and sift more understanding from them.

When these activities combined with my ongoing magickal studies with the Aurum Solis and the Order of Bards, Ovates & Druids it became a volatile mix indeed and I’m gaining lots of insights and making connections that I could have made a long time ago if I had not been stuck in my own box.

My recent posts about non-physical bodies is an example. I have permanently activated these bodies and live in both worlds all the time. I have personally experienced several encounters with the dead and dying. Why am I still trying to justify their existence? Even the ancients realized and said that we are both physical body and soul. It was the great mystery and we are still trying to prove that we are one or the other and not both at the same time!

I even posted a video that I found about the horn torus shape which shows one way that we can be both cosmic and in one spot at the same time. Science already tells us that photons sometimes act like waves and other times like particles so why can’t we do the same? The Reciprocal Systems theory of Dewey Larson which I’ve written so much about over the years also says that all things including us exist simultaneously in two universes, that of space/time and it’s reciprocal time/space. Our awareness is both within our physical bodies and extends throughout the entire cosmos at the same time! It follows the simple expansion/contraction cycle of vibratory energy.

I’ve been talking about it but I’ve never made the leap off the cliff! It’s time to make that leap and move on to other things that involve these non-physical bodies and how to use them.

It was a recent exercise in the Aurum Solstice that really triggered me. There is a meditation called “Rousing of the Citadels” which energizes the six major chakras and calls upon various deities for each particular energy center. What struck me is that essentially it was almost the same meditation as my own energy ball and portal meditation! But what was different was that my portal meditation merges the energy centers together directly and this meditation uses mental associations to do the same thing!

That is when the light bulb came on! All of these magickal and mystical systems are using mental associations to create an artificial and symbolic bridge from one type of energy to another. My mind flashed back to 1995 when I was involved in the OTO and the study of the Holy Kabbalah when I had a vivid dream of myself and other members of the OTO moving downward through the planes from above the Great Abyss. Each one of them had shaped their souls in the form of a Kabbalistic lightning bolt as they moved from the higher levels down to the lower levels. But my path downward was like a sheet of glass or light. While their path moved in a zig-zag fashion from Sephiroth to Sephiroth my path moved progressively and smoothly like a wave across a football field from one element to the next by the simple addition of another electron and proton! My path was progressive and scientific while their path was associative and symbolic!

So I think it is time to move on to the subject of these astral or non-physical bodies, how they are created and how they sustain themselves. There is no longer any need to try proving that they exist. I’ve broken out of the prison of my own creation!

Halloween, Terror, Ghost, Night, Darkness, Fantasy

Since I opened up this Pandora’s box I might as well go all the way. In all my posts I’ve skirted around the idea of directly coming out and saying that non-physical bodies exist and that awareness may remain in them after the death of the physical body. But personal experience, the teachings of the mystery schools and the stories of myth and the personal experiences of others lead me to the point where I must say that I believe it is possible for human awareness to continue to exist after the death of the physical body and that the ancients knew this as well!

In fact, it was the most precious goal of the mystery schools to instruct their students on what to do to develop their souls to the point where personal awareness could continue to exist after the death of the physical body. That is why religions spoke about the soul and the afterlife or reincarnation.

The Egyptian Book of the Dead and the Tibetan Book of the Dead both speak of three gates which the soul may pass through after the death of the physical body. There is a gate for the Organic Gnostic, a gate for the Rational Atheist and one for the Social Enforcer! There is also a fourth in which the personality may not survive but the heart and the love in the heart may continue on into other life times.

The highest gate is that of the Organic Gnostic or true mystic that is able to experience the mystical state of Unity, of being one with all that is. This is the Hydrogen level of Abstract Spiritual energies. This is the highest level to which humans can attain while in physical bodies.

The second gate is that of the Rational Atheists or of the Human Collective. This group of souls gathers around a spiritual teacher or Messiah who creates a religion into which these souls can belong. Without that teacher or Messiah these souls would not be able to hold themselves together. They find meaning in belonging to the same collective. This is the Helium level of Concrete Spiritual energies and archetypal realities.

The third and lowest gate of the three is that of the Social Enforcers and it is not the human personality that survives the death of the physical body, but what is called the reincarnating ego or Higher Self. This involves the Abstract Mental energies and the creative and philosophical energies. This is what is probably most common in the human population.

But there is a fourth gate of the pure heart and of the heart that is filled with love which allows love to find itself over and over again. This is the level of the Concrete Mental energies and that of my pet Luci who died a year ago last spring. Love will be drawn to loved ones lifetime after lifetime. The heart knows.

But there is a point to this post. If the above is true and I believe it is true, then it is of vital importance that individual awareness be able to energetically hold itself together upon the death of the physical body! Those that identify exclusively with the physical body will be at a great disadvantage upon the death of their physical body! Their sense of self or personal ego will not have enough strength to energetically hold itself together!

Not only is the need for a strong sense of self and a strong ego required for mental and emotional health, but it is also required for the transition of awareness into an energy body upon the death of the physical body!

Those who actively seek the wiping out and destruction of the ego and sense of self are committing crimes against humanity of the deepest kind! It is a spiritual crime against the soul and those materialists who preach and advocate such beliefs must be called out for it! The materialists and atheists are wrong, and their belief causes deep harm and injury to the human race! It is time to come out and say, “This is wrong! The soul does exist!”

Woman, Face, Light Painting, Light, Girl, Beauty

This post is unplanned but seems a natural followup on my last few posts. To me it feels a lot like coming out of the closet and openly stating that I believe in non-physical bodies and the soul. But this post goes beyond what I’ve written before and beyond the Great White Brotherhood.

There are beings and entities with physical bodies and without physical bodies that have permanently activated their etheric bodies. They have created what is known as the “immortal physical body”. But this non-physical body needs to be sustained by lots and lots of energy. These souls or entities fall into three different categories and I will write about each one individually.

The divine human like gods and goddesses of various traditions were once human and lived lives that were larger than life. After the death of their physical bodies their awareness lived on and they drew energy from those that worshiped them to sustain their etheric bodies. This is how stars and celebrities sustain their own etheric bodies, by the energy that they receive from their followers. Jesus in Christianity in the same way draws his energy from his followers as well as from SOURCE. Most saints and spiritual teachers empower their etheric bodies from the energies of their students and followers. But normally this is an energy exchange that is willingly done for the sense of love and peace the followers receive in return. To better understand this type of soul think of a vampire who sucks away some of the vitality of its victim, but not enough to endanger it. In return the victim is intoxicated and filled with love and affection for the vampire. This is the classic master/teacher/savior scenario. When the followers are gone this soul reduces to a shell of what it once was. It still exists but is powerless to do anything.

The vampire as a predator. This soul or entity sustains its permanently activated etheric body by simply taking the vital energy of its victims forcefully without any type of agreement or exchange. Because of this it often dangerously drains the energy of its victims to the point of physical death or weakness. In various world traditions these are the demons that are often reptilian in form. For those foolish enough to barter with them, the price is always the sacrifice of someone or something’s vital life force energy. These vampires think and believe that they are superior to the human race and that the humans are simply cattle to be slaughtered.

Lastly you have those members of the Great White Brotherhood that have the ability to permanently activate their etheric bodies. These etheric bodies are sustained through solar energy from both the sun and the stars. Only a few of the members of the Great White Brotherhood have the ability to function on the etheric planes with fully activated etheric bodies. Most remain in the higher levels which are also sustained by their link to the sun and spiritual light.

I’ve mentioned some of this previously in other posts. But things have now changed with the new energy dynamics of the new world which we live in. Of the above three classes of souls, there were no physical bodies before that were being born which were refined enough for them to use as physical vehicles for their souls. There were simply not enough physical bodies being born to go around! And we currently have over seven billion humans on this planet!

With Gaia’s ascension and the New Age or New Eon energy dynamics babies are now being born that can act as hosts for all these gods and goddesses that finally once more have an opportunity to experience physical life, but this time not only as humans, but also as animals and life forms of other species. I know that my dog Valentine has a soul that is highly advanced and refined. I suspect it may have also been human as well. But this works both ways and many higher animals souls are now incarnating into human bodies for the first time. Soon we will find that many animals will have as much or a higher wisdom than humans and humanity will descend to become more animalistic than it has been as more animal souls are incarnated into human bodies. Many animals will have human souls! We are indeed in for a magickal time of it.

Woman, Dress, Gothic, Ritual, Witch, Fantasy, Magic

Since the last few posts have been about non-physical beings It figures that I should include the Great White Brotherhood as well since I am one! In a way its complex and in a way its quite simple. The Great White Brotherhood exists above the Great Abyss. It exists in the spiritual energies above logic and reason. These energies are archetypal reality or self-evident truth and Unity. Unity is the level of hydrogen and Spiritual light; Archetypal reality is the level of helium and where things take their most simple black and white forms.

Members of the Great White Brotherhood are Solar beings and draw their energy from the sun itself which consists of hydrogen that is becoming helium through atomic fusion which gives off light or photon energy. At least a portion of their awareness is permanently located and active above the Great Abyss. My personal experience with the Rosicrucian Master in my living room early in my Rosicrucian Studies convinced me that these masters or light beings may or may not have physical bodies. The Rosicrucian Master that appeared to me in my living room was German author Hanns Heinz Ewers whom I translate. Since he died in 1943 that is proof for me that these brothers and sisters of light do not require physical bodies any more. Each one of you need to find your own proof. Even though I function at the etheric levels a part of my own consciousness is constantly aware of these brothers and sisters looking down from the Great Abyss as if it were an upper balcony in a concert hall or something. I am a member of the Great White Brotherhood by virtue of my ability to exist in full awareness above the Great Abyss where I am free to mingle with my brothers and sisters.

Their non-physical bodies are created of the noble gas helium and permanently activated. They may have more astral bodies that have been permanently activated like I do, but what makes them a member of the Great White Brotherhood is that their helium body is permanently activated!

Occult and metaphysical tradition recognize a gathering place above the great abyss where these souls join together to form the Great White Brotherhood. It includes souls with physical bodies and those without physical bodies. This gathering of souls of the Great White Brotherhood has always existed above the Great Abyss, and is the great spiritual temple which might or might not be represented on the earthly plane with a physical organization. But it consists of those who have ascended through earthly lifetimes and lived in physical human bodies.

It is said that there is no doorway or entrance to this great gathering chamber. No tradition, order or master can grant admission to anyone else. It must be earned and it must be personal. It must be individual. Any soul and awareness that can find its way there belongs and is a member of the Great White Brotherhood simply by virtue of being there! No one can deny those souls who have the ability to be there.

It is also said that any soul that is a member of the Great White Brotherhood may start a new tradition of their own or remain in the tradition of their choice. So there are several traditions that are part of the Great White Brotherhood which may ultimately lead to membership in the Great White Brotherhood if the student becomes worthy enough to make it across the Great Abyss. There are also great souls that belong to no tradition who have made it across the Great Abyss on their own. Ultimately anyone that makes it across the Great Abyss does it on their own. It cannot be taught or granted.

The founders of all the world’s great religions or spiritual traditions are members of the Great White Brotherhood and have crossed the Great Abyss. They have brought back teachings and knowledge to share and help others on their own spiritual paths.

In my studies of various traditions I have seen these brothers and sisters within or associated with Freemasony, Rosicrucianism, Martinism, OTO, Buddhism, and even New Orleans Voodoo to mention a few. Recent encounters are with Aurum Solis and OBOD. That does not mean that all members of these organizations are members of the Great White Brotherhood! What is means is that members of the Great White Brotherhood are somehow involved in the workings and teachings of each tradition. The Great White Brotherhood itself has no teachings or traditions. It is simply a gathering in Unity of all souls living and dead that have made the journey across the Great Abyss and found their new home among brothers and sister of all faiths, traditions and paths!

Haunted House, House, Haunted, Halloween, Dead, Death

In the last two posts I’ve talked about things that I actually experienced while wide awake. The unseen is far more than that though and I will share some more things that I have experienced that happened while I was sleeping and this includes visions and lucid dreams as well as encounters with non-physical entities of various types.

As I became more sensitive to my dreaming and tried to remember them something truly magickal happened. A point was reached when I would dream about anything that was a critical event in my life before it happened. I will give an example. One night while I was working as an over the road truck driver I dreamed of a car suddenly swerving right in front of me and in my dream I violently turned the wheel of my car hauler rig (I could haul ten cars at one time on it) toward the ditch and narrowly avoided an accident. The next day I was driving the interstate around Chicago when a car sharply turned in front of me as in my dream. It sharply took the exit and was gone. I was still shaken by that experience when another car abruptly swerved in front of me and then hit its brakes! I was forced to violently turn my truck onto the shoulder of the highway to avoid running the vehicle over and nearly tipped my semi tractor over!

This is what I think happened. I was driving in the slow lane of the main interstate highway around Chicago. I was just about to pass an exit that the first car needed to take. In panic the first car swerved in front of me and took the exit. But there must have been a second car that was following the first car for directions. Because that second car not only swerved into the lane directly in front of me, but then stopped abruptly as if wondering where the first car had gone! It was the second car that I had to violently turn the wheel to the right for because that was the car that forced me off the road to avoid a collision!

Years later I would even dream about and critical good things before they happened to me. This is no longer speculation or open for debate. It is simply how I live!

There were other kinds of dreams as well. Sometimes I would encounter entities that were very real and not my imagination. There are several ways that I knew they were real. One was in dream encounters where I would certainly experience a flash of fear at encountering them suddenly. That flash of fear did not mean there was any danger. What it meant was an encounter with energy that was alien to my own. It was not me! Other indicators of dream encounters included symbolism that was not my own. For example, if I ever dream of someone using a cell phone or calling me on a cell phone I know that it is not my dream energy because cell phones are not and never have been anything I ever dream about. I barely know how to use one!

I could fill a book about dreams and dream encounters but finish by saying that I have experienced thousands of dream encounters with people or entities that are or were extremely powerful on the lower planes. Some of them were neutral to me and just showed up, while others stared me in the face taking a good hard look along with a clash of wills before leaving. Not all of those were human! With a few notable exceptions the truly powerful ones avoided open conflict with me. I will share the stories of two that ended in open conflict.

Shortly after I had crossed the Great Abyss back in 1991 I had regained my connection to the earth and was struggling through the healing process before my soulmate cycles actually began. I had an incredibly vivid dream of Aleister Crowley motioning that I was to open and read a large book that was lying on a marble pedestal. I remember grabbing the large book covers with both hands and opening it up. My hands were stuck to the pages. Crowley began to cackle and said that if I ever broke my connection with the book or let go of it I would die. I screamed “No!” And slammed the book shut. Immediately I felt that my astral cord that connected me to my physical body had caught on fire and was being destroyed from the ground up. In panic I kept rising on the planes until my awareness was once more above the Great Abyss where I sought safety and shelter in a little bubble of light that surrounded me. My astral cord had been severed and that is what brought about the beginning of my soulmate cycles because each soulmate offered to ground me back to the earth with the energy that they shared. This also led to my open energetic conflict with the OTO and the Holy Kabbalah which has long since been taken care of. The Holy Kabbalah no longer functions as it once did.

The second vivid dream of violent and serious conflict began as a vision of several police cars with flashing lights driving down a dusty country road to some kind of compound. Then the dream shifted and I was in a room and a man was attacking me with a knife. We were both naked. This period of my life had been filled with dreams of magickal conflict, often two or three a night. But this was different. I felt like I was fighting for my life and when my knife finally plunged into the chest of my opponent he didn’t disappear like my opponents normally did. He sagged against the wall and then to the floor with my knife still in him and blood running down his chest. It was like a nightmare and I woke up in terror. The next day after I had been awake for some time I heard on the news that the police had seized the Branch Dravidian Compound in Texas and that its leader David Karesh had committed suicide! For some reason I still feel and believe that it was David Karesh that I was fighting that night. This magickal stuff was no longer simple fun!

Der Orchideengarten Vol 1 No 9 was first published in the German language in 1919 and this is the first English translation of this historical fantasy magazine. It includes the original art and stories. Der Orchideengarten was the worlds first fantasy magazine. This issue contains the stories and poems: The Diary of Dr. Hederson by Horst H. Wehner; The Holy Pillar by S. von Vegesack; Of the Man Krapp by Emil Lucka; The White Flute by Erich Mosse. Translation is by Joe E. Bandel; editing and layout is by John Hirschhorn-Smith.

Finally got this issue out and only one story left on the next issue so they are coming! Slow but sure.

Fear, Scary, Creepy, Evil, Ghost, Darkness, Gloomy

In my last post I talked about some personal experiences that I had while in the normal waking state that possibly included paranormal consciousness at the same time. In this post I will speak of some personal experiences while in a wide awake state while meditating or projecting my awareness as opposed to the dream state or lucid dreaming. These would be a range of experiences on the astral/etheric planes while meditating or projecting consciously.

The ultimate purpose of these posts is to show that this path has been known and taught by various traditions for thousands of years. There is nothing new here, but not very many have traveled this path. It is known but not well traveled. It begins with crossing the Great Abyss which happened to me back in 1991. I’ve already written quite a bit about this, but the main point is there are a couple types of awareness beyond that of logic and reason. The first is archetypal awareness or intuitive awareness or self-evident awareness. At this level you simply know things and become aware of things through personal illuminations. An even higher level of consciousness is that of Unity consciousness or Cosmic Awareness where the individual merges and blends with all that is. Where all becomes One and I call that the level of the photon or light itself.

The point is that once you have crossed the Great Abyss nothing can really hurt you or your soul. You always have that place of safety where awareness can go where it cannot be harmed in any way even if the lower levels are destroyed. So once I crossed the Great Abyss and had permanently activated three or four astral bodies I did lots of stupid stuff just because I could get away with it.

Through projection I would astrally explore the egregores of various magickal and spiritual traditions with impunity. I could get through the defenses by being above the Abyss. I explored the egregore of the Golden Dawn and discovered that it granted the Golden Armor of God as individuals progressed through it. As I astrally explored I too was granted that golden armor. The Arum Solis granted a different type of armor that had scales like those of a dragon. The egregore of Crowley’s OTO was two rectangular columns side by side, one black and one white. These two columns extended from the lowest levels to the highest levels. There was no mixing them, no gray. I explored every egregore that I could think of.

Something interesting happened in that once I had gone through an egregore it marked my astral self permanently. Going through a second or third time did nothing at all. But later, after I had permanently activated another astral body I could take that astral body through the egregore and pick up new material from the lower level. Nothing from the higher levels.

I would check out various individuals as well, and every now and then someone would sense my probe and I would have a full blown magickal attack on my hands. I told you that I did stupid stuff! Most of the time there was no reaction to my probe.

A lady that owned a resort said that it was haunted and wanted me to get rid of the ghosts for her. I said that I would check it out. In checking out the resort I sensed there were two different Native American spirits that haunted the place and didn’t want to leave. I decided to absorb them into my own body. That night I had one of the most vivid and powerful dreams of my life of a ghostly barren landscape of rock and trees without leaves. I was kind of crouched behind a bare bush and the spirit of an Indian went walking past me without seeing me. One hand was shading his eyes and he was searching, searching for something. Searching for home I suppose. It was an eerie, creepy feeling that gave fear at the tailbone. Almost immediately after that another Indian mounted on a white horse rode by and he didn’t see me either. I still remember that ghostly landscape and those two Indians. The lady later reported that the ghosts had returned but were not causing problems like they had been before.

Another story, I was doing crisis counseling work for families and there was a boy that was having a lot of trouble. I decided to investigate astrally and discovered that there was an entity attached to the boy. Once more stupidly I decided to get rid of the thing by absorbing it. That night I learned the true story and it was quite unpleasant. The best friend of this boy that I was trying to help had committed suicide in the home of the boy I was trying to help. He was the one who had found his friend hanging in the bathroom. Anyone that deals with ghosts soon learns that they often have to relive to death experience of the ghost and that is what happened to me. It was an accidental death. The boy had been “playing the game” where one masturbates while being choked to enhance the orgasm and he had blacked out too soon. His ghost or spirit had attached itself to his friend and turned malignant. Of course I couldn’t share that with the family, but the ghost was gone.

When my mother died we all knew in advance that she was going to die and there was a death watch so she wouldn’t die alone. I went home and that morning I suddenly felt that something was wrong. I sat down and meditated or projected to my mother. She was afraid and I held her hand to reassure her as I called in some light beings to help. These light beings came and she went peacefully with them, unafraid. I told my wife that my mother had died and that she was all right. I got in the car and was two miles down the road when my cell phone went off. My mother had just died at the very time that I had been with her! It still makes me feel good to know that I was there for her when she needed me.

Spirit, Creepy, Halloween, Ghost, Spooky, Weird, Ghosts

It seems time to bring up this subject and it will take more than one post to do it justice. In this post I will only speak of personal experiences that I have had that do not involve lucid dreaming or things while I was asleep. I will share things that I personally experienced while in the waking state even if they might seem subjective. There will be no conclusion and no answers because I may never have answers to some of these experiences.

The first experience to share is related to Rosicrucianism and my connection to the Great White Brotherhood. During my early Rosicrucian studies with AMORC there were several self initiations to mark passage through the different degrees or stages of study. During one of these self initiations a master appeared in my living room and floated about three feet above the floor. He was dressed in a ceremonial robe and was sitting cross legged. He remained there for around a half hour not saying anything but being present. I walked completely around him and observed from every direction. It seemed that I was seeing him with my third eye and not my physical eyes. But it was very real and vivid and there was a lot of energy involved.

Later in another incident this same master introduced me to a group of people that were in the hierarchy. They were above the Great Abyss and part of the Great White Brotherhood. I could understand them but they couldn’t understand me. I still have this connection with these individuals and can tap into them at will. I am one of them. I have earned my place with them. I can sense this connection with these individuals at all times during normal waking hours.

Now for the darker side of things. I was at a house party with a girl friend and we were sitting in the living room during Thanksgiving weekend. There was a blazing fire in the fireplace and about twenty people. Two girls in front of us were drinking rum and using an Ouija board. I was not impressed because I thought it was a stupid thing to be doing. Suddenly the fire flared up as if someone had poured gasoline on it and my friend fell into convulsions shaking in her chair. She was terrified and when I asked her what was wrong she said it felt like she couldn’t breathe. Like she was underwater. Then she said it felt like there was someone inside her. I instantly knew that some type of spirit had taken possession of her and that I needed to help that spirit into the light.

I talked her through the process and helped her to remain calm until the spirit left and entered into the light. In the meantime others in the house were freaking out and watching us. Later we found out that five years earlier a twelve year old boy had fallen through the ice of a pond in the winter and they had not found the body until that spring. It was that boy’s spirit that had come into my friend’s body.

When my wife’s mother was on her death bed her siblings were doing a death watch at the bedside. We traveled two hundred miles to be there and were staying at the apartment of a friend when my wife suddenly went into a seizure and couldn’t move. I asked her what was wrong and she said that her mother was trying to take over her body. Then she said she needed to use the rest room and as I helped her down the hall she was limping like her mother and one side of her face was drooping like her mother’s did after her stroke. Not knowing what else to do I poured my own energy into my wife and tried to fill her with my energy driving out that of her mother. It worked although she still was not able to move on her own and I called an ambulance. The ambulance came and took her to the same hospital where her mother was dying on a different floor. In the meantime my wife had come back to her normal self and was very angry and kept saying that she was alright and there was nothing wrong with her. I advised her to just rest and be patient because she had been brought to the hospital. They could find nothing wrong with her.

In her anger, she took her cell phone and called her sister who was upstairs at the death bed and shouted for her sister to come down and get her out of there because I wouldn’t. As she was yelling at her sister her mother died right in front of her sister.

Things must run in her family because when her father died we were both in the hospital room at the same time. It was the only time I had ever been in a room when someone died. Suddenly I felt her father’s spirit trying to enter into my body and take it over! I was both frightened and angry and just held it at a distance. The spirit was frightened and that was why it wanted into my body. I called out for some angels or light beings to come and help him. These light beings came and took him away peacefully. But it gave me a fright. It was quite unpleasant.

On a totally unrelated note I remember walking along and someone said out loud: “He dares much!” and another voice hushed the first. I heard the voice as if someone was speaking right next to me but there was no one there.

Another sharing comes from one of my soul mate cycles. She had just left and was driving back to the cities where she lived two hundred miles away. She had been visiting my parents and was a friend of the family. I was laying on my bed when suddenly each chakra popped like a flash bulb and my awareness split with part of me still lying in bed and the other part pulled out of my body in an OOBE. But this was a strange OOBE. There was a two inch thick astral cord coming out of the top of my head and that cord was pulling me into the air and behind her car as it went down the road. It was pulling my astral body behind it like a giant balloon! There was no cord attached to my physical body! Then my astral body went into her and down into the earth and then returned through the earth to where my physical body lay in bed.

One final sharing involves the use of an electromagnet that I created to polarize my aura. I created this electromagnet from a large coil of the wire used in electrical house wiring. This wire was wrapped around two large iron bolts that were both around the size of a small basketball. It was set up with a rectifier and when plugged into the house electrical outlet created a strong pulsating direct current with a distinct 60 cycle hum. I placed one of the electromagnets at my feet in the south pole position and one at my head in the north pole position. I could only turn the magnets on for a minute at a time because they became too warm. After one of these treatments I lay down on my bed and suddenly had an OOBE in which my awareness again split with one part remaining in my body and the other turned like a compass needle orienting to the north. But first it wobbled back and forth before settling in its new position. I was laying in the bed with my head to the east at the time.

I share these experiences because they happened while I was wide awake at the time they occurred. They were not visions, meditations or lucid dreams. I will speak of those next.

Fuchs, Animal, Forest, Wild Animal, Animal Portrait

2020 was a very difficult year for me as I’ve shared previously. In February I lost my father, in May I lost both my wife and my dog and in December I lost my job and retired. That left me with a lot of emptiness, an emptiness that I didn’t know how to fill and because of that emptiness I didn’t get much done.

Three weeks ago I got a new puppy named Valentine. She was born in February and is not yet 4 months old. She completely fills up most of that emptiness right now! I have my hands full and I also have energy to do things once more! She brings me that energy and shares it with me as I share my own energy with her by taking her places and doing things with her. She is a precious gift that will help me to move forward through the remaining years of my life time.

In retrospect it is pretty simple. People, animals and things come into our lives and bring us energy and in return we give our own energy to them. It is the combined result that makes our lives rich and interesting. But there are limits to what we can give and limits to what others can give us. That doesn’t mean that we run out of energy or that others run out of energy. It only means that the catalytic effect is gone and what we can achieve from that point on with that person, animal or thing is quite limited. What they can achieve with us is quite limited as well. In romantic relationships this is when the spark is gone. Many people stay together in meaningful and loving relationships after the spark is gone, but they have shifted their priorities to other things. It is one of the normal stages in a relationship.

This spring a new energy is coming in and we can look to see where and from whom it is coming from. Many of us are creating new energetic connections and those new energetic connections will change our lives! It is more important now than ever to become aware of those things we are attracted to and move toward them, following our own personal inner guidance even when it goes against the norm.

But the entire point of this post is to share that there will always be limits to what can be done and there will always be new sources of energy and interest if we allow them into our lives! Life itself requires motion, growth, excitement and a reason to be alive!